"So, you're an only child, huh?"
Naruto was lying on his back on the floor with his legs up on the bed.
"Yup, it's only me."
Sasuke was pulling on some loose thread on a pillow in his bed.
"Do you live with your parents?"
Sasuke had realized that he knew pretty much nothing about the blonde, and had therefore made time for a little chit chat about his life back in Sweden. He wanted to get to know all of him, after all.
Naruto shook his head.
"Nah, I moved in with Sakura about half a year ago."
Sasuke tried to ignore the fact that the name put a jealous feeling in his stomach. He felt jealous that the blonde had actually had an everyday life with that girl and he felt jealous that he himself wasn't the one who had been dating Naruto for so long. He knew that he was being ridiculous, though; it wasn't strange that the blonde had been in relationships before. Actually, it was rather normal for a twenty year old guy to have an ex, if not more than one.
"How many girls have you been going out with?"
Naruto laughed a bit nervously and shook his head again.
"Only Sakura."
The jealousy got even worse. Sasuke, for Christ's sake, stop being such a girl! It was probably really hard for Naruto now that the breakup had gotten some time to sink in; it had been three days, and for all Sasuke knew, the blonde hadn't called Sakura since they broke up. The raven was pretty happy about that fact, but he could see that it was getting to Naruto. They had been going out for two whole years, after all. Sasuke had to keep telling himself to be patient and understanding, but damn, that was hard when all he wanted to do was to jump into bed with the blonde and tell him that he loved him.
"How about you?"
Sasuke got back to reality and had to think for a second to remember what they had been talking about. He cleared his throat in a try to fade that angsty tone his voice would have to it.
"I guess I've gone out with a couple of guys, but only one got serious."
That seemed to catch Naruto's attention, since he got up and leaned on his elbows.
"Should I be jealous?"
Butterflies. Naruto, jealous? Sasuke chuckled silently and shrugged, not sure what to say. The blonde smiled and lied back down on the floor again, hands behind his neck.
"What was he like?"
Sasuke smiled when he thought about how much alike Naruto and Kiba were. They'd probably get along just fine; they had the same energy and, without doubt, the same sense of humor.
"Like you, kinda."
Naruto laughed.
"Now I'm definitely jealous."
More butterflies. Sasuke got out of the bed and sat down on the floor right next to the blonde.
"Oh really?"
Naruto smiled that famous dorky smile and nodded.
"Really."
Sasuke just felt the urge to lean down for a kiss and gave in to it, but just as their lips were about to meet, the blonde turned his head to the side. The raven blinked, both confused and a bit butthurt.
"What's wrong?"
Naruto avoided eye contact.
"Hm? Nothing."
Nothing my ass. Sasuke saw that something wasn't right and he almost felt a bit pissed that Naruto wouldn't tell him about it.
"Just tell me."
The blonde finally looked at him and had a troubled expression on his face.
"There's nothing to tell, Sasuke."
The fact that Naruto probably very well knew what was going on ticked the raven off even more. How could it be so hard to just talk about it? And Sasuke didn't plan on forgetting that time when Naruto had promised him to tell him about what was going on inside that head of his as soon as it had been figured out.
"Right. Just say it before I drag it out of you."
Naruto raised an eyebrow and made some kind of snorting sound.
"You're already doing that."
"So you admit that there's something to be dragged out?"
Sasuke didn't know what made him so clingy and bothersome, but he desperately wanted to know why the blonde wouldn't kiss him. It felt as if it was crucial for his own survival; as if it would break him if he didn't get to hear the reason.
Naruto started to get up from the floor when the raven grabbed his wrist. Their gazes met for a few, long seconds, and Sasuke looked as if he was pleading from his heart. He would have hated that look on himself if he could have seen it.
"Kiss me."
Naruto kept his eyebrow raised and didn't move away from Sasuke's touch.
"Why?"
Something started to hurt really badly inside of the raven, and he felt very left out. Why didn't Naruto just kiss him? Had the blonde's feelings for him suddenly changed now that he could have him without anyone standing in the way? It didn't make any sense, and that scared Sasuke.
"Please. Just kiss me."
He didn't even care if it was a kiss just to shut him up; he needed to feel Naruto's hot breath on his mouth. He needed it so much, and he felt as if he would miss out on something very important just any second. All he could think about was that the blonde couldn't leave, because if he did, it would break the raven in some strange way.
Sasuke was looking up at Naruto, who was pretty much half standing up, and he was rather sure that his eyes were wet. That's when he realized just how much Naruto meant to him. If the thought of losing the blonde in some way brought tears to his eyes, he didn't even want to imagine how heartbroken he would be if their fight got worse. Like, Naruto left going back to Sweden. Or if he got back together with Sakura. It would, literally, ruin the raven.
"Please."
He saw that something was rapidly ticking inside of Naruto, and he didn't even get the chance to react when their lips lightly touched for a short second before parting again.
"There. Can I go now?"
Sasuke let go of Naruto's wrist and saw him practically running out of the room. He didn't want to feel what he was feeling. It was as if someone had just kicked him in the stomach and he couldn't even stop the tears from making their way down his cheeks. He felt empty and incredibly full at the same time, and he wanted to just go outside and run until he couldn't breathe anymore. He felt like some kind of substitute for Sakura, and that hurt more than anything the blonde had ever put him through.
He was so deep in thought that he almost missed the beeping of his phone. Sniffling, he crawled over to his bed and grabbed the phone, and then sat down again with his back against the bedframe. He would probably feel rather ashamed of his way of acting, but right then, he couldn't care less. He was hurting and had decided to just let it be that way.
His sight was blurry and he didn't see the name on the screen, so he just opened the message and tried his best to read what it said.
"Listen, pretty boy; I'm willing to just ignore the mistake Naruto is making at the moment if he comes back to Sweden tomorrow and cuts off all communication with you. If you care about him, you'll make sure that he's at the airport within twenty four hours, and you'll tell him that you never want to see him ever again. Naruto and I belong together. He's a boy and I'm a girl, and that's the way it's supposed to be. He'll realize what he's doing and come back to me, and then we can continue with our life together, and you'll be out of it."
He didn't have to look at the number to understand who the text was from. He felt completely numb and could hear some kind of buzzing inside his head. His hands were slightly shaky and he breathed heavily. Was this how it would end? Was this the grand finale? Naruto would never talk to him again and go and have cute little blonde and pink haired babies with that bitch?
Sasuke swallowed hard and slowly got up on his feet. He would do it. He would go to the guest room and tell Naruto that a driver would take him to the airport the next day and that it would be the last time they ever saw each other. It was for the best; Naruto wouldn't have to be fighting his own feelings towards Sakura and he wouldn't have to face the hating world filled with bitches like her that thought that being in a gay relationship was something wrong. In turn, Sasuke would be crushed. But if that made it any easier for the blonde, he would do it. He'd do anything for that dork.
He still held the phone in his hand when he went out of the room and started walking down the hall. The door to the guest room was closed and Sasuke couldn't hear any noise coming from in there. Maybe Naruto was, silently, packing his bags. Or maybe he was just sitting there, trying to come up with some way to break it all off with the raven. Well, no need to do that. Sasuke would do it himself.
He arrived at the door and stood there for a few seconds in a try to come up with a way to start the conversation when he entered. He actually felt so numb and blank that he could think those thoughts without breaking down sobbing, because he knew that it had to be done and that he would have the time to cry his eyes out later. He didn't know if he felt thankful to his ability to suppress feelings or not.
He took a deep breath and reached to knock on the door when it suddenly opened by itself. Sasuke blinked and looked up into a pair of clear blue eyes that were filled with worry and confusion – something the raven had seen far too many times before.
"S-Sasuke, I-"
Sasuke shook his head.
"Don't."
Naruto sighed and grabbed Sasuke's wrist before pulling him into the guest room and closing the door behind them. They looked at each other for a while, and Sasuke saw that his teary eyes and probably red cheeks got to the blonde.
"I need to talk to you."
Sasuke nodded and tried to ignore the pinching lump in his throat. He wouldn't start crying in front of Naruto, no way, nope. He didn't have to make it even harder to end it all.
"About you, and me, and- and Sakura."
Sasuke suddenly realized that he couldn't hear it. It was impossible; he would break and get crushed and ruined and he didn't have the guts to feel like that! He covered his ears with his hands, turned around and rushed out of the room, running for his own life. He practically jumped down the stairs in three steps, flung the front door open and then almost tripped down the stairs when he went on with his rampage.
He was sniffling without control now, and he couldn't see a thing because of the tears. When he finally rushed out on the street, a cyclist got taken by surprise and hit Sasuke's elbow with the handlebar of the cycle. The raven felt the pain, but he didn't care, and just kept running even when someone asked him if he was alright. He needed to get away and he needed to breathe. He would run until his lungs were burning and he would run so that he wouldn't have to see Naruto leave him – again.