Chapter 45: 19weeks Along
For the past 3 weeks I have spent cooped up in a small room on board the Resistance ship eating my fare share of food. The Resistance has been interrogating the General for secrets of the First Order but he won't crack. They want me to try, they say I could use my force powers to make him talk.
Poe has the Resistance not pulling out of light speed at the moment because they think they are keeping me safe but instead they don't realize what they have done. Kylos rage grows through me everyday. My mind empty of his thoughts as he has been hesitant to not stress me but the bond makes that impossible to ignore. I have been trying to hide my growing bump but she is becoming more and more noticeable. She kicks me in response to touching my stomach, running my hand over the perfectly curved bulge. I thought being around Finn and being back here I would feel I would do good but they just want to use my powers the same way the First Order does.
My vision blurry with a flash of light and suddenly I'm sitting in the lake house across the table from a small child with long black hair, she is eating a pear and smiling at me. "I love you mommy." She says and flashes her teeth, she must be around 4 years old. My heart melts and I go to reach out and touch her but the vision stops. This is how she communicates with me, showing me flashes of what our life is going to be together, we are always at the lake house. It comforts me but confuses me. She is going to be so powerful and it scares me. So much Light and Dark in her. A knock emerges from the door and I pull my cloak tight around me and Finn enters.
"We want you to try and get through to the General today. Please Rey. We need to know where the Destroyer is." He says, he walks into the room and places his hands on my shoulders. "Please Rey?"
"Well now don't you sound like the First Order." I snap at him. He lets go and looks shocked. "I'm sorry." I say and turn around and face the wall.
"Why won't you talk about what happened there? What did he do to you Rey? I know the type of Monster he is. I have seen it first hand. Do you understand how many men we lost to land the false evidence of the meeting on Courscant? Our goal was to get the General or even Kylo Ren himself captured. When I saw you I didnt know you... I don't..." He says but cuts himself off. "Will you come for a walk with me? Can I show you something?"
"I'm really tired. Can you show me tomorrow?" I ask him and turn around. He's already walking towards the door.
"I don't understand, but when your ready to talk I'm here. Your safe now. We won't let him get to you. Whatever it takes." Finn says worriedly and exists the room. I have to escape the Resistance. I can't believe I'm saying this. I cry into my arms.
Kylo?
'Yes?'
I'm going to try and escape.
'Your what?'
I'm going to try and get them to stop out of hyper speed and steal a ship. I want you to spare them. For me, please.
'Your going to put both your lives in danger. And I won't be so forgiving when I get to you.'
I can't take this anymore. I'm so torn, I'm being drawn to the Dark Side. Back to Kylo, the biggest threat of the Resistance. I grab my lightsaber from my side and weight it in my hand.
I don't belong here.
'I have been telling you that since you got here. They will use you and I would protect you.'
I squeeze my eyes shut and grab the lightsaber tighter in my hand.
Poe Dameron knows.
'What?!'
His anger flows through me so strong I fall to me knees and yell out. He is much more powerful than I think I will ever be.
He saw the first day when you drained me! Please, stop! He hasn't told anyone!
'And when you betray them he will tell everyone!'
I hate arguing with a voice in my head. I ignore him and run my hand over my stomach, this is much more noticeable now. I can feel her slight kicks on the outside. I can't wait to hold her. To be able to actually touch her. She won't let me touch her in my visions. I stand up and walk over to the door, unlocking it and it slides open to an empty hallway. I look around and walk towards the hanger. It's around dinner time so I know most of the ship is in the cafeteria. In the hanger I spot a group of people near a few x-wing and I see Poe in the mix, I feel relieved. I don't want to run into Finn.. I take a few deep breaths and walk over to them. I need to convince him to take the ship out of hyperdrive and I have no idea how I'm going to do that.
"Poe, can I please talk to you." I say as kindly as I can, smiling at the rest of the people around him. I don't recognize any of them. "Please." I say again.
"Sure." He turns back to everyone and dismissed them. They all leave the hanger, it's just me and Poe. "What's up?"
Poe is the only person I can trust, he has kept my secret and he doesn't try and pry for any answers since I gave Finn back his memories. He thanked me and ever since then I haven't really seen him. It's just other resistance members coming in trying to convince me to torture the General for information.
Everyone here stills believes that I was held captive. No one knows anything about working with them "supposedly". Which is a relief. They would probably kill me for treason, they wouldn't understand. And if anyone knew about the force bond I would be deemed a liability and they would kill me to weaken Kylo.
"I need to go back." I say quietly, embarrassed that I'm asking for his help.
"You what? To the First Order?" He asks.
"I can't stay here, it isn't safe. I need you to help me get back to Naboo. I'm getting bigger, I can be noticed. Please, take me there. Please." I plead.
He walks over closer to me so we can talk quieter. "You want me to help you get back to him? Why?"
"Because that's where I belong. My daughter is in danger of both the Resistance and The First Order. You wouldn't understand, I need to get away from both." I plead. He reaches down and grabs my hand. His touch doesn't satisfy my bare palm like Kylos does. There is no electricity and there is no spark. It's just a kind human contact. Something I barley know. His skin is warm, his hand not to large and soft. Not the hands of a pure murderer. "I'm in danger wherever I go with you. I can't stay here. I'll be safe there from anyone. He isn't going to hurt me and the First Order won't know I'm there either, please Poe. I don't want anything to happen to Finn, or you.
"How does he know where you are?" Poe asks. I can't tell if he will help me or not yet. I here some chatter behind me as some Peale walk through the hanger but quickly exit when they see me. I turn back to Poe.
"See what I mean, what do you think will happen to me when they know I'm carrying his child. I can't explain it, he just knows where I am, it's a force thing that happened when I was their prisoner. Ever since then he has been kind." I look down at my hands. "He will never hurt me. I'll be safe at the lake house. And you guys will be safe to continue to fight the First Order. You have their biggest weapon in custody. I can't even really use the force right now or it'll hurt me, us." And I rub my bump. The shirt tighter than before. "Please, help us. If anything do it for Finn, this will protect him." I sigh, looking into his eyes. He looks at me confused.
"Fine, but we are going to have to do this in a now. We have to stop for fuel and supplies, we are by the outer rim, not far from Naboo. We plan to only stop for an hour so I will bring you down and secure you a ship you can take to Naboo. You can obviously fly. Can you get there youself?"
"Really?" I whisper as people star filling the hanger. I pull the cloak tighter.
"Lets get you on the ship." I pull my hood over my head and Poe puts his hand on my back and leads me to a far ship in the corner, no one can see us. He sits me down in the passenger seat and clips me in. "Stay here till I come back." My heart starts racing at the thought of getting out of here.
'What's wrong?' Kylo is worried by my sudden heart quickening.
Don't freak out, Poe is heping me get back to Naboo. Just let me get there first then you can come. Please. Please just spare them.
'When?'
Just be there in a few days.
'Hmm.'
"Okay, they are jumping out of hyperdrive, I convinced them that I'm taking a separate shuttle for parts I need and don't want to slow down the other crew and I'll meet up with them back here. I don't know why I'm doing this Rey. But I know what they will do to you when they find out about you." I strap in tight, not knowing how to respond. He turns and gets the shuttle ready for departure, it's a modern transport shuttle for the resistance. We jolt forward alittle, thankful for being strapped in. We jumped out of hyper speed and I feel Kylo overwhelm with anger, he must realize where we are.
'Putero.'
"Putero?" I say out loud. Poe looks at me with a shocked face.
"How did you..." He says, his mouth gaping at me.
"He knows where we are. I don't know if I can't stop him from coming. We better hurry. Now."
Poe swings around and the ship hovers and shoots through the opening doors. Barley making it. What is Finn going to think?
I slide down in the seat as the blackness of space comes into view with a small metal planet growing in size in front of us.
"Is that a metal planet?" I ask Poe. This place looks man build.
"Yeah, strictly for fueling up. We are going to land in a small port in the trading hall. There should be some people down there that will help me. We just have to keep a low profile. Your cloak might make you... noticeable."
"I am not letting anyone see me." I say to him through my teeth. She kicks me in my side. I place my hand on my stomach. "And I am not leaving this behind." I grab at my cloak.
"Okay." He speeds up and we hit the planets atmosphere. The tall chrome towers come into view. No green in sight. I take a deep breath. We land in a area surrounded by different varieties of creatures and humans. I tap my side to feel at my lightsaber under my cloak. He opens the ramp and together we walk out into the market looking bustling city.
I feel a shift in the force and grab poes shoulder to steady myself. He turns and looks down at me.
"Kylo is coming. You have to get the resistance out of here. Go back! NOW!" I yell at him, "I will be fine. Just go, tell them to get out of here. They are safe now." He doesnt say a word. He runs back onto his ship and takes off. Im standing in the middle of the market and people are staring.
Its cold here. I start running through the ground, bumping into people right and left but making my way through to a ally. I run through to another street that has no crowd, its empty. I turn left and run down the road till I spot an empty metal building in the distance. It looks old, fringed fabric hanging in the window. I run as fast as I can to the 4 stroy metal building. I get to it and am exhausted, I havent had this much physical activity in while. Im thirsty and weak. I creak open a door and look inside. Its pitched black. I walk inside and grab my lightsaber and flick one of the sides it on. The lobby lights up and im standing in a small room. This is like a hotel.
The stairs to my right circle up to every floor. I look strait up and I can see the railing spin up to the ceiling. A walkway off each floor to the stairs. The place smells of rot and mold. I walk over to the bottom stairs and sit down. Surely Kylo will find me in here and thow a fit. Though I just want to see him, I dont want to fight. I lean against the railing, my eyes heavy. my lightsabers hums in my hand. I lay it on the floor in front of me for light. I can hear dripping water in the background. I concentrate on it and my eyes close.
** I really debated continuing on this chapter, haha. I hope everyone is enjoying this so far. Thank you to all my readers. You are amazing and I appreciate the reviews. I love them, they make me want to write more. -SSL **