"Why am I so in love with you? I don't even know what you look like…." I was twenty-five at the time. Sitting on the grass of an endless field under the clearest blue sky, my faceless angel floated close behind me. Her gorgeous, long, brown hair flowed out all around her.

She said nothing for the longest time, letting me wallow in my own sea of thoughts. I was right… No matter how hard I tried, I couldn't let myself love another. It's not like I was even trying either…. I never asked for this, but I was still so glad that she was still there inside me. Her essence permeated my every action, every breath I took, every thought I had. This nameless woman, this faceless angel existed inside of me. Hell, I'd say she was a part of me; a very deep, connected part. I loved her, I adored her- and I had no idea where this feeling came from. Maybe it's the fact that I know what she sacrificed for me. Our son popped up inside my mind. I'm aware….

"Tell me, my angel- is it you I love or the real version? Will I love her as much as I love you?" Again, she didn't say anything right away, instead watching me intently from behind. "There is no difference; I am her and she is me," she finally answered with that angelic voice of hers. "But how can that be? I don't know her; we've never met in person. How can I love someone that I don't even know this much?"

Another brief moment of silence. "But you do know me. I exist in you and you me in every universe, every dimension. That's how I am able to be here with you now." "Huh? I don't understand," my eyes drifted back to this perfect being. She looked back at me and began to smile.

"I do not expect you to understand; it is not easy for mortals to understand. There are so many of me and many Christians, each living and eventually meeting in their own dimensions. But I am the One- the original essence each one of them shares. And you- you share the same essence with the One Christian. It's what connects us indefinitely… How you were able to see our son before." "Teddy," his name fell from my lips. Her smile grew wider as she observed my puzzled reaction.

"That is why you love me, Christian. That is why I jumped in front of the knife to save your life. Course neither of you will remember this while awake; you can only understand here in your dreams." "But I still love you unconditionally while I'm awake," I stared up at her, still dumbfounded. I didn't feel like any of my questions were being answered. Still, she smiled….. she smiled. "Your love is so powerful from your true essence that it has seeped over into you in this life. You love me that much…"

As I continued to watch her, a succession of images followed through my mind like water. It was me, though not the me I knew. She was also there, though still faceless. We were clearly in a different reality- one where we were really intimate. Us meeting in my office; my picking her up when she's drunk; spanking her with my belt; separation and reunion; a stalker stalking her; a masked ball; a proposal and helicopter crash; a wedding and finally…. Our son, playing with me outside and running to his mother's arms.

I saw it all in the blink of an eye, and yet it seemed to go for years. I saw my whole other life with this faceless woman. And I couldn't help but feeling that was only one of many, many realities. I think… I think it was truly then that I realized how much I loved, needed this sole woman. She said I wouldn't remember any of this when I woke up the next morning, but I knew she'd still be there- her essence constantly permeating mine. She was always with me… in every reality, with every version of myself…. with the One true me.

My soulmate.

I simply, effortlessly stared at this vision of loveliness, tears forming in my eyes. After all that, I couldn't image ever looking away from her. I'm one of the lucky few who actually has a soulmate- a true second half. And I wanted nothing but to stay here with her forever. I think she knew this too, as she began to float closer towards me; her arms gently lifting up at her sides.

"Stay with me," I whispered through the tears. "Always." "No, I mean stay with me; come to me when I'm awake. I'm sick of waiting." Her beautiful eyeless gaze softened onto me. "Not for a while, I'm afraid." "How long? Will we get married when we do meet again?" I felt my heart leap for joy when she nodded. "Yes, we will get married; you will return the favor and save me from tragedy. But that's not for a few years." "What am I supposed to do until then?"

I swear her warm, loving, pink smile returned; it shown down upon me without me actually seeing it. "Do not worry, I am still here with you. I am always with you." The last image she showed me was of two angels- a man and a woman. She was faceless, clearly my angel here; but the male… He had long white wings and looked both aged and undying at once. They were holding hands, looking at one another and smiling with what appeared to be an eternal peace in front of them. The gates of heaven or somewhere else wonderful… They were the Ones, the originals- the soulmates and source of all our essences.

"You will not remember me when you are awake. But I'm here; I'm always here with you. So wake in peace, knowing that one day we will meet again in person. Wake and smile, for your future is one full of love and beauty. Please enjoy your time in between now and then for me….

And I'll be with you, when you dream."