No, this is not a chapter, but it has an effing important message to get across.
I have gotten QUITE a few reviews telling me that since I am not updating, they are becoming "bored, loosing interest, and even TIRED" of my story.
Well do I have something to say to you.
To start off with, you don't even KNOW me. You don't know what's going on in my life to keep me from updating. For all you know, I could be fighting cancer. And oh boy, do I have perfectly good reasons why NOT to be updating. I have this little thing called a LIFE. I have friends, family, coaches, and teachers all to keep up with. I play 3 sports at once, work my butt off in all of them, get straight A's, have 4 siblings, live on a farm, wake up at 5,and continue to be social afterwards. I can barely get enough SLEEP, much less work on a chapter.
And reasons why this two months are different than any other? Let's start in February.
What if I told you it was my birthday? What if I told you it was valentine's day? What if i told you my math grade dropped drastically because of my dyslexia and I only had 2 tests to fix it? What if I told you I was doing COMMUNITY SERVICE as a tutor at a local drop-out elementary school? What if I told you it was spring break? What if I told you my parents were pushing me way past my limits? Emotionally and physically? What if I told you my mom hit me for the first time since 5th grade? What if I told you I talked my best friend out of suicide? What if I told you someone called me ugly and fat for the first time? What if I told you I tried out bulimia? What if I told you it scared me so bad, I stopped eating.
Would you ask me update my FanFiction story?
I didn't think so.
And also, I really don't have to write this story AT ALL. Period. There is no one holding a gun to my head and making me write. I could just stop writing all together! How would you feel then? Would you be bored with my story? Sick and tired of it? Loosing interest? Don't abuse it guys. This is a delicacy.
And also do you exactly know how it feels when you bring someone down? It hurts. I promise. You've probably felt it yourself. Do you know something about flames guys? Some people don't take flames well. Heck, some people don't even take constructive criticism well! But one thing about me, I don't take flames well. At all. If I can remember correctly, I even deleted all of my stories because of one. ALL OF THEM. I eventually reposted 2 out of the 6, but it hurt. morning I cried until I made myself sick and had to be sent home from school.
Are you completely happy inside that you completely ruined my spring break? I was having a nice time at the pool before I came back and saw the last review that set me over! Does it make you feel good inside? I really hope it doesn't. This site is for setting your imagination free; being yourself. Sometimes I wonder where it's gone.
I'm sorry if I'm being a little harsh, but as you know I've been through a lot lately. And this was not something that brought my mood up.
And now you have now witnessed my PMS pissed off rant. Be happy you were on that side of the internet. No other person has lived to tell the story.
But if you did not write me review saying you where loosing interest in my story because I wasn't updating, this is not for you. I REPEAT: THIS IS NOT FOR YOU. 99.9999999999% of you have written me WONDERFUL reviews and PMs that really made me smile, laugh, and cry. I love you guys so much and you remind me that there are actually good people out there in this big, angry world. You guys are the fuel that keeps me going in really bad times. I love every single one of you out there and would love to hear anything from you. If you guys are having any problems at all, feel free to come talk to me. Sometime it's good to talk to someone who's not there but still cares. It's the least I can do for all your extraordinary support.
And, I am happy to admit, the chapter is ALMOST done. I have a little bit of fluffy Percabeth to add, then it will be out in the open!
I love you guys. All of you.
Be strong.
Love,
The Artemis