A/N: I don't own this, we all know who does. If I did, Rpattz would be talking me into my pajamas right now. It's late...he likes to go to bed. :D
This is unbeta'd, so any and all mistakes belong to me. Please send all notifications to my "I'll get right on that after I finish everything else on my to do list, and then take a nap" email account. :) Sarcasm, people. :D
This is for my wifey, Mrs. Robward. Her house is haunted. She hears noises and sees things. It makes me want to drive to where she lives, pack her up, and move her to my house. Well, that's not the only reason I'd do that. :D
Thanks to Luxure & EdwardsBloodType for prereading this. They've assured me that this story is not crap, that they actually love it. I hope they were telling me the truth... :)
**disclaimer **
This story is a bit taboo. Little jump in time, not much. Just Prom to June. :)
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… Chapter Thirteen - Heart Beats … Bella …
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It's summer again. Comfort is a thing long forgotten. I can never get comfortable. I'm like a planet, huge, swollen with your child.
You don't know, you believed my lies.
He did too. He rubs his hands over my belly, anxious for the child within me.
I pray every night that it looks like me.
But I know it won't. And he'll know.
So will you.
You tried to see me, to reach me, a few times after the end. I couldn't give in. It was for the best, me pushing you away.
You need better than me.
She's better for you, easier for your life.
I hear your mother talk about how wonderful she is with you, how your mom imagines brown eyed grand babies from my Leah.
If only she knew.
She already has a grand baby on the way. But she'll never know. Not if I can help it.
After graduation, you found me in the kitchen of the church graduation party. Pinned me against the counter as your lips trailed wet kisses along my neck.
"Baby, please, take me back," you begged. Sorrow, anguish in your voice. So tempting, I nearly did.
I had to run before you could see my tears. Before I could crumble, give in.
You left with her soon after, and I watched from my hiding place.
I couldn't help it, I followed you.
To the lake.
I watched you pull her into the back seat, your shadows through the steamed up windows.
I remembered, yearned for what it was like. Being with you like that, your arms around me, your lips on me. You inside of me...
Tears overwhelmed me, wouldn't be denied any longer.
You'll be 19 soon, heading off to college. Leah has cried over it, fearful that she'll lose you.
It killed me to tell her that you'll wait for her, that it will only be a year until she can join you.
Will you want her? Will you be with her forever if I'm not an option?
Will you love her? I want that for her, but from you? I don't know.
I miss so you much. It's wrong, and I can't stop.
Our baby squirms within me, I feel it nudging. It's like the baby knows when I think about you. It always kicks, moves with determination.
It knows you already. It knows you by the beat of my heart.
How my heart only beats for you.
Always.
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A/N: I love this Edward. He makes me squishy inside.
Next chapter later today. I'm gonna post 4 today. Most of you said you'd rather have 3 or 4 chapters than replies to your reviews, so that's the plan. If I CAN do replies, I will. I still have about 200-250 to do as of this moment, so no promises. But never say never.
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