All Over Again…

Hey guys I'm really sorry I upset many of you with the last chapter but it had to be done. Just stick with it, I swear it will get better…Thank you so much for the reviews/death threats.

Chapter 11

Disclaimer: Victorious is not mine… But this story is so hands off! I know karate!

With the sunlight dying through the Goth's Aviators, she adjusted her body against the hard metal hood of her car. Laying there, her legs crossed at her ankles, she peered through the artificial slightly darkened sky. The hollowness of it enclosing her. Her mind on auto pilot, circling around and around to a certain brunette. The cursed echo's of a familiar voice, so cool, so detached drowning her thoughts.

"Oh by the way, apparently my name is Tori Vega. And you are?"

She watched as the beautiful brunette sauntered into school, frozen, mouth dry, tasting the insignificance of her own name on her lips. What other response could she think of that wasn't as painful as the one she proclaimed. She looked at the sullen sunlight through her shades, her chest slightly heaving from the raw breaths that escaped her. Did someone hate her up there? Was someone punishing her? It sure in hell seemed like it.

Tearing herself from the agonizing reverie, she adjusted her hands to make her position more comfortable, not that it would make her feel any more comforted she thought with a rueful chuckle. God, what the hell happened? The Goth let out a heavy sigh turning her head to the side, staring at the vast rows of neatly parked vehicles. She heard what the doctor had said, she understood what he explained. She had probably expected this deep down, but under no circumstance would her heart comprehend the isolated brown eyes not even having a sense of familiarity to her green ones. They had been through so much, hadn't they? Hadn't they!

Slowly she felt the rage driving through her, building up from the pit of her stomach. Feeling the acidic emotions burning through her, clouding her mind, sintering her heart. Who was the person she met this morning? She looked like Tori, she spoke like Tori. But was she? Yes, Jade that was your Tori, you just weren't her Jade. She didn't remember her. She didn't remember the past year. She didn't remember anything.

"How could she not remember?" Jade slammed a fist down onto the metal surface. "Fuck!" She hissed when the pain cursed from her fingers through her hand. "Nice going Jade, you want to add a broken hand to your broken heart?" She groaned clutching her throbbing hand with her other. God, what was wrong with her? It wasn't Tori's fault she couldn't remember. So then who was this anger directed at? Her dad? Herself? Who?

She just didn't know. She didn't know anything anymore. She could just tell the brunette and be blunt. Oh and how would that go Jade? Um, Hi Tori I'm your girlfriend. I don't know if you know this but you are gay. The poor girl would probably run for the damn hills and deem her a nutcase, which wasn't that far off from the truth. Vega made her nuts! This was hopeless! And she was left feeling so helpless. Since when had the fates had control of her life? Now all she felt like she could do was sit back and watch as it played a sick fucking joke on her. She squeezed her eyes as a lazy tear escape treading across the curve of her pale cheek.

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Tori walked through the corridors she's been through hundreds of times or so she was told. Her eyes wandered over everything as if she was taking it all for the first time. The colors, the strange designs, all new to her. Her heart was pounding incessantly, as she felt lost in this unfamiliar territory. Was she supposed to remember this place? A place where she had spent nearly two years of her life, her mother had said. She scanned everything possible, her mind reeling, straining, trying to link this place to a memory. Nothing. Absolutely nothing tying her here, she thought with a sigh. It felt as if she was sucked into alternate universe. She couldn't recall anything from this place, nothing felt recognizable, nothing felt strange.

Except. Tori halted, closing her eyes slowly taking in the eerie silence of the empty corridor. The green eyes. Those beautiful green emeralds, she had never seen anything quite like them. She didn't know if they were a distant remembrance or if she was just affected by the intense nature they seemed to possess. And what of the girl, the owner to such an extraordinary feature? When she first set eyes on the strange girl, dressed in onyx, her mind stopped for a moment. Feelings soaring through her, confusion for one, but the others she couldn't explain. She couldn't recall meeting that girl before but the reaction she had told her otherwise. Maybe it was nothing, her mind just circling trying to find some sort of familiarity. She must have met that girl before, it was almost certain since she did attend this school.

Obviously she was playing it up bigger than it really was. And it wasn't if she had seen other people yet from this school, maybe they would have a similar effect. Tori opened her eyes letting out a heavy breath. She was supposed to be in class. Where was Trina? Her sister was supposed to direct her to her class. Now alone in a foreign passage way she had no idea what to do. She looked at her day planner and noticed the room number to her first class. "This shouldn't be so hard." She sighed.

Strolling through, she noticed a door with the familiar numbers on it. She halted for a minute, staring at it. "Okay, Tori you can do this, just open the door." She breathed nervously as she put her hand on the knob slowly twisting it and opening the door, unsure what to expect behind it.

Sikowitz froze in mid-sentence, while his class was trying to figure out what unorthodox means of teaching he was performing at the moment. His facial expression changed from shock to a lazy smile. "Tori."

Tori stood there stunned when she heard her name from the peculiar dressed man. All eyes of the class settled on her. Then all of a sudden the whole class stood up in a roar. "Tori!"

"Oh my god Tori I can't believe you here." The brunette's head jerked to one direction.

"How are you feeling Tori?" Then again a swift motion to the opposite direction.

"We missed you Tori!"

Tori held her head, her ears pounding with the excessive ramblings of the class. She started feeling dizzy and sweat trickled down her back. She couldn't breathe! So many unknown faces! She couldn't breathe! She couldn't be here. Her eyes widened, full of apprehension.

"Shut the hell up!" Beck yelled sensing the fear in the youngest Vega. "I said shut up!" The whole class went dead, eyes still on the brunette. Her breathing coming out labored now. Beck stepped towards her slowly, his hand reaching trying to calm the girl down. "Tori." He murmured.

But she jerked back, shaking her head. "No, I can't do this. I just can't…" Before he could get grip on her she darted through the door…

…..

Jade was about to jump of her hood when a figure dashed right passed her almost knocking her off her feet. Her head spun in the direction of the person. "What the…" She let her sentence trail of when her eyes widened at who the figure was. She watched as the brunette maneuvered through the car with ease.

Tori reached the corner of the parking lot where there the two walls joined and no where left to go. Feeling trapped, she crumpled to the ground tears streaming down her face, panting. This is so stupid she thought. They were only people. People she supposed to know. Why was she so afraid? She just didn't know. Her breath caught, her eyes widened as realization hit her. She didn't know…

She didn't know them. She didn't know much. But they certainly knew her. Why couldn't she remember! Then she flinched when she felt a cold hand on her back.

Jade jumped back at the jerk reaction, holding her injured hand up and her other one on her knee trying to catch her breath. Jade found herself gazing into brown distrusting eyes. Tori looked up into the most beautiful eyes she had seen twice today, unsure what to do. With the emptiness in Tori's eyes breaking the Goth's heart, she gently flexed her injured hand, cringing in pain a little. "It's me, Jade." Still nothing registering in the brunette. "Jade West, you met me this morning when you bumped my books out of my hands." She explained slowly and softly seeing a light go off in the brunette's eyes.

"Oh, I'm sorry." Tori said in a small voice, wiping her eyes with her sleeve before lowering them to the ground. She folded her legs.

"You already said that and it's still okay." Jade grimaced, afraid to approach Tori again. She had never seen so much terror in the half Latina before, she had no idea what to do. It was like looking at a frightened lost kid who was looking for their mommy. Just the innocence of the person in front of her made her uneasy. They just both watched each other inquisitively for a minute before the Goth decided to drop to the ground where she stood. She sat three feet away with her knees pulled up to her chest, eyes still on the brunette. She watched as Tori's eyes scanned her from head to toe with curiosity, probably wondering what she was doing. Hell, she didn't even know what she was doing.

Tori's eyes dropped back to the ground, her fingers playing with the small stone by her shoes. For some odd reason she couldn't understand, she felt safe. When she felt more comfortable she glanced up to the Goth's profile staring out into the parking lot. "So why are you sitting on the ground?" Tori asked softly.

Jade tilted her head slightly, studying the half Latina. "Why are you?"

Tori stared out towards the cars. "I freaked out." She sighed. The Goth nodded watching her, waiting for her to continue. "I didn't remember anyone and well it was a little too overwhelming." She turned to the Goth, her voice low and poignant. "I have amnesia, I'm told."

Jade pursed her lips unsure how to tread around the brunette. It was obvious she was shaken and the last thing she wanted was to create more havoc. "Okay." She accepted, in hope that the brunette wouldn't feel any pressure to explain her actions further.

Tori smiled. "What about you?"

Jade raised a brow. "What about me?" Tori used her hands to indicate that Jade was sitting on the ground. "Oh, I have nothing better to do." The Goth shrugged.

"But shouldn't you be in class?"

"Shouldn't you?" Jade challenged.

"Are you always going to answer most of my questions with a question?" Tori arched a brow.

"I don't know, what do you think?" Jade couldn't help but smirk as she anticipated the eye roll from the brunette. She missed it so much, it almost hurt. They sat in silence for a moment, then the Goth spoke softly. "Are you going to go back in?" Jade jerked a thumb behind her.

Tori gazed at the school entrance, her throat feeling caught. She glanced back at her shoes. "I can't…"

Jade nodded. "It's okay, why don't you just go home?"

"I…I don't know how to get there." Tori couldn't meet her eyes feeling helpless and lost, her voice solemn.

Jade stared at the brunette with sympathy and surprisingly more understanding than she had a few minutes ago. She stood up and dusted off her jeans. "Lucky for you I happen to."

Tori's eyes shot up. "You do?"

Jade smiled, yet it not reaching her eyes. She held out her working hand. "Yup, c'mon I'll give you a lift."

Tori stared at the hand for a moment. For some reason unknown to her she put her own into it. The hand cold against her warm one, the texture slightly rough than her own but yet she felt an unexplainable comfort. She was pulled to her feet and watched the fit of their hands still linked. Jade observed the curious stare of the brunettes at their hands, wondering what was ticking through that mind. Wondering if she could feel the heat that surged though the contrast of the two. Scared to cause any more alarm to the half Latina Jade reluctantly released the hand. Tori felt a sense of regret when the connection was broken. She guiltily glanced towards the school. "What about school?"

"What about it?" Jade shrugged. As Tori just glared at her, she felt a smirk tug on the corners of her lips. Tori shook her head but couldn't help but smile as she followed the Goth to her car.

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"Did you find her, man?" Andre asked Beck who had a grin on his face. Beck leaned against the door staring out in parking lot, his arms crossed over his chest. He watched as Tori and Jade jumped into Jade's vehicle. "Dude!"

Beck was startled out of his casual stance. "Um, yeah I found her." He closed the door. "She's just fine, let's get to class." He said with a smile. Andre looked at him baffled for a moment. Then shrugged and followed…

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Jade slid her Aviator's back on as she pulled out of the parking space. The sun wasn't so bright but she wasn't sure she wanted the brunette to know she was watching her out of the corner of her eye. She watched as the half Latina, relaxed partially against the seat, her eyes averted out the window taking in the neighborhood, the street signs and the pedestrians walking on the sidewalk. She could still sense that Tori was still a bit tense.

Tori traced her fingers against the leather of the door, taking in the texture on the tip of her fingers. She leaned back turning her attention back to the Goth, a question on her mind. "Were we friends?"

Jade was startled when the silence was broken. "What?"

Tori linked her fingers together placing them on her lap. "I asked if we were friends?"

Jade smiled weakly. "Something like that."

Tori stared at her hands, feeling some kind of remorse that she couldn't remember. "It makes sense, for some odd reason, I feel like I can trust you."

Jade shot her a slanted glance, an amused smirk on her face. "Do I look trustworthy?"

Tori looked her over and let out a small chuckle. "Not in the least but I can't help but feel it."

Jade raised her sunglasses, resting it on the top of her head. Her eyes meeting the brunette's. "You don't have to be afraid of me, Tori."

"I know." Tori smiled slowly. "Otherwise I wouldn't be in this car."

Jade returned her smile as she stopped the car at the red. "Smart girl."

"So I'm told." Tori joked, making the Goth laugh.

The laughter died down fast as it was almost as painful as it was pleasurable. Jade sighed, looking straight ahead as the light turned green again. "So, tell me, how does this amnesia thing actually work?"

Tori let out a chuckle as she stared out the window. "I wish I knew, really. It is all so confusing. When I first came home, things where really blurry, I didn't remember much. Then things became clearer like everything started unfolding, you know. I still thought I was 15." Tori let out a rueful chuckle. Then her voice went sad and soft. "Turns out I'm not. I switched schools, which is great. Hollywood Arts is a great school, I was always jealous of Trina, you know. But apparently I'm there now." She turned to face the Goth. "I just wish I remembered how. I wish I remembered you."

"Me too…" Jade mumbled under her breath too low for the brunette to hear. She wasn't able to face her, her eyes directed at the traffic in front.

"It is like two years of my life was stolen from me." Tori let out a heavy sigh. "I just don't know. The doctor said there is a strong possibility I might get it back. But what if I don't?"

Jade stared at her out of the corner of her eyes, seeing the brunette gently wipe a tear that escaped. "You'll be okay, Vega." Jade reassured, though she wasn't really sure about herself.

"You think?" Jade nodded and Tori smiled. "I remember things like Shakespeare and George Washington, so at least literature and history should be a breeze."Tori joked trying to lighten the sullen mood the car seemed to fall into.

Great she remembers dead guys but she can't remember me, Jade grimaced. That's some sick joke, God, some sick joke.

"So how did we meet?" Tori sunk back into her seat.

"Well you were sort of rubbing my boyfriend at the time."

"What!" Tori straightened.

Jade chuckled, recalling the day. Of course she didn't find it funny back then. "Well, you spilled coffee on him, so you were trying to get it off."

Tori suddenly felt very nervous. "Well, um… I,"

"It's okay, we broke up over a year ago." Jade grinned when she heard the whoosh sound emit from the half Latina's mouth.

"Not because of me, right?" Tori asked, needing to know. What if she just jumped into a car with a vengeful ex-girlfriend? She looked at the Goth again, a gulp escaping from her throat. "Right?"

"Not in the way you think."

"Oh good." Tori let out a relieved breath. "Wait what?"

"It's complicated." Jade dismissed the topic, bringing the car to a halt. "So here we are."

Tori glanced out the window her face brightened. "Wow, that's my house."

Jade couldn't help but chuckle half of it pain, half of it completely charmed by the childlike expression in the half Latina's face. "Sure is…"

"Thank you." Tori said suddenly feeling very shy.

"Don't worry about it, Vega." Jade grimaced, her heart feeling caught in her chest. It was so felt so different yet painfully the same. She was waiting for the half Latina to jump out of the car, unsure if she could keep the disappointed emotion from her face. Then abruptly her eyes closed as she felt the softness of Tori's fingers tracing her swollen knuckles of the hand that remained on the steering wheel. A little hiss escaped from the Goth, as the gentle touch roamed over it.

"I'm sorry." Tori smiled weakly. She didn't know what had possessed her to do touch the goth. Part of it was concern, yet the other part was unexplainable. "It seems sprained, would you like to come in? I could bandage it up for you." She asked, her voice low.

Jade opened her eyes, which glistened slightly. She stared at the brunette, seeing that familiar sincerity in those warm brown eyes. The eyes of the woman she loved but didn't remember her. Didn't remember her, her voice caught. She turned away unable to keep the hurt from her face. "I should probably go." She said her voice equally low and surprisingly steady.

"Please." Tori's hand still remained on the purple bruise. "It's the least I can do. You brought me home."

Jade was afraid to turn her attention back to the brunette. She didn't want to scare her or ruin any chance of her not remembering. She should just go home and wallow alone. It would be better for both of them if she just left now. She didn't know what she was capable of. It was already so hard not to just lean over and reacquaint her starving lips with the flavor that drove her insane, whether she was tasting it or simply thinking about it. Just the familiar vanilla scent was already clogging her mind. She could never control herself with the woman next to her. What's to say that changed and the last thing she would want is to freak her out completely. "I, um… Okay." She finally resigned within the internal battle in her head.

"Great!" Tori beamed as she got out of the vehicle.

Jade jumped out of the car, a scowl on her face. "You are so weak!" She chastised herself. "You better behave yourself." She mumbled as she followed the brunette into the house.

As Tori stepped into her home she halted. "Mom?"

"Tori?" Mrs. Vega eyed her daughter putting her coffee on the table top. She rushed over to her youngest daughter gathering her in her arms. "What are you doing home from school? Are you okay? Did something happen? Is there any pain anywhere?"

Tori squirmed in the over-possessive embraced. "Mom, I'm fine." She managed to mumble.

Mrs. Vega leaned back, but not fully letting go of her daughter. After the accident she felt and overbearing urge to hold her daughter wanting to keep her safe. "What happened?"

Tori wasn't able to meet her mother's gaze as she didn't want to see the expected disappointment in them. "I freaked out… there was just so many people. People who knew me but I couldn't remember them." She said, her voice small.

"Oh honey…" Mrs. Vega pulled her in for another hug. "It is okay, you can try again when you ready." She kissed the brunette on the top of her head.

"So you not disappointed?" Tori leaned back.

"Of course not baby, why would I be?" Mrs. Vega stared at her daughter incredulously. Tori always had this urge to please people.

"I don't know." Tori sniffled.

"Oh honey you don't have to rush this, you can go back when you feel up to it, okay?"

"Okay." Tori nodded.

"Where is Trina?"

"I don't know, at school."

Mrs. Vega raised a brow, confused. "Wait what? How did you get home?"

"That is where I come in." Jade finally made her presence known after silently enjoying the display between mother and daughter. She couldn't help but feel a little sting of jealousy but at the same time she was glad the older Vega was there. At least it would keep her intentions in check.

"Mom, this is my friend-"

"Jade?" Mrs. Vega finished.

"Mrs. Vega." Jade nodded in greeting. Tori watched the exchange finding it somewhat interesting. But she wasn't sure how.

"Yeah, she brought me home. She sort of hurt her hand so I asked her in to get it more comfortable." The brunette explained as Jade raised her hurt hand.

Mrs. Vega's thoughts were weary and cautious. She wasn't sure what was going on here. Did Tori remember the Goth? From the oblivious and innocent look in the brunette's face it was probably a no. "I see. Sweetie could you go get the bandages in the bathroom, its in the cupboard under the sink."

"Okay." Tori said as she started to climb the stairs.

"You sit." Mrs. Vega instructed the Goth who went over to the counter and took a seat. She placed her fist on the surface while Mrs. Vega dug out a bag of frozen peas. "Flex for me." jade spread her hand flat on the surface cringing a bit. "Oh honey, what did you do?" Mrs. Vega tsked sympathetically as she placed the iced bag on the swollen hand.

"Punched a car." The Goth claimed, her eyes closed, the ice soothing the inflammation.

"Why?" Tori's mother stared curiously at the Goth. Jade shrugged not knowing how to answer. "Does she remember?"

"Nope."

Everything suddenly making sense, Mrs. Vega sighed. "I'm sorry."

"Yeah, me too." Jade finding her throat burning, her eyes welling up, unsure if the sting was from her hand or her chest. She just knew that she couldn't keep talking about this topic. "So what did Phil say about the movie?"

Mrs. Vega realized the sudden change but let it be, she didn't want to cause the Goth more grief than necessary. "Well, hmmm, Phil is a sweetheart." Mrs. Vega smiled. "He said that they don't want to lose Tori so late into the movie, so they will be resuming shooting in two to three months depending if she is up to it. The best part is that the remaining movie will be shot on set here in LA."

"That's great." Jade grimaced through the pain.

"Yes, well he really fought for Tori."

"What do you mean?"

"Well, you know the executive producer Travis wanted to recast another co-star for his son and kill Tori off in the movie. Phil had to convince him that it would have a negative impact on the movie."

"I hate Travis and son." Jade snorted.

"Yeah, well get in line." Mrs. Vega wiggled her eyebrows. The Goth looked up and they both shared a smile.

"I found it." Tori declared, holding a bandage as she walked back down the stairs. Both Mrs. Vega and Jade turned to face the brunette. Tori eyed them both curiously. "Am I interrupting something?"

"Of course not honey, let's get this girl patched up." Mrs. Vega winked at Jade. Tori handed her mother the bandage and Mrs. Vega began wrapping it around the hand. Once it snuggly enclosed the swollen area Jade felt a little relief. "Will you be able to drive with that?" Mrs. Vega asked with concern.

"I'll be fine, thank you." Jade said as she got up.

"No, thank you for bringing Tori home." Mrs. Vega smiled. Jade returned the smile and nodded. "One more thing… don't give up okay? I'm on your side." Jade still held the smile as she headed out the door. Tori wondered what that was about but she wasn't sure she should ask.

"Jade, wait!" Tori yelled as the Goth almost reached the car.

Jade spun around, a hopeful look on her face. "Yeah?"

"You forgot your keys…" Tori handed the set of car keys to the Goth as her face fell.

"Um, thanks I kind of need them." Jade took the keys feeling foolish. She jumped into her car and drove off leaving a confused brunette staring after her…

So that was Chapter 11

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