I wrote a ficlet at work tonight on register paper at 4:30am. It's a 3x05 spoiler ficlet though so if you don't want spoilers, don't read. Otherwise, you can find the link on my profile as usual, or near the top of my Tumblr since I only just posted it.
I also just finished an 81 hour fortnight. So how I'm still coherent I have no idea.
From totallygilmore: K & B kiss while watch 'When Harry Met Sally'
I have to admit, I only watched this because it was referenced in Glee (and I'm glad I did because it was amazing). I saw it come up on TV one day and recorded it so I could watch it later and picked an afternoon when I wasn't at work… and then my stepdad came home early and was wandering in and out and then stopped and sat down to watch a scene with me. One scene. And the one scene he 'picked' was the restaurant scene with the fake orgasm. Fan-freaking-tastic.
Right now, this chapter is my favourite to date.
HarryAndSally
"I honestly just thought you were making a joke."
Blaine shook his head, staring at the DVD hanging loosely from Kurt's hand. "I heard the vague storyline from someone once, which is why I knew they got together. But I've never seen it."
Kurt stared at him for a few moments before sighing. "Yeah, you're more of a hopeless case than I thought. Come on, we're watching this."
"I'm not that hopeless!" Blaine argued as he sat on the couch, watching Kurt slot the DVD into the player and grab the remote. "You know I'm Top 40 when it comes to music, I'm pretty much the same with my movies. New releases and all that."
"Which is why today is a very important day - the day you learn the wonder of a classic." Kurt joined him, settling into the couch and waiting for the movie to load. "Now, pay close attention, okay? There's some important themes that I need you to pick up."
Blaine obediently turned his attention to the screen as Kurt pressed play, trying to work out why his friend was so determined he watch this movie. Yes, he now knew Kurt was interested - and yeah, he was pretty much a moron for not having worked that out earlier - but he honestly didn't think Kurt would be the type to push him to try and reciprocate. So if that was what this was… but Blaine pushed that aside, choosing to trust Kurt. After all, Kurt had never given Blaine a reason not to trust him.
The movie began and Blaine had to wince at how old fashioned it was. Luckily Kurt was already transfixed and missed Blaine's mild disgust at the shoddy filming quality and… "Kurt, how can you stand the outfits? I thought fashion was your thing."
"It is. But I can respect the fashion choices of a different era," Kurt explained. "And while her hair progressively gets worse throughout the film, you can tell that she was one of the style icons of her generation and that's something I'll always admire, you know that."
Blaine raised an eyebrow but chose to stay silent, continuing to watch as the two drove to.. somewhere. Blaine must have missed that part. "So they're not together?"
"No, he's dating her friend. Which you would know if you were listening… or if you had watched him make out with her at the start of the film."
"I generally don't enjoy watching straight people make out," Blaine said as if it were obvious. "But okay, sure. So he's dating her friend but he's driving her to…"
Kurt sighed and Blaine knew it was going to be one of those movies. "New York. She's going to journalism school and he's going to start his career. Now, shush."
But it was only a few minutes later that Blaine needed to speak up again. "Hold on, that's not right. Guys and girls can definitely be friends without sex. I mean, we both have plenty of girl friends -"
"We're also both gay, Blaine." Kurt turned to look at him this time, but there was no irritation in his stare. "I think the way it works for us is that two gay guys can't be just friends without the sex - or romance - thing getting in the way."
And before Blaine could reply, could argue because that wasn't true either, Kurt was turning back to the screen, a slight pink tinge to his cheeks. Blaine realized now was probably a good time to keep his mouth shut because maybe this was one of those things that Kurt wanted him to listen to and understand… and, come to think about it, maybe it was one of those things he needed to actually think about. After all, he had thought he was just going after friendship with Jeremiah and then all of a sudden Blaine thought he was in love with him? Perhaps Kurt was right.
But what about him and Kurt? Blaine chanced another glance at the boy who was still watching the screen, absently mouthing along to some of the words here and there. He and Kurt had been friends for awhile now and Blaine hadn't exactly sung a song to declare his feelings of love to Kurt.
… Well, there had been Teenage Dream, but that was different. And he may have been accused of glancing at Kurt too often during Hey Soul Sister but that was just to check how his friend was settling in. And Silly Love Songs… but that was because it had been Kurt's idea to do the performance and he wanted to make sure it was up to Kurt's standards.
Except now that he thought about it, really thought about it, Blaine realized that every time he was singing a song, he would always look to Kurt. Always.
Blaine was beginning to realize why Kurt wanted him to watch the movie.
But he pushed it aside for now, tuning back in just as the scene switched, jumping forward five years. There was still a lot of the movie to go and if this was one of Kurt's favorites, Blaine wanted to actually know what was going on.
"So they're with separate people now?"
Kurt nodded. "He's engaged."
"Does that mean they can be friends now, without the sex thing getting in the way?"
Once again, Kurt turned to look at him, this time with an eyebrow raised. "I'm impressed. Keep watching, you'll find out."
True enough, the two characters had the exact same conversation before coming to the conclusion that they couldn't be friends, and Blaine frowned. "I swear that just comes down to their personality and temperament more than the fact that they could have sex."
Kurt shrugged as the scene switched again. For a few minutes, they watched in silence before Blaine couldn't help himself any longer. "Oh, how convenient. They're both single."
"Shut up," Kurt said, elbowing him. "It's a movie, of course there's going to be cliches. Focus."
Blaine focused, but really, how was he meant to continue watching without interjecting? "And now they're friends. Is this the part where they prove themselves wrong and realize they can just be friends, or the part where they end up getting together?" Receiving no reply, Blaine smirked and continued watching.
When it got to the late night phone calls, Blaine couldn't bring himself to comment, however, because that hit just a little too close to home. Spending hours on the phone with Kurt, watching the same show or reading the same Vogue or whatever it was they talked about. They did it all the time and Blaine found himself relating far too closely to the characters at this point.
They're just friends, he reminded himself. It's totally okay.
Then he had to wonder why he was making such a big deal about it anyway. Blaine knew himself, as well as one could know themselves anyway. If he liked Kurt, wouldn't he know that?
Maybe not.
Sighing quietly, Blaine returned his focus to the movie, immediately wishing he hadn't. His jaw dropped and all he could do was watch in silence until it was over. "Did -" Blaine shook his head, trying to erase the image from his retinas. "Did she just fake an orgasm in the middle of a restaurant?"
"Shamelessly." Kurt's eyes still hadn't left the screen but Blaine could see he was smirking.
"And you said I had important things to pick up from this? Kurt, I don't think guys can really fake orgasms like that… and I don't think I'd need to. Ever." Kurt mumbled something under his breath and Blaine frowned. "What?"
Kurt raised a finger to his lips. "Just watch the movie."
And then things started getting tense. Not just on the screen, as Harry and Sally tried to set each other up with their friends, but in the room.
Because Kurt was so close. Blaine didn't know how he hadn't realized it before but there was barely an inch between them and Blaine could almost feel Kurt's arm against his and why did it matter? They had been close before, many many times. So why was it a big deal now, why was it driving Blaine crazy with the proximity?
Focus on the movie.
"Oh, here we go."
Blaine turned to Kurt who was biting his lip. "What?"
Kurt shook his head, gesturing back to the screen which depicted a hysterical Sally being comforted by Harry. Blaine managed to decipher that her ex was getting married and she was clearly upset by it before realizing what Kurt had meant because wow, there was a lot of tension in that room.
And then they started kissing and Blaine stopped breathing. Of course he had known it was coming but to see the shift from friendship into more… well.
Blaine knew this was the connection Kurt wanted him to make, that it was so easy to let friendship drift over. And Blaine presumed that now they were together and everything was going to be easy and happily ever after and that was all well and good for the movies but what about when you're two guys in Ohio and have no idea what you're doing?
And then Harry left.
Blaine blinked a couple of times before turning to Kurt who was already looking at him. "Yeah," he said in answer to the unspoken question. "This isn't one of those 'everything works out just like that' movies, Blaine. It's a bit more like real life."
Blaine nodded, having to admit that was true and suddenly finding himself immensely grateful for the movie, for reasons he had never even considered before. Now it was like there was this guy he could understand, someone who didn't know what he was doing when it came to the line between friendship and romance either.
Someone who Blaine didn't want to be, whose mistakes he didn't want to make. So why would Kurt be showing him this if Harry screwed up so badly?
And things weren't getting any better either, especially not with that fight. "They can't recover from that," Blaine found himself whispering, barely aware of Kurt watching him more than the movie. He was lost in the story, connecting far too close, too vividly. But more than anything, this movie was showing him what a bad idea it would be to go after Kurt, to try and make something work there because of the chances of losing such an amazing friendship. Watching Harry try to mend what he had broken almost broke Blaine's heart because that could have been him.
It took a little while for Blaine to realize he was actually seriously considering a relationship with Kurt, but it wasn't a thought he could dismiss once he realized. No, it wasn't something he could do, not after watching this and seeing how badly it turned out for them, but maybe he did have feelings for Kurt. Maybe the line between friendship and relationship was blurring for him, just like it seemed it had for Kurt.
But Harry didn't give up.
Blaine wouldn't have been able to look away if anybody had paid him at that point, not when Harry was running towards the party like his whole life depended on it. Not when Sally was standing there, so lonely without Harry. Not when Harry had realized that his life did depend on it, the life he wanted. He wasn't going to give up on this. It didn't matter that they hadn't started out right, that things weren't right at that point, that they were only meant to be friends and nothing more and nothing was supposed to have changed that. Harry loved Sally and he was going to tell her.
Love was worth fighting for, worth risking for. It was worth making yourself vulnerable, setting yourself up for rejection and heartbreak. It was worth admitting your mistakes and apologizing. And it was worth giving your whole heart.
And Blaine wanted to.
"… And I love that you are the last person I want to talk to before I go to sleep at night. And it's not because I'm lonely, and it's not because it's New Year's Eve. I came here tonight because when you realize you want to spend the rest of your life with somebody, you want the rest of your life to start as soon as possible."
"Kurt."
Blaine barely realized he had spoken but found himself turning towards Kurt involuntarily, who was smiling at him. "Do you understand now?" he asked, and damn it all if Kurt hadn't known the whole time, known what it had taken Blaine so long to figure out.
"Yes."
Kurt leaned in, closing that final distance between them and kissed him, and Blaine realized he had no reason to be afraid.
Sometimes life did turn out like the movies.
MusicalEscape:
"You know the place."
"The alcove?"
"Wht the cheese are you talking about? I'm talking about Pigfarts! Or Hogwarts, whichever is closer. Bring your spacesuits!"
