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Chapter 49: Roots
I slowly wake up to the feeling of fingers running down my exposed neck. I roll over to face Kylo. His face soft and he's smiling at me.
"I could wake up to this everyday." He says. I snuggle into his chest and his arm wraps around to my back, pulling me into him closer. His other arm still under my pillow. We are both laying on our sides and our bodies are flush against each other, well as much as they can be. He plants a soft kiss in my hair, the warmth coming from him is welcoming and I snuggle into him closer. "I want to take you back to the lake house for sometime. I think it's the safest place for you to be." He says. I pull away and smile wide at him.
"Really?" I ask. His hand slides down the side of my ribs and over my hip to the hem of the shirt. With a swift action he rolls me onto my back, he hovers over me with all his weight on his elbows and knees. My insides pool with desire, I never thought I would be drawn to someone in such a way. Never getting enough of him physically and mentally.
"I want to keep you safe and... happy." He says, his face saddens. I reach my hand up and cup his cheek, my thumb runs over his scar. I usually don't notice it, his beautiful face ruined by me. Then he was a horrible monster, well... He still is.
"You can heal, why not heal this?" My heart sinks. His eyes were wandering about my hair and his fingers plying with loose ends by his hands.
"Because Supreme Leader says when I look in the mirror I need to be reminded of what a failure I was that day. Beaten by a scavenger." His eyes dart to mine, he's afraid he offended me.
"It's okay," I say. "You were trying to kill me then. I was fighting for my life." I retract my hand and place it flat on the bed beside me. Looking away from him into the part of the window that's not covered by curtains.
"And you fought well," he said. "You... You don't know how agile and memorizing you are going to be when we get back to training."
My eyes shoot to him, "Can we continue now?"
"It's to dangerous Rey." He says. "We will continue the moment she's here. I want you as powerful as you can be just as much as you want to be. We don't even know your potential yet. Your a quick learner. Much quicker than any of my Knights I assure you." He says. He smiles like a child. Proud to be my teacher, and I am great full to have him as that.
"But I won't fight for the Dark side." I remind him. I try to roll out from under him but he stops me with his body. He reaches down with his left hand and grabs my hand and pins it next to my head, he repeats on the other side. I am pinned down completely. He leans down and starts kissing my neck. Slow light kissed down to the top of the shirt.
"Mmf" He lets out. Frustrated with how much clothing covers me. He lifts his head and gazes down at me. Our eyes locked. "Why?"
"Why what?" I tilt my head.
"Why won't you fight on the Dark side with me?" He asks. His jaw squares. He's serious.
"Because I am no Sith." I say to him between my teeth. "You can't be serious right now." I say. I try squirming away but he has me down. There is no escaping him at all and I don't want to use the force.
"I am very serious. Why won't you willingly fight with me? What is so wrong with what I do? Who I am? Who our child will be. The great-granddaughter of Darth Vader. The Greatest Sith Lord to ever live. I will surpass him someday. I have only just begun. And with you by my side... we would be unstoppable." His eyes narrow. Searching mine for a response.
"Because I am not a murderer. I am a Jedi." I say calmly. He picks up my hands and slams them against the bed.
"They were going to use you for your powers!" He yells.
"So are you!" I snap coldly at him.
"But I love you." He says.
"Uugghh!" I yell at him. "This baby is park Luke Skywalker, was he not the greatest Jedi to ever exist. Maybe Ana will take after him, or Han Solo, or... Your mother! Your the only evil one!" I yell! His eyes glaze over with a yellow as golden as a morning sun. Memories of the night in Bespin when he found out I was pregnant, when we found out, he wanted me dead then because I struck a nerve. I squeeze my eyes closed and wiggle my body around under him. Is he going to kill me now? I open my eyes to Kylo, staring down at me. He lifts his hand and everything goes black.
"Please wake up..." I hear softly in my ear. I feel his fingers trickle down my arm. His front to my back. I dont even open my eyes, I just roll over and rest my forehead to his chest.
"Im sorry. I just dont want our baby to be... bad." I whisper. I wonder if it is even loud enough for him to hear me. "I just want to believe she is going to do good." I pull away from him and look into his face. "Im going to teach her all the good things. Only the good things."
"And what if she becomes curious of the Dark Side? Are you going to stop her?" He asks.
"No. I just hope there is enough of me in her to want to be good. To not be influenced by the dark side. Like your Mother, she must be like your Grandmother." I say. His brows crease.
"Why must you always bring my family up?" He asks. He props his head up in his hand to look down on me.
"Well, you must admire your grandmother and she had to be beautiful. And for loving such a Dark man like Vader. Wouldn't you want our daughter to be like her?" I say. He looks between my eyes, stunned by my words.
"Perhaps." He says and he rolls out of the bed. "I have to prepare the shuttle and put out a few orders. Be ready in an hour." I watch him get dressed and my mouth waters. He looks over to me as he puts on his last glove and gives me a smile. "What are you looking at?"
"You." I smile back at him. Hes about to put his helmet on but he stops and looks back at me. he walks over and crawls onto the bed and hovers over me. He feels so much more dangerous when he wears these robes. His eyes narrow.
"What are you looking at?" I ask, giggling.
"You." He says. He leans down and plants a soft kiss on my lips before drawing back and putting his helmet. Sometimes I cant believe that man loves me and that we are bonded. If I am to be protected by anyone, Im glad its him. Ana kicks me hard. I drag myself to the edge of the bed and dangle my feet to the floor. She kicks me again harder.
"Ooof." I let out. I put my hands on my stomach. Kylos head whips to me. "Im fine." I hold my hand up to him while looking down at my other hand on my stomach. I feel huge. "Ooof." She kicks again. This time I let out giggles. "Come here." He walks over and kneels in front of me. The moment feeling very intimate. He takes off his glove and I grab his hand and place it right where Ana was kicking. She kicks again right on que to her fathers hand. Our force around us shifting in a beautiful blend of good and bad. I wish I could see his face. It feels as though they are connecting through the force. He slides his hands off and stands up. He looks down on he and touches my cheek with his thumb.
"Nothing will ever happen to you two." He says. And turns around and walks out of the room.
I wait by the window for Kylo, all dressed in black, my hair in a braid to the side. I look down and when my cloak isn't closed my belly pokes out. I smile to myself and run my hand over it. The door slides open and I look up as Kylo walks in and removes his helmet. I go to turn to him.
"No, stop." He says and sets his helmet down on the table. He walks over to me and takes my hands into his. This is the Kylo I love, the softer, gentle, and calm. Unmasked Kylo. The bond allows us to share memories, feelings, pushed thoughts... but lately its been something different. Stronger.
"What?" I ask, he is staring at me.
"You just look so beautiful. That's all. I'm a lucky man." He says and brings up my hands and gently kisses the top of each one.
"I feel like I am somewhat the lucky one." I say. "I dont feel lucky being trapped here. But lucky i'm trapped here with you." I look down at his belt and his lightsaber that hangs on his side. He half smiles at me.
"I have a surprise for you when we get to the lake house. Something I think will keep you happy." he says. My skin prickles at the thought of the possibilities it could be. I try and push into his mind and find out but he quickly pushes me out. And I dare not to try and push back or he will scold me for using my powers to much. I pout at him. "Ohhh no. Not this time." He shakes his head and smiles. He kisses the top of my forehead before walking over and grabbing his mask. He hisses his mask shut and I pull my cloak closed.
"I cant wait to go to the meadow." I say, my attitude improving by the second the more I think about the beautiful house on the lake. I close my eyes and picture the breeze.
"Me too." He says. My eyes shoot open and hes just looking at me. "Lets go."
I follow him down the corridors. Every stormtrooper we pass stops and backs up to the wall at attention. The feeling of power oozes into my skin alittle bit and I feel it tingle through my body. I push the feeling out.
'Its not something to be ashamed to feel'
Kylo tips his mask to the side so I can see just a hint of silver.
I dont want power. I want freedom.
My words wound him, I feel it. He thinks I am free, but we both know that is far from the truth. Especially now, under these circumstances I am under strict watch by him. I have longed for someone my whole life to take care of me, to nurture me when im sick or hurt. And ironically I found that someone burried deep beneath the man before me. I love Ben Solo, hes alive in there, I just know it. There is still light in him. We reach the hanger and at the bottom of his ramp to his ship is Cornelius. We reach them and Kylo ushers me to go in first and he will follow.
How am I suppose to join your side if you keep secrets.
He looks down at me and back at Cornelius.
"Go ahead." He says to him. Im shocked Kylo didn't argue and just allowed me to stand in. Im curious at what they are up to.
"We have tracked FN-2187. He is in a medical bay upon Ogem. It seems the Resistance has more than tripled their numbers in the past days. They have new recruits. The weapon wont be ready for a few months Sir. What would you suggest we do?" Cornelius stands attentive, hands behind his back. My heart speeds up and Kylo knows im shocked.
"Go back to Bespin. Continue monitoring. We dont have the number to attack yet. Patients." And Kylo turns toward the ship and stomps up the ramp. My eyes linger to long on Cornelius mask. I catch myself and turn and walk up, the ramp closing behind me. I go to sit with Kylo but hes standing up next to his seat.
"They..." I start but he cuts me off.
"We are not talking about this now." He yells. I can tell hes upset that Finns alive. My hands shoot to my stomach.
"He can still come for her. Are visions certain? Is she showing me things that are for sure going to happen?" I say. Shocked. I dont know why I didnt think of this before.
"I dont know." He says.
"How do you not know? Your suppose to be the best. Can I alter visions from happening?" I yell. I just want answers.
"My grandfather thought so." He says and sits down and starts the shuttle. He points to my seat for me to sit down so he can take off. I sit down and buckle up. Just ringing his last words in my head as his ship ventures out into dead space and soon all I see is the blue of the hyper speed.
"Did he change it?" I ask. Kylo unhisses his mask and set it on the ground before swiveling his seat to face me. He leans back and looks at me with worried eyes.
"No." He says. "But she is showing you points past that. Obviously something happens where we get here back. But he will never even get past the house. The vision doesn't show everything, only a little piece." His words dont make me feel better. I start crying into my hands.
"Oh.. my..y. goddd..." I sob. "Maybe you should have just killed him." I say. I cant believe my own words. But I will do anything to make sure my daughter is safe.
"Believe me, I'm going to. When the time is right." He says. The ship jumps out out hyperdrive and the glorious planet of Naboo comes into view. He swings over to the controls and the shuttle eases into the atmosphere and slowly the field comes into view and we land. Kylo is such a natural in controlling his ship. I could learn from him. We land and I follow Kylo for the next few hours through the woods. I had to stop and catch my breath a few times. Kylo is patient with me and I am thankful for that. When we get closer to the house I can feel Kylos anxiety quicken.
"Whats my surprise?" I ask when we get into the clearing where the boat is. He looks back and smiles wide at me.
"You will see." He says. I pout at him but oblige. I dip my hand in the water the whole way to the house. Enjoying the coolness. I am so happy to be here I cant stop smiling. The sun on my face and the birds in the sky.
"I want to have the baby here. Its perfect. I know the perfect room. Over there by the garden." I point up at a window overlooking a lake of flowers on the side of the mountain. Kylo is just looking at me smiling.
"Your beautiful." He says.
"Your handsome." I say, smiling and playfully splash some water at him. We reach the end of the dock and he ties the boat off. He climbs up onto the dock and helps me up. As soon as we get to the top of the stairs i'm startled by a voice.
"Master Ren. Lady Rey. Welcome back." A 3PO unit says. The female unit is a shiny rose gold color, with a tiny waist and wider hips. She is beautiful. I cover my mouth with both hands to silent my gasp. "I am Dalah." She bows. Her face is soft looking, her eyes big.
"I love her!" I shriek. I walk over to her and run my hand down her shiny soft metal.
"Good. Shes to help you when I am away." He says.
"Away?" I spin and look at him.
"Yes, sometimes I will have to leave for a few days at a time to secure situations. I am still needed up there." He says. He frowns as all the joy from my body dissolves.
"Like my vision..." I say. tears fill my eyes. Dalah turns and walks into the house. Her joints make small hisses as she moves.
"Rey, as much as I want to stay here with you. There are things I have to do. I am keeping that separate from you because I know you rather not know. Nothing is going to happen to you here. I promise. I have taken extra caution. No one will get close to here." He grabs the sides of my face and gives me a deep kiss. Slowly he pulls away. "I dont have to leave for awhile so dont worry." He pulls me into a tight hug.
"Im going to take a shower. I need to wash the First Order off me." I pull away and smile. His face lights up.
"I need a shower too." He says and scoops me up into his arms and carries me into the house up to the room. I know where this is going and I want it too.