Once they arrived at the shower, Kurt quickly went to find Brody and Rachel. Rachel was thrilled to see him. She loved that they decided to do a couples shower, instead of just women and most of their friends from Lima and New York were there.

It was a mini reunion of sorts as many of the former Glee members were there to celebrate with them. Even Finn, who still carried a torch for Rachel showed up. Kurt spent most of the afternoon chaperoning him and keeping an eye on David who spent most of the shower with Brody in a corner talking. He caught both of them looking in his direction a handful of times and each time he wondered what they were saying about him. He knew David was probably relaying how awful he had been earlier in the day and he just wanted to go back to his apartment and drown his sorrows in some alcohol and a chat with Eli.

Kurt was starting to count of his chats with Eli. He realized that Eli, even though he had never actually met him or knew what he looked like, was close to becoming his closest friend. Even with Rachel and Brody he couldn't share his deepest darkest secrets with and feel like he wasn't being judged or mocked. He liked the anonymity of it. He could tell Eli anything and Eli would never judge him.

He checked his phone twice to see if Eli was on the chat, just to see if he could do a quick chat, but Eli wasn't on. He mingled with Santana and Brittany for awhile, and then saw Mercedes arrive about a half hour after the shower started. For the rest of the shower they were inseparable. They talked about everything and anything. Mercedes had been his best friend before everything else had happened, before Rachel and Brody and before David. Mercedes told him that she loved him no matter how many man he married and divorced, no matter how many times he screwed things up, and that if this new Eli was the one he was supposed to be with, she'd fly to New York or anywhere and be there for his wedding.

He got home around six p.m. It was a Saturday night and he knew that Brody was going dancing with Elsa, Rachel and Puck were going to be setting up their baby furniture and Mercedes, Santana, Brittany, Tina, and Quinn were going to have a girl's night out. Which meant he could either go to a hockey game with Finn, Artie, Mike, and Sam or try to hang out with David. He opted for plan c. He ordered Greek food, poured himself some alcohol and spent the evening with his laptop. He watched some Netflix as he watched the website hoping that Eli would come on. He wasn't disappointed when a few minutes after eight, Eli signed on.

Eli started the chat with him, which was a first. Kurt felt the familiar rush of butterflies and giddiness sweep over him. Eli had made the first move. Eli asked him how his day went and Kurt told him about running into his ex and how awkward it had been. He asked Eli how he was able to maintain a friendship with his exes. Eli told him that it was simple. He was friends with two of his exes and mainly because they weren't really in love. He cared about both of them and loved them as friends, but when it came down to it, he wasn't actually that disappointed to lose them out of his life. But the third, he wanted to be his friend, but it was too hard.

He explained about how no matter how often he tried to make things right, or extend an olive branch it seemed to blow up in his face. He said that he didn't make it any easier by being unsure of what he wanted either. He said that his latest ex was not an easy relationship. It was amazing, full of passion, and life, and love, but when it ended it hurt more than anything he'd experienced in his life.

Kurt asked him how he could be ready to move on if it was such an experience. Eli told him that he wasn't sure he was ready, but he was willing to try, because being left alone to think about what had gone wrong and to think about the man that he loved with someone else or also moving on, hurt him more.

Kurt told him that he understood. Kurt didn't want his ex to move on either. He knew it sounded selfish and probably seriously immature, but he wanted him to realize what a mistake he made and to go back to him. But he was willing to try and move on for the sake of his dignity and for his own happiness.

Eli told him that the best they could do was try to be happy even when life made you want to crash to the ground and ever get back up. Kurt told him that he was willing to try and asked if Eli was as well. Eli signed off then.

Kurt felt his heart drop. He felt foolish. He had rushed Eli and didn't meant to. He thought it was Eli's way of saying that they could try moving on together. He realized that maybe Eli was just scared that he wasn't going to be Kurt's type or that Kurt wouldn't be his. Maybe he wasn't ready at all. The thought crossed his mind that he might not even be single or a gay man at all.

His mind ran with horrible thoughts and possibilities. Eli signed on about fifteen minutes later and Kurt felt like he could breathe again. Eli was quick to apologize for getting disconnected. He told him that his internet had gone down for a few minutes. Eli told him that he was too willing to try and move on. He asked Kurt for his name. Kurt wasn't quite sure about giving his name out, so he told him that they should stick to their nicknames for each other. Eli asked him if it was okay to call him Fiyero, since he just pictured him as the character from Wicked. Kurt told him that it was fine and they agreed to call each other Eli and Fiyero.

Eli asked Kurt if he'd like to have a date. Kurt nearly had a panic attack at that, until Eli told him that they should both watch their favorite movie over chat and discuss the movie. Kurt happily agreed. Eli told Kurt his favorite movie ever was Anne of Avonlea, which was the second movie from the Anne of Green Gables trilogy. Kurt couldn't help the ache that came over him when Eli suggested it. It had been the reference of Gilbert and Anne that he had made to David earlier. Kurt pushed the thought of David away, and agreed to it.

That's how he found himself a week later. It was a Friday evening. He had ordered some Italian food from his favorite local restaurant, poured himself some white wine, and sat down to watch the movie. He had his laptop on his lap and as he watched the film he kept looking at the empty spot on his couch. He couldn't help but wish that it was taken. He was enjoying getting to know Eli, but he missed David. He cried as Anne realized that she had loved Gilbert all along and that he was the only one she had ever wanted. It was beautiful and amazing and the most romantic thing he could remember seeing as a young boy.

He told Eli that when he was younger his mother had watched the films. She had always cried at that part and when she died, he watched the films on repeat. He admitted that when he watches them he feels closer to her. He wanted to admit to Eli that watching the films reminded him of his ex, but he held himself back. It would be unfair to Eli to constantly bring up David and how much he was still struggling with being apart from him.

Two weeks later, Brody called Kurt and David in a panic. He was going to propose to Elsa, but every time he had something planned something came up. He asked them for some ideas and help in pulling off something romantic and special. Kurt showed up with his wedding book filled with proposal ideas he had gotten off Pinterest. David showed up with alcohol.

David seemed to be in a good mood, but as soon as he saw Kurt and his book, he started making fun of it and of him. He asked him if one of those was the way that Jeff had proposed to him, or maybe how he hoped Frederick would, or maybe he was just waiting until David met someone new and would steal him away too.

Kurt hated this side of David. He could tell David was still hurt about everything, but he had lost Jamie and Frederick because of David too and pointed that out to him. David rolled his eyes and told him that it paled in comparison to losing a husband because he risked it all for someone who only wanted to fuck him over.

Brody tried to get them to stop drinking and to just admit that they missed each other and they were just operating out of place of fear and anger. They told him to fuck off. Brody walked out of his apartment and told them to grow the hell up. Kurt did feel bad about making Brody leave his own apartment, but then David was in his face again telling him that everything that had ever gone wrong between them was his fault. He was the one who abandoned him in high school, he broke their pact of friendship, he drove away Marc and Sebastian and Jamie, and the worst of all he made him think he loved him and ended up hurting him anyway.

Kurt sat in silence on the couch and just took it. Then Dave dropped down beside him on the couch and sighed,

"What the hell is wrong with us?"

Kurt snorted at that,

"What do you mean? This isn't normal for best friends slash lovers slash mortal enemies?"

"I don't like this. I'm trying to move on, Kurt. I just see you and it drives me crazy. Because I want it to be you."

"What is the problem then?"

"I don't want it to be you at the same time. It hurts too much when you're around. I see you and all I see and feel is pain. I wish it was different. I wish I could just push this aside like the times before and just be okay with it all, but I can't."

"And what does that mean, David?"

Kurt could feel the tears starting to well up. He knew what was happening.

"I don't want to be your friend. I can't be your friend. I am sorry about that. I don't want to hurt you anymore."

"So you want nothing again?"

"I wanted everything with you, Kurt. I wanted it all, but I can't want it anymore when it leaves me feeling like this."

"I wish I could say that I understand or that it's okay, because hearing that you want nothing to do with me hurts too, David. I wish that we could be friends and go back to the steps in front of NYU. I would gladly go back and take back all my feelings and these past few years, if it meant that we could stay friends. That's how much you mean to me, David. I would rather have you as a friend than not at all. But if what you need is for me to walk away, then that's what I'm going to do."

David looked relieved and sad at the same time.

He finally looked up at Kurt,

"I'm dating someone, Kurt."

Kurt knew he couldn't stop the wave of grief that poured over him when heard those words. He didn't expect that they would hit him so hard though. He felt numb again, just like the day Rachel told him about Dave getting married to Jamie.

He didn't reply but he knew that David was watching him. He wanted to scream at him and the only thing he could think to say was,

"I'm seeing someone too."

"You are?"

"Yeah, only for a few weeks, but I really like him. He's very nice and we have a lot in common."

"I'm happy for you, Kurt. I hope you're happy."

"You too, David."

Kurt picked up his book and his coat.

"I think it's best if we don't see each other again. It just hurts too much."

David grabbed Kurt to himself and for a minute Kurt felt like he was at home, like his world wasn't being ripped apart and leaving him bitter and miserable and with a raw, aching heart. He quickly kissed Kurt on the lips and walked out the door, leaving Kurt to sit down on Brody's couch and cry into his hands.

He had to get over David. He had too.