First things first: I am not SM she owns Twilight…I do however own this story. If you steal it I will find you, hunt you down, and well I don't know what I'll do but it won't be good I assure you. My characters are very perverted, vulgar, and sex hounds so, if you are not an adult get the flipping hell out of this story cuz its rated MA.

I'm surprised there's any water left in the world with as many cold showers you guys took with the lime I gave you. I hope there will be some left after this one cuz theres one hell of a lemon this time.

Dom Edward will show so I have to say one thing so I don't get the WTF reviews.

I have no Dom/sub experience what so ever...I only wish I was collared, spanked, pleasured and tied down nightly...hahaha. The information I get is through reasearch or I ask other people who kinda dabble in the lifestyle. If what I wright is not exactly correct please don't shoot me. At least you get the damn lemon. bruhaha

Mandee my favorite beta and Edwards fang banger...thank you for editing this chapter so damn quickly and getting the lemon part done even faster. I will only assume it's because you had other FF updates to read, but I'm betting your bean needed attention. Hahahaha XOXO

Jess…I know I know no rob porn for a week because I didn't send this one to you. I meant to, but I figured the lemon would make you trip and fall because you wouldn't be forewarned and have your shanties…I was only thinking of you.

I have to give a huge shout out to my pervs in Naughty Secrets they are the coolest bitches ever…thanks Scarlett Isabella for answering my Dom/Sub questions. I heart you tons.

Okay enough babble already I get it...I get it.

Chapter 12: Truths Revealed

EPOV

"I've had worse so don't worry okay." She smiled throwing my words from earlier back at me.

We both laughed as I pulled her into my side. "God I love you."

"What?" She gasped.

I was just as stunned as she was by the fact that shit slipped out of my mouth. What the fuck was I thinking saying some shit like "I love you". I must have been fucking crazy.

"I…um…I" is all I could manage to get out before the Jeopardy theme started playing.

Backpedal…backpedal…backpedal

My brain was screaming at me. I could just easily do such a thing. Fuck I had in the past. I had let shit like that slip in the heat of the moment before, but would fix that shit fast. I would let the bitch know it was just because of the situation and I didn't mean that I was "in love" with them. I could easily and should likely do that now. However, there was one reason not to take that shit back with Bella…I did love her.

I had been trying to deny that shit like no tomorrow, but the fact was at this very moment, my heart was doing flips in my chest. That black cold piece of rock had softened and started getting warmer the minute that shit slipped through my lips. So did I take it back or just man up and say the fucking declaration all over again?

I took a deep breath and looked at Bella who was still staring at me in shock. I took a good look at her face before lying down on the bed and throwing my arm over my own.

"Edward?" She whispered prying for an answer.

"I said…I fucking love you." I sighed hoping it wasn't too muffled by my arm covering my face. There was no way in hell I was repeating myself again.

"I…I…I" She stammered.

"Bella…you don't have to say-"

Her finger pressed against my lips to shut me up. "I love you too." She whispered. I took my arm off my face so I could look at her

"I didn't want to say it before…because I was afraid I would scare you away." She said looking away from me. "But when you were hurt…on the field…and I thought I lost you." She looked up and I could see the tears in her eyes. "I ran as fast as I could…I was going to tell you when I got in the locker room." She sighed and a tear rolled down her cheek.

I wiped it away with the pad of my thumb. "Why didn't you say it to me in the locker room?" I implored.

"I was afraid." She said blushing looking down at her hands sitting in her lap.

"Afraid of what?" I asked sincerely.

"That…that you would-" She swallowed hard.

"That I would what?" I said a little too harshly sitting up.

"Run." She whispered.

I couldn't help the laughter that started deep inside my stomach.

"What's so funny?" Bella scowled.

I was laughing because that is exactly what I would have done. Even though I had been missing her like fucking crazy and wanted time alone with her…even though it irritated me when I would get her fucking voice mail, so much that I would fucking hang up without leaving a message, and nearly throwing my phone in frustration.

I would never admit I was laughing because I was sick of having mother fucking blue balls. I was sick of jacking off and likely had carpel tunnel syndrome. That I couldn't even think about having someone take care of my needs because I had developed a fucking conscience and felt guilty thinking about fucking someone else, and the fact that Emmett was right. That is why I was laughing, but there was no way in hell I was going to tell her that.

"Because I couldn't run with a broken rib." I said through my laughter instead.

I saw the sides of her mouth twitch as she tried to fight a smile. "Do you mean it?" She asked seriously looking up at me through her lashes.

"Yeah…I really mean it."

She smiled the most beautiful smile I had ever seen.

"The question is do you really mean it?" I asked swallowing hard. Her brows furrowed in confusion.

"You don't really know me." I said getting off of the bed.

"I don't understand." She said a little worried.

I needed to do something to find out if this is how she really felt. I needed to show Bella my playroom.

Was I scared shitless? Fuck yes. Was it something that needed to be done? Absofuckinglutely. It was the one thing that would either make or break whatever it was we had. She would either embrace it or run screaming. I was hoping it was the former, but I was expecting the latter.

I held my hand out to her. "Come, I need to show you something." She took my hand and I helped her off the bed.

I would have asked Bella to meet me in the playroom, if she was actually a sub. The fact was she wasn't, but I was going to make this as real as possible. How else was I going to know for sure about her true feelings for me?

"Where are we going?" Bella asked worried as I grabbed my keys off the dresser.

"You'll see." I half smiled because my heart, that had been warm a few minutes ago, was now beating so fast I thought my body was going to fly away.

"Edward we're naked." she said worried, but I just smiled at her reassuringly as I laced our fingers and walked out into the hall. We wouldn't need clothes for what I was planning anyway.

I didn't say a word as I walked to the playroom door and put my key in the lock. I was so fucking nervous I could have puked. I didn't look at her as I turned the key and opened the door, for fear of the look on her face. She walked inside and I took my place behind her and wrapped my arms around her waist.

"Holy shit!" She gasped.

I could only imagine what was going through her head as she saw my shit. Everything was organized and put away properly in this damn place. My OCD got the best of me in here, but it made the play much easier.

In front of her were my shelves full of toys. The vibrators were organized by length then girth. I had anything from six inches to twelve inches and nothing was smaller than three inches around. On the right were my anal beads, also organized in the same fashion as the vibrators and to the left was my assortment of nipple and genital clamps. They too were organized, smallest to largest and then by level of pain.

On the wall, next to the shelves, hung rows of floggers and canes of many different sizes and varieties. My whipping bench was on the floor to the right of her, and hanging on the wall next to it was different restraining devices; zip ties, ropes, Velcro straps and my favorite, handcuffs.

My ball gags were lined on a table, under the restraining devices, smallest to largest, the blindfolds sat next to them and finally my bed sat in the middle. It was a king size, brass bed, with more than one way to strap someone down. I loved that fucking thing like no other.

"This is me Isabella do you think you can handle it?" I said brushing my mouth across her shoulder.

She just nodded probably still trying to absorb what she was seeing.

"I have to have the control Bella, I know it all stems from Jessica, without it I just can't get off like I need to…this is my way and if you…embrace it…then in here I own this body." I said as I rubbed my hands across her stomach. "I get to do with it as I please." I cupped both her breasts, "Here" I said and pinched her nipples making her gasp.

"I get to do what I want to this." I said sticking my thumb in her mouth, "and this" I said rubbing my hands over her ass. She gasped and I felt her clench her muscles together. I couldn't help but smile, because in here it was mine to do with what I wanted. If she wanted to be part of my world she had to understand everything.

"And mostly here." I said sliding my hand down and running my finger up and down her folds. "This is mine to do with as I see fit. If I don't want you to come you won't." I said as I dipped my finger inside of her and realized how turned on she truly was being in here. She was fucking wet as hell. "If I want you to come twenty times you will." I said as I slid my finger up to her clit and started circling it. "And I will pleasure you in ways you have never known, but I'm not sure you can handle it."

She didn't say anything just moaned as I continued stroking her. I felt my dick twitch and soon I was sporting wood the size of Texas. I rubbed it across her ass trying to get some friction. She didn't protest, probably because I was now sucking on her neck and rubbing her nipple with my finger. I stopped abruptly making her protest from the lack of contact. I left her standing in the spot she was because I was harder than hell and wanted to play.

I walked over to my shelf that had vibrators, anal beads, and clamps. I ran my finger across them until I found the one I wanted. It was seven inches and had six speeds. I picked it up and heard a gasp.

"What is that for?" She said with her eyes wide.

"It's a vibrator Isabella." I laughed. "It's what we're going to start with." I said and walked over to my table of blindfolds.

"Start with?" She choked out.

"Yes…you said you loved me, but until you truly know me how can you be sure?" I said without looking at her as I picked up a blindfold and my Velcro restraints.

"You want to do this NOW?" She gasped.

"Yes…Is there a reason we shouldn't?" I asked facing her.

"I…I…I can't do this…this is not what…I…holy shit!" She said and covered her mouth.

I furrowed my brows in confusion. She was acting like a virgin whose boyfriend just asked for a blowjob. It wasn't like she was new at this shit. She told me she done this before.

"Bella…this may be a little different play than you have done before-"

"I've never done it before Edward." She blurted out quickly.

My eyes grew wide as I registered what she just said. Then I got fucking furious because how the fuck was I going to do this shit without problems.

"You told me you had tried this shit before." I growled.

"I lied…I didn't' think you would go out with me if you knew I was inexperienced." She said looking down to the floor.

"What do you mean inexperienced?" I questioned a little too annoyed and she didn't answer me. I walked over to her and lifted her chin so she was looking at me.

"Isabella…what do you mean inexperienced?" I said more calmly.

"As in…only had one sex partner…Jake…before you inexperienced." She whispered.

"What?" I yelled making her jump.

"I've only had consensual sex once in my life before you and it was with Jake." She said shakily.

"Are you fucking kidding me?"

She shook her head no.

"Jesus Christ…that throws a huge ass problem into the mix." I groaned and rubbed my face with my free hand. There was no way in hell I could do anything with her like I wanted. She would be torn to shreds. Well fuck.

"I'm so sorry." She said and her voice broke.

I looked up and saw the tears running down her face. I quickly walked over to her and lifted her chin.

"Bella…baby…I'm still going to show you." I said soothing. I would just have to be extra careful and not get carried away. I would have to start out with easy shit and work my way up…assuming that she wanted to try.

"What…you…you still want to?" She asked shocked.

I smiled. "Why wouldn't I?"

"Because…I don't know what to…do." She said looking back down to the floor.

"Well then I'll teach you." I grabbed her hand and walked her over to the shelf with vibrators.

"Let's start with the basics." I said holding up the vibrator I still had in my hand "This is a vibrator."

"I know what it is Edward…I'm inexperienced not dead." She rolled her eyes.

"Okay smart ass… I'm not above spanking you." I smiled. "Is there anything in here you have questions about?"

She took her time and looked around. She had a few questions about different things like the ball gags and the bell. I explained in detail what they were for. She told me the canes and whips scared her and so they were out. She grimaced when we talked about the anal sex, but she didn't object which was a good thing. I knew maybe someday she would be open to doing it. After about an hour of twenty questions Bella seemed satisfied enough and relaxed.

"So do you still want to try it?" She asked me and blushed.

"Fuck yes!" I growled making her giggle.

"What do I do?" She said looking around.

"Hmmm…I think I want you to lie down on the bed." I said motioning toward it.

"Okay." She blushed but didn't hesitate to get on my bed.

I grabbed the stuff I had sat down earlier and walked over to the bed and sat down next to her.

"Bella can I ask you something?" I said as I laid the vibrator, blind fold and ties down.

"Of course." She smiled.

"What do you know how to do…sexually?" I asked as calmly as possible because I had a visual of the fucktard Jake inside Bella.

She shrugged and looked away.

"Have you ever given a blow job?" I asked unfastening the Velcro.

"I have never…given anyone a blowjob." She blushed.

"How's your gag reflex?" I waggled my eyebrows.

She rolled her eyes. "I guess we'll find out won't we?"

"Oh we'll find out baby…we'll find out." I said reaching above her head and fastening the strap to the brass head board. I saw her watching me so I figured I better explain.

"I'm going to fasten your hands to the bed and blind fold you."

She started to panic.

"It's okay baby…I promise…I won't hurt you." I said reassuringly.

"Can…can we just do one or the other this first time please?" She said still worried as I reached down and grabbed her right arm.

"It will make it much better if you can't see." I said fastening her left arm above her head by the right one.

"I…I okay." She sighed and closed her eyes.

"Bella…baby look at me please." I waited for her to open her eyes. "I promise you…I will not hurt you…and we will use a safe-word." I said reaching for the blindfold.

"Safe-word?" She questioned and I realized I forgot to explain that shit before.

"A safe-word is a word we agree upon and if you say it at all then I will stop what I am doing immediately and release you." I smiled.

"Promise?" She said a little more relaxed.

"Promise." I smiled and then put the blindfold on her.

Bella shivered. "Baby…you okay?" I asked concerned.

"Yeah I'm fine…I'm just a little cold." She hesitantly said, but I wasn't convinced. I went to pull the blindfold off of her and just go with the ties, but she stopped me.

"Edward its okay I promise." She smiled half heartedly. "I'm just nervous."

"Okay baby…if you want me to stop at any time just say…apple." I smiled and cupped her face with my hand.

"Apple…why not just stop?" She questioned turning her head toward me.

"Because sometimes we say stop when we don't mean it this way there will be no confusion." I said standing up off of the bed.

"Oh…okay." She said nodding.

I walked over to my shelves because I wanted to test her senses a little more. I also wanted her to relax or this would never work. I could tell by the movements of her chest she was no where near as fine as she had said. I wasn't sure if it was a trust issue or something different all together. I did know I needed to calm her down. She was already tight enough and if she was tense too I would tear her.

I picked up the smallest pinwheel I owned. It would be the least evasive item plus I was very certain it would calm her down. I walked back to the bed and positioned myself so I was standing by her foot closest to the edge.

"Baby…you need to relax." I said soothingly and placed the pinwheel on her big toe.

"W…what's that?" She gasped.

"Trust me Bella…do you remember your safe-word?"

"Uh…apple?" It came out as more of a question.

"Good girl…say it if you want me to stop." I said and started running the pinwheel down her foot toward her knee.

"Oh…god." She gasped and I smiled as I saw her relax.

"Shh just feel baby."

I took my time running it up her thigh. She squirmed and moaned in pleasure as I reached her hip. I rolled it up her stomach to her breast and watched as her nipple got harder. Slowly I ran the wheel up the bottom of her breast across her right nipple and up to her collar bone.

"Oh. My. God." She moaned as I rolled it down her other side and across her left nipple. This time when I reached her pussy I gently rolled it across the top of her folds. She withered underneath my touch and I knew I could continue with my plan. She was definitely relaxed and ready by the way the wheel was glistening with moisture.

"You're so wet for me already baby." I said setting the pinwheel on the small lamp stand next to the bed. She moaned in response.

I picked the vibrator up off the bed

"Isabella…open your mouth."

I took the vibrator and placed the tip of it on her tongue when she did what she was told.

"Good girl…now get this wet for me." I said sliding it in and out across her tongue.

"Fuck." I groaned as she closed her lips around it. "Are you sure you've never given head?" I said as my erection got harder wishing it was me in her mouth instead.

Soon very soon.

"Never." She gurgled around the vibrator.

"Open your legs for me." I said taking the vibrator out of her mouth.

I positioned myself at the end of the bed and kissed the inside of her thigh. She moaned in response just as I was hoping. I licked my way to her pussy and gently opened her folds with two fingers.

"Are you ready to cum for me?" I asked her and flicked my tongue across her clit.

"Yes." She hissed.

"I'm going to pleasure you in ways you've never even imagined." I flattened my tongue and ran it up the length of her folds before flicking her clit again.

"Edward…please." She pleaded.

"Please what Isabella? I want to hear what you want." I flicked my tongue again.

"More of what you're doing." She whimpered, but I wanted…no I needed to hear the exact words.

I circled her clit with my tongue once and stopped. "I want to hear the words Isabella…tell me what you want." I said and flicked her bundle of nerves again.

"I…I want you to…use your tongue to make me cum." She said and I could see the blush on her face.

"MMM…that is what I wanted to hear." I said and started devouring her as she wanted. Bella arched her back and moaned pushing herself deeper into my face. I knew she would be ready. I continued using my tongue on her clit as I took the vibrator and lined it up with her opening. I gently pushed the tip in.

"Oh…God." Bella moaned and pulled on the restraints. I slid the vibrator the rest of the way in and allowed her body to become use to it. I continued with my tongue as I turned the dial to speed three.

"Jesus…Christ!" Bella gasped in pleasure, which caused my erection to become painful.

I lifted my head "Does that feel good Isabella?" I said and slowly pulled the vibrator back out.

"Shit…yes…don't stop…I want more tongue." She panted.

"You'll get it baby don't you worry." I said sliding the vibrator back in. I turned the dial up to six and tipped it upward inside her. I started pulling it back out slowly. Bella gasped and I knew I had found that soft spot where I wanted it. I flipped the dial up to eight before repositioning myself between her legs.

Bella started panting heavy and I knew she was getting close. I used both of my hands to open her as wide as I could before leaning in.

"I want to hear you cum Isabella." I started moving my tongue in circles around her bundle of nerves. Her breath hitched.

"Edward…oh god…Edward." She arched her back.

"That's it baby I want to hear you." I said and quickened my pace.

"I…oh god…I'm gonna-" She screamed my name and her body jerked upward. I replaced my tongue with my finger as I gently pulled out the vibrator. I didn't bother turning it off as I flung it onto the floor. I quickly repositioned myself so I was kneeling between her legs. I didn't want her to come down before I could enter her. She was going to be tight and wet and I wanted to be inside her now.

"You okay baby?" I asked as I removed my finger. I didn't get an answer just a whorish moan as I grabbed the backs of her legs and lifted them over my shoulders. I ran my dick up and down her folds, to get me wet, and she moaned again. I lined up and stuck just the tip in making sure she would be able to take me. It was tight, but not undoable. I slid myself in slowly…to slowly…and we both moaned as our hips came together.

"Edward." She panted as I started a slow deep rhythm.

"Yes baby." I said through gritted teeth because her tightness was definitely going to make me come fast if I didn't concentrate.

"Can…oh god…can you take the blindfold off…I want to see you…oh faster please faster." She panted and I picked up my pace. I wasn't going to take off her blindfold, but then as I felt her walls start to clench I knew I wanted to see her eyes when she came. I braced myself on one arm and took off the blindfold. She blinked quickly, but her eyes didn't stay open as I rammed her harder.

"Look at me Isabella." I growled feeling the tension building inside me. I was so close.

She blinked and opened her eyes.

"That's it baby look at me…I want to see your eyes." I said and placed my hands on the mattress on either side of her head. We were nose to nose and staring into each others soul as I started moving hard and fast. I felt her walls tighten that last little bit and her eyes started to close as she tensed up.

"Isabella…look at me…keep…your…eyes…open." I growled as I reached between us and started rubbing her clit. We got lost in each others eyes as we both screamed the others name.

As soon as I was able to move, from where I collapsed on top of her, I quickly undid her restraints.

"Are you okay?" I asked as I gently messaged her wrists.

"I'm soooo okay." she panted still trying to catch her breath. I pulled her into my side until she was lying on my chest.

"You're wrong you know." She said.

"About what?" I furrowed my brows in confusion because it was so random I had no fucking clue what she was talking about.

"This room and you needing this." She said rubbing circles in my chest hair.

"I'm lost." I chuckled.

"You said you need the control to get off…but…it's exactly the same…outside of this room as it is in it." She stated matter-of-factly as she lifted her head to look at me.

She must have noticed my confusion and elaborated.

"Edward…we've been together a few times now…and I may not be experienced…but I do pay attention…and each time you have the same face when you-" She blushed and hid her face back in my chest.

She didn't finish, but she didn't have too. I hadn't noticed it until this very moment, but she was right. Every time I've had sex with Bella my orgasm was just as intense as it was tonight in the playroom.

O-O-O-O-O-O-O-O-O

Somewhere in Forks a run down house sits in the middle of nowhere. It should be condemned and probably would be if the authorities were allowed to come onto the land. Inside isn't much better and no sane person would live here.

The walls are falling apart, a barrel with a fire in it keeps the place warm, and the bathroom is filthy. The crazy stalker paces his floor running a knife up and down his face trying to figure out where the "bitch" Bella is. The shack he calls home is very run down; rat infested and smells of death. Probably, because he can't help but kill the cute little kittens that wander onto his door step, and leave the rotting corpses lying around. They remind him of her and he can't help but slit their throats in anger.

"Where the fuck is she? There's no trace of her anywhere." He says to himself and stabs the map on the desk. It has red X's on it everywhere.

"You're so stupid. How you could let her get away is beyond me." He says hitting himself in the head. "Stupid…stupid…stupid…you are worthless and no good." He starts pacing again pulling out his hair for release. He finally stops his abuse of himself and plops down onto the rotting mattress lying on the floor.

"I swear to god Bitch when I fucking find you I'm going to finish what I started…you belong to me and only me and I will fucking have you." He says to her pictures hanging on his wall.

"I will have that beautiful mouth around me again." He purrs and unzips his pants. Before he can violate himself with thoughts of her the phone rings. He doesn't bother putting himself back inside his pants, because as soon as he gets rid of whatever mother fucker is on the phone he's going to come to her memory over and over until he's rubbed raw.

"What the fuck…oh it's you." He says with a smile into the phone and quiets to listen to the voice on the line.

"What do you mean you're with her?" The crazy man growls and grips the phone almost breaking it. "Why didn't you call me...Well yes I want to…no I haven't been seen…yes I'm sure…can I have her though…You promised me last time I could have her." The crazy man wines like a child while rocking back and forth as the voice on the line soothes him.

"Yes…I promise I'll wait for you to call me before I do anything." The crazy man smiles calmly. "I miss you…when are you coming to see me…can we do her together?" The stalker sits down on his bed and absent mindedly reaches down and starts stroking himself. "I'll be waiting for your call." He purrs and hangs up with a smile. The stalker then strokes himself with memories of someone other than Bella.

*whew* that was intense wasn't it.

Dom Edward can tie me up anytime.

Stalker guy is nuts isn't he and who the hell was on the phone. Are you guys irritated yet. Lol.

I'm not telling you who he is, but soon enough it will all come out.

I'm not sure when the next chapter will be up...i haven't even started writing it yet. I have had a crazy schedule at work and next weeks even more scary. I promise the next chapter will be worth the wait. *whispers* The jig will be up and Edward gets clued in.

I will be posting teasers and anything else I think you guys deserve on the blog rupturebyme (dot) blogspot (dot) com.

Now go use up all the water in the world taking your cold showers. ;-)