Chapter 34: Making Memories

I wake up facing the inside of the couch, my head on my arm as a pillow. The blanket covering me from hip down. It's light out, and my head is pounding. I sit up and jump when I see Kylo sitting across from me in a chair. He isn't wearing his usual black clothes, but the more relaxed ones he wears when we are here. His ankle hooked over his knee, he's leaning back and his eyes are tight on mine. He's covering his mouth by the way he's resting his and on his face.

"How long have you been there?" I ask, rubbing my eyes to focus them. It's so bright and warmer than its been the past few two days.

'Not long' he answers coldly.

I'm about to speak but he moves his hand from his mouth and holds it up warning me to stop. He doesn't want my excuses.

"Do you think I'm lying to you?" He's going to be mad no matter what I say so I just spit it out anyways. He sits up and shifts so his elbows are on his knees and he's leaning in to talk to me closer. There is a small wooden table I between us. He doesn't speak. Instead he pulls all my memories for the day, all I did was sleep and look at my lightsaber. He closes his eyes and bows his head.

"I can't believe you let him go!" He looks up, his eyes intense.

"Excuse me? Since when do I fight for you?" I stand up and take my lightsaber off the couch and turn to walk out but Kylo stands and grabs my wrist. Squeezing hard.

"You are part of the First Order still. Even if you don't fight for them." He snaps.

"How long do you think you can keep this up, huh? I didn't call him here. I sent you away to take the pressure off me of being something I'm not. I don't want to kill people! I don't want to be like you!"

I pull my wrist from him and walk upstairs to my room. Locking the door behind me. I take a quick shower and look for something simple to wear, I want to get out to the meadow today if Kylo isn't planning on taking me back to the destroyer already. But how he is dressed makes me think we are staying here for awhile. I find a pair of black fitted pants and a black tshirt in a drawer in the bottom of the wardrobe. I feel guilty for wearing this stuff, they are so nice.

I walk down the stairs, trying to avoid him as much as possible. I know he's still sitting in the living room. So I am able to turn the corner towards the back boat without him noticing me. I walk down the stairs and get in the boat. I manage to get out a little bit before I see Kylo standing on the dock. I giggle, but my rowing is weak and I'm moving slow. Kylos eyes narrow and he removes his shirt and socks. I don't want to think about how perfect his body is right now so I turn my head and try to row faster. I hear Kylo dive into the water and I stop rowing.

I can't swim. I plead with him to not do something irrational.

I feel him moving under the water. My hands grip the sides of the boat. He's going to flip it, I feel it. The water shifts before a wave rolls the whole boat over. I plunge underwater, kicking my feet and moving my arms around. Trying to get to the surface. Something from under me swims up and pushes me to the surface. When I break surface I cough up some water and gasp for air. I look over and Kylo has his arm under my legs and around my back. His hair all over the place, he's smiling.

I drop my head back so my hair is in the water, "I wasn't planning on going swimming. I can't swim" my arms around his neck, I lift my head up and burry it into his neck. Somehow he walked back to a ledge underwater, it seems like part of the house. The water is waist deep. He sets me down in the water, my teeth chattering together. My skin cold.

"You have to learn somehow." He says. "I am still your teacher, and you said I was a good one." He smiles and sinks into the water, leaving me on this mysterious ledge by myself. I close my eyes concentrating where in the water he is. He moves fast. He pops up almost in the middle of the lake, he submerges again and within a minute he's right next to me again.

"Shouldn't you be back on the Destroyer now that it was all a hoax." He straitens up, water dripping down his abs. "I mean, now what? That was just a diversion."

"Why must you ask this right now." He splashes water at me. I'm shocked at how playful he is being considering last night. Maybe he doesn't blame me. The next few hours Kylo teaches me how to swim, I finally get the hang of it and I don't want to get out. I swim out as far as I'm comfortable with and then back to the ledge. I'm to exhausted to go to the meadow now, the thought makes me sad. Kylo notices my tiredness and swims over to me.

"Do you want to rest? We have to head back tomorrow. I have a lot to do." He looks down on me. I start shivering. "Okay, enough." He states. We swim over to the ladder off the shaded dock. It feels strange being on solid ground without the water, my legs jiggle. Kylo chuckles and sweeps me off my feet. I lean into him and close my eyes. When he is setting me down I'm standing in front of the fireplace. I'm dripping wet. He starts the fire with one touch and he turns to me.

His eyes look over my body, he slowly reaches for the hem of my shirt and pulls it over my head and sets it on the ground. My skin goosebumps at the feeling of the warmth of the fireplace. He runs his hands down my sides and then hooks his thumbs into my pants and removes them. I'm just standing in my underwear and bra. Shivering but warm. I wrap my hands around me, my hair is cold and wet. He proceeds to remove his pants till he is just in his black briefs and he stands in front of me. His hands on my shoulders and then runs them down my arms , cupping at my elbows.

"Arnt you mad at me?" I look up at him, slowly my body is warming up. "You came all the way back here in a rush to yell at me didn't you?"

"Yes, but the moment I saw you sleeping on the couch, so peaceful and beautiful, I couldn't yell at you. And I know your telling me the truth so I don't want to fight with you right now. I don't get you here often." His mouth is on mine. His hands spread out on my back, my hands find his hair. His hand one hand skims over my butt and pulls me closer to him. He moves me back to the couch, I feel it hit the back of my knees. He lowers me down, without ever breaking our kiss. He grinds his erection against my pubic bone. The heat between my legs pool. I just wish there wasn't two layers between us. He slides his hand over my breast and stomach, slowly reaching his hand inside my underwear. Massaging me with his fingers. I moan again his lips.

He stops and spreads his hand over my hip and squeezes. Sending tingles down my leg. He gathers my hands in his one hand and raises them above my head, using that hand to hold his weight up. He removes my underwear and I'm relieved to have them off. They were still wet and cold against my skin. He removes his underwear with his one hand and looks down at me and he's biting his lip. He lowers his head and lines kisses my neck and down between my breasts. I moan at the pleasure I get from his little action. I close my eyes and rest my head to the side on my one arm. I let him take control because that's who he is. And I honestly like it, I'm to embarrassed to do anything he doesn't engage in first. He moves his one hand down and runs his thumb down my already wet entrance, I just want him to take me now. I crave him and his touch. I forget who he is.

He slowly glides himself in and I arch my back in response and Kylo takes the opportunity to slip his free hand under my back and pull me close to him. He lets go of my hands above my head and grabs the back of my neck, forcing me to kiss him deep. And without pulling out he turns his body and is sitting on the couch, I'm strattling him. Sending him deeper into me. I gasp. Until now he hasn't even broke our kiss. He tucks some hair behind my ear and he reaches up and takes my bra off. He runs his hands over my breast and my nipples harden in response. He spreads his one hand along my ribs where they were once broken, he glides his hand to my back, some of his finger spread across the top of one of my butt cheeks. I love his skin on mine. He digs his fingers in and moves me forward and I slide back. The feeling sends butterfly's up my spine. I roll my head to the side, exposing my neck and Kylo takes the chance to kiss me there and down my shoulder.

He pushes my hips again and moans in response, his head falls back and he closes his eyes. I like seeing him be so submissive to me. I start moving the way he showed me and he grips my hips hard. Pushing me down on him. I feel my insides tighten, I'm about to release and so is Kylo, his fingers dig deep into my hips. It's hurts but I push through it. His body tenses and then he leans in and plants a kiss on my ribs. He flips me on my back and pulls out. He gets up and walks out of the room. I hate the empty feeling I get when he leaves.

Each time we make love, we connect deeper and deeper. It gets more intense, and more comfortable.

I roll over on the couch because I have no dry clothes down here. I notice the white blanket on the back of the couch, so I pull it around me and lay down. My body defeated. Kylo comes back from the other room and giggles when he sees me. He reaches down and scoops me in his arms, he's already dressed, at least in dry pants. I lean against him and close my eyes, I fall asleep before we even hit the stairs.

** Make sure you read chapter 33, since I uploaded 2 at once!**