A/N: I don't own this, we all know who does. If I did, Rpattz would be watching Reba with me and laughing at the silly boxing women. :D Barbara Jean was so funny on that show. :D

This is unbeta'd, so any and all mistakes belong to me. I need more sleep. 4 hours is not enough.

This is for my wifey, Mrs. Robward. She says things like "Y'all" just to tease me. She knows how much I love that...

Thanks to Luxure & EdwardsBloodType for prereading this. "Pretty woman, walking down the street, Pretty woman, the kind I like to meet, Pretty woman...I don't believe you, you're not the truth, No one could look as good as you...Mercy..." :D

**disclaimer **

This story is a bit taboo. Moving on...

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… Chapter Forty Five - Happy … Bella …

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Nearly one month later...

Mrs. Cope is sad to see us go, but we've promised to visit. She's the only grandma Claire's ever known.

She's coming for dinner tomorrow night.

Your apartment is huge, like three times the size of the one Claire and I have been in. She runs and runs, from room to room, up and down the hall.

She loves it.

She also loves the small patio and yard in the back, with grass and a tree, even.

You've promised her a swing, and she talks about it non stop.

A bike, too. She never had one before, it just wasn't feasible to carry up and down two flights of stairs.

I giggle when she starts talking about puppies.

You're so wrapped around her finger, I worry. She'll be spoiled soon enough.

But you love it.

Things aren't perfect between us, I know that. But you and I, we've both promised to try. And that this is it. There's no backing out.

Not ever.

As I unpack more of my books into the office, I can't believe it's been almost a month since you came back to me. Since you found me.

I agreed to work one more month, until Marcus can train the new girl. Heidi is sweet, but she's young. Naïve. She'll do fine, there are good people working there.

Mrs. Cope has babysat a few times, while you've taken me to work. Funny, it was always on my night off. And the only "work" I did was for you in a private room.

Felix laughed, he's never seen me so happy. He likes it, encourages it.

I threaten him that if he's secretly recording our "sessions" I'll give him up to Kate. He likes her. A lot. Too bad he doesn't realize she feels the same way.

We're getting to know each other again.

You and I.

You and Claire are like two peas in a pod. It warms my heart, seeing you together. You're perfectly matched. And she loves you.

I know you adore her, and I wonder how serious you were about other children. We talked about it before, but I'm starting to worry.

I'm six days late.

I mentioned the no birth control thing to you. I hadn't needed it, so why would I be on it?

You said to leave it in fate's hands. You'd be happy, content either way.

So I am.

And I'm late.

I think next week I'll buy a pregnancy test.

I haven't bought one of those since Claire...so long ago.

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A/N: For those of you worried, women have babies well into their 40's now days. Also, you can go to school while pregnant, with a baby, or with small children at home. There are options, things like night classes, online courses, weekend classes. Trust me, I did it, and so did lots of other girls that I went to school with. Several of my friends got married, pregnant, had babies, and then got pregnant again within the 3 or 4 years we were in school together. It's doable. Plus, with Edward there helping her, I don't think Bella's gonna have any problem. :)

The chapters from here on out are getting a bit longer, I think. Plus we're nearing the end. There's a very faint, dim light at the end of this dark and angsty tunnel. :)

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