Chapter 8: Panic
I have no idea what time it is when I finally wake up. I feel like I have been sleeping for days. I also feel like I could sleep for a few more days. My hair is all over the place, tickling my face and neck, I let out a childlike giggle. Im so comfortable and warm, I never want to get out of this bed. But reality set in and I feel like im being watched. I shoot strait up clutching my chest and my heart starts races then stops. There he is, sitting at the table leaned back with his ankle hooked up on his knee and his elbow on the table, his hand supporting the side of his head. There he is, in this white room, helmet off, all black clothes, and just watching me.
"I was wondering when you would finally wake up." He says without taking his eyes off me. My heart feels like its going to jump out my chest, he could of killed me in my sleep. "You looked very comfortable. I didnt want to wake you."
"Why are you here?" I glare.
"Hows your hand? Does it bother you at all?" He sits up from the table and makes his way over to the edge of the bed and sits down. Instinctively I move to the farthest side of the bed. Clutching the blanket to my chest, like some form of shield. "Stop acting like im going to hurt you all the time Rey. Like I said, I have plans for you." He motions me to give him my hand.
"How can I trust a man who keeps telling me he is going to tell me when his Master gives him the thumbs up. Going to drive a saber through her heart!? You plan on killing me. You killed your own father in front of me, you killed Luke in front of me! You put me in that cell for 3 days reminding me your going to kill me and then all the sudden you have a change of monster heart and what, show me pity? You should of left me in that cell to die. Instead im living in fear every second your around that your going to just kill me and your sick mind is torturing me by allowing me these things" Motioning my hand to the room, the tears start and i squeeze the blanket closer.
Im terrified
He sat there motionless and just looked at me. There is the man with the mask and then there is this man, without his mask.
"COME HERE!" He growled. I felt his anger rush through me.
Masked Kylo is back
He didnt like that comment very much, i dont even know how he did it but he pulled me to him and grabbed my wrist. Force Rey, duhh. I forget about it once in awhile. I havent even accessed mine yet. All i know is i can heighten my senses mediating. I dont think i can even lift a pebble yet. I havent had the chance to try.
Ouuch, Bastard.
"Dont you ever listen. No wonder you were abandoned you on Jakku." He snapped. My eyes start watering and he doesnt bother looking at me and examines my hand. "The infection is gone too, like it never happened. Your lucky I caught it when I did. I felt your worry when you saw it. I came to look, I figured you were overreacting but when I saw you in there I thought you could use... some necessities. Master would be angry if you were being mistreated." He dropped my hand and retreated to grab his helmet. "This is were you will stay the remainder of the time you are here. If you try to escape I will find you. Your weak, you dont know how much control I have over you. I can hear your heartbeat from light years away. It be foolish to think you can outrun me." With a loud hiss he puts his mask on and stormed off. Leaving me just crying on the bed.
YOU NEVER ANSWERED ME. WHY AM I HERE? YOU SAID YOU WERE GOING TO PERSONALLY KILL ME! I scream in my head and ball up my fists. I have no idea what is going on here. JUST DO IT OR LET ME GO!
'If you dont change your tone with me I will personally come in there and make you. Scavenger.'
I scream into my pillow as loud as I can and just sob. After awhile I pull myself together and decide to mediate in front of the window. Watching all the passing stars and planets. I sit down in my favorite lotus position and find my center balance. If im weak then I will build up enough strength to leave this place before they kill me. I have no choice. Its just a matter of time. I try and find Kylo with my mind, feel where on the ship he could be. If he could sense me I must be able to sense him.
I wonder if everyone force-user can do this.
'No. Now stop trying to find me. I am very well trained. You cant access that part of my mind. I am a ghost to you. Which makes me twice as dangerous.'
I scowl.
Why can you hear me? Why can I talk to you?
'Red book, top shelf. Now leave me alone. Its worse when you are directly thinking about me or trying to talk to me'
My trance is broken and I immediately go and look for this mysterious red book. It wasnt hard to find. Only red book on the top shelf. I had to actually use a chair to reach it. Pulling the book out I stand there shaking while my fingers run over the gold detailed lettering. FORCE BOND. Quickly I scramble to the bed and open the book to the first page and take a deep breath.
-Force Bond: Common to occur between Jedi Masters and their apprentices, a Force bond is a link through which two Force-sensitives could influence each other. It allowed the communication of feelings, thoughts and images across distances and granted greater coordination in battle. Through such connections the Force easily flowed, sometimes allowing one's will to bolster the strengths of the other, or possibly to draw upon their strengths. Force bonding refers to the innate Force ability to form connections in the Force. The degree to which that was possible varied depending on the Force-sensitivity of the people involved, meaning that the stronger they were in the Force, the stronger the connection would be. While most life had a marginal ability to form connections, some were said to have a special predisposition to it.-
Without wanting to, i flipped to the next page. My tears falling on the pages of the old book. I dont know if I can read anymore without throwing up.
-"A bond between two living beings is not something easily broken. It not a choice… it is like breaking a feeling. Like turning away from the Force. To break a bond, your feelings would have to change, or one of you would have to die—but even then, the bond wouldn't go away, it would simply… it would simply be empty, a wound." Master Zez-Kai El-
I drop the book into my lap and put my hands on the sides of my head. Force bond? To Kylo Ren? No. No. No. I feel the anger rage inside me, all the anger from the moment I saw Luke laying on the ground, to every moment Kylo Ren allowed me to live on the same ship as me and keep this secret from me. I refuse to sit here any longer. I throw the book across the room.
'Calm down Rey."
Why didnt you tell me?
'Calm down'
Your going to regret this. You should of killed me when you had the chance. I will train with you. NEVER.
'You know im going to get there before you have a chance to leave that room'
Watch me.
Without thinking I dashed over and pressed the black button on the wall calling JC-2010 into the room. The door opened right away and the shiny Stormtrooper stepped in. "What can I help...", before he finished his sentence I stuck out my arm and with a power I didnt know I had I flung him out the door against the wall of the hallway. I ran, as fast as I could, I ran. I made it to small corridor before I felt the darkness seep under my skin. I had nowhere to hide, who was i kidding. If Kylo Ren could hear my heartbeat from across the universe, he would obviously find me if i was hiding in a storage closet. There is no point. I turned around to meet my fate. I could feel his anger, disappointment, and rage. He was standing at the end of the hallway, lightsaber ignited ready to charge.
"GO AHEAD, DO IT!" I sank to my knees. Willingly giving myself to death. I have no way to defend myself against him, hes right. Hes much stronger than me.
"I TOLD YOU NOT TO RUN!" His words were spread out so i can tell he had been running. His shoulders heaving up and down like the rolling waves of an ocean. He turned his lightsaber off and stalked towards me. Like a predator to its pray. "You disrespected a direct order." He was closing the gap between us quickly. Raising his hand he throws me into the wall. Holding me there. His other hand in a tight closed fist.
Are you keeping me alive because if you kill me it weakens you? I never asked for this!
"Yes, When I found out about the force bond I went strait to the Supreme Leader. He told me that you can be of great value and maybe killing you wasnt the best idea."
'I saved your pathetic life'
"When did you tell him?" I say between sobs.
"Before I found you with the old man. After that I was givin strict orders to bring you here. Alive. Finish you off in front of the Supreme Leader since he sees you as my biggest weakness. The Scavenger that got away." He is talking through his teeth. I feel his hatred towards, filling the air i breath, choking me. "But the more I realized how strong the bond was. The more valuable you became."
He pushes me even harder against the wall. Slowly crushing my ribs. I let out a scream and tremble under the pressure. "So im a prisoner until you no longer feel this... bond?" I manage to say. Trying my hardest to focus on my breathing.
Hes going to kill me. Right here. My head throbs.
He lets me go and steps back and I sag to the floor gasping for air.
"I have been given permission to bring on an apprentice. And..." He pauses and looks down each end of the hall and looks back at me. Im suprised no one has seen us. I dont even know where on the ship we are. He raises he arms and takes his helmet off and drops it on the floor next to me. Its so heavy. Im still staring at the ground on all fours trying to find more air to fill my lungs. " And I want to train you. I showed you last night, not all the dark is bad. There are amazing things I can teach you. You dont realize how strong you can be. With our bond, we would be. Unstoppable." Hes angry. He doesnt like that I dont see the advantages like he does.
I cant believe this. Die or Join Kylo Ren? Those are my options.
'Exactly'
"Those traiter, theives, murders you call friends? They cant help you the same way I can. Your power is so raw. Untrained yes, but raw. Did you see what you did, when you TRIED to leave" he takes knee next to me whispers in my ear. "You could be unstopable. Have whatever you want. I know you want to know what it feels like to have control, and I can show you."
I raise my head and meet his gaze, hes close...to close. Hes staring into my soul. But this time with his eyes. Not hidden behind some mask.
"Think about it. If you say no I will be forced to kill you" And then everything went black.
** Girlwith100names: I appriciate the review! My very first review! thank you! There will be plenty of both, dont worry. I love the more dominant Kylo too. But who doesnt love a flicker of sensative once in awhile. Im just getting started, i have a long story to tell. :)