**Fewww, I got a few hours of em time today so I decided to write. A much needed self therapy. Hope you all enjoyed your weekend! I worked.
Well, thank you for the reviews and the continue encouragement to continue this story. You are all amazing xoxo -SSL**
Chapter 62:
By night I was tired from chasing Kylan around, the two had so much energy I could use a nap. As I'm ready to collapse on the couch after getting them to finally sleep but there is a knock on the door. Startled I walk over to, not sure at first how to open it. So I try the obvious Kylo way and use the force. It's opens and I'm standing in front of two stormtroopers and Dalah. She leaps for joy when she sees me.
"Miss! Miss! Oh thank god, I thought I was doomed!" She walks over to me, I instinctively wrap my arms around her. The two troopers nod their heads and I wave the door shut.
"I'm so happy your here Dalah, I could use the help." I say. She looks at me up and down.
"You need a nap and a shower Lady Ren. Now." She says.
"Let me show you around and I'll take you up on the offer. I'm so glad to see you. I give her one more hug and lead her to the hallway, pointing to Kylans door and then Anas. Giving her a small tour. She seems impressed at the size and decor of the place.
"This is a fine house miss." She says. She is such a delight to see. "Go, go." She pushes me towards the master bedroom door. I don't argue with her, I just really need a hot shower.
Everyone I know is gone, and I don't even know who I am anymore. I have grown so attached to Poe and the past few days I have pushed those thoughts aside but I can't help but think of his face, so sad... so confused. I want to explain things to him. That no matter when Kylo came back I was always going to go with him... Kylo was and always will be my destiny. And nothing Poe or Finn of even Burg could say to change that.
Kylo can protect me better than anyone and there is no denying that. He says I shouldn't be afraid, and I'm not. I'm fuckin terrified. His powers are greater now that ever. His temper runs hot and cold, that will never change.
I jump in the shower. Taking my time with the hot water. I love the feeling of being clean. All those years without the luxury of a fresher to use. I use it every chance I get.
After my shower I put on a pair of silk pants and button top pjs and climb into bed, Kylo promised he'd be back. I don't want to pry into his mind when he is working.
'Your thinking of me, I can feel you'
His words make me smile. I'm almost embarrassed so I squish my face into my pillow.
I was thinking about how lonely this bed is without you.
'It is indeed even lonely. Many nights I laid there thinking about you'
But now I am here... And where are you?
"Late." A voice books from the doorway of the room, I sit strait up and clutch my chest. My heart pounding. I was not expecting that. "Sorry, I didn't mean to startle you." He walks fast over to the best, sitting on the edge of the bed and wraps his arms around me.
"It's okay." I mumble into his neck. Breathing in his scent. He is still in his full attire except for his helmet.
"Im going to take a shower and then I'll come lay with you. But I must go to my office to finish something after you fall asleep." He says. His voice was sweet. He gives me a quick kiss. His smell lingers after he gets up and goes into the fresher. Taking a shower. I listen to the sound of the water running. Waiting for it to turn off. I close my eyes, and involuntarily fall asleep.
I wake to a pitch black room, the door to the fresher is cracked open but the light off. I sit up and notice I'm alone. Damn it, I didn't want to fall asleep. I swing out of bed and shuffle around for a sweater. I find a soft dark grey one in my drawer. It so warm and slightly large but it's comfortable. Falling down covering my butt and hanging slightly off my one shoulder. I ball the extra fabric in my hands and wrap my arms around my self and creep out to the living room. I don't see Kylo anywhere or hear any noise at all.
He said something about a office? I walk through the living area to the hallway where the kids are fast asleep. I feel them... so peaceful and calm. I walk past their doors and to another door in the hallway, I creak it open and in the faint of light I make out a large wall of windows overlooks the same view as the living room. I see a small desk and Kylo. Leaning over it.
He looks up and looks behind him to me and I see him smile.
"You are so beautiful when you sleep. I didn't want to wake you. Come." He looks back down on his desk. I can't yet see what he is looking at so I creep in. Almost tippy toeing to him. I look down at his hands. Its a saber, almost like mine but... better?
"Is that for me?" I ask. That sounded greedy. Oops. It's just slipped.
"Yes, I see you lost your other one. This one is better. Iv had more time to work on it. I put a special design in the handle for easy handling."
He picks it up. It looks to small in his hand. He holds it out for me. My hand trembles and I take it. It's been awhile since I have held a lightsaber or wielded one. I weigh it in my hand. He's right, it better than the other one. It's even more beautiful. The handle hand and delicate lace design around the center, surrounded by gold. Lots of small gold detail. It sparkles in the light. Small traces of white pop design, such thought and time went into crafting this.
"It's magnificent." I say. I look up at him and he's smiling.
"You are magnificent Rey." He wraps his arm under mine and around to my back, he pulls me close to him. Flush to his body. And kisses me deep. His other hand find the nape and of my neck, deepening the kiss. We stay like this for a few minute. Enjoying each other lips, touch, and just companionship. We have gone so long without each other that no time together will make up for that time lost. All we can do now is make sure we enjoy the time we do have.
There is always the chance of death. Things changing. The children developing powers. We could be forced to separate again, though I doubt Kylo would lets that happen.
He pulls away and takes a deep low breath. He opens his eyes back up and just gazes into mine. His hand still holding the back of my neck.
"Do you like it?" He asks.
"Your kisses?" I giggle. "Can I have more?"
He laughs and shakes his head. "No, your lightsaber."
"Yes, it's the most exquisite thing I have ever seen. And the fact you made it for me makes me love it even more. Thank you." I rise to my tippy toes and give him a small kiss. "Did you do this so I would want to train with you so I can play with it?"
"Maybe." He says. He stiffens a chuckle but I hear it in his chest. I hear his heart quicken. He loves the idea of us training together.
"I don't want to fight the resistance." I say and frown, I try to back away but he holds me tight. I let out a deep sigh. "And I don't want to fight with you right now."
"There is nothing to fight about. You have great potential. You desire to use it. I know you do. Your curious and you will hurt yourself or somebody if you don't learn how to control it. What if you need to protect yourself, the children, maybe even me? I want you gone strong and prepared. That all." He says.
"Protect from what exactly?" I say, his words sounded off. Like he is hiding something.
"There is more than the Resistance out there. Don't be so niece Rey." He says.
"Like what. Give me an example." I say. His eyes narrow at me. He's angry, something bothering him majorly.
"There is a King, at the farthest end of the Galaxy. Past the outer rim. He has been building an army and plans to attack the first order."
"Can't you just use this SiderealStar to destroy him." I ask. "Your Kylo. You can do anything."
Is he doubting himself. His shoulders relax, his grip loosens a little.
"This is the only weapon that can protect us, that is why I have you 3 here. I need you safe."
"Then why haven't you used it on him. You are heartless when it comes to murdering things. People." I snicker at him.
"Because he is to far out of range. We didn't know that anything existed that far out." He releases me and grabs a small holo from his desk and holds it in his hand, he flicks it on. A large round green gas planet. The gas will kill the troops in seconds. Their suits are not..."
"Made to filter out toxins..." I interrupt him, my mind flickers to the day I met Flynn. My heart sinks a little at the thought of him and I miss him.
"Yes." he gives me a strange look, I know he wants to ask how I know that but for now he lets it go. "And we have not been able to develop a mask that will work. And once we do it will take awhile for mass production of a new suit." He looks down at the plant in his hand.
"King Grew is a mean old King, that is all we know, his armies are great, his ships thick, and his mind fast for a mortal. He to breeds his own troops, clones. We have come to just learn about him from an accidental encounter while looking around for you using the holo is Bespin. We spotted one of his ships, traveling through the outer ring and followed it closely. There are bigger threats out there than just your little pilot friend." He says. I stare at the green gas planet.
"So he knows of you... Of your power?" I say. "Does he know about me? Or about..." I say.
"No and I have Cornelius keeping an eye on the surface of the planet. Nothing yet." He lowers his head and shuts the holo off. He places it back down on the desk and embraces me in his arms. Tight. "They have the ability to turn invisible. Something I could never have the power to do. I can't explain it. But they see me as a threat, everybody does."
"Do you think they will attack?" I ask.
"Not if we develop an armor that can withstand the poison gases. We will level them." He pulls away and walks over the the wall, where another drawer from the middle pops open with a wave of his hand. A drawer invisible to someone who doesn't know it's there. He pulls out the force bond book from what seems like another lifetime. It's red cover. My heart flutters alittle. He walks back to me and just looks at me.
"This is the reason we are here. This is the reason we exist. Purely to be together." He weighs the little book in his hand. "When my heart stopped, yours did to. I found the medical records after we got here so I know everything." He looks down and mumbles, *fucking pilot*.
Oh no... I didn't list any father for the twins when they were born but he could of still found out about saying Poe was my husband.
"I want you to train with me because I need you to be able to protect yourself because we will really both die if one of us does. And then who would protect and train the kids? He arches his eyebrow.
"I never thought of it that way." I say.
"Of course you didn't. Your scared of your own potential." He snaps.
"I am not." I yell. "I just refuse..."
"I know!" He slams the book on his desk. "And I'm telling you that you wouldn't need to. Don't you trust me?"
His words hurt alittle, of course I trust him and he is right. There is more out there than the Resistance, and who would really raise these babies if something happened to us.
"Okay." I whisper.
"Okay what?" He says.
"Okay, you can train me" His eyes light up at my words. He smiles wide and scoops me up into his arms and spins me around.
"I'm ready for bed." His eyes say more though.
"Me too." I smile at him. I lean into his chest and he carries me back to the room. He lays me on the bed and then crawls on top of me. Holding his weight with his elbows and running his finger down my hairline around my face. Almost studying me.
"To know what it's like to not have you is a pain I never want to feel again." He says softly. I love this soft Kylo. We spend the rest of the night in each others arms. Kissing every inch of each other, holding eachother.