A/N: I don't own this, we all know who does. If I did, Rpattz would be cleaning up the lego's that are all over my living room floor. Glad they entertain the kids, hate that they can't seem to stay in their boxes. :D And he'd be singing Happy Birthday to Gabbysway2! Hope you like the angst we got going today. :) Just think, it leads to happier things tomorrow! :D Maybe... :D

This is unbeta'd, so any and all mistakes belong to me. I'm hungry. Must be breakfast time... :D

This is for my wifey, Mrs. Robward. I haven't talked to her yet today. I feel like my day's not quite good yet. :)

Thanks to Luxure & EdwardsBloodType for prereading this. "You complete me... Shut up! You had me at hello...you had me at hello." Not my favorite movie, or my favorite part of that quote, but it works. And I mean it. :)

**disclaimer **

This story is a bit taboo. And I know how you love the angst. :)

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… Chapter Twenty Two - Hate … Edward …

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I leave class, heading back to my dorm. The walk is long, but the sun is out. Shining. Spring is here, and I don't need my wool jacket today.

There's someone slumped in front of my door. I pause, trying to see who it is.

Leah.

She looks up at me, smiling. Her eyes are tired, dark circles under them.

As she approaches me, I can see she's been crying.

"I'm sorry, I didn't have anywhere else to go."

"What's wrong?" I ask, letting her wrap her arms around me.

"My mom, she cheated on my dad. He kicked her out."

Her cries begin, her body shaking against me.

I'm sad for her, for this broken girl I'm holding. Yet my thoughts are only on you.

Where are you? Are you safe? What happened to finally make him do this?

"How did you get here?" I ask.

"The bus, I bought a ticket. He made her leave everyone at home, all the kids. He wouldn't let her take any of us, just the baby. He said he couldn't stand to look at someone else's child anymore. How could she do this? I don't understand."

But I do. I forced you into it. I wouldn't stop, even when you begged me, pleaded. I wanted you too much, and I couldn't let it go.

This is my fault.

I'll forever be haunted by what I did to you. How I ruined your life.

This isn't what I wanted for you. For us.

I wanted happiness, goodness, love. None of that is what either of us have.

I take her into my room, let her sit on my bed. She cries for a while, clutching my pillow in her hands. I leave, get us food, wonder if she should call home, if he'll be worried.

I wonder where you are. I try your cell, but the number's been disconnected.

How can I get information from her without seeming too obvious?

We eat dinner in silence, before I finally ask how long she'll stay, when she has to go. If he knows she's here.

It's a Thursday, she'll go back on Sunday. As usual, I'm glad my roommate goes home so often. His bed is vacant, not that Leah will sleep there. She'll sleep with me, on my little bed.

During the night I feel her rubbing against me. She's naked, touching me and begging for me to touch her. I do.

She's the only part of you that's left now.

She told me she doesn't know where you went, but she doesn't care. She hates you.

I wish I could hate you.

I just pray that you don't hate me.

Hate me for making this happen to you.

Hate me for sinking my dick into your daughter that I don't love enough.

Hate me for being a jealous prick over you and my father.

Hate me because as much as I want you, as I still love you, I can't chase you anymore.

Hate me because I'm giving up.

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A/N: I'll post 2 more chapters today. I think I'll try with reviews to answer questions that you might ask. I don't know that I'll get every thing replied to. I have like over 600 reviews that I haven't even attempted to reply to yet. Maybe 700. You guys have completely overwhelmed me and filled my heart with your sweet words. I'm so thankful... :)

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