BPOV
A few days after my incident, I was finally enjoying some peace and quiet in my private hospital room. I hadn't been alone since my incident, someone was always with me, most of the time it was Edward and I during the day, I actually like this time, we got to talk and get to know each other, we talked just like we did when we were writing each other, we got to make plans for our future. He was excited to see the house in Jacksonville, even though he had a pretty big town house in Miami. He talked about all the places he wanted to take me, and the things we were going to do together. I loved spending time with Esme and Rose who would come by later in the afternoons, Edward and Emmett would go off and do whatever it was they were doing, and Carlisle, well I got to see him a few times when he would come and sit with me because everyone else was busy, being alone with him was kind of awkward, not uncomfortable, he didn't scare or intimidate me, but he was so fatherly towards me that it was just awkward to be around him sometimes. It made me wonder about my real father, and what he was like.
Carlisle had just left after getting a call on his cell phone, he said there were people right outside my door, no one would bother me and I should get some rest, I would be getting out of the hospital tomorrow.
After he walked out the door, I flipped on the tv, I laughed when I saw that the news was still covering the shattering of States attorney Cheney's son's reputation, about how Ben had been shipped off to rehab for his problems. And now everyone was wondering if Attorney Cheney would consider going for reelection. I smiled cause I knew that Edward had done that, for me. I should feel bad for Ben Lauren and Jessica, that their lives and their families had been ruined, but I didn't they focused for so long and making my life a living hell, now they got to see how the other side lived. The old Bella would have just let it be would have cowered away, but the new Bella, the one that was constantly being built up by the man she loved rolled her eyes arched her best bitch brow and said "well, my man told you to leave me the hell alone, that's what happens when you don't listen to fast Eddie"
I turned the tv off and had started to read a book, I knew soon it would be time for the nurses to come in and change my dressings and that would require pain meds and those things made me loopy as all get out, so I should enjoy being lucid for as long as I could.
My eyes drifted away from Fredo and his family I was reading one of Edward's favorites The Godfather and looked down at the small scars on my arms. The way the doctor had to go in a repair the dislocation and fracture of my arm, while it wouldn't need a cast, required a pretty extensive surgery, the cuts were small, and the plastic surgeon who came to look at me said they would heal very nicely and probably would leave a hardly visible scar. I was just glad I wouldn't spend the summer in a cast because according to Rose, we spend a lot of time on the beach and in a cast that you're not allowed to get wet, total mood killer.
"Hey sweetie, wow did you really have two minutes alone?" Rose asked walking in with a bag from the diner up the street.
"I know, it was actually pretty weird for me, Carlisle was here earlier, but he left after he got a call, so I just been reading and relaxing, sorry you gotta be on Bella babysitting duty" I laughed.
"I actually like hanging out with you, believe it or not, and from what I hear, we get to spring you from the clink tomorrow, are you glad to be getting the hell out of here?"
"Yeah, I'm getting excited to go to Florida, Edward said he is taking me to a car race next weekend" I said with a small smile.
"Taking you to the race? He fucking drives in those races, did he mention that?" she asked getting excited
"Wait what?" was my brilliant reply.
"Emmett and Edward, they drive in the street races, did you ever wonder why they call him fast Eddie? Emmett too, they're actually pretty good, the races are a blast, amazing music, some pretty fantastic fucking cars, the chance to look completely hot and be on Edward's arm, he has never taken a girl to the races before, he just left with them. Oh my god this is going to be fucking epic, wait until we get to south beach, we are going to have you looking beach fucking hot" she rattled on and she was starting to get squeaky and giddy, which is something I had never seen from Rose so this had to be huge. I was actually starting to get excited.
"I still have some packing at my apartment to do, I'm just ready to be done with Arizona" I said.
"Soon, and your new life in in Florida with Edward will be fucking amazing, I can't wait for you to meet Alice, she is gonna love you" Rose said.
We spent the rest of the afternoon just chatting, Rose told me about the races, and the after parties, Edward was somewhat of a legend in the underground racing scene, in my mind he drove just the way he loved. Fast and hard. I couldn't wait to see him in his element, in his environment.
I didn't see Edward the rest of the day; in fact when I work up the morning of my release from the hospital and Edward wasn't there I was starting to worry. Esme breezed into the room with a bag from Victoria Secret. I arched my brow at her, forgetting they had the Pink Lounge wear line.
"uhh you bought me underwear to go home in, not sure how your son would feel about that" I said with a laugh.
"Funny, and I'm sure my son would be stunned too stupid to say or do much of anything more than stare at your ass, but no I bought you some comfy clothes to wear to travel" Esme said as she opened the designer luggage she had purchased to bring my books and clothes back and forth.
"Umm travel? Where am I traveling to?" I asked.
"Florida silly, I went and packed the last of the things you requested and I figured you would fly home with Rose and I, Edward had a few work things to handle, they will meet us at the air strip, Are you ready?" she asked with a smile.
"I have never been more ready for anything, I'm so excited" I said as I threw off the hospital covers. The stitches had been removed late last night and replaced with the steri strips and ace bandage, I'd moved from the narcotic pain killers to ibuprofen and with some food and rest. I felt like a million bucks.
The nurses came in removed my iv's and wished me well and I was off. I did have Esme stop so I could take one last look at my empty apartment. I wasn't sad to be leaving; I was excited to be beginning a new chapter in my life. I was happy to be moving forward with Edward and this new family. Nervous was an understatement, but I was excited too.
"What's got you so fidgety?" Esme asked with a knowing smile as the Limo pulled away from the hospital.
"I miss Edward, and I'm excited to go to Florida, I just know my life has changed for the better" I said
"You don't know what you've done for my son. Watching the two of you together has given me and Carlisle such joy, we have worried about Edward for such a long time. You have alleviated so many worries, so you kinda have a special place with me and my husband" she said taking my hand.
"You have no clue what you have all done for me, I felt so alone since I lost my mom, like I have to do everything for myself and not count on anyone, it's just nice to know I have someone who has my best interest at heart, when Edward told me about what Phil had done, I was so devastated not cause of what he did, but more of dam who do I have now?" I confessed.
The limo had pulled into the smaller private airport. We were ushered from the back of the car and onto the plane. Esme spoke quietly with the flight attendants and they bought us both bottles of water and a few snacks. Soon after they disappeared the engine of the plane roared to life. Esme turned to me to continue our conversation.
"You have a family you know, have us, all of us. Alice is driving Jasper crazy ready for you and Rose to come back so she has her friend. We are thick as thieves and we protect each other to the bitter end. You will never be alone and someone will always take care of your best interest. You have a mother in me and a father in my husband and two overprotective big brothers in Emmett and Jasper, Edward, he is just smitten and in love. Things are looking up for all of us, but Bella it's not all sunshine and Roses. The press in Florida lives for the gossip about our family, and you my dear are about to be the new piece of meat. They are going to put you under a microscope, they are going to want to know everything, an deep dark secrets, anything in your past and now that you're with Edward, most eligible bachelor and mob prince. I just want you to be prepared for a hornet's nest" She warned with concern in her eyes.
"Esme, I could care less about that, I mean what could they find? I was a poor college student with no family before I met Edward, I met him because I wrote him a letter, there are no exciting skeletons in my past; no Kim Kardashian type sex tapes, they will find nothing and move on. I told Edward I was always gonna be strong for him, I won't break my promise. Ever, nothing he could ever do would make me walk away" I said firmly
Esme smiled a bright smile. "You are gonna do just fine, now before we land, I want you to change, first thing I can tell you is that wherever the Cullen's are, so are the cameras. The days of running down to the coffee shop in your pj pants and a messy ponytail are over, they feed on things like that, although I could care less, I do what I want, but the things they will write and say, are hard at first, when your skin isn't thickened by time. I told Rosalie and Alice, you know who you are, as a family we know who you are so don't let it bother you but, I know it will bother you and it will hurt you, at least at first"
"I dealt with Frick Frack and Judy, trust me, the things they said to me and about me were about as horrible as you can imagine, but I survived, and to me I got the better end of the deal. I got Edward, I got a family, so who cares, sticks and stones and all that" I shrugged my shoulders.
"See, I knew you were made for my son, this is gonna be amazing. Just do me a favor, at least try to keep him out of trouble, I know it's an huge mountain of a favor to ask, but if anyone can get through to his stubborn ass, I know you can. My son is a sucker for those eyes of yours, bat your eyelashes and I'm sure he would snatch the moon out of the sky if you wanted him to" Esme chuckled.
"I would do the same for him, he is my knight. I love him" I whispered.
"As he loves you, well if you want to clean up, the shower is in the back bedroom, clothes for you are on the bed. Remember the sunglasses, I'm sure you remember the Florida sun" Esme chuckled and turned to grab a book out of her bag.
The rest of the flight was quiet. I read my book and Esme worked on her lap top. "Mrs. Cullen, we are about fifteen minutes from our descent. Is there anything you or uh-"
"The furture Mrs. Cullen, she is Edward's fiancé, No Tanya we won't need anything else. Thank you for a wonderful flight" Esme said sweetly, but you could tell thee was not an ounce of sweetness behind it, it was condemnation and venom.
Tanya blanched and for a second her eyes narrowed at me and then she huffed.
"I didn't know young Mr. Cullen was seeing anyone. Umm congrats I guess. Have a good rest of your flight" she mumbled and turned on her heel and back to the galley.
"Tramp" Esme muttered under her breath.
"Uhh, what was all that about?" I asked pulling the hair brush out of my purse.
"That whore is what you would call a stage five clinger, my sons, well they were whores, all of them. Edward, had an itch and as much as I hate to tell you this, he screwed that little tramp. She got attached, he only wanted fun. I wanted to fire her, but she threatened sexual harassment, and that is a scandal our family can't afford, so for now we keep her. She thinks some day she will change Edward's mind. But I know she won't , Edward only has eyes for you. I dislike women who use what's between their legs to try to get status. It's disgusting, criminals my boys may be, but they have morals, values and they know what and what not to bring home to me" she said looking at her perfectly manicured nails.
When the plane began it's descent, the strawberry blonde she devil made another appearance to collect the empty bottles and dishes. She looked as if she wanted to say something to me and with my best bitch brow, I dared her to do so. She must be a little smart because whatever was on her mind, she kept to herself.
I got up from the couch and went into the bathroom. I changed into the skinny jeans and a white chiffon sheer sleeveless baby doll top that had blood red roses adorning the shoulder straps and a pair of blood red and white low top Nike's. I brushed out my hair so that it hung in soft curls down my back and put on some light makeup. I looked down at myself and I just loved this outfit, I loved that Rosalie had remembered to give me sneakers. She knew of my loathing of heels. She wore them but under extreme duress or when she was trying to as she put it "Get daddy to pony up the dough" she said her in a mini skirt and heels could get Emmett to do just about anything, and she made no bones about using that. After she said "Desperate times call for desperate measures" I would never have to do that with Edward. I had him wrapped around my finger, although I would never use anything to my advantage.
The plane landed and we started to slow down. I looked out the window, there was a big black SUV on the tarmac, just beyond the gates, there they were; the press. They were snapping pictures of the plane, the old me would have cowered in the corner.
The new me gathered her things in the new Kate Spade bag, covered her eyes in the very expensive aviator lens Dole and Gabanna sunglasses and got reay to face the drama that came with standing beside the man she loved. Yeah I can say with absolute certainty that I loved Edward, and that I would be with him good bad right or wrong.
I didn't even look up as Esme and I exited the plane. I heard people screaming out questions to Esme asking who I was, where was Edward, is it true that Jasper had taken over a telecom company. Esme totally wowed me, she was the epitome of grace and class. She never once acknowledged they were there, she smiled and greeted the driver, whose name was Liam and we made introductions standing outside of the car acting like there weren't a million cameras clicking or people still hollering for Esme behind us.
The second we were in the car, the reporters jumped into their's and began to follow us.
"Do they not remember they won't get past the gate, do these fools ever give up?" Liam growled.
"Well the boys have all been keeping a low profile, so they haven't had anything to write about, so now they have a new face" Esme said giving my hand a squeeze.
"Oh the newest Cullen, welcome to the circus Ms. Bella, you'll find entertainment when the natives get restless" Liam said as he turned onto a long winding road covered by tall Palm trees. I kind of laughed as the gates closed behind us leaving the reporters behind.
"Is it always like this?" I asked.
"No, mostly it's just when Carlisle makes a business deal, or one of the boys gets arrested. So it rarely ever happens"
"Oh, I hope Edward is back, I miss him" I commented.
"He misses you just as much, he has been texting me, asking me where we are, I hear you all have plans tonight?" she commented as the car slowed down. I barely heard the last part of her sentence. I was dumbstruck by the beauty and size of castle styled home.
"Oh my god, this is-" I was cut off.
"I know, I loved this house from the second I saw it. I told Carlisle if he didn't get this house for me I would make him suffer" Esme giggled.
"I love it, I love the size the lay out, this is like every girl's dream house" I gushed.
"I have always loved castles, and when I met Carlisle I knew he was my fairy tale, and every princess deserves a castle" Esme said as we walked past a handful of large men in dark suits. They didn't speak to us, a few of them eyed me curiously and one of them even winked at me. I quickly dropped my eyes and would have thought nothing of it.
"Quil, if you want to keep those pretty eyes of yours, you may want to keep your eyes off of her, you know how Edward gets" Carlisle remarked from the doorway.
"I wasn't-"
"I didn't ask you anything, I simply told you, keep your eyes and thoughts off of things that don't belong to you I won't tell you next time" Carlisle hissed.
"Hello Carlisle, glad we can finally meet under better circumstances" I said smiling brightly to take some of the tension out of the air.
"Well about time Bella, nice to see you up and moving. Welcome to Florida young lady, someone is upstairs waiting for you"
"Wait, what you mean Edward's home? He said he would be busy all day!" I squeaked and fought off the urge to knock Carlisle out of the way. He and Esme were trying to keep themselves from laughing.
"Carl I think you should step aside before she barrels through you and makes you a piece of the floor" Esme snickered wrapping her arms around Carlisle's waist.
"You guys are so mean to me, how would like being separated and being held hostage in a hospital with crap food and an even crappier bed?" I demanded.
Carlisle held up his hands in surrender. "Okay, Okay, note to self, don't get between Bella and Edward. Come on little lady, I'll give you the tour of Camp Cullen"
Carlisle walked me through the ground floor of the palace…it was beautiful old world with all the high tech anything you could ever imagine.
"This is my office, you know where I hide the prostitutes and guns" he said looking completely serious.
"I err-wait what?" I asked my mouth agape.
"I'm kidding, god girl lighten up, I'm not the ruthless fire breathing dragon that everyone paints me to be" he said as we walked up the back stairs.
"Yeah he is, don't let him lie, he pretty fucked up and dirty, but I'm even worse. Jasper Cullen, the best looking one" the tall dirty blonde said. He had ice blue eyes and tattoos covered both his arms.
"I'm Bella, nice to meet you, I've heard so much about you" I said
"All lies, they can't prove nothing" he said with a laugh.
"When caught in a lie deny deny. Welcome home B, how's it going little lady" Emmett said coming around the corning.
"Hey Em, where's Edward?" I said looking around them.
"Yeah, she's in love, she don't even wanna spend time with the better looking brothers" Jasper joked.
"He's in his room, I think he's still sleeping" Emmett said.
"You sure you wanna poke that sleeping bear?" Carlisle asked.
"What do you mean?" I asked
"No one wakes Edward up, that is like the ultimate no no. He hates being woke up" Jasper said.
I bit my lip and then got my game face on. "Wanna bet?" I asked with a devilish smirk.
"Before or after we measure you for your designer body bag?" I turned and saw a dark haired girl with the most beautiful shaped eyes.
"I'm not afraid of Edward" I said throwing my chin up.
"You are even more feisty and awesome than Rosalie gave you credit for, I'm Alice. Jasper's wife. I've heard so much about you" she said gliding over to me and hugging me. I would have flinched once upon a time. But the more I was around Edward and his family, I was geeting use to affection but there was always this undercurrent, I couldn't quite put my finger on it, but it wasn't a bad feeling, just something I had never felt before.
"Thousand bucks says he goes off when you wake him up" Jasper said.
"I want in on this action" Emmett said
"Double my bet, and my money is on Bella" Rosalie said walking out of the kitchen.
"Uhh Rose why were you in the kitchen?" I asked biting my lip.
"I was gonna do like a welcome lunch for you, but then it yeah, the food will be here in twenty minutes, and no I didn't cook it" she spat with a rueful smile on her face.
"Thank god for that" I muttered.
"Shut up before I bet against you, now get your ass upstairs and make me some money" Rose said smacking me on my ass.
"Uhh wow, that sounded all kinds of bad, Emmett helping you work on your pimp hand?" Alice snorted.
"Only you would joke about that bitch" Rose said flicking her in the nose.
"Better than the time I sprayed you with the hose. So bite me barbie" Alice said giving her the one finger salute.
"Girls, do we need to separate the two of you. I thought that part of life was over?" Carlisle asked.
"What am I missing?" I asked
"Oh me and Alice, it took us a little bit to take to one another" Rosalie said nonchalantly.
"Oh I call bullshit, this is the result of them so called taking to one another" Esme said as she took a painting off the wall, there were three small holes with cracks spidering away from the holes.
"I'm sure I probably don't want to know, but I'm going to go with my sense of adventure. Are those bullet holes, and if so why are they in the wall" I said biting my lip.
"Oh Rosalie won the academy award for the most spoiled attention whore, and then I gave her competition for the attention and bitch tried to shoot me. Lucky for me at the time she wasn't very handy with the steel; so she missed, but that was so long ago. Ancient history really" Alice said her voice laced with boredom.
"Ancient history my ass try two months ago. Try I'm still waiting for you two spoiled brats to fix my fucking house, and Alice the victim lk doesn't wear well on you darling, you went out of your way to antagonize her and cried wolf when she dam near pumped you full of lead" Esme said leveling them both with a hard stare.
Esme, when she got going, she was quite scary. So scary in fact the guys who I could honestly say have killed before started to slowly back out of the room.
"Now I want three grand on Bella, now can we get this over with momma needs to go shopping" Esme said inclining her head towards the stairs.
"Umm, I kinda don't know if I should now. If he doesn't-"
"Please that boy is a changed man for you, get going second floor, Edward's wing is to the right. His bedroom is on the third floor double doors at the end of the hall" Rosalie said leading me towards the stairs.
"Guys, seriously, he was probably up all night and he's tired. He probably needs his rest" I said my nerves starting to get the best of me.
"Oh stop being a pussy and go get your man" Alice said giving me a shove.
"I can see why Rosalie tried to shoot you, you're quite pushy aren't you" I said narrowing my eyes.
"Look there's fifteen thousand dollars on the line, that's like two new outfits and I want them, so go up there make him whine like a little bitch so these fools can pay me" she said her voice starting to get screechier if that was even a word.
"I love how you're all using me to get cheap kicks. I could be hurt" I cried.
"Yeah right, boy is whipped, he would never hurt you, think of this is an experiment" Jasper said.
"I'm not a fucking lab rat, but fine, if I get hurt, I can promise you, I get ahold of a gun. I won't miss" I said squaring my shoulders and heading up the stairs.
I stopped outside the double doors to Edward's room and turned around and they were all standing there staring at me. I flipped the all the bird and walked into his bedroom.
I gasped at what awaited me on the other side of the door. Edward was on his stomach with his head resting on his arms, he was shirtless his back was covered in a colorful dueling dragon tattoo with a family crest in the mouth of the bigger more menacing dragon. Who's claws were in the neck of the other. I stood there staring at the colorful masterpiece on his back then I got an idea.
I stripped down to my bra and underwear; I took my hair out of the ponytail and shook it so the natural waves were hanging down my back.
"This is either going to be the best idea I've ever had or the most humiliating moment of my life" I whispered to myself as I crawled into Edwards's bed. I carefully straddled his hips and took a deep breath and placed soft open mouthed kisses across his shoulders along the Bold large spelling of Cullen. Across his shoulders. In between kisses I whispered his name. At first he didn't move, and then I started to softly run my fingers along his biceps.
"Edward, come on baby, wake up" I softly whispered kissing his neck.
"Come on man five more minutes" he grumbled.
"Edward, come on baby. I'm wearing something special for you. You should wake up and see what it is" I purred.
He didn't move and he didn't respond. I thought he'd gone back to sleep the next thing I knew the whole room spun and I was on my back and Edward was hovering above me nothing between us but my boy shorts and his boxers.
"What a nice way to wake up, I could get use to this" he said as he dropped more of his weight on me and moved his hops, I felt all of him against me. My eyes went wide and the cocky ass smirk appeared on his face.
"Oh god you that I-" I couldn't complete a sentence.
"If you want it, all you have to do is ask" he dipped his head down and ran his tongue over the tops of my breasts.
"Edward, don't tease me. Please. I want you, I need you" I begged wrapping my legs around him.
"Tell me you love me, that you need me" he growled into my ear as he pushed his hips into me.
"Oh god more please, baby don't stop" I whispered brushing my lips against his neck wrapping my arms around his neck thrusting my hips up to meet his thrust. At this point I was damming my panties and his boxers to hell, if they weren't in the way, I would have Edward balls deep inside of me and I couldn't tell you how bad I needed him.
He reached between us, his fingers moving my panties to the side and running up and down my dripping wet bare slit and the electric shocks that ran through me cause me to moan out.
"You know they can hear us right?" he chuckled darkly looking over his shoulder.
"I don't care. I want you, right now, I mean unless you don't want me" I pouted up at him.
He pushed one long finger inside of me and I moaned out.
"Edward you said all I had to do is ask, I'm asking. Take me. Please" I whimpered
He groaned as he shifted his hips and all I could feel was him thick and hard straining against his boxers and as my legs tensed around him and I whimpered again. His faced turned into an intense mask of lust.
"Edward, you know you want it. We both know it's yours. Take what's yours" I goaded him my nails scraping over his shoulders.
"Jesus Bella. I fucking I just- Ah shit" he groaned as we both convulsed against each other panting.
I felt him shaking, slowly breathing in and out trying to contain himself, and just like that he untangled himself from around me and got off the bed and walked into the bathroom and quietly shut the door.
I sat up wrapping the sheet around my now torn bra. I felt confused and humiliated. The door to the bathroom whipped open as the tears began to fall from my eyes.
"Why don't you want me Edward?" I whispered.
He made four quick strides across the room and climbed up onto the bed.
"Bella, did you feel me, did you feel how hard I was, I left the bed not because I didn't want you, but because had I taken you right there, where we were, a few minutes ago, I swear I would have broke you, done unspeakable things to you, stuff that you are too god for, I want to be different for you" he whispered cradling me to his chest. I sniffeled and cried my eyes out as he held me tight.
"Bella baby, I love you so much, you are the best thing that's ever happened to me and I fear that once you see the real me, the shit that I'm really into, you'll realize what a piece of trash I am and run for the fucking hills" he confessed.
"Edward, you stupid man; I'm already to far gone, you've given in jst a few months what I dreamed of my whole life. I told you, good bad right or wrong. I want to try for us, for you. I want to be with you, no matter what. You can't shield me from the not so pretty parts cause you think I can't handle it. Let me prove how tough I am, I can handle it. I can handle you" I pleaded.
"Bella-"
"Edward, if you want us to work, you have to let me in, you have to show it all, even the parts that aren't pretty no matter how much it hurts. I need to see it" I said turning in his lap and touching his face.
We were chest to chest I leaned down and kissed him.
"Street races are tonight, we're going, you want to see me. I'm gonna show you. I hope you don't get scared. You have to trust me Bella" he pleaded.
"I will be right here in this bed next to you tomorrow and every day after, unless you hurt me. If you're good to me Edward, I will always be good to you" I said crawling out of his lap and laying on my side. I almost laughed when his eyes went straight to my naked breasts.
"Bella, baby you're so fucking beautiful. I don't know how I'm gonna be able to control myself" he whispered lying next to me.
"I don't want you to control yourself. I want you to be you Edward. I want it all, the good and bad parts"
I rubbed Edward's back he softly hissed my temple and my shoulders. The next thing I knew I was being shaken awake.
"Jesus fucking Christ. I saw your tits, my fucking eyes!" Rosalie screamed. Edward sat bolt upright a gun aimed directly at Rosalie's head.
"What the fuck have I told you about waking me up"He snarled. I stared at him with wide eyes.
"Edward baby, calm down, she was trying to wake me. It's okay I said softly stroking his arm.
He lowered the gun and laid back down his forearm over his eyes.
"See, I fucking told you" she said with a perfectly arched eyebrow.
"Funny cause he did the exact opposite when I woke him up, now would you get out so I can get him up" I said through clenched teeth.
"Meh he ain't got shit I want to see, and I've already seen more of you than I wanted, so whatever, Now Edward, Emmett and Jas said you guys have business, it's almost seven, we have the races tonight. So get going, Bella you me and Ali are going shopping, so you get ready too" Rosalie said pointing her manicured finger at me as she walked out.
"Edward, why do you have to go with them? I don't want you to go" I whined as I watched him button up his shirt.
"Emmett, Jas and I got some business to handle. Don't worry babe, It won't take me long, and then you Alice and Rose are gonna meet us at the restaurant and then we're gonna show you what kind of man you really fell in love with" he said as he pulled on his baseball hat.
"She's gonna make me go shopping, shopping with her scares me. Do you know what she said when she helped me pack my clothes at my apartment?" I demanded.
"Nope, what did she say. Something bitchy no doubt?" he asked sitting in his recliner chair lighting a cigarette.
"She threatened to throw my clothes away, she said I needed a fashion intervention, that I was fashion stunted" I pouted and Edward laughed.
"Well, it might just be easier to let her, it'll get her off your nuts. Baby you're beautiful no matter fucking what. I would love you in anything, but the thing is, you need to learn to love being spoiled and having no budget, it's how we roll, live it up baby. Go out and buy a hundred and fifty dollar pair of jeans for no other reason other than because I said you could" he shrugged.
"I don't want to spend your money Edward, I mean I love how you are just you, the money is the farthest thing from my mind. I just want you" I said sitting up on my knees.
"Yeah, I know but I got the money, why not have some fun with it. I do what I do to take care of those that mean the most to me and you mean more than anyone. So get used to it, cause if you're gonna be with me, you get the princess treatment, I could never say no to you" he said it as if he was simply saying, hey, the sky is blue.
"So what if one day I woke up and said to myself a canary yellow porche sounds fucking awesome, I think I'll buy one?" I questioned with a raised eyebrow.
"I actually have two Porsches, they aren't as cool as Bugatti Veyron's but hey if that what you want, then do it to it I guess" he shrugged his shoulders as he put his cigarette out.
"oye vey, you're so freaking frustrating" I laughed throwing a pillow at him but because of my cast it went wide and sailed right by him.
"Dude, you throw like a girl" he said waggling his eyebrows at me.
"Dude I am a girl" I said flicking him and off and sticking my tongue out.
"Look babe, Emmett and I are gonna go out with some guys we know around here have some dinner and talk over some business, you and Rose are gonna go out have some fun go shopping and then meet up with us later for dinner and partying and shit, then tonight, you and I, well I got a surprise for you.
I sat up on my knees in the middle of the bed and let the sheet fall. I was sitting there in what was left of my midnight blue bra and the matching boy shorts.
"God Bella, what are you doing to me little girl, I swear I'm having a hard time stopping myself with you" he said through his panted breath.
"Why do you keep stopping, how come you don't want to, I mean with me?" I whispered.
"Jesus fucking Christ woman, we really need to do this again? You think I don't want you, are you crazy. I'm fucking hard all the time. I can't think of anything but taking you on every flat fucking surface doing all kinds of dirty things to you, but Bella you're not a whore, you're not-
"What if I wanted to be those things, just for you? I mean Edward we're going to spend our live together, I told you good bad right wrong. I want to keep you satisfied and happy, I'm not spun glass Edward. I won't break" I demanded.
"Have you any idea what you're asking of me, the things I could do to you?" he whispered his eyes turning dark.
"I want to know, I'm not afraid, I know you'd still respect me in the morning, stop being so afraid, I thought you were mister rough and tough. Prove it" I said winking at him and crawling off the bed I walked by him with a sway in my hips right into the bathroom and shut the door this time he was the one sitting on the other side of the door confused.
"I swear to god Bella, remember you said that shit tonight when we're alone, I will finish this conversation" He yelled through the door and then I heard the bedroom door close.
I took a hot shower and was rinsing the citrus smelling shampoo out of my hair when it occurred to me that If anyone would have asked me where that confidence I had just been so full of came from, Where I had found the balls to speak to Edward like that I wouldn't have been able to give an honest answer. But he said from the moment we met he wanted me to be nothing but honest with him. He wanted to know everything I was thinking and feeling that he wanted it to be as if he could read my mind. He never wanted to have to try to guess what I was thinking.
The truth was, I wanted to see Edward naked, I wanted to know what it felt like to have him inside of me. I wanted him to use me for his pleasure, I wanted- the list of things I wanted carried me through the rest of my shower and nothing snapped me out of the dirty day dreams I was having about what had just taken place between me and Edward until my inter musings were interrupted by when I heard Rose calling my name.
"What in the world were you thinking about, you've got the biggest goofiest smile on your face but I swear you're the color of a tomato" she said with a raised eyebrow.
"I could tell you, but then I'd have to kill you, wait are you actually wearing jeans and sneakers?" I asked with wide eyes
"Yeah, shut up, I actually love sneakers, but Emmett loves me in heels, and a happy Emmett is an easier to deal with Emmett" she said.
"So what are we doing today, other than dragging me to every stuffy high fashion boutique you can find, no matter how many times I try to tell you, I'm not that kind of girl, I love my hoodies and jeans and pony tails and-"
""Bella look, I won't try to change you, I mean honestly, there is nothing wrong with your style, but I just want to add to it cause, well once we get back to the swing of things, you will see what a big deal not only Edward is, but the Cullen Clan as a whole, we go out a lot, there are a lot of functions, night club openings to high society galas, and I never want you to feel out of place, I just want this transition to be easy for you, because for me it was downright fucking scary to be totally honest. I know what's coming, you don't and I don't want you to be blind-sided" she said sitting down on the bed.
"Why do I feel like this is some twisted fairy tale that is going to end?" I asked turning from the vanity and looking at her.
"What do you mean?" she asked
"Rose I have learned in my life to never get used to being happy, like it will always end and most times when it ends, it ends very badly. Something or someone will get taken away from me. So now it seems like things are going almost too well, something bad is gonna happen, and I would hate for any of you to be hurt or something because I have shitty luck" I said biting my lip
"Bella, seriously, come on. Don't act like it's a bad thing to be happy. I strongly believe everything happens for a reason, you and Edward both were having a rough time in life when you found each other and I really believe that the hard times for both of you are over, so relax, and enjoy it. Now let's get ready to make some bitches jealous" she said going into the closet
"Me make someone jealous, yeah just no" I laughed and turned back to the mirror and blushing at the picture Edward had put on his mirror, me and him in the bungalow. His razorbacks snap back on my head backwards and his lips on my neck but they were curved into the sexiest cocky smirk and his eyes were looking directly into the camera mine were towards him but my smile was the brightest it had ever been I couldn't deny the brightness in either of our eyes. I honestly barely recognized myself.
But for the first time in a long time, I like the person I was looking at. I was going to learn to accept affection and love. Edward all those letters ago, has asked me to promise him that even when it got hard. I would always try. And for him I would do anything
A/N: Alright longest chapter so far and it was just starting to get to long, so I will end it here and we will kick off Thugward handling his business next chapter. Thank you for all the reviews pimps and favorites. I swear I read them all. I try to respond. I really hope you guys continue to dig the story. See next chapter!