After showering, towel drying my hair and brushing my teeth, I am lying in bed naked waiting for Christian to finish in the bathroom. I am running through what I want to say to him but I know when it comes to the crunch, all of my thoughts will go out of the window and I will have to wing it.
He sit's up in bed with the pillows supporting his back, when he goes to pick up his Kindle I make my throaty cough to get his attention.
"What's up baby?" he asks but he looks very nervous.
"I said I wanted to talk to you earlier, remember?" I say
"You did, what was it you wanted to talk about baby?" he puts the Kindle back on the night stand.
Here goes, I take a deep breath "Christian, you know that I love you, and with all my heart but in the last couple of weeks I have felt very isolated from you. It's not a criticism; I know you are still struggling with your injuries and I have been busy with Max and Melissa too but I feel we have drifted apart somewhat" I await his reply.
"Funnily enough I was thinking the same but only in the last few days but I'm sorry, it's been a tough few weeks for both of us and we haven't had a chance to spend much quality time together" he has shocked me with his response.
"I didn't realise you felt the same way to be honest but we need to find a way to change this, don't you agree?" I say hopefully.
"I think a good place to start would be a once a week date night, may be a movie, dinner" he lowers his voice to that extremely sexy carnal level "the playroom"
"Hmm, I have really missed touching you, caressing and teasing you like before" I tell him.
"I have missed you too baby, this evening was unexpected and very very…" he growls and I hit instant turn on.
"I am sorry if it was too much but I selfishly just needed you right then and there, I needed to feel your skin and have you touch me and look at me in that way" a single tear rolls down my cheek.
"Baby, I am so sorry, I love you and I want you all the time but I think if I had acted on my impulses every time, I would be back in the hospital with exhaustion and pain by now" he smiles.
I giggle as I imagine how many times he has had to fight an erection during his recovery.
"That's better, I like to see you smile and laugh, it brightens my whole day" he winks "why don't we see if Gail can commit to an evening to have the twins so we can go out or do whatever we want?"
"Good idea, I will talk to her tomorrow but now I want to spend the next thirty minutes at least, getting to know my husband's body again in intimate detail" I turn the light down and we disappear under the covers.
The following morning when we both stir, we feel a little lighter, happier and more contented with each other. I am so pleased we talked and I walk out of the bedroom with a spring in my step. I am greeted by two happy smiling babies too; well at least I hope it's a smile and not wind I chuckle to myself. If nothing else happened today I will still be happy.
"Morning Ana" Gail has come into the nursery.
"Morning Gail, they are both happy this morning" I beam and Gail smiles too.
"Niamh is preparing breakfast, it should be ready in about 10 minutes" she tells me.
"Thanks Gail, I am starving" I say
"My, someone else is happy this morning" Gail mentions and I smile and wave as I leave the room.
I go to the bedroom and find Christian is up and dressed and hungry. He grabs me around the waist, pulls me in for a kiss and tells me he loves me.
"Are you coming to the kitchen for breakfast?" I ask.
"I would like to be 'coming' in another activity" he growls before slapping my bottom.
"Down boy! You sex maniac" I poke my tongue out "Let's go for breakfast, the twins and I have our 6 weeks check-up today, are you coming with us?"
"Of course I will, I will let Taylor know, what time do we need to leave?" he questions.
"Our appointment is at 10.45am so will need to leave at 10am"
"No problem baby" he grab his cell and reels of a message to Taylor.
In the kitchen Niamh has fixed breakfast, all of the usual things but she has done waffles too which are my favourite. I see her face change as Christian enters the room; I am used to people stopping and starring now but it still un-nerving on occasions.
"G… good morning Mr Grey, tea or coffee?" she recovers herself.
"Hello Niamh, nice to meet you, that's an unusual name, where does it originate from?" he asks politely and indicates coffee.
"It's Irish, my father was from Belfast. Most people struggle with the pronunciation so I often put Neeve in brackets so people can see how to say it" she looks embarrassed but pours his coffee.
Christian would have known all this from the background check performed before she came for an interview but he is just making conversation.
"Let me know when you are ready to leave, I will be in the office checking my e-mails, ok?" I nod in agreement and he walks to the office with his cup of coffee and two slices of toast.
I finish my breakfast and head back to the nursery to start getting the twins ready. I have to set my goals half an hour ahead of time as inevitably one of them will need a nappy change or start fussing for a cuddle before we leave so it just ensures we can get out on time.
At 9.30am, Gail comes to check if I am ok, I can't find Max's warm onesie, it is a little nippy outside and want him to be warm.
"I will go check with Niamh" Gail says, she returns with Niamh a few moments later. She goes to a drawer, ruffles around and pulls out what I am looking for.
"Could you make sure these go in the wardrobe please" I say feeling a little irritated.
"Sorry Mrs Grey, I haven't figured out where everything goes yet" she looks scared and I feel bad for being short with her.
"It will take a little time, don't worry" I say trying to sound lighter in my voice.
She leaves the room after Gail indicates she can go…
"Are you alright Ana?" she asks.
"Yes, I'm fine, it will take me a while to get used to someone other than you and I touching their things I suppose" I say honestly.
"You were ok with me when you first came here" she says smiling "well at least I think you were"
"It felt different with you Gail, you are a trusted member of our family and I know Christian thinks very very highly of you and" I lower my voice to a whisper "you know all his secrets"
Gail bursts out laughing "I feel like the CIA, having covert conversations with the boss's wife"
I can't help but laugh out loud too so much so that Christian comes into the nursery to find out what all the noise is about.
"Ana, Gail, everything ok?" he smiles however neither of us can actually compose ourselves enough to utter anything for a while.
"W…fine…" one look at Gail and I am off again.
"We need to go soon ladies, if you can compose yourselves for long enough" Christian is laughing too and that is great to see.
"Ok, ok, I'm good, let's go!" I say quickly before a final giggle escapes.
At the doctor's office the OB/GYN gives me the all clear, chats to me about birth control, exercising to strengthen my abdominal muscles, pelvis floor exercises before checking Max and Melissa, who are doing really well. Their weight gain has been better than expected, both have increased in length and developmentally they are doing brilliantly.
Needless to say both Christian and I are chuffed to bits that they are progressing really well.
As we leave the doctor's office word has got around we were there and a few press reporters and photographers have gathered.
"Shit!" Christian exclaims "Who the fuck told them we were coming here today?"
"Someone could have seen us or followed us here, it's a possibility" I say.
"Let's just get out of here, don't answer any questions or say anything" he says sharply.
"Relax Christian, we will be fine" I have to believe that.
Taylor has seen the crowd building and brought in extra security, Sawyer and Peters are both here to help and I feel happier as does Christian.
The camera's click and some shouts ensue but we get to the car without too much bother and we don't appear to be followed home which is a relief.
Niamh greets us when we go through the front door and spends a few moments cooing over the twins before continuing with her duties.
"How was everything today?" Gail asks as she comes into the lounge.
"Everything is great, Max and Melissa are progressing really well, no concerns at all" I extoll
"That's wonderful news Ana, I am so pleased"
"Gail, could I ask you something?"
"Of course Ana"
"Christian and I were wondering, but please feel under no obligation, if you would be willing to babysit one night a week so we can have 'date night'?"
"That shouldn't be a problem Ana, which night were you thinking?" she asks.
"Wednesday or Thursday, but I understand you want to talk to Tay…err Jason about it"
"I think probably Wednesday would be better but I will just run it past Jason" she says.
"Oh of course Gail, thank you for considering it"
Max wakes and its food time for them both, Gail comes back with two bottles and we sit in the lounge.
"Everything going ok as far as you can tell with Niamh?"
"She does things differently to me and I find it hard to not interfere sometimes but I've not found any problems" she answers.
"That's good" I smile. Max has finished his bottle so I lean him forward to burp him and Gail follows the same with Melissa soon afterwards.
Christian comes through dressed in his suit, briefcase in hand and announces he is going to work for a few hours this afternoon. He looks so handsome; it has been weeks since I have seen him in a suit and I have forgotten how sexy he is when dressed in a black finely striped suit with a waist coat and blue tie.
"Take it easy honey, don't work too hard" I stand up, he kisses Max on the top of his head and then me before stroking the top of Melissa's head and going out of the door.
"I hope he takes it easy" Gail says.
"He had better or I will snitch him in to Grace and she can sort him out" we both peel into laughter again, Grace is a formidable woman and even Christian doesn't argue with her very often.
Christian sticks to his word and is home after three hours.
"Hey honey. How did it feel to be at the office again?"
"Really good, I have missed things baby" he leans down to kiss me "I thought you would be ready by now"
"Ready for what?" I look up at him, very confused.
"Its date night and I have booked a table for 8.30pm" he smiles "Gail has offered to babysit this evening"
"Oh, err, thank you so much Gail, I better get ready" I say.
"Go, enjoy, we will be fine" Gail smiles.
I walk toward the bedroom, what am I going to wear? Or more to the point, what fits?
"I want you in that little black number baby" Christian pushes me up against the wall, he is hard, he kisses me with neediness and yearning and I feel myself responding.
"We will be late" I say reluctantly and Christian agrees, I change into my LBD, I am so excited to be going out but not before reassuring Christian we can pick up where we left off later…
A/N: Thank you for all your support.