I do not own any True Blood characters. I just borrow them for my smutty purposes..
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Carli woke up as she felt Ryan moving around, and she opened her eyes to see him walk into the bathroom. She yawned and rolled over, wanting to sleep all day. The previous evening had exhausted her mentally, and she felt her stomach turn as she thought of it. She closed her eyes again and heard the door open. "Hey, Car. We should get packed up soon so we can just take our stuff to the bus before the sound check." Ryan whispered into her ear, kissing her head softly.
"Mmmmmm. I want to sleep." Carli told him, and he snuggled close to her and kissed her neck as he got back under the covers. "Bunk sleep is not like this."
"In more ways than one." Ryan agreed, and she felt his hands move over her. She found it hard to respond, but she gave in and let him make love to her and she faked it for the second time. She wondered if he knew as he shuddered, and fell over her. "Tired, baby? You seem to be less enthused today."
"Probably. I'll be okay though." She got up and started gathering her things, and she found the gray dress in the closet as she started to pull clothes out. She stared at it and Ryan glanced over at her pile of clothes.
"That's a nice dress, Car. Did you buy that here?" Ryan asked, and she froze for a second.
"Yeah. Big sale and I could not resist." Carli replied, remembering the night she wore it. She felt Eric kissing her by the water again and she took a breath. She folded the dress up and added it to her suitcase, and took a shower prior to packing her bathroom stuff. She was trying to decide what to do about Eric, and she could feel how much she wanted him as it coursed through her body. She knew right from wrong, but her body was arguing that point with her and she sighed. She put on some make up and brushed her hair as straight as she could, and piled her stuff on the counter.
"How's it going?" Ryan asked her, and she glanced up. "We can take that and grab some food if you want. We have a couple of hours before the sound check."
It was now or never. "I was actually going to run to a shop before I meet you. There was this dress I liked and I never had a chance to go back." Carli told him, and smiled as she batted her eyelashes. "I promise I will come right after."
"You are such a girl." Ryan told her, but smiled. "I will handle the luggage, me lady. Want room service instead?" They ate breakfast and watched a movie, and he left in time to make it. He kissed her deeply before he left, and she watched the door close as she slid a deep green hoodie over her gray beater. She slid her feet into cons and rested her head in her hands. She stood slowly and grabbed her purse and made sure that she had everything, and walked to the elevator. She pulled the hood over her head as she got on, and stared at the floor. She felt unsettled and raw inside, and she swallowed the lump in her throat. Carli glanced up as the door opened and she walked through the lobby and into the street. She made the walk to Eric's apartment building and glanced around to make sure that she appeared to be just another person on the street. She leaned against the building and pulled out her phone, texting him that she was out front. He responded by telling her that his door was unlocked and to come in, and she slid her phone back into her purse. She walked inside slowly and found the elevator and pushed the button for his floor. She was lost in thought when she heard the other occupant clear their throat and she glanced up to see the door open.
"Sorry." carli muttered an apology and quickly walked off. She glanced at his door and considered just walking away and never coming back. She felt the invisible pull and glanced down as she fought it, but then she was standing in front of it. "Just for closure's sake." Carli promised herself, and walked in as she glanced around. It was quiet, and it seemed to be just Eric there, though she could not see him. She looked around as she shut the door, and frowned.
"I am on the balcony." Eric called out, and she jumped. She walked to the open french door and saw him standing against the railing, facing the city. She noted that it was a nice view and she stood and glanced at him. He was in track shorts and a tight fitting tee, and she could not help but to admire him for a long moment. She knew well what was under the clothes, and her body tightened painfully. He glanced at her with a bland expression and took in the hoodie. "Undercover again, I see. Can you ever really be you?"
"Not without difficulty." Carli replied, and the painful truth hurt her.
"I guess it is worse due to the good news. Pam told me. Congratulations." Eric said in a distant tone, and she stared down at the ground. The mention of Pam made her shudder, and she closed her eyes. She felt his hand on hers, and she opened her eyes and stared at him as he took in her ring with a dismissive glance. "I would have chosen something bigger for you."
"He didn't choose it." Carli said through clenched teeth, as the emotion slammed into her. This was much more difficult than she had thought it would be. She yanked her hand away and crossed her arms together in front of her to get away from the heat that burned through her.
"You chose a ring that means forever when you spent the week with me. How does one do that?" Eric asked her, staring at her. She met his ice blue eyes for a moment and had to look away when she started shaking.
"This was such a mistake. Goodbye, Eric." Carli told him, and turned to leave. He was suddenly in front of her, and she stared up at him. "What?"
"Don't go." He kissed her suddenly and she gasped as she started to push him away. Instead, she found her arms sliding up and around his neck as she pulled herself closer to his eager mouth. He took advantage of her open lips, and their tongues met hungrily as they both fought for control. He slid his hands down to her legs and picked her up, and she wrapped them around his waist as he carried her into his room. She glanced around as he dropped her on the bed, and noticed that his sheets were messy and thrown around. She gave him a look, and he shook his head slowly at her. "Jealous, Carli?"
She sighed and stared forward as he moved next to her and unzipped her hoodie. He yanked it off and she felt his lips on her neck. "Yes." Her words were honest, and she felt him push her back and straddle her as he stared at her.
"You're the one that is leaving with somebody else." Eric reminded her, and leaned down to kiss her. "I didn't come home with my date last night. You were all that I could think about."
"Pam told me you were screwing anything that moves. She said you wanted to get over me fast." Carli said, as he stared at her with dark eyes.
"I heard about what she said to you, and she was reprimanded. I don't think it was right and it made you feel bad. I know you are not comfortable with what happened." Eric said gently, and she frowned. "I do need to get over you, Carli. I love you."
"Let me walk out of here then." Carli told him, and he stared at her painfully. He moved closer to her and kissed her deeply and they got caught up in the heat that flowed between them, and soon she felt the air on her bare stomach as he yanked her shirt off. His hands were unhooking her bra and then she felt him tracing her skin slowly and she stared at him. Her nipples hardened painfully and she moaned as he touched them slowly as he stared intently at them. He lowered his lips to them and she cried out as he grazed the left one with his teeth slowly, sucking it into his mouth. She slid her hands around his head to pull him closer, and she felt his hardness pressing against her leg. He slowly teased her nipples, tenderly but with enough teeth to make Carli want him with every fiber of her being. Her body throbbed and she felt the dampness between her legs as he moved back to her lips eagerly. She lifted her hips and wrapped her legs around him, and he pressed into her as she sucked on his lower lip.
"You drive me crazy, woman." Eric told her in a low voice, and she found the hem of his shirt with her hands. He lifted himself so that she could pull it off and she stared at his muscular torso hungrily. She told him to lay down, and he complied as he watched her in the dimly lit room. She unbuttoned her jeans and slid them down slowly, revealing her pink silky thong as she slid over him. He was ready to go and she slid over his shorts slowly, moaning as her body responded to the simple touch. She pressed into him and leaned down to kiss his lips, moving down to his neck. She used enough teeth and tongue to make him tense under her, and moved down to his broad chest.
"You're perfect." Carli told him, and gently slid her tongue around his nipple. He groaned and bucked under her, resulting in a shudder from her and a weak cry as she dampened his shorts.
"Yet you don't love me?" Eric breathed, his hands grasping her hips as he felt his shorts get wet.
"I never said that." Carli responded, and continued to kiss him. She moved down his body and tugged his shorts down, finding him hard and ready in her face as she stared at him. She met his eyes as she licked the tip and he groaned as she slowly began to slide it into her mouth. She managed to go down far enough to take him all and she slid up and down with her tight mouth as he gripped her hair tightly. He pulled her closer as he twitched in her mouth, and she eagerly swallowed as he flooded her throat.
Eric flipped her as soon as she was finished and stared at her with changing blue eyes. He removed her thong and then sat between her parted legs and moved his fingers between them as she gasped ad threw her head back. He knew just what to do and she was crying out within a few moments of his expert touch. She bucked against him and threw her head back as she cried out and he smiled as she looked up at him. "You do love me?"
"I just haven't said it." Carli breathed, and he slid down to move his face between her legs. She remembered that morning with Ryan and she started to tell him to stop, but one lick silenced her. She was once again writhing as he licked and sucked, gently using his teeth as he worked her clit in and out of his mouth. She was soon bursting again, and he held her firmly as she screamed his name and let it hit her. She breathed and closed her eyes and moaned through it, and opened her eyes to see him looking at her. He moved to his back and she gazed at him as his eyes pleaded with her.
"I want you on top so I can see your face as you do that again. Then I am going to flip you over and fuck you until it is my turn. Hurry up though. I like you best right afterwards."
She glanced at him and saw that he was ready to go, and she moved clumsily over him and felt him inside of her. She felt him fill her quickly and completely, and she cried out hoarsely as she stretched while she was still feeling the spasms. She felt his hands on her hips and she began to ride him, moving harder against him as she regained her balance. She felt him sliding against her sensitive areas and she cried out as she felt another orgasm building up inside of her. She arched her back slightly and he slid a hand up her slowly to pinch her nipple and cup her breast as she moaned harder. She felt it hit her hard and she moaned, and felt herself flipped to her back somewhere during it. Eric was between her spread legs and she felt him inside of her again, moving harder with each thrust. She continued to feel aftershocks as he did and then he cried out her name and shuddered slightly against her. They collapsed on the bed and she closed her eyes as she breathed deeply.
"I do love you, Eric. I don't know how I am going to walk away from you in a little while, but I would throw everything in my life away if I chose you. Nobody would understand if I did that." Carli said slowly, and looked at him. "You'll forget about me. You'll find some New York girl that will win your heart. I cannot have done that in this short time."
"Yes, you could have." Eric assured her, and she saw pain in his eyes. "It does not happen often, but it did with you."
"I didn't want it to be this way." Carli told him, her eyes pained. "I wanted it to be simple for both of us."
"You would not have done this if it had been simple. It is not in your nature." Eric suggested, and she nodded as she rolled towards him and slid her arm over his stomach as he lay back against his sheets. "I only knew I wanted you that day we met. I didn't know what it would lead to."
"Should I apologize?"
"Not now. Not while you are still here. I might change my mind once I am truly alone again." Eric said slowly, and she felt a tear slide down her cheek as she imagined that. He looked down at her and she blinked as he stared at her. "You really cannot stay?"
"I would lose it all. I would lose everything that I have worked so hard for. I need to focus on that right now. I don't know if you can understand that." Carli tried to explain, and he stared silently at her. "I will never forget you, and I can only imagine there will be a song or two out there about that very fact. I do love you. Eric. I do. I am so scared to live for only that."
"Stop being scared." Eric suggested, and she buried her head into his side as she cried softly. She lay with him until she knew that she had to leave, and they stared at each other after she had cleaned herself up well and dressed again. He had pulled on a new pair of shorts and his eyes accused her as they looked at each other.
"I need to do this." Carli told him, and he crossed his arms as he coldly looked at her. She still felt the sting in her eyes and she blinked as she glanced down. "I am sorry to hurt you. I didn't want this."
"Enjoy your fake life, Carli. Enjoy your fake engagement and probable fake marriage." Eric told her, and she sucked in her breath.
"Goodbye." Carli whispered, turning and walking out of his front door. She hid under the hood and wiped her eyes as the grief hit her. The guilt had made her scream during her orgasms but it was the grief that made the tears slide down her cheeks now. She caught a cab outside and managed to pull herself together by the time she arrived at the venue, and she checked her eyes in the mirror before calling Ryan. They were somehow clear and she erased all of Eric's texts before she made the call, whispering goodbye to him as she did. Ryan came to get her and she hugged him as he pulled her into his arms. He asked about the dress and she stumbled for a moment before she thought of an answer. "It was not there anymore, and the other locations didn't have it either." She let Ryan kiss her cheek as the emptiness filled her slowly again. "So are you all set for tonight?"
Ryan filled her in on he sound check as they walked to the bus, and she pulled on a different pair of jeans and a tee for the show. She walked with them and watched the opener from backstage, and she kissed Ryan as he went out to the screams of his fans. She watched him as he performed with the strong presence that he had going for him, but her mind was only thinking of what she was leaving behind. She smiled sadly as Ryan began the song he had written for her, and sat down on the wood alone as she stared blankly at him. The show ended after what seemed like hours, whereas before they had flown by. They went to the tour bus and she crawled into her bunk after changing into sweat shorts and a tank top. She was alone, saying that she was tired and needed some rest to get back there by herself. She let a tear slide down her face again as she heard the rumble of the engine, knowing that she was leaving New York. She knew that she was leaving Eric.