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Travis woke up Carli with a gentle kiss, and she opened her eyes with a start. She had been dreaming of Eric, and he had been kissing her as he pressed her against his wall in the dream, and she stared at Travis. "We're landing."

"Oh. Thanks for getting me up." Carli told him, and he smiled at her before he started to get his stuff together. She had slept the entire time for the most part, so she just sat there and woke up slowly until it was time to go into the airport. They walked out together, and Travis was talking about their first week there softly as they were recognized by a few fans. They greeted them and posed together and with the fans, and Carli was all too aware of how close her pulled her to him. She knew that there would be speculation amongst fans very soon, and she looked at him to see that he wanted that a little. He wanted them to be something. Travis hugged the last fan and they walked to the front to get their luggage as he stroked her lower back gently. He squeezed her hand as they approached Jimmy, who was leaning against a wall waiting for them with a grin on his face. The couple greeted him with a hug on her part and a handshake on his part, and Travis told her that he would get their luggage. She protested, knowing how much there was, but Jimmy took her wrist to hold her by him for a moment as Travis rushed off.

"I can see that my band mates are clearly fucking each other now." Jimmy said in a soft voice, and she let out a long sigh. "Should I be worried about that development?"

"I hope not?" Carli replied, and glanced at him. "It just sort of happened, Jimmy. I am still a little surprised."

"I'm not at all. I could see him getting closer to you after Ryan died and he sunk so low. You were all he wanted and needed, and that was why he went back with you. The feelings were there, but he was not aware of them at first. Now he looks really happy and you need to be as well. What happened with Eric?" Jimmy asked her, and pain tore through her body.

"It ended." Carli replied briefly, and he raised an eyebrow at her. "Like it would have worked out anyway, Jimmy. I travel a lot, and this particular time was for a month at least."

"I hear that. It is hard." Jimmy said slowly, and glanced up to see Travis struggling with their bags. "Let's go help your new boyfriend." Carli shot a quick glare his direction before following him, and the three got the bags to Jimmy's car and climbed inside. "Staying with us, Car?" Jimmy asked her, looking over at her as they pulled onto the highway. Carli felt Travis's gaze on the back of her head, and she looked back to see his hopeful eyes.

"Sure. I think I am staying at Ryan's family's the night before Thanksgiving, but I have no plans before that. I am doing the pies with the girls like I always did." Carli said, and frowned. "It'll be weird. He was always coming in and out of the room to taste stuff and say hi."

The guys were quiet, and she shook her head. "Cool then. We can meet up soon and see what we have put together for the album." Jimmy moved on, and Travis and Carli agreed. They drove to the house talking about lighter things, and walked in to Lisa finishing up a lunch of grilled panini's and salad. Carli and Travis hugged her, and she smiled happily at them. Travis took their bags to his room and piled them in a corner, and walked out to sit beside her to eat. He glanced at her with a smile, and took a bite of the sandwich, and Carli nibbled on a forkful of salad. Lisa glanced at them, and then at Jimmy. He smiled at her, and she looked back at Carli with a glint in her eye. The friends relaxed until that night when they all went to see a friend's band perform, and met up with several friends. Carli was hugging people and mingling for awhile, and she happened to have several drinks in that time. She felt her phone vibrate in her pocket and grabbed it as she smiled at another friend, and her smile turned into a frown when she saw that it was a text from Eric.

Already found yourself a new woman, lover? Pam is so jealous right now.

Carli excused herself and went outside to text him back, angry and curious.

What are you talking about, Eric?

Her body swayed a little from the drinks, and she blinked. He sent back a link and se clicked on it, glancing around to see if anyone was around. They weren't. It was a blog that referred to the night before at the club with Jessica, and she took a deep breath. The bitch had talked about it, but then again, Carli had eagerly spread her legs for her. She sighed and wondered what to say back to him, and even to the fans. Carli hoped that it would not ruin the band or the image, or her life.

Thanks for that info, Eric.

Did she make you cum?

Go fuck yourself

Carli heard Travis call her name, and she slowly shoved her phone into her pocket. It vibrated again, but she ignored it as he stroked her cheek. "Everything OK?"

"Ummmm, sort of. I was just sent a link and that girl in the club last night blabbed." Carli told him in a low voice, and he stared at her. "I know I put myself in that position, but now I don't know what to do. Either everyone will think I am a total whore or they'll be cool with it and I will get hit on by women all of the time now. I hate both options really."

"You need to watch what you do, Car. Everything is public." Travis told her, and leaned down to kiss her.

"So is this." Carli whispered, and he looked at her.

"I don't mind that gossip." His lips covered hers, and she pressed against him slowly as the kiss warmed her. "Let's go in and enjoy the music, Car." He pulled her by the hand and she stood by the stage with him as they listened to the hardcore punk music, and she tired to get into it. Her phone kept going and she pulled it out and cleared her texts quickly when he was in the middle of a head bang. She drank a few more drinks through the night, and was met with worried glances by Lisa and Jimmy. Carli didn't typically drink. The four headed out to eat afterwards and Carli went to use the bathroom and she took out her phone again.

I miss you lover. I want to make you cum every way that I know how. I want to taste you and fuck you so hard, and you're not here to do any of that to.

You knew I was leaving, Eric. You fucked someone else before I was even on the plane.

Just a drunken impulse, lover. I didn't mean anything by it, and I would think you would get that sort of impulse. I can tell you are drunk right now by your texts. Who is the lucky girl tonight, or is it a guy?

You're not even sorry, Eric. Fuck you.

"Carli? Are you alright?" Lisa asked, and Carli's head spun as she looked up at the stall door quickly.

"Yeah, fine. Phone distraction." Carli said, standing up and pulling up her jeans as she shoved the phone back into the pocket. She walked out and fixed her hair in the mirror, and glanced at Lisa.

"So Travis huh? He looks so sweet with you, and happy. He was not that way for awhile." Lisa mused, and Carli smiled a forced smile. "What happened with Eric back in New York?"

"Things…got really out of hand and we broke up before I left." Carli replied slowly, and remembered their talk in her kitchen.

"I could see that happening. You guys were so hot and so into each other, but it was on a whole different level that you and Travis. He will be more calming." Lisa told her, and Carli looked at her curiously. "Though I hope there is some hot there as well." Carli blushed and Lisa giggled. "It'll be interesting in the house now."

"Ugh." Carli said out loud, dreading it as her underwear dampened at the thought of Eric doing what he texted. She shook her head and went back to the table, and scooted close to Travis as she moved into the booth. He glanced at her and slid a hand over her lower thigh under the table, and they all headed home soon. Carli went into the room to use the bathroom again, and came out to see Travis on the bed with his eyes closed. She shut her phone off for the night, ignoring the fact that Eric had texted her back, and pulled off her jeans after making sure the door was closed. She slid her shirt off as well, and Travis opened one eye slowly. "I hope you don't mind."

"Never." Travis replied, watching as she came to the bed and relaxed against the pillows. Carli sighed and he rolled over to stroke her stomach gently as he looked at her. She slid his hand between her legs and he stroked the wet lace eagerly. "What has you so hot and bothered?"

"I want you to fuck me." Carli whispered, and he made is way under the cloth and stroked her clit as she leaned her head back further. She whimpered and he stroked her harder and faster, and then slid a few fingers inside of her deeply as she sucked in her breath.

"You're so tight and wet." Travis told her, and she smiled as he slid his curled fingers over her sweet spot. She fought the urge to cry out as he stroked it again and again, and buckled against his hand as she came, pressing closer to him and moaning softly. "I need to cum so bad now. Watching you makes me crazy."

"In my cunt or in my mouth?" Carli whispered, and he stared at her.

"Such a dirty little mouth you have." Travis said, surprise in his voice. "I never would have guessed."

"He didn't kiss and tell?" Carli giggled, and Travis slid his hands over her hard nipples. "Mmmmm, hurt me. Make it hurt, baby." Travis pinched them between his thumb and fingers and she nearly lurched off of the bed.

"I knew he was always eager to get home to you. I knew that he was fucking you after the break up, and that he liked that." Travis said, and her face took on a frown. "I knows that I do." He slid her underwear down and she felt him between her legs, drinking her juices eagerly as she writhed against him. He was soon inside of her, and he thrust deeply as she fought the urge again to cry out. "I love fucking you, Carli."

"Harder." Carli begged, and he moaned as he buried his cock deeper inside of her. She whimpered as she moved with him, and he stared at her face. They came one after the other and he kissed her as she breathed deeply. She slid her arms around his neck and he kissed her harder, and then smiled.

"I wanted to do that before the sex. You were very eager tonight, Carli." Travis said, and she snuggled against him as she relaxed. "Are you happy with this?"

"I am here, aren't I?" Carli asked him, and he nodded at her as she peeked at him.

"I am glad that you are." Travis nuzzled her with his lips again. "Take this how you want, but I love you."

"I know, Travis." Carli said, and he pulled her close. "I love you too, but I wonder if we mean it in the same way."

"Go to sleep, gorgeous." Travis said softly, and slid his hand tighter around her waist.

Carli woke up first and smiled as she realized they were meeting with the band. She frowned when her head pounded the second that she sat up, and she pressed her hand to it. "Stop fucking drinking." carli murmured to herself, and glanced over at a naked Travis. She stared and remembered the night before, and her mind flashed back over the texts and the way she had argued with Eric with her words. She remembered Travis fucking her and easing the pressure that the simple texts had caused. She missed Eric, and she felt stupid thinking that. He had fucked another girl and probably Pam again, but here she was with her best friend. Carli got up and pulled on some clothes, going to the kitchen for some coffee. Lisa stumbled in, and they smiled ruefully at each other. They ended up walking to the corner store for some Gatorade and soon Carli found herself at a favorite deli of the boys eating and discussing the album. They went to a house afterwards to jam and work out the songs, and did that every day thereafter. Carli let Travis fall for her as the week moved on, and she found comfort in his touch and is sweet way with her. It was soon Thanksgiving and she was packed to go to Ryan's parents for the night, and Travis dropped her off with a long kiss before going to his own parent's home. She knocked on the door and Ryan's sister Mari opened it with a huge smile and hugged Carli tightly. She was ushered inside and got her bag to her room, taking out her outfit for the next day and hanging it up. She stared at the sweater, remembering Pam's words that day as she shook her head. She started to wonder what they were doing, but she heard Mari calling them down to eat the pizza they had ordered, and she sighed and headed downstairs. They sat around and ate and watched a movie and then headed to the kitchen after changing into pajamas.

The girls made apple, pumpkin, and pecan pies as they all talked, and sipped wine. Carli could not help but to expect Ryan to pop is head in, and she glanced at Elizabeth and saw the sadness etched in her face as well. She looked down before the woman caught her gaze and fell back into the conversation until they all went to bed late that night. She tossed and turned and heard her phone as she frowned. It was Travis texting her good night and she replied with the same. She stared at the phone and then decided to send another text.

I hope you have a good holiday, Eric.

It would be all the better if we were making love right now and celebrating together tomorrow.

Surely you are doing something

Are you at Ryan's?

Yeah. We just finished pies and it was….strange.

I miss you, Carli. I love you.

You do? Then why did you sleep with her?

I knew that you were leaving me soon. I was trying to forget that. I know that you are trying to forget me now as well with Travis. I hope that he is fucking you properly and that you do not call out my name on accident.

You're an asshole

But you are still in love with me. Are you horny like I am, Carli?

That text led to a call where they both helped each other through a heated session of masturbation, and she came as she heard his husky groan. She imagined the cum all over her body as she sighed, and her body twitched with her hard orgasm. He told her that he loved her, and she admitted that she loved him as well. They hung up sadly, and she finally drifted off to sleep. She got up the next day a bit slowly, and took a long shower and dressed in her clothes. Carli brushed her hair back and slid a deep gray hair band into it, and did her make up in a simple liner and deep lipstick. She slid her feet into her heels and went down to help with the massive turkey and the other foods, and family and friends drifted in and out. She finally had a chance after a huge plate of food to find some time to herself, stepping outside to sip her wine and look across the snowy yard. She remembered years past when she and Ryan would build snowmen and play in that same yard. They had so much fun, and she felt a tear slide down her cheek. She blinked and breathed in the cold air, and jumped as she felt hands slide over her hips. "Hey, gorgeous."

"Trav. Are you here early?" Carli asked, and he pulled her against him.

"We ate early and I love Mom's food." Travis told her, and she smiled. "You okay?"

"Just remembering stuff. " Carli replied, and he kissed her hair.

"I don't think either of us can help that." Travis said softly, and she stared at the snow. "Let's go in and warm up, Car." They went in holding hands, and she saw Elizabeth smiling at her. They each had some pie and coffee and she caught up some more with his family about the band. The blog about her moment with Jessica has been under the radar, and there was not a lot of reaction to it somehow. Eric had been digging deep when he found it. The band knew, and she had been honest with them about her recent bisexuality, but since she was with Travis it seemed like they were not concerned. Carli felt lucky in a way, but also that she was living a lie of sorts. She went home with Travis that night, and they had noisy and primal sex all over the house as she was finally allowed to scream as she came. Carli came for Travis inside of her, for Ryan because he was no longer there, and for Eric who was missing her back in New York. She fucked Travis the way she would have Eric by that Christmas tree he mentioned to her, and Travis ate it up. She thanked Lisa and Jimmy silently for going out of town as she collapsed onto the bed, closing her eyes and taking a deep breath. They fell asleep pressed together and she felt herself drifting off to sleep easily after their session. Carli felt him pull her close to him and whisper that he loved her, and she nestled her face against his bare chest.