Yay! I'm loving all the reviews, especially those of you who are perfectly happy with the way I write make-out scenes, so thank you! Also, getting comments from readers telling me that it's perfectly okay to have never been properly kissed and my time will come do make me really happy, so thank you for those too. I've gotten some good prompts, a lot of double-ups though so I'll try and remember to credit both people who prompted the story.
The second prompt in the two part one from Kasumi the Stargazer (who may not be reading this anymore as she apparently died from the awesomeness of the last chapter): And I kind of... Okay fine, REALLY REALLY wanted them to kiss in 'Sexy'... Think you could make something out of that? The part when they were alone in the abandoned warehouse (because come on, how hot would that be?) or the part when they're alone in Kurt's room...
With pleasure :) this was adorably sweet to write. And while that is the end of prompts from Kasumi the Stargazer, I encourage and implore her to keep prompting :D
Disclaimer: Glee isn't mine. Damn.
Bedroom
"This is pointless, Blaine." Kurt stands from where he and Blaine were sitting in front of the mirror and paces across the room. "I don't know how to be sexy because.. because I don't know the first thing about sex."
Blaine isn't sure he's heard right at first. Surely McKinley had done sexual education at least once? But - oh, obviously not for gay teenagers. Blaine's heart goes out to the bright red boy in front of him and he frantically searches for something to say but can only state the obvious: "Kurt, you're blushing."
Kurt's eyes narrow and he's off. "I tried watching those movies but I just get horridly depressed and I think about how they were all kids once and they all have mothers and, god! What would their mothers think and why would you get that tattoo there?" He presses his lips together as if he's trying not to cry and oh hell, he is.
"Maybe we should have a conversation about it. I'll tell you what I know?"
Kurt looks like Blaine's just offered to demonstrate every sex act possible on his bed. "I don't want to know graphic details!" He takes a shaky breath and then shakes his head. "I like romance. That's why I love broadway musicals because the touch of fingertips is as sexy as it gets." He still blushes every time he utters that word, 'sexy,' and Blaine just finds him absolutely adorable in that moment and - wait. Did I just call my best friend adorable?
"Kurt," he says gently, shuffling forward to where Kurt has slumped in a chair looking miserable. He gently reaches out to touch his hand. "You'll have to learn about it someday -"
"Well not today." Kurt looks at Blaine and now he really is blinking back the tears. "I've heard enough for today, I think you should leave." (1)
And now Blaine's left with a decision: to do what's easy for Kurt or what's right? He looks at the boy sitting across from him who lookssmall and defeated and he comes to a few realizations right there and then. Some will need to be processed later, but he knows for a fact that he is kind of in love with this boy (and somehow this doesn't surprise him as much as he thought it would) and he needs to help him.
"Kurt," Blaine says softly, raising a hand as Kurt tries to interrupt. "Please, let me talk. If you still want me to leave when I'm done, I will. But there's something I need to tell you first."
He waits until Kurt finally nods, tucking his knees up under his chin and he looks so vulnerable that Blaine just wants to wrap him in his arms and never let him go. Instead, he takes a deep breath and for the first time ever, begins to share his own painful experiences.
"You know I've never had a boyfriend. And the closest I've come to any of that stuff is making out with people playing Spin-the-Bottle." Blaine grimaces, remembering the Rachel Berry episode and Kurt manages to crack a small smile. Encouraged, Blaine continues.
"I never knew the first thing about anything to do with relationships. Up until a few months before you arrived at Dalton, you would've known more about it than me because at least you know romance. I knew nothing at all. And then Dalton had a Sex Ed day and because it's an all-boys school they didn't just talk about what they considered as ordinary sex. They talked about gay sex."
And now Kurt's looking petrified and Blaine can't help but laugh before hastily explaining himself.
"That wasn't at you, I promise. It's just - that's exactly how I looked when they mentioned it for the first time. Wes actually thought I was going to pass out." He chuckles again. "But I sat through it and at the end .." he trails off. "Well, it didn't scare me as much."
"You were scared too?" Kurt blurts out, then claps a hand over his mouth.
Blaine leans forward and gently tugs the hand away. "You know you can say whatever you want to me, okay? Yes, I was scared. I knew nothing about what to do. I mean, I kind of knew the mechanics but how was it supposed to be pleasurable? Who did what? All those sorts of thoughts were running through my head like I imagine they occasionally run through yours. And I didn't want to know the answers because if they weren't what I wanted to hear.. well, I couldn't exactly change."
And Kurt's sitting up and nodding in the same way Blaine was when he had been introduced to it all. Finally, someone gets it.
"But I still wasn't all there. I knew a bit more but I still didn't know what to expect. David brags about his 'conquests,' " Blaine wrinkles his nose and shudders, "but I'd never heard anyone gay talking about their experiences. So, I did a bit of research on the internet and then - well, I went to Kevin."
Kurt raises an eyebrow with a strange look in his eyes and is that jealousy? "Who's Kevin?"
"Guy who graduated last year. He showed me around Dalton when I was new and confused. He lives with his boyfriend Nick. I went to him, and," and now it's Blaine's turn to blush, "Iaskedhimwhatitwaslike."
"Sorry?" Kurt asked.
"I asked him what it was like." Blaine is staring at his fingers, face a flaming red. He hears Kurt chuckle and then a set of fingers are under his chin lifting his head to look at Kurt.
"Blaine, if I could, I would've done the same thing. Well - if I knew someone and was brave enough and didn't go bright red every time I said the word sex." And sure enough, Kurt blushes at the end of his sentence. Although that might have had something to do with the next sentence preparing to make its way out of his mouth: "So, what did he say?"
And now they're both bright red and Blaine's painfully aware of the cramp in his knee from kneeling in front of Kurt for so long. Standing up, he moves over to Kurt's bed with Kurt trailing behind him. He takes as long as he possibly can to make himself comfortable and sighs when he realizes once again that Kurt is avoiding his gaze.
"He said it was amazing. Of course, a bit weird at first and deciding who's going to .. uh, do what, can get confusing, but once you get into the - rhythm of it, apparently it's great. They didn't really tell me any more than that because as soon as we started talking about sex, Nick started giving Kevin these looks and I thought maybe it was time for me to escape before I witnessed anything firsthand." He smirks, then grows serious again. "Though we did get to talk about more than just that. We talked about feelings too, and Nick said it doesn't mean anything if you don't love the person. He also said," and Blaine pauses to make sure Kurt's listening, "that sex and everything leading up to sex is incredibly romantic."
Blaine is pretty sure that Kurt's stopped breathing. Finally, he manages to find his voice to squeak, "Really?"
"Mmhm." Blaine smiles. "They said that when you're with someone you love, words sometimes aren't enough. But actions," he paused for a moment to internally draw up all of his courage, "can say exactly what our words can't." And Blaine gently placed his hand into Kurt's.
Blaine catches the spark of hope that ignites in Kurt's eyes as his hand hesitantly closes around Blaine's.
"And that's the same for everything in life really. A lot of things can't come through in our words. For example, if I wanted to say 'I think you're a great friend,' I'd probably do this." Blaine takes his other hand and puts it on Kurt's shoulder. Kurt smiles but there's a flicker of disappointment and no, that's not what I meant!
"If I wanted to say 'I'm sorry I've been so stupid lately,' well, I'd probably do this." Blaine's hand moves lower down to Kurt's upper arm and gives it a gentle squeeze. He hears Kurt draw in a quick breath.
"And if I wanted to say 'I've been an oblivous idiot and we should've had this conversation a long time ago,' perhaps I'd do this." Blaine takes a deep breath and moves his hand to gently stroke Kurt's face. Now he knows Kurt isn't breathing but neither is he and he'd better do something before they both pass out, either from lack of oxygen or terror.
"Now, I'd like you to show me something. If I wanted to say, 'I'm sorry it took me this long but I've finally realized I'm in love with you and I hope you feel the same,' what would I do there?" Blaine knows this is a big risk but he can't take this from Kurt, it needs to be from Kurt. And now he's starting to panic and maybe he's read the signs wrong after all and Kurt's going to push him away and tell him they're just friends -
But Kurt's hand is hesitantly moving to stroke Blaine's face and there's a glimmer of unshed tears in his eyes as he whispers, "I'd probably do something like this."
And Kurt leans in and presses his lips to Blaine's.
Blaine's brain just has a chance to shout "finally!" before everything shuts down and he's lost in the sensations of Kurt's lips on his and Kurt's hands in his hair and Kurt-
Kurt pulls away gently and as Blaine's eyes flutter open he can already see the self doubt spreading across Kurt's face and he needs to stop that, so he simply pulls him back in for another one of those amazing kisses.
Some time later, Kurt and Blaine are lying on the bed just staring at one another.
"So," Blaine offers hesitantly, "I guess this makes us together?"
Kurt just smiles that adorable smile of his and runs a hand through Blaine's hair. And even though he looks so cute, there's something his eyes that's just so wild and untamed and -
"Kurt, you are sexy."
Kurt smiles. "I had hoped so," he says. "I mean, Mercedes was always telling me so when we were part of the Cheerios. I was this close to having to pull out those videos too."
And before Blaine can ask what videos? because he would really really quite like to see these videos, Kurt is kissing him again and he can't argue with that.
(1) Transcribed from 'Sexy' up to this point.
This makes me happy. Really happy.
And in getting the transcript for this episode, I read through to the scene where Blaine is talking to Burt about teaching Kurt about sex, and Blaine does say that Dalton doesn't have sex ed. Oh well, consider it a random one day thing if you will. And yes, it also says that Blaine found out all his information on the internet but I don't believe he would've gone ahead and said to Kurt's dad, "Oh, I went and asked this gay couple I knew what gay sex was like." So it kind of works with canon, if you squint.
So, keep the prompts and reviews coming! :) Next one looks like it's going to have a little bit more action in it (think Original Song, original kiss, but better! (theoretically)).