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Mistakes. I Sookie Stackhouse have made so many mistakes. I tried to have a normal life. Why? Because I was raised to think I should get married and have kids. I was raised on a lie I'm a telepathic part fairy. Why did I have to get smacked in the face with no Eric to help me fix this clusterfuck to realize I'm not normal. It should tell me something that I desperately want to talk to Eric and not my boyfriend Sam. Which is why I'm fixing that mistake immediately. I don't regret saving his life, but looking at it Eric lined everything up knowing me and knowing what I would if I thought he didn't want me doing it. Damn high handed vampire and Fuck him for being right. I'm the middle of my musings Sam comes in, of course it's after dark so Karen , my guard and Eric's child will hear this. Which is fine I was going to talk to her anyway.
"Sook, why is my stuff all packed?" Sam asked. I sighed, "Sam we both know this isn't working. We were always meant to be friends and you are mine; however, it's not good enough for me I want the crazy head of heels passion, love and confidant. The person who I turn to and who can count on me." Sam cuts me off, " God dammit sookie he's gone! He left you! You can't be this stupid!" I am off the couch ," Sam Merlotte for years I have let you and other railroad me and try to pigeon hole me into what you want. No more! I AM NOT stupid. Stop making this about him, it's about us. WE don't work and that has NOTHING to do with him. Look me in the eye and tell me you feel something when we fuck Sam. Because I don't there's no heat no passion nothing." Sam runs his hands through his hair, " we can work on that sook." I shake my head, "No, I'm sorry we can't you have it or you don't and we don't." Sam stares for a long time, " You're being very decisive about this Sookie." I actually smiled, "Yes, and it's about time I was. Someone once asked me if I ran from relationships. I didn't know the answer but I do now. Sometimes the bravest thing you can do is run. I've run for the wrong reasons in the past but here in this moment Sam I'm being brave." Sam looked at me like I was crazy, "well just take a few days off and we can talk again maybe take things slower." I sighed , "Sam, it's friendship for us but I'm also quitting I want to try college classes again I have more control." Sam actually smiled, "Well you're my best waitress Sook, but I think that's great that you want to take classes. Any time you want a shift it's yours." Knowing I won't need it I tell him thanks.
After I mentally cast out my telepathy making sure he's gone I step out onto my porch, "Karen" I say quietly a moment later she appears as I sit in my swing. "Well Sookie that was... interesting to say the least." I laugh, "Ask Pam I live to entertain your bloodline." She actually smiled, so I continued, "Karen I know you're time is coming to an end here and I don't know the particulars of your contract. Should I tell you something are you bound to tell anyone but your maker?" In a very Eric move she raises her eyebrow, "No Sookie I have sworn no allegiances and my loyalties lie with my maker and my sister. Also, Eric actually hired me to be your guard Sookie so he controlled the contract I accepted." Damn high handed Vampire. My eyes well but I refuse to cry again, "I'm sure you've noticed a change in me this week." I'm trying to gauge her, but in the end she's all I have she's the closet to Eric I can get Pam could be hurt if I confided in her and she kept it from Felipe. Karen looks, "Yes my reports have included a change more sullen , remorse, crying and reflections. I startle, "Your reports? But.. but I thought Eric couldn't contact you or Pam that bitch of a wife of his wouldn't let him." Karen smiled, "Yes, my maker does end up with bitchy wives, but I send my reports to someone I hired as a go between therefore Eric isn't in contact with me." I laugh "Eric and his loopholes, I miss him. And don't think your bitchy wives comment went over my head. I... I wish you weren't right. I would go try to save him if I thought I could. One of things I did this week was talk to Mr. C" her eyebrow couldn't get higher " I wanted to know if I claimed my birthright as a princess of the fae if I could get Eric back. He said no." I actually choked out a sob " I'm sorry, no I'm not crying anymore I'm taking control. He said a longer explanation of course but the end result is I can't free Eric and I'm a bitch for not trying sooner. I am a child for letting him manipulate me because I always went to worst case scenario with him. He gave me closure he made me hate him and I didn't even see it because I'm a bitch." Karen simply replies, "how did you see it?" Ironically? Bills sister Judith started the process a week and a half ago. Women scorned and all she sent her day person asking me to meet her in Monroe. I debated but went, when I arrived she asked if I ever knew what Bills vampire power was. And I said he didn't have one. Wait do you know?" Karen looked at me, "No I don't I didn't think he had one either. He's a poor vampire." I laughed, " Two weeks ago I'd tan your hide with my words for that comment. Anyway, she told me his power is manipulate , I actually laughed and said that's all vampires honey. She smiled and said no his power is in his blood once a human has his blood they cannot completely rid themselves of him. No matter what he does if he wants them to forgive they will. She laughed and said I was stronger and weirder than most because he couldn't get me back into bed, but he could keep me doubting Eric. I didn't believe her, but after I left I thought about it and the next morning I called my friend Holly. She told me about a witch who could help me. I went to the witch and she said I did still have a vampires blood within me but hidden well. I thought it could be the bond with Eric so I asked her and she said that the bond isn't gone it's been muted by magic but another's blood was hidden as well. She said bonds cannot truly be severed. I asked her to get rid of the hidden blood since it wasn't my bondeds. She did and immediately Karen, I saw so much. I forgave a man who raped and nearly killed me. He cheated on me and brought me into this vampire shit I blamed Eric for. Eric didn't bring me into Bill did bu taking me to Eric. By letting me be naive. I can't even blame him fully though because... everyone always leaves me. So I expect them to and I just wanted to be able to hold myself together when Eric eventually did the same. I'm a stupid naive girl with foolish dreams." Karen decided to interject, "I cannot day I fully understand, but you are young Sookie. Pam has told stories of you how you've saved them plotted with them. You are supernatural Sookie. It's time you accept that."
"I have Karen, I've been waiting for word from my great grandfather Mr. C was trying to get word to him, but I'm afraid as with everything else the fae are a day late and a dollar short." Karen scrunched up her nose, "I do not understand Sookie. Are you trying to go to faery?" " I was. I've run out of time and you're the closest thing I have to Eric so I need you to brainstorm with me Karen." Karen sighs, "I'll call Pam " she gets out her phone to do so when I shout, "NO YOU CAN'T" Karen just stares at me but not moving her hand, "Look I'm trying to protect Pam. Just listen to my story Karen and then if you think we should call Pam we will. I will go with what you think is best because... that's what Eric would want me to do. Okay, you remember my car accident?" Karen nods, "Yes, removing your telepathy for a time." I sighed, "Yes always thought I wanted that then I was going crazy not knowing and the silence for a week, well i wasn't 100% honest when it came back. It was much stronger, I still don't hear vampires; thank God, but I do hear wares as if they were humans. Which led to after the witch tore my heart and head apart I was getting through my days in a haze then last week some wares came in. They were looking for me so I paid attention to their thoughts. DeCastro plans to abduct me and turn me himself. He plans to rape me , and Bill knows it. He's helping because Felipe said Bill will get a turn with me. He can play the familiar face sympathetic that this happened to me. It's not a bad plan. The wares were to bring me close to death I would be found and Felipe would be unable to let his telepath die. I was under his protection and all. Pam would be blamed and taken to be tortured for a time ." Karen hissed " Bill would be sheriff in her place. I thought if Niall came and claimed me well no one could blame Pam. That's not an option now. I will not be turned by that man or my rapist of a neighbor procuring asshole. I thought I would ask you but I could see Pam and Eric suffering for it and I'm so stupid because I should... I should be your sister Eric should be my maker and I fucked it up. I need to know who I can go to that can't come back on Pam or Eric. I thought of Thalia but I don't see how that doesn't lead to Pam or Eric. I thought maybe Bubba, if we stage it where he shows up and I'm dying you walk him through turning me. He may not even remember when I rise we convince him to release me and he's a nomad he never stays anywhere very long then maybe I go to Thalia and ask her to take me out of here or bubba commands me to Mississippi. I ... what do you think?" Karen is silent for a very long time. "It could work. What if someone manipulate Bubba to use you. That's why we have him release me and I asked the witch if she could block a makers command and gave vagueness about Bubbas condition she said for a high price with his turning not going right she could do it. Mr. C told me since I was claiming my birthright Fintans estate comes to me. I can afford it, but no matter who turns me the magic that's muting our bond will be undone." I stop and wait, " Eric will be bonded to you as a vampire." Karen stares. "Yes, the witch thinks he will hold more power than my maker. The wares are here you could glamor them to attack me now bubba will be here in 20 minutes. Call Pam afterward keep one alive and make him talk that will save Pam. She was also ordered to stay away from me so there really can't be any fault for her." Karen stares, "You realize you will suffer their attack they will hurt you." I sigh, "Maybe I deserve it just don't let them rape me Karen and make sure at some point this letter finds Eric it's be-witched .There's one for Pam in the house I made it like Niall was coming to get me but it's be-witched Pam will see more ." I give her my note to Eric "What if Mr. Compton Comes running To your rescue?" I smiled, "He's out of town for his database until next week." "I explain how I let you get this injured how?" "Well Karen you're one guard and there's 15 wares" she smiles, "I would've liked to have you as a sister Sookie, but my mistress will do fine. How did you know I can glamor wares? it's not known." I smile, "You've sent some to watch over me on days where you've gotten word of threats. It was high handed just like your maker but sweet." She scoffs, "it was not sweet as you say it was my job. Alright I have wares to glamor. " I start this is really happening I'm going to die, "Karen wait!" She pauses, "Just... just make sure to somehow warn Eric he will feel me when I rise... if I rise he can't shut it down or keep it open I just don't want him blindsided." Karen nods and goes on her way and I go into my house for the last time for awhile. I've left Jason a note telling him I'm leaving the house to Tara and JB And their twins. There's been enough blood shed in this house so I take a deep breath and go outside the premise of waiting for Niall. I hear them approach Karen is beside me quickly, "Your witch, how do I contact her to make sure Bubba can't command you." I smile, "She's already informed of the plan and I paid her a down payment she gets the rest when I rise and he can't command me. She will be at the house in three nights. I left you a note as well Karen if I don't rise give her the money." She nods as the wares Yell, "Come with us Miss Stackhouse and we won't harm your friend!" Karen snarls, "You'll not take her she's under my protection and she off, it's actually impressive 3 get to me and I hear there glamor no fatal wound until Bubba is heard. That Karen. I fight with them as I can someone really should've learned how to fight I tell myself. I startle when Karen is silvered still fighting, she glamored them to hurt her?! Her phone starts buzzing I imagine Pam is coming. In my hesitation a punch to my head is landed and I'm on my back about to attempt to get up when I hear, "Miss Sookie! Don't you hurt miss Sookie!" My attacker goes for a kill shot and I'm stabbed and my lungs I can't breathe another stab feels like my kidneys. When all the sudden my attackers and gone Bubba is above me, "NO NO miss Sookie! I'm so sorry!" I wheez, "Not your fault Bubba. I don't... I don't want to die Bubba please...turn me." He surprises me, "Yes of course miss Sookie that's what I must do." His fangs are in my neck taking my blood as Karen comes over to help and I fade into darkness.