Chapter 17: Dreams

The boat slows to a stop on top of a shallow section at the edge of the meadow. This feels as thought its my dream. Something so beautiful can only exist in dreams. The water that falls from the waterfalls just glistens in the sun. I get out of the boat slowly and silently walk forward spreading my fingers to just touching the tips of the tall grass. Allowing it to tickle my palms like my dream. The flowers in the field must be in full bloom, I close my eyes and listen to the running water and faint birds in the background. I listen to Kylos heartbeat, slightly faster than normal which causes me to turn and look at him.

"I dreamed I was here. Twice I dreamed of this meadow." I almost whisper. I look around me, my eyes soaking up everything I see, the beautiful yellow and purple flowers in full bloom. Its exactly as I dreamed it was, but better.

"You were called to it. Its your destiny to be here with me." He is standing on the edge of the meadow near the boat. His expression calm but anxious. I cant explain how my mind brought me here.

"My dream. You were in my dream" I take a few steps back, I remember the lightening, and how it almost hit me twice. The flash of light and then waking up on the destroyer. Im just staring at him, blinking away the water that swells in my eyes. "Why would I see this place?"

"I watched you for a few minutes, trying to understand why were you dreaming of this place. You looked so healthy, I have never seen you with that much color in your cheeks. There you were happy and had no worry, in my grandmothers meadow. Never have I seen someone so at peace. I could feel you, even then. I was overwhelmed with emotion, a pull towards the light. Pulling me to you. In that moment I realized who you truly were and if Supreme Leader found out he would kill us both. Knowing that together we are more powerful than him." He starts walking towards me. "You. A scavenger. My soulmate. You were either going to be my biggest downfall or my greatest asset. I thought you would pick up on it when you first read the book, but you didnt know exactly what you were looking for. The connection on your end was weak. So I opened it." He is now standing arms length away from me. Our eyes stay locked on each others. The world around us seems to slow in time as I wrap my head around what Kylo is saying. "The storm was merely to scare you. I was worried Supreme Leader saw what was happening, he would have me kill you in a second. I think at that point I wouldnt of been able to do that. And he would of killed us both because even in our dreams we arnt safe. But here, you are the safest you will ever be. You will always be safe with me."

He moves closer till our bodies are almost touching. He wraps his large hands around my arms and just holds me there. Maybe hes afraid I am going to run. I dont want to. He staring at my lips, just waiting for me to almost scream and run. Slowly he lowers his head, meeting my gaze for a split second. Then his lips are on mine and my whole body dissolves and I kiss him back. Not caring that he is a monster, a murderer, a creature in a mask. I feel complete. At this moment I give in to him. Parting my lips to let him deepen his kiss. I grab his elbows for support and let out a small involuntary moan. He takes control, slowly touching the roof of my mouth with his tongue. He his arms let go and one find the small of my back and he pulls me so our bodies are flush with eachother. His other hand is holding the side of my face, his thumb under my chin and his fingers around the nape of my neck. We stay like this for awhile. Enjoying each other touch I could feel the energy around us getting stronger, swirling around us like a dessert storm. I only break for a minute to catch my breath. I never want this to end, I have craved the touch of someone for so long. I have never let myself be this vulnerable to someone. He stops and pulls away inches of my face, our eyes meet and he is smiling. His child like smile that makes my heart stop.

'Unmasked Kylo'

"You really believe that old wise tale? That we are called to each other." I cant believe what is happening. Im soulmate force bonded with the leader of the Knights of Ren.

"I do. Do you have any idea what we can accomplish together? I will never let anything happen to you and I plan to train you to ensure nothing does." He is being so calm. I have never seen this Kylo. Maybe this is Ben talking, but I wont say anything to ruin the moment.

"I believe you..." And his lips are on mine once more, but this kiss is much deeper. I feel the passion, the electricity that evolves between us. It addicting. I kiss him back and bring my hands to around his neck, allowing me to pull him even closer. He pulls away to soon and lets go but grabs my hand and we start walking through the meadow back to the boat. "Now what?"

He lets out a small laugh, "Arnt you hungry. We can come back tomorrow, but for now we can talk back at the house."

The boat ride was short, we didnt talk. We just looked at each other.

I have to let everything soak in. My eyes fall to the passing water on the side of the boat. And I still hate you.

He continued to watch me. 'I know'

We get to the house and when we get back up to the balcony I stop for a minute to look back over the water, What is to become of me. "Whats going to happen to us if Snoke finds out who I am? What I am to you. Will he kill me himself?" I look back to Kylo who is leaning against a pillar still watching me like hes waiting for me to run.

"Yes. If the resistance finds out they will no doubt try and kill us both. But that wont happen. We can keep it a secret. Like my grandfather and grandmother. This was a happy place for them." He turns and looks over the water.

"Im starving." I tell him after a few minutes to change the subject. I doubt Finn would kill me, he would know it wasnt my fault. Its not my fault.

"Of course, come, lets eat." He takes my hand and leads me into the dinning room overlooking the balcony. I sit down on the one end and he goes into the kitchen. I notice the pears are still there so i quickly get up and grab on and sit back down. Examining it in my hands like a forbidden fruit. I raise it to my mouth and take a bite. Its the most welcoming taste I have ever had. Its juicy and sweet. I close my eyes and chew slow, enjoying every ounce of flavor. Kylo comes back and chuckles when he sees me.

"Those are my favorite too." I smile back with a mouthful. In his hands he has two bowl and sits down with them. Using the force he slowly glides my bowl to in front of me.

"I need to get better at that." And in an instant he pulls the pear from my hand and its in his, he looks at it and takes a large bite. Consuming half of what I had left he then glides the pear back and sets it down next to my bowl. The soup smells delicious though I have no idea what it is. I take one bite and it warms my whole body. "What is this?"

"Tomato and Garlic soup from a market shop close here on Naboo," he answers. He must really like it because he is already done by the time I get halfway through mine. Im full and tired. I can feel myself falling asleep slowly. "Are you tired?" he asks.

"Its been a very overwhelming day." I yawn and I sink deeper in my chair.

"Let me take you upstairs. We are going to be here for a few days so I had some stuff put in a room for you." He gets up from the table and walks over to me and pulls my chair out. Startling me. He slips his arm under my knees and puts his other around my back and proceeds to carry me upstairs. I was going to fight it but I welcomed the gesture. I laid my head on his chest and he pulled me tighter to him. Once to the top of the stairs he walks to a large double door. Made from some type of wood, with delicate carvings throughout. Kylo manages to open the door and once we are inside, I almost want to get down to look around better. There is a large bed with large wood posts that are holding up sheer white material that drapes over the bed. There is a balcony overlooking the lake and the trench leading to the meadow. A door leading to a fresher and on one wall is a vanity, a beautiful wood and gold vanity with various thing laid about. Another wall has a large wooded wardrobe with two large wood and gold doors. I can explore tomorrow. Kylo sets me on the bed and lightly trails his fingers down my cheek and his thumb brushes my lip. "Can I stay?"

"Please." All I crave right now is his closeness and warmth, I also dont really want to be alone. He climbs in behind me and pulls me to him. My body molding perfectly to his, his arm draped over my stomach and his other under my pillow. I can feel his breath in my hair and most of all I can feel his heart beating against me, for once its not just a sound. Reminding me that maybe he is human after all. My heart feels like it found something it has been searching for, beating in unison till I drift off to sleep. Kylo pulling me closer.