The Alpha Female
JacobxBella
Rated M
Disclaimer: I don't own Twilight or the franchise, as it belongs to Steph Meyers
The Alpha Female
Chapter 5
When Bella woke up the next morning, her features had returned to normal. Getting up from bed she walked from her room to the bathroom, grabbing a towel from the towel closet and getting into the shower. As she washed herself she couldn't help but hiss at the parts of her body where Edward had touched and burned her the night before when she washed over them. Getting out of the shower she towel dried her hair before wrapping herself with the towel. Looking into the mirror she was surprised to see her skin sporting pinkish burns, exactly where Edward had touched her.
"So his touch really does burn me now," Bella softly said, lightly trailing her fingertips along the burns, wincing as she grazed a particularly sore spot. Sighing she said, "There's got to be a way to fix this. I can't avoid Edward forever."
Shaking her head she set to brushing her teeth, then moving to her bedroom to find clothes when she was done.
Stepping out of her house she was surprised to see Embry standing next to her truck dressed in a black t-shirt and blue jeans, grey shoes on his feet. Locking the door she walked over to him and said, "Hi Embry."
"Hey Bella," he said in return.
"Um, what are you doing here?"
"Jacob asked me to escort you to school."
Bella sighed before saying, "I don't need escorting to school, but thanks anyway."
Embry scratched the back of his head sheepishly and replied, "I know, trust me. But he just wants me to make sure you don't run into any of your vamps and you end up going all Alpha Female in public."
"I'm not the Alpha Female, and I don't want to be."
"Dude, do you think we chose to be spirit wolf Shifters? None of us wished this for ourselves, but we've accepted it. You should just accept your situation for what it is as well."
Bella walked over to the driver's side of her truck and got in, Embry getting in on the passenger side. After cranking up the old red truck and backing out of the driveway, she drove off to school. As she did she said, "Embry, I can't. If I just accept this and decide to live with this, then I can't be with Edward."
Embry looked at her strangely and said, "You know, I've been wondering this for a while now. But exactly what is so special about him that you are willing to end your life for him? No offense, but I don't see any perk to being one of them, knowing you're damned to walk the earth forever, forever bloodthirsty and just existing until the end of time."
"Well, when I become a vampire, I won't be so plain and clumsy Bella anymore; I'll be beautiful and graceful. I'll be able to be with Edward forever and have the family that I've always wanted. I know it may all just sound vain and crazy, but I know what I want and I'm going to have it."
It was quiet in the truck as Bella drove through the two towards Forks High School. She could feel Embry looking at her and she refused to acknowledge him. It wasn't until she stopped at a stoplight did he speak saying, "If I knew Jake wouldn't kill me for it, I'd smack you in your face right now."
"Embry!"
"Do you hear yourself, Bella? You act like everything you want you don't already have. You are not plain; in fact, you're really pretty actually. And as for being clumsy, Quil is a klutz twenty-four seven. And the family you always wanted thing? You have plenty of family around you if you just open your eyes and see it. You have Charlie, you have Billy, you have Jake, you have me and Quil, and from what I've heard from Sam, Leah. And I'm sure you have your mom, though I've never seen her. You have all sorts of family around you."
"But it's not like the Cullens."
"Not every family is going to be perfect like theirs. The Pack? We're very dysfunctional."
"Because of me."
"Not just you, we all are dealing with things in our own personal lives and everyone in the Pack knows about it. There's Jake's devotion to you, but that's not surprising. There's the whole Sam/Emily/Leah Imprint thing. Paul's short temper due to his home life; don't mention I said that. And as for me, the talk about who my father is because no one knows and my mother refuses to tell me. We're not perfect and we all have baggage, but we're a family and though we're still dealing with it, we acknowledge it and the fact that we're a family and can depend on each other, no matter how dysfunctional we can be. Bella, life and family isn't perfect like the Cullens portray themselves to be. They are unnaturally perfect and everyone in town and around the area knows it. And it's not just because they never seem to have any problems and portray themselves as the perfect family. And you wanting to be a part of that just tells me that for someone that wants to change themselves to be like them, you're just going to walk into another chapter of dysfunction in your life, but you'll forever be stuck with it."
Bella gripped the steering wheel in anger and finally yelled, "What do you want me to do, Embry?! I just want to have a normal life and a normal family! I want some normalcy and consistency in my life for once! Is that too much to ask?!"
Embry was surprised by the brunette's sudden outburst, but he knew he had gotten through to her somewhat, so it wasn't all bad. As Bella pulled into the parking lot of the school, Embry noticed Edward looking their way, a frown on his face at seeing him in the truck with Bella. Turning to look at the brunette next to him he said, "I didn't mean to upset you, Bella; I really didn't. But just know that life is forever changing and no matter how you want it to go or how set in stone you think it is because you choose it to be, life will flip the script on you and throw you for a loop. And in your case, it's telling you that whatever you've envisioned for yourself and set in stone in your mind, it's no longer going to be that. You can't always get and have what you want. And you being a vampire in the future is something you want, but you'll never have now. I don't mean to sound like an ass or anything, but just accept that your path in life has changed once again, and there's nothing you can do to change it."
With a small smile Embry climbed out of the truck, walking away from her truck and down the street away from the school. Bella watched him go as tears filled her eyes before laying her head against the steering wheel, letting out a somewhat frustrated breath of air. She liked Embry, she really did, but she wished he hadn't come to talk to her. She really didn't need to hear that her wish to not be the Alpha Female was never to come to pass and that she should just accept things as they were. Even Leah had suggested she just accept her new situation, but she didn't want to. Yet she felt as if she was being wore down and would eventually just have to accept that she was the Alpha Female and that she couldn't be around Edward and the Cullens any longer, not without partially phasing.
A knock on her window startled her and she looked up wide-eyed to see Edward looking in at her. His amber eyes were looking at her concerned and he beckoned her to step outside of her truck so they could talk. Bella's hand went to unbuckle her seatbelt, but she instead paused. Something in her told her not to, no matter what her brain told her. Instead her hand cranked the red truck once again and she put the truck in reverse, her sudden action surprising Edward. She backed all the way into the road and headed back into Forks to head towards La Push.
She decided she wasn't going to go to school today. She needed more answers about her dilemma, and either Billy or Old Quil was going to give them to her. It didn't matter who, but someone was going to help her through this.