Kurt went back three times to the hospital to see Dave, but it proved to be too awkward as Sebastian was always there. Dave was slowly getting better, though and for that, Kurt was grateful.
He found out a week later that Dave was finally going to be released and could go back to his apartment. The doctors said he would still be in recovery for at least a month and to not work or exert himself too much. Sebastian all but invited himself to love with Dave, to make sure he recovered. Kurt hated the idea, but knew that Dave needed it.

Rachel had a welcome home gathering and Kurt showed up with Dave's favorite foods and some movies to help him bide his time in recovery. Dave hugged him and thanked him for everything. Apparently, Rachel had told him that he was there for him every night he was in the coma. He asked Kurt where Jeff was and it took all Kurt had in him to shrug his shoulders and tell him that he was busy.

It was probably true anyway, two weeks after Jeff broke up with him, he was seeing a new guy. Kurt tried not to be bigger or angry about where he was, but it was hard. He tried to be happy for Dave and to let him be happy, but what he really wanted was to get Sebastian out of the picture and to be with David.

David got better and Kurt was happy for his friend. He wanted Dave to have a good life, even if it meant being with an asshole like Sebastian Smythe.

Three weeks after David was finally given the okay to return to work, Kurt received a call from Blaine. It had been at least four years since Blaine had contacted him, and Kurt was a little worried. Blaine wanted to get together for coffee and talk. Kurt wanted to throw his phone in the Hudson River and tell Blaine to fuck off, but instead, he agreed. He didn't even know why.

And then it was the next week on a Wednesday night and he was having his favorite coffee with his first love. Blaine asked him how he was doing and they mad general chitchat. Then Blaine took Kurt's hand and said,

"Let me cut to the chase, Kurt. I'm not happy. And I don't think you are either. I think we should fix that."

"What do you mean I'm not happy? You haven't seen me in four years, how would you even know that?"

"Rachel told me."

"You and Rachel still talk?"

"Yeah. She called me about four months ago. She told me that Sebastian had started dating David."

"So?"

"You know that Sebastian and I dated for a year after we broke up."

"I also know that you dumped him for a singer from Pennsylvania."

"That's not true. He wanted me to marry him and I told him I wasn't ready. So he left me."

"What does this have to do with me?"

"I know that you aren't seeing anyone and haven't been happy since your fiancée left you for another guy. Also another thing that Rachel told me and I want Sebastian back."

"And you want me to do what exactly?"

"I want you to team up with me to split up Dave and Sebastian. I know that you and Dave are now friends and that Dave has had a thing for you since high school. It can't be that hard to come between them."

"So you want me to break up my best friend and his boyfriend to help you, my ex who cheated on me?"

"It's fine if you don't think you can, Kurt. I just know that it would be a challenge and the Kurt I know would never back down from a challenge."

Kurt placed his coffee mug a little too forcefully on the table,

"So now you're going to try and manipulate me into breaking up Dave and Sebastian, so that you can get back together with that fucking meerkat?"

"Just say yes, Kurt. I know that you don't like Sebastian and there is no way you'd be okay with your best friend and someone you hate getting married."

"I can't do that to David, Blaine. He would never forgive me if I broke up his relationship to Sebastian, because I didn't like Sebastian. You'll have to do better than that."

Blaine didn't get a chance to answer however, as the bell over the door rang and Kurt looked up to see Dave and Sebastian walk in hand in hand.

Dave looked at Kurt and Blaine and Kurt could see all the judgment and derision on Dave's face and it pissed Kurt off.

When Dave and Sebastian walked over, Sebastian just laughed and told Kurt to give up the stupid and pathetic mind games and that he couldn't give a fuck less if he and Blaine were back together.

And then Dave was asking if it was true if Kurt and Blaine were back together and Blaine was doing all the talking and assuring Dave that Blaine and Kurt were an item again and he wouldn't be going anywhere.

Kurt was confused and upset and as he went to leave for the night, Dave pulled him aside and asked him how he could go back to someone who cheated on him and Kurt's only response was asking him how he could date someone who used to treat Kurt so badly in high school and it went back to Sebastian being there for Dave during his illness and bringing him out of his coma. And that stung, because Kurt had also been there and had read to him and talked to him and Dave would never know."

Kurt promised Dave that he could handle himself and his relationships from now on and Dave should stay out of it, just like he was letting him make his own mistakes with Sebastian. Dave grew offended by that and stormed off.

Blaine apologized later for springing it on him, but he needs to be with Sebastian and Kurt needs to get out of his funk and he' offering to take Kurt on dates and to concerts and to basically be the perfect boyfriend so that he made Sebastian jealous.

Kurt agrees, even though he doesn't want too. He agrees anyway, knowing that at least he won't have to spend another month or four months alone, wondering what the fuck was wrong with him and why he couldn't find love.

They 'date' for three weeks, until Dave calls Kurt up and tells him that Sebastian is leaving him for Blaine and that Blaine has been cheating on hi for months. Kurt has to act surprised and he meets up with Dave. Dave doesn't want to think or talk or do anything, so they drink until they are both buzzed and feeling good, which leads to a messy and hot round of sex in Dave's apartment.

Dave all but pushes Kurt out of the door after it happens and tells him he misses Sebastian and that it was a mistake. Kurt yells at him about choosing a guy who cheated on him. A week later Kurt is out with Blaine celebrating their 'win', when Dave comes to the same bar. He sees Sebastian there making out with Blaine and Kurt not paying attention and it suddenly clicks. He gets it. Kurt knew all along about Sebastian and Blaine and had gone behind his back.

This led to more yelling and fighting and Dave vowing to never speak to Kurt again for ruining his chance at love with someone he cared deeply about. Kurt tries to explain, but Dave doesn't listen. Kurt is left alone in the bar watching Blaine and Sebastian suck face, and the man he loved hated him for what he had done.

Rachel and Brody couldn't believe how low Kurt had stooped to get Sebastian out of the picture and took Dave's side. No one would listen to him explain and he found out two months later that Dave was moving to Chicago. He had been offered a job in Chicago as a sports manager. He was finally realizing his dream and it would be far away from all the drama and the pain and the memories.

Kurt showed up at Dave's going away party. Dave barely acknowledged him and it hurt Kurt to know that Dave could leave New York City and him behind and not really give a crap. But before Dave left for the night, he pulled Kurt out on the patio.

"I'm not sure why you showed up here tonight, Kurt, but I am glad you did. I think this is the right time for us to say goodbye to each other, for good."

Kurt knew he'd be crying by the end of this conversation,

"I don't want you to go, David."

"I have to. I have a new job and I'm going to have a new life in Chicago, which is what I want."

"So you really think you can say goodbye to me today and never think about me or want to talk to me again?"

"No, but I have to anyway for the sake of my sanity and heart."

"You can't just move to another state."

"Why not?"

"Because you belong here in this city doing what you love."

"You know, I used to think that too, but I don't anymore. I think I'll be happy wherever I end up and one day I will find someone to love and to be happy with and you won't be around to destroy it, because you're jealous that I am moving on."

"You really think this is about me being jealous of you?"

"Isn't it always, Kurt? You have now sabotaged two of my relationships and I'm not sticking around New York City for you to keep doing it. I asked you once if you could promise me forever and that you wouldn't go back to Blaine and you told me you couldn't do that. It was until you actually did go back to Blaine that I realized, you were just being honest, and I didn't want to believe that. But now I know that you will never be able to commit to me all the way, and I don't want to keep wasting my years on you, hoping that one day you'll wake up and want to be with me forever. I deserve to be happy."

Dave walked away without another word or glance back. He was leaving for Chicago for good, and it fucking hurt.

Dave moved away a week later. Rachel and Brody told him that it was so strange moving all of Dave's stuff and shipping it to Illinois. It was so strange not to have Dave around to go to dinner with or see movies or concerts with and they missed him.

Kurt missed him too, but he wasn't going to screw up David's life anymore. He wanted David to be happy in his new life. He deserved to take the chance after he had almost died.

Six months later, Kurt ran into Jeff at a Christmas party. Jeff was single again and Kurt was lonely and after Jeff realized Dave was in Chicago and out of the picture, he asked Kurt out and six weeks later they decided to try again. Kurt found himself comfortable and familiar with Jeff and realized a month after that, that it wasn't enough for him anymore. He dumped Jeff and decided he was swearing off relationships and focusing on work.

And that's when he got the gig to tour with the reprisal of Les Miserables on Broadway. It was a worldwide traveling production and he'd be gone for eight months. He took up the offer and spent eight months going from European country to country and traveling in South America. He took a journal and wrote it in every day about his hopes and dreams and plans and desires and at the end of the eight month trip, he had filled up three notebooks worth of stuff. He felt lighter and happier and more at peace and he knew what he wanted above all.

He wanted a man who would make him laugh and smile every day, a man who would put up with his flaws, while still pushing him to be better, a man who understood the demand of his job, a man who adored him, even though he was a bitch, a man who loved Kurt's friends and got along with them, a man who was a gentleman, and a man who fought for him.

Kurt realized as he was writing his list, who that man was, but it was too late. He was living in Illinois and he was successful and was about a month away from a huge promotion and was dating a retired NFL player, who had just came out as gay a month before. David would laugh in his face if he decided to go to Chicago and tell him what he had discovered.

So instead, he put the list on his dream board and hoped one day, he'd find a guy in New York City, who could be all those things to him and for the time being he'd have to be content being single.