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Chapter 48: Shower
We arrive back at Kylos room and he takes off his helmet quick with a hiss. I watch as he walks over to the flush wall of drawers. He waves his hand over one and he pulls out some clothes, black of course. He goes to hand me a large shirt. "Would you be more comfortable in this?" He asks. His voice soft. I take the shirt from him and excuse myself to the shower. I catch myself looking in the mirror at my round bump, do I really look that big? Once I finally step into the glass shower, the steam fills the room. The warmth surrounds me, comforting me. A knock on the door startles me and it slowly cracks open. I can't see to much in the steamed up room.
What do you want?
'Can I come in there with you?'
His question makes me freeze, In the shower?
I think about it for a few seconds. Looking down at my naked body. I desire his closeness, a chance to examine his whole body makes my skin itch with anticipation. I close my eyes and just let the warm water cascade over my skin. My hands under my stomach. I jump when a cold hand touches and is slowly wrapping his fingers around my upper arm. My eyes spring open and standing in front of me is a God looking man. A body carved out of stone and perfectly chiseled for the purpose of physical combat. I carefully lift my hand up to touch his stomach and the small trail of hair under his belly button. His other hand moves to under my chin, raising it to look up at him. I soften my face and my eyes just fall upon his. He lets go of my arm to sprawl his long fingers on my back and pulls me to him. The water falling in between us.
"Your even more beautiful now, you glow." His hand moves from my chin to my cheek. I lean into his hand and close my eyes. This man, this horrible monster of a man, is mine. And I love him. "I love you Rey. Even more now than the day I first saw you. I can't stop playing thinking about you. Ever. You are the one I want to be with the rest of my life. I can't have you in danger. You are the only family I have..."
"Because you killed them all!" I say. He pulls away. His body in full view. His perfect muscles and form tower over me. His hands in fists by his sides.
"Because they made me weak! You... Ana..." His voice trembles. The force shifts around me, his dark slowly filling me but pulls back quickly. I cross my arms around my chest covering my breasts. "Make me stronger." My breathing deepens and my heartbeat quickens. Kylo looks perfect, even in anger. Sometimes I'm happy he wears his mask to hide his handsome features of his long face, high cheekbones, and a nose that reminds me of Han. His hair is damp around his face. This setting is far to intimate for this talk. I look at the door and go to leave but he freezes me. He steps in front of me again. "I am not only drawn to your power, no doubt still in need of training and perfecting..." He trails a finger down my shoulder. "But I am drawn to your beauty. To your Light." I watch as Kylos hands fall down to my stomach, rubbing it and looking at it. He smiles and then he unfreezes me and grabs my face, leaning into a deep kiss.
I grab his elbows to steady myself from falling. My breast perk when they come into contact with his chest. His skin on fire, his abs pressed against my stomach. Slowly he backs my into the wall. I part my lips to allow his tongue to guide across my teeth. His hands in my hair and slowly he lowers his right hand. His fingers never leave my skin as they move down my neck and collar bone. He runs his thumb over the top of my breast. He pulls away and I'm gasping lightly for air.
"You can't deny that we belong together, you are drawn to me. My thoughts call to you when your awake. Your mind always thinking about me. You can't say that you don't want me to protect you. There is no one who will do it better!" He yells.
"But in my vision, you are leaving. In another Finn is taking Ana from me and you arnt there. I'm alone raising our daughter! I haven't even tested my powers because I physically drain from it, and I haven't even tested my new saber really. I'm useless. Your lies to Supreme Leader. He is going to see through all this. I don't want to be here. You say you love me but I feel like a prisoner. What type of life will she have... What type of father will you be! Let's pray she doesn't become more powerful than you and kill you!" I yell. I cover my chest again. The hot water pooling in arms. "We are done here!" I slide past him to leave but he catches my arm.
"We are not done here." His eyes narrow and he pulls me back to wear I was standing. "You dare to speak to me in that tone? I would do anything for you. When have you ever in your life had someone who would do that for you! Who would shelter you and protect you! Is that why it's so hard for you to love? Do you not know what love is? This! This is more than just a mere bond Rey. I want you to someday be my wife." He says.
My heart stops, I just look up to him and part my mouth a bit, my hair is soaked and my skin is blotchy from the hot water. I blink away the water that drips in my eyes and look at this beast of a man and think could I really marry this man someday. Heck, I'm having his baby.
"I have never had a family before. I sure wouldn't kill them if I did." I snap. His face twists at me and he steps back. "But I do know that I feel like if I lost you, I would die of pure agony. And when I'm not with you..." I uncover my breasts and sprawl my hands across my stomach and look down at the life we created together. Tears fall from my eyes and I hope Kylo just thinks it's water dripping from my hair. "All I want to do is be with you. I can never leave, I don't want to leave you. I just don't want to be apart of The First Order that you portray me as." Without even thinking I lunge forward and hug him, to hide my face in his collar bone. His chin on top of my head and he wraps his arms around me, holding me tight under the water.
"I won't ever let anyone harm you. Even if I am not there, someone will be to protect you. You... You are my main priority. I love you." He says. His voice sincere. One moment we are fighting, the next we are hugging, and now all I want to do is wrap my body around him and claim him. It's been so long since we have been intimate and I crave his touch more than anything. "Can I fuck you right here?" He says. He is breathing heavy, I feel his heart and hear it at the same time as my ear in on his chest. I feel his want, his need, his passion, his lust, and his erection. I pull away from him, my mouth watering for this man.
"Uhh, here.." Im embarrassed and shy still in front of this man though his child lays in my womb. He bites his bottom lip and brings his hand up to streak my hard nipple.
"Mm," erupts from his throat. He brings up his other hand to my rib and moves his hand to mirror is other. Slowly he moves his hands down my sides and then follows to my behind. He bends down alitte. Wrapping his hands around the back of my legs. Without a warning, he lift me into the air. My ankles hook behind him. We are almost face to face. Our bodies slippery and his soaked hair clinks to his forehead. He's panting. He backs me up to the wall and pushes me against it to free his hands. I tighten my legs as not to fall. His hands are in my hair and he pulls me into a kiss, my arms wrapped around his neck for support. Our tongues intertwine, tasting each other. He moves one hand down to my breast and the motion send my head back and my back to arch.
"Ahh," I moan. Kylo smiles at me. He moves his hands down to the back of my legs.
"Unhook your feet." He says. I do as I'm told. To drawn to his actions to argue and I feel the heat between my legs pooling deep within me. I'm crave it, I want more. He grabs me and slowly lowers me so he slides in. The moment his tip fills me I can't help but moan to him. I lower my head into his chest and he thrusts into me. My nails claw into his shoulders, not caring if I draw blood. He lifts me up slowly again and lowers me to thrust in again.
"Oh Kylo." I whisper. His grip tightens immediately. His rhythm quickens. I bring my mouth up to his and grab his head. He stops and pushes me into the wall and kisses me back hard. His need meeting mine. I feel my insides heat and my body ready to give out and release. My breathing deep and fast. He pulls back and thrusts 3 more times before leaning me into the wall and kissing me slowly and passionately. I know he's done, I feel no tenseness coming from his body. We are both completely relaxed and spent. Ready for bed.
He pulls out slowly and lowers me to the ground. "I can never get enough of you." He says into my ear. My eyes close and then I feel to hot. My head is dizzy from the steam. "Time for bed." Kylo shuts off the water with a wave of his hand and pulls me out of the shower. He wraps a towel around his waist quick before pulling a large fluffy towel around me. Lightly he drys me off. Taking an extra second to dry my belly. "You look so beautiful like this." He says and runs his thumb over my belly button. He leaves me in the bathroom to get dressed. I walk out into the room, in his t-shirt and underwear. It just covers my butt. Honestly this is the most comfortable thing I have been in, it doesn't cling to my growing belly.
Kylo is sitting on the edge of the bed across from the windows, his head down. He's dressed in my favorite pants and no shirt. My heart quickens alittle. I walk over and stand in front of him. My legs bare and cold against the crisp Destroyer air. He looks up just enough to look at my legs. He runs his hands down my thighs and then stands up to look at me.
"I meant what I said. All of it." His face stern, his emotions steady with a mixture of joy, anger, want, and need. I don't know what to say to him, his words ring in my ears... wife...
"Can we go to bed, I am so tired." My eyes are half open. I lean my head to the side and my brown waves fall around me, my hair is getting longer by the week it seems.
"Okay." He drops down and scoops me up and lays me down. He walks around and crawls into bed with me. Wrapping his arm around me and sprawling his hand across my stomach.
Ana kicks him.
He removes his hand and sits up to look down on me. I roll over a little to look at him and smile. His eyes are wide and he is smiling from ear to ear. I close my eyes and roll back over. I feel him slowly star to lower himself on to the bed. He stops to kiss my plant a small kiss on my neck, the motion sending a tingle down my spine. He place his hand back. Ana kicks him a few times and rolls under his hand. His fingertips tighten on my stomach and pull me closer. He rubs circles with his thumb against my bump. Quickly sleep takes over.