Chapter 39: The Main Room
I fell asleep last with my head in Kylos lap last night watching the flame. He was running his fingers through my hair and down my neck. When I woke back up on the couch, my head was on a pillow and I have a super soft throw over me. I sit up and yawn. The fire dancing in my sleepy eyes. I look around the room and I see Kylo looking out a window with the shade up. I just want to go look at the clouds so I get to my feet and walk over to him.
"What are you looking at?" I ask him. He looks down at me and smiles. I'm glad to see his light mood despite the situation.
"Nothing, I just enjoy looking at the clouds here. And as you probably figured out, the sun here never sets." He looks around. "Hence the shades."
"But you always have them closed?" I look around confused.
"Its gets to bright." He laughs. He walks away but leaves the one shade open. I stand there and just watch the clouds. Just like I use to watch the stars on the Destroyer. He comes back and hands me an apple. "Eat." His eyes serious.
"Geesh okay." I take the apple and take a bite. He goes over to another part of the living room which I didn't really notice before. It's a desk in front of one of the windows. Black wood with silver hardware, in front of it is a sleek black chair. Kylo walks over to it and places a hologram down. A image of his ship appears and he studies it. "Are you looking to do some upgrades?" I walk over to him and study the ship.
"I haven't decided." He says not breaking eye contact with the hologram. He touches the image of the ship and it disassembled leaving only the cockpit.
"Better make room for a carseat." I say, letting out a small chuckle. Kylos eyes shoot to me and his eyebrows crease. I cover my mouth and stop laughing immediately. "I'm sorry, not funny." I say through my hand. I turn around and walk back to the open window. Still chuckling to myself. I can see another small dome in the distance. It has less windows. I squint my eyes knowing it's impossible to see into it. "How many buildings are here?" I ask and turn around waiting for an answer. He looks up at me
"12. Would you like to see one of them?" He asks. My heart stops.
"Really?! Yeah." I say, overexcited even though I have no idea what I'm about to see. I run up the stairs and grab my cloak as quick as possible. When k get back down the stairs Kylo already has is mask on and hood up. I swing into my cloak and pull my hood up. Smiling at him. I'm excited.
'Do I really have to tell you to mind your tongue. My Knights are going to be in the main room.'
I roll my eyes at him. Really?
When he opens the door the hallway is long and bright. I can see so much sky. I walk past Kylo. It's a bridge in the sky. I take a few steps into it and my mouth opens, it's like a dream. Down at the end of the never ending hallway bridge I see a door.
"That is a long walk..." I say and glare at him. He tilts his head. "But it's okay." I say quickly recanting my statement, I don't want him putting me back in the room. We walk for what seems like forever. I can't stop looking out at the clouds as we walk. Occasionally touching the window where a could is intersecting the bridge. It's almost better that the meadow.
"So there are no stars?" I ask and look up at him as we continue walking.
'No and I like it that way. Change of scenery.'
We finally reach the end of the hall and Kylo opens the door with a wave of his hand. I'm guessing the coded doors was to keep something in and not out. We emerge in a rounded hallway with scattered windows that must go around the whole dome. Kylo turns and we walk for a minute and suddenly a door comes into view leading to the center of the building.
The door slides open with motion detection and we emerge in a round room with the walls covered in monitors. In the center of the room is a very large round looking table, it's a hologram projector. The middle of the table is sunken down and lined with red grid. There are 3 other entrances into the room forming a cross. The only light comes from a skylight that is in front of each door. Everything black and silver. I walk slowly towards the table, glancing back to see if it's okay. Kylo nods and follows me. I run my fingers around the edges and circle it.
"What is this for?" I ask. He is just glaring at me.
"I'll show you. Name somewhere." He says, testing me. I can't think of anywhere in particular.
"Ach'To." I say, it's the first thing I can think of that sounds reasonable. All of a sudden a thousand planets flicker over the hologram projector. I stumble back and remove my hood. I'm amazed and I am reminded of the map that lead me here. Kylo presses a few codes into a sensor along the tables edge. The beautiful planet emerges. It's so blue, and exactly the way I remembered it when I first saw it. I clutch my chest at the memories swooping in surround the planet.
"Do you want me to continue?" He asks.
"There's more?" I say. Shocked, what more could he possible show me besides he probably holds a map to every planet in the galaxy right here, in the hands of the First Order. The planet gets larger and slowly focuses as more blue comes into the picture, then I make out water, then the mountain, and then... the fire pit with the log where me and Luke talked the day before he died. My staff still prompt up along a tree. My eyes swell with tears. I can see the spot Luke died and emotions overwhelm me. I cover my mouth in reaction to what i am seeing. But something moving on the ground near my staff causes me to lower my hand and lean in. A small scavenger animal is eating a nut by the tree. I glance over at Kylo and I hate not being able to see his expression.
"Here I can look at any location and see whats happening at this very moment. You just have to know what to look for. Its the only weapon of its kind." He walks over to me. I wipe some tears from my eyes. "When I felt you the first time, I came strait here. For a few days I watched you. I couldn't believe he wouldn't train you. Your powers are obviously great but need guidance." My body shivers and I look away from him in disgust.
"Why did you show me this?" I ask, still not looking at him. My nose running from crying. I see from the corner of my eye him run his fingers over a panel and the device shuts off.
"Because I need you to understand what power the First Order has and why Supreme Leader wont let anything get in his way" He says. His voice so mechanical. He takes another step forward and I step away from him.
"And I am in the way now?" I ask, already knowing the answer. I wipe my nose on the back of my hand and turn on my heals and walk away. He doesnt try to stop me. There is no where I can go except out in the hallway. Once in the bright hallway I walk over to one of the windows and lean my forehead against it. Closing my eyes and just taking a few deep breaths to stop myself from crying. I wipe my face with my hands and turn around to walk back inside and face him but I hear footsteps coming from around the bend. Cornelius come into view. I straiten up and look away from him.
"What are you doing out here?" He asks. Im taken back by his acknowledgement of me. From what I gathered before, he does not like me. I ball my fist up in preparation of an attack.
"Nothing." I say.
"Where is Ren?" He asks. I point to the door and Cornelius looks from me to the door and back. I wish i could see what his face looks like.
"Hmm." He humms and the door slides open and Kylo walks out and looks between the two of us and stomps over to me.
'What did I tell you about running off.' His voice demanding even through thoughts.
LEAVE ME ALONE! Your a monster, you just wanted to scare me even more. I hate you.
He grabs my arm and starts leading me to his living quarters. Hes stops next to Cornelius.
"Continue looking on Anaxes." He says and pulls me. Once we are inside the hallway and the doors shut he lets me go so abruptly I stumble against a window.
"You were actually watching me. This is beyond disturbing. I hate it here, I hate being near you, I HATE YOU!" I yell. I spread my fingers apart and when he turns and starts to walk in front of me I conger enough energy to throw him forward, hard. I shock myself. Usually I cant land attacks on him because he is so much stronger than me.
'Your getting stronger.' He says on his hands and knees in front of me. 'Don't do that again.' A stern warning.
Suddenly a sharp pain erupts from my pelvis. "Ahh," I cry out. I fall to my knees and grab my stomach. It shoots through me again. "Ah." I hurl over. The pain making me queezy. Its worse than the last time. Kylo gets up, unhisses his helmet and drops it to the ground and runs next to me.
"Dont touch me!" I yell at him and put my hand up to push him away but he grabs my wrist and pins it to my side. Another sudden pain emerges down there. "Ehhhhhh." Im seeing spots and I am so dizzy.
"Your exerting yourself. I shouldn't have taken you out of the room. The doctor will be here soon." He says to me.
"Oh cause my health is such a concern to you now that im a liability.." I snap back. Im looking down at the ground just trying not to pass out.
"Enough. Its not just you anymore." He says. Its the first time he has really acknowledged the baby. I pull my arm tighter around me and try to stand and take a few steps but the initial pain is still there. I stumble and brace myself against a window and close my eyes.
"Cant you just leave me alone." I say under my breath. I feel Kylo's hand travel down my back shoulder blade.
"No." He swoops his arm under my leg causing me to fall into his arms. I actually embrace his warmth. He bends down and picks up his helmet and holds it in his hand by my knee. I lean into his chest and just close my eyes.
**Thank you for continuing this journey with me :) **