This was going to be a short update. Oh, well!
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Wednesday Morning
Jane jumps out of bed and begins to pace. She grabs Jo's leash and takes her for a quick walk.
"Mommy's in trouble Jo. I had a dream about Maura last night."
That's a good thing Mom! I dream of nice lady Maura too.
"She's my best friend and best friends don't have dreams like that."
"I dream she rubs my belly. I like my belly rubbed. Did she rub your belly Mom?"
"I need to go at a little faster pace than this girl, so I'm going to get you settled inside and go run at work ok? You be a good girl."
Jane grabs the clothes she plans to wear at work and heads to the BPD gym. She finds an open treadmill and starts to run.
I'm not gay. I have sex with guys.
OK, it's been a while since I've had sex, maybe that's the problem.
Maura would say it's a problem. She would say it's causing me stress and making my
subconscious think thoughts, watching half naked women walk the runway and Maura always spouting off about sex. Ya, messing with my thoughts.
She would tell me to have sex.
I'm not attracted to women. There are women that are attracted to me. They let me know that, but I have no interest in them.
Could that have changed? No, don't think so. I'll go to Evidence today and see if Pam is in. She'll flirt with me and I'll see if I feel anything.
There's also the woman at the coffee shop we sometimes go to.I'll get a coffee there today or tomorrow.
Ok, ya. That's a plan. I'll do a little research. Maura would appreciate that.
Maura pulls in early and is surprised to see Jane's car already in the parking lot.
She walks by the gym and sees Jane on the treadmill and smiles.
I know you Jane. You look tired, so you did not sleep well, dreams perhaps? And you are still running. Sorry Jane, no matter how much you run, I plan to catch you!
Maura smiles and continues to the morgue to work on some reports.
Jane finishes her run and hits the shower. She feels calmer and more in control once again. She has a plan, that always makes Jane feel better.
Jane works on some reports before she casually mentions that she's heading down to Evidence to check on something.
Ok, here goes nothing. Shit. What if I do feel something? Am I doing the right thing. Man up Rizzoli. Haha. Funny.
"Hey, Pam. How's it going?"
Pam looks up to see Jane and gives her a seductive smile. "Why Detective, what do I owe this honor?"
"I wanted to check out the evidence in the Wagner case."
"No problem, would you like to look at it back it or sign it out?"
"I'll just look at it back there if you don't mind, less paperwork." And more time to see if I feel anything.
Pam grabs the box and watches as Jane takes everything out and makes notes in a file she is carrying. They chat about the importance of correct chain of evidence and Pam's hopes to go into the Drug Unit. She smiles at Jane, brushes against her when walking around the table.
Nope, nothing. Her perfume is nice, but does nothing to me. Ya, I noticed the brush, but again, nothing. Whew.
"Thanks for everything, Pam."
"Anytime, Detective, anytime."
Jane heads back to the bullpen when she feels a text come in on her phone.
Maura: Would you care to join me for lunch?
Jane smiles and quickly typed back.
Jane: Sure. Cafe in 30?
Maura: I'll meet you there.
Maura walks into the cafeteria and sees Jane sitting in a booth and heads her way.
Jane watches as Maura walks toward her.
Dressed perfectly, as usual. I love her smile. Ug. Snap out of it.
"Hey Maura, how's your day going?"
"My day is going well, Jane. How about yours? You look a little tired. Did you sleep well?"
Maura gives Jane a concerned look.
"My day is going great. Uh, slept ok, some dreams." A slow flush start to creep up Jane's neck.
"Really? Do you remember what they were? Do you want to talk about them?" Maura is smirking on the inside.
Let me think about that a minute Maur. HELL NO!
"Uh, I don't really remember them." Jane could feel her face get warm. She remembers the dreams all too clearly.
Their lunch arrives and the conversation flows to a safe zone of the current case they are working on.
At the end of lunch, Maura reaches over and lightly traces her finger over Jane's hand.
"Remember to carry gloves with you in your car now that the weather has turned colder, to protect your hands."
Jane tries to repress a shiver caused by Maura's touch.
"Uh, yes. Thank you. I will."
Maura's phone beeps and she reads a text message. "I have to get back to the morgue, some lab results have come in." She gets out of the booth gracefully and walks away.
Jane watches the way Maura's hips sway.
Shitshitshitshit. Sigh.
The afternoon drags on for Jane. She feels discombobulated. She snaps at Frost and Korsak if they even look at her. Finally, she growls.
"I'm calling it a day guys. If you need me, I'll be down in the gym."
Frost and Korsak just nod their heads, the safest thing to do.
Jane changes back into her gym clothes, grateful they weren't too nasty from the run this morning and starts to pound on the heavy bag.
How does she do that to me?
She's just Maura. She's kind and sweet and touchy feeling to everyone, right?
I'm just over tired. I'm going to keep punching this bag until my arms feel like they're going to fall off.
Stop thinking.
Maura went up to Homicide to drop off the lab results, hoping she would find Jane at her desk.
Frost shook his head. "Sorry, Doc. Jane was in a mood and decided to go work out in the gym. I'll make sure she gets the notes."
"Thank you Frost. Have a pleasant evening."
Maura decides to go past the gym on her way out to her car. She glanced in and saw Jane punching the heavy bag, a gleam of sweat on her olive skin. Maura felt a tingling watching the power of Jane.
Jane, if you would only realize that you are fighting yourself!
Jane finishes the workout, goes home, showers, grabs a beer and leftovers from the fridge and collapses on the couch to eat. She is so tired that as soon as she finishes eating, she goes to bed and drifts into a dreamless sleep.
Thurday morning.
Jane wakes up and realizes that she had no dreams last night.
Whew! Ok. Plan for today. Same workout as yesterday. Get coffee at the shop where that girl works. Avoid Maura. Stay plan.
And so it went. Jo's walk. Go to the gym at work, run, shower and to her desk for paperwork.
"I'm headed out to get some coffee guys, want anything?"
"I'm good, Jane, thank you. Maybe a donut?" Korsak had a weakness for his donuts.
"Mind if I take a ride with you Jane? I want to get away from this paperwork."
Hmmm, is that safe for my experiment? Why not. It's not like I'm going to flirt with her. I'm want to see if I like her flirting with me.
"No problem, Frost. I'll drive." Frost rolled his eyes.
They arrive at the coffee bar about a block away. The barista's eyes light up when she sees Jane.
"Hey, stranger! It's been a while since you've come in here."
Frost raises his eyebrow.
"Ya, I know. It has been a while. I'll have..."
"Let me guess, you want a Mocha Grande with whipped and a splash of caramel."
"Wow, you remember!"
"Of course I remember my favorite customer's orders." She winks at Jane.
Frost is watching the exchange. He places his order while the woman continues to chat it up with his partner.
"Order up!"
They grab their coffees and head out the door.
"I hope I see you again soon beautiful!"
Jane smiles and waves at her and climbs in her car.
Again, attractive, fun, but nothing. See, no problem.
"Mind telling me what that was about partner?"
"What do you mean?"
"I mean that woman coming onto you and giving you her number."
"She did no such thing, Frost."
"Jane. Look at your coffee cup." Jane takes the coffee out of its holder and turns it around. There, on the back, was a phone number.
"Oh. Maybe she meant it for you."
"I don't think so. Want to share anything with me?"
"What? No! You can have the number if you want. I'm not interested."
They get back to the precinct and walk past the cafeteria.
"Jane! Barry!" Angela Rizzoli shouts out to them.
"What, Ma!"
"Where are your mittens and hats for the mitten tree?" Angela points out a Christmas tree adorned with mittens and hats for donations. "Did you forget?"
"What? No, of course not Ma. We'll bring ours down later, right Frost?" Guess I'm going shopping at lunch!
"Uh, right. Yes, Mz. Rizzoli. Lunch time."
"I better see something from both of you!"
Riding the elevator up to their floor, Jane turns to Frost. "Wanna flip to see who's going shopping?"
Frost laughs.
This could work out. I'll just volunteer to go and avoid Maura for lunch. It's a creepy thing to do, but I need to see if I have any of those dreams when I don't see her.
Lunch time rolled around and Jane volunteered to go shopping.
"Ok guys, did any of you get mittens or hats for the MittenTree downstairs that Mom is in charge of? Frankie was upstairs visiting and slapped his forehead.
"Ug, I forgot!"
"Ante up guys and I'll get enough to cover all of us."
The men pulled out their wallets and gave the money to Jane.
"Thanks Jane. It's a good cause, I just forgot."
"I agree, and I forgot too. It's easy to forget when you have the stuff, ya know? But that's not an excuse. Our department will be well represented!"
While Jane is gone, Maura comes up to homicide to visit. She looks at the empty desk and raises her eyebrow.
"She's out shopping for the Mitten Tree doc, for the whole department."
"That's very kind of her. Please tell Jane that I stopped by. Thank you gentlemen."
Hmmmm. Avoidance now? I'll give you until tomorrow Jane.
Jane comes back and sneaks her purchases upstairs to the guys. They all take turns going down to the cafeteria and dropping off their donations and Angela is thrilled.
As for Jane, she finishes her day the exact same way as yesterday. A good workout with the bag, shower at the gym, grabbed a burger for home and settled in on the couch with a beer and mindless television.
Jo jumped on the couch next to Jane and Jane scratched her tummy.
"I don't know Jo. I was busy today, but it seemed like an empty day. I didn't even text Maura."
Mom! You miss nice lady Maura. Jo wants to visit Maura. Jo thinks you should talk to Maura tomorrow. Maura make Jo happy, Maura make you happy Mom. Can't you see that? Silly human!
"Ready for bed Jo? I'll text Maura in the morning to make sure she's free for lunch."
Good Mom!
A/N: As I said in the beginning, this was going to be a short update to show how Jane is starting to recognize that she is noticing things that she thinks she shouldn't. Here begins "Jane's struggle." Hope you like it. Thank you, as always, for your kind reviews! I love them!