Chapter 47: Back on the Destroyer
I'm laying on my side in Kylos room, on his bed. He refuses to let me stay in the white room, he only left me here to go check on something. Iv been super quiet, worrying about the Resistance. Its all my fault. Kylo says his Knights barley General Green out. Some of the Resistance managed to escape from the First Order. I run my hands over my stomach lightly and she kicks in response. Why would she show me Finn doing that?
"Ana?" I whisper... "I like that name. Is that what I'll name you?" I ask down at my stomach. I close my eyes and sprawl my hand over my rounded belly.
A sudden flash of light flickers behind my eyelids and then I see her, she is playing out in the meadow. Maybe 4 years old. Picking flowers, running around between the tall grass, her light green dress flows in the breeze. She looks up at me, her stunning green eyes against her long black hair that is pushed behind her silly ears. So much like her father, yet so much of me.
"Ana!" I yell to her.
"Mommy! Mommy! Want me to pick you some flowers mommy?" And she skips over to me flashing me her wide white teeth smile. She's is so beautiful in every way. Shes over just out of arms reach and closes her eyes. Around me, flower tops start rising from the meadow, being invisibly plucked from all around me. Slowly ascending into the air. The whole meadow is engulfed in floating flowers. I put my hands to my side and touch a few, they sway in her force field.
"Baby, this is beautiful. Thank you." I reach out to her but my vision stops and I sit up in bed.
"Why won't you let me touch you baby girl?" I rub my stomach lightly. I feel huge though I am only halfway there. My belly sticks out to form a perfect curve. My stomach growls and I lay back in bed and put my arm over my eyes. I didn't want to be back on the Destroyer.
The door slides open and I shoot up to Kylo walking in. My heart stops, not realizing how much I missed him when I was with the Resistance.
"Did you kill Finn?" I ask him. He doesn't remove his helmet as he stalks towards me. "Did you?"
"Did you want him endangering our daughter?" He says coldly. Sobs erupt from my eyes. I cover them, hiding my face. My whole body quivers in grief.
"I hate you." I say into my hands.
"Do you forget? Did you not want to come back?" He asks, I look up at him.
"I just wanted to be away from this and that! I begged you to only come for me and spare them!" I yell. I crawl out of the bed to the opposite side. Just the bed between me and Kylo. "I am being used were ever I go. I hate it! You... You use me as just a slave to the First Order, that you can turn me! Well you can't and they just want me because they think I'm like a Jedi savior and I don't want that either! I just wanted to go home." I sob into my hands.
"You think your my slave?" I hear the hiss of his helmet and through my fingers I see him set it on the bed, but I refuse to look at him. "I didn't force you to have sex with me! I defiantly did not get you pregnant on purpose. That was an accident. One I'm still having a hard time accepting." His eyes shoot to my stomach, my black shirt and pants are tight. My stomach in full view without my cloak. "I didn't force you to love me. I didn't force the bond! I don't want any of this either!" He yells at me. I open my hands and look at him.
"You don't want me?" I ask. His eyes widen, his posture straitens, his hands tighten.
"Don't turn this on me!" He yells.
"But you just said..." I gawk at him. "Then let me just go back home. I'll raise Ana on my own." I just like saying her name.
"Ana?" His face twists. "Why do you call her that?"
"Because that's what I called her in her vision. It just felt right... I don't know, I like it." I say. "I'm leaving." I walk around the bed towards the door but he grabs my arm.
"Where do you think your going?" He asks. His face set in stone.
"I don't want to be here anymore. If I'm not your prisoner or slave then I am free to leave." I demand. I shrug my arm trying to get away.
"You are not going anywhere. You may not be those things but you are still mine. Both of you are." He looks at my stomach and back up at me. "Does it not matter to you that I genuinely love you and that I am happy to have you back." He says.
"That doesn't change that you are a monster. You... You kill innocent people. Men, women, children. What makes me think you won't kill our own daughter when she comes. You murderer..." My voice trails off.
"Your scared of me?" His eyes narrow at mine. He feeds off peoples fear of him. "I feel it, its oozes from you."
"Im afraid for my daughter. What type of life can she have with a monster like you as a father. No wonder you were only in one vision." I snap. He shift his body so both his hands are around my upper arms.
"She will be the most powerful force sensitive to ever live. Two force sensitive parents. She shows you visions... I cant imagine what she will do when she comes." He says. My eyes wide. "You've seen it. Haven't you?" My eyes close and he pulls her last vision from my head. When I open my eyes he is grinning from ear to ear.
"So will just kill me after she gets here. This was your plan all along. Make me love you and use me to bring a spawn into the world for you! I rather die right now than allow you to continue to have control over us. I trusted you." I say.
"Stop with your childish behaviors. I would have been able to feel you as soon as they jumped out of hyper speed. If you were on board still, I would have slaughtered them all. But instead you might have saved a few measly lives... Like your precious friend, Poe?" His eyes narrow. "We have to go see Supreme Leader." He says, his eyes cold as ice. My hands shoot to my stomach.
"No." I say.
"No?" He says back confused.
"Hell no! Look at me! I am not going in there!" I scream at him. Ana kicks me in response. Her little feet kick hard.
"You dont have a choice Rey! You are to do as your told. Especially here! I am still your master." He says through his teeth.
"You were never my master!" I snarl back. He lets go of my arms and walks over to the wall were my cloak has been hanging. He throws it at me and commands me to put it on, like im going to go anywhere without it. I jam my arms into it and pull it around me. "Soon I wont be able to hide this." I say with an attitude.
"I know." He says as he walks over to the door and waits for me. His helmet in his one hand and his other hand in a fist by his side. "If this goes right I will be able to take you away back to Bespin. Please just keep your mouth shut and go along with anything I tell you to." His helmet hisses shut.
"Can we go to the lake house? Please." I beg. I want to feel the sun again on my skin and I want to swim in the water. I dont want to feel like a prisoner.
"I dont know." He says while he puts his mask on, the door opens and we walk towards the black corridor in silence.
My cloak flowing behind me as I walk, I feel very first order even though I refuse to be. We turn down the black hallway and I am thankful that I dont get the eerie feeling, so I know Snoke is not in there in person. I take a deep breath, bring my hood over my head and put my hands in front of me holding my cloak closed. when I look down I notice it doesn't lay flat down my stomach like before.
He is going to know Kylo. I cant go in there.
I turn around but Kylo catches my waist.
'He isnt going to know. I promise you. Ill feel it if things get to close.'
We walk towards the door and it slides open. At the end of the isle is a badly bruised General Green. His eyes soften when he sees me. We get to the end of the isle and I slowly walk up the steps. The General isn't grilling me like he always does. Instead he nods his head at me and looks forward to the stone throne.
Am I missing something? Whats going on?
'Just follow my lead'
The hologram of Snoke flickers to life in front of us.
"Master." Kylo bows his head.
"Kylo Ren, I see you successfully managed to get our General back. Impressive that you also managed to retrieve your apprentice." His voice booms through the room like a violent thunder.
"Without the help of my apprentice my lord, I dont know if we would have reached the General alive." Kylo looks over at me and back up. "She was able to gain their trust and through their efforts, they still could not make her turn again the General. She was able to escape and alert me of their location."Kylo roars. Proud of his lie.
"General, is this true?" Snoke points his attention to the badly banged up General.
"My lord, I did not once see Rens lady aboard the Resistance vessel." General Green states.
"Mmmm," Snoke humms. His very existence makes me quiver and I want to reach for Kylos hand for comfort. "I see. Tell me young one. Do they fear you?" His eyes burn into my soul. Ana kicks at my rib a little bit, discomfortingly.
"They fear what they do not know and they should." I say back to him. Kylo looks over to me, I cant tell if he is approves of my choice of words. I feel like im talking about myself. My stomach knots. Snoke grills me.
"Hmm, Master Ren. Do you approve?" Snoke looks at him. Ren looks over to me and the up at Snoke.
"I think she has done exceptional Supreme Leader. And with my training she was not seduced back to the Light." Kylo booms with pride, like a puppy he has been training.
"What do you wish to do with her now?" Snoke asks him.
"I wish to take her away to continue her training. I see no reason that my Knights cant handle covering the situation on Bespin. The Resistance is weak now." He says. His words surprise me. He is being very forward with Snoke right now, the feeling makes me uneasy. I also feel my bladder is about to explode because Ana thinks its a pillow. I shift uncomfortably on the heels of my feet. Kylo senses it.
"General, can you manage the building of the new SiderealStar?" Snoke looks to General Green and he nods back.
The what?
"Okay Master Ren, you may proceed. For now." And Snokes hologram flickers off. The General turns to me, nods, and walks down the stairs towards the door. Once he is gone and its just me and Kylo in here, I look to him.
"Are you building another StarKiller?" I gape at him. He leans in a little. Towering over me.
"Better." He says, his mechanical voice deep. It sends chills down my whole body.
"Who is there possibly left to destroy?" I look up at his mask. I wish I could see his face.
"Everyone who stands in my way." His demeanor is dark. He takes my wrist into his hand and traces the lines of my palm with his thumb. How can a man who emits so much dark also be so gentle at the same time.
My eyes flash white and a vision appears. Its Kylo and Ana sitting in the chair by the balcony in the room on the lake. She must be only a few weeks old, she is so tiny in his large hands. Hes holding her gently in front of him, with one hand behind her head and one under her butt, just looking at her. Her tiny feet rest on his chest. But hes wearing his full uniform and mask.
"Ill always protect you and mommy from them." He says to her, my heart just melts. His voice as quiet as the mask will allow. He gets up and sets her in the bassinet by the bed and then he exists the room without a word. I sit up out of bed and I look down at Ana, sleeping on her back with her little balled up hands laying to the sides of her head. I look at the door and then back at the sleeping beautiful baby, I lean in to touch her but my vision stopped.
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