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Hermione's POV
It's been about two days since Draco got the letter from the Ministry about his mother's death. He hasn't left his room once, and I haven't heard much noise from him either. It would be one thing if I could hear movement in there but because there is none, my mind likes makes the worst possible conclusions. The only indication I have that he is alive, is the consumed plate of food just outside his door. Everyday when I go for meals in the Great Hall I get a plate for Draco and put a note under his door to tell him that there is food outside. Somehow he manages to time it in such a way that I'm never around when he gets the plate and puts it back.
I feel really bad, that I'm not doing enough for him, but I don't want to bother him either. I remember wanting to be alone for awhile after dealing with the death of my parents, but I also wished that people had come looking for me and tried harder to reach out to me. So although I might leave him alone for now, I'll continue to support him in small ways and be ready for him. If I need to, I'll break into his room to coax him out of the shell I know he's building right now.
I walk up to his room now and pull out the note I wrote today in class. Along with the plate of food for dinner that I place in front of the door, I slide the note under like I usually do. I've started leaving little book quotes on the paper as well. The quote I use today is from a trilogy I read a couple years back called the Legend trilogy by Marie Lu. The quote is 'Each day means a new twenty-four hours. Each day means everything's possible again. You live in the moment, you die in the moment, you take it all one day at a time.' It's one of my favourite quotes and it helped me live through every day when I felt lost and sad in the middle years at Hogwarts.
Once I've placed the food and note, I turn to my room and gather my stuff to get to work on my homework. I set my stuff up on my desk in my room and go over my essay once again to make sure it's alright. I'm always worried that I'll miss the mistakes in my work as I used to have a big problem with that when I used to go to muggle Primary school. It was always little things that the teachers didn't really mind, but I still didn't like making the mistakes in the first place. I finish reading it over again and roll in up ready to hand in to Professor Carrington. I've started doing my homework in my room now, as Draco probably won't be coming out for awhile and it feels weird to do my work in the common room all alone. I've always done my work with other people so I decided to just completely change the setting for my work.
I go online and check my homework planner to make sure I haven't forgotten any work tonight. My plan shows that I don't have any assignments due for the next while, so open one of my favourite websites. My parents didn't let me use social media when I was younger and I never saw the appeal in doing so anyway, however both my mother and I always loved using Pinterest. I open it to check my feed and spend a good hour on it. I find that my feed is often filled with a lot of funny stories, or headcanons about my favourite books or fandoms. Most of my friends don't know it, but I'm a complete nerd when it comes to my fandoms. One of my favourites is the MCU or Marvel Cinematic Universe as it is so thoroughly connected, allowing people to see many different hidden connections.
Once I feel like taking a break, I go outside and check to see if the plate it gone. The plate is still outside the door, but the food is all gone and the plate is scraped clean. I collect it and take it directly down to the kitchens. Once I get down there, I take the pear on the fruit bowl portrait to let myself in. Once I'm in, I find Winky to give the dishes to her.
"Hi Winky." I say.
She turns around in surprise.
"Hello Mistress Hermione. What can Winky do for you today?" I smile at her.
"I just have some dishes and I was wondering if I could give them to you to take care of."
"Of course Mistress Hermione. Winky would love to help such a wonderful person, Mistress only need ask. Next time Mistress should just summon Winky so she doesn't have to travel down all those stairs."
I can't help but laugh at her last statement. "Winky, it's alright. I enjoy the walks down here anyway. I need more exercise." Winky just nods and takes the dishes from me."
"Does Mistress need anything else? A plate of cookies?" I remember what Draco said about the cookies Dobby used to make him and that they always made him feel happy. Perhaps it'll cheer him up.
"Actually Winky, I might take you up on the cookies. That'll be all though. Thank you." She nods in affirmation.
"Mistress is always welcome. Winky will send the cookies up to your dorm right now."
I then turn and leave to get back to our room. When I get back, I see a plate of the cookies I requested lying on the kitchen counter. I pick it up and go up to his room, then knock on his door to see if he'll answer it.
"Draco, are you okay?" No response, with a sigh I sit in front of the door and begin my evening routine.
"Well today in Potions we started working on the Girding Potion, it gives the drinker extra endurance.
In Transfiguration we were working on turning ourselves into other objects. It's pretty fun, but Hannah managed to do it so that she turned herself into a chest of drawers with one arm and one leg. It was pretty funny.
In muggle studies we haven't done too much, but we'll be starting our unit on transportation soon. I know you want to miss it, so you better come out soon. Everyone's wondering what's happened to you, and I don't have any answers for them.
Anyway in Arithmancy we're doing exponential and logarithmic functions, it's been pretty good so far but Professor Septima wants to move the test date two days earlier. She's made me reschedule my entire math study plan. Anyway, it's getting late so I have to go know. Please come out soon Draco, we really miss you. I'll always wait for you." I then place the cookies by his door before slipping a piece of parchment that says, 'A treat from Winky' under his door.
After that I get up and go to my room and put on a song while I fall asleep. I select the playlist I made during 5th year as I haven't listened to it in a while and from what I remember of it, it kind of connects to my mood right now. I set up a timer for it to go off in about 20 minutes, then hit shuffle and repeat before placing my phone on my bedside table and curling up in a ball under my sheets.
In sixth year I was always worried about my friends and their safety, and I made a promise to myself to always be there for them when they needed me. That's how I feel right now, and the music on the playlist reflected that feeling. The playlist contains about 20 songs but will probably only play 7 before the timer goes off, and about 4 songs before I fall asleep.
The first song to come up is Photograph by Ed Sheeran. When I listened to it the first time, I connected to the more romantic side of the song and I still do. However there is a line in there about even if 'you hurt me… I won't ever let you go'. I found this connected both romantically in terms of waiting for Ron to return my feelings, and in terms of Harry when he often left me and Ron out of the loop as to what he was doing with Dumbledore and why he was following Draco. They both pushed me away in their own ways, but I still held on and waited for them through thick and thin.
The second song is We Are Brave by Shawn McDonald. This song is a bit more peppy than most of the music in my playlists, and a little more abstract in my current situation, but it still connects. The song is all about standing through fires together. It's very easy to fall apart without support, and I learned that the hard way. I was eventually really depressed after the war and I wish my friends had tried harder to reach me, so I'll pass on the favor to Draco and do my best to reach him with what resources I have. I'm determined to not let him waste his life, no matter how sad and upset he is right now.
The next song is A Rush Of Blood to the Head by Coldplay. This song has a bit of a menacing feel to it, but I see it as a promise to stand by a friend or partner especially when they're hurting. You should always do your best to help the hurting, as you never know when you might need it next. As the song is playing, I remind myself of my promise to help Draco come out of this in one piece and with as little judgement from our peers, as I know they are already gossiping about him.
The last song is Speak Life by TobyMac. I love this song because of its positive message. No matter happens to you in life, always strive to be as positive as possible and empathetic. Words have to power to hurt and give hope, give and take life. One thing that my parents taught me is to T.H.I.N.K. about what I say. What you say should be True, Helpful, Inspirational, Necessary, and Kind. I know that I failed at this miserably when I used to fight with Draco, but I hope that I've moved past that. Now my everyday goal is to speak life into Draco to help him come back to us.
As these songs finish, I finally let my brain rest after using it to think about very tiring thought. I've exhausted my brain for tonight, and now I can let it rest in peace before another day of the chaos known as life.
Author's Note: I was wondering if I could have some feedback from you guys about an idea I've had about a bit later in this fic. What do you guys think about me adding in another relationship that will still have Dramione in the forefront, but will coexist. Hermione and Draco will play a huge part in this pairing's life, and vice versa. Let me know what you think, and if you want to to know who the side pairing is, feel free to Private Message me. Anyway, thanks for the continued support, and I'm sorry I haven't updated in a couple of days. Adding in A Rush of Blood to the Head was inspired by a fic I read awhile ago, also Dramione that is really good. The story is called Magnetic Attraction by ellamalfoy8. I can't make promises, but I'm hoping to have the next chapter up Monday. Feel free to give feedback, it's always appreciated. Have a great week, till next time!