A/N: Contain explicit...lemon of M-rated.
Chapter 12
Slow and steady breathing whispered through the darkness only to be drowned out by the sound of the door creaking open as light emerged through the gap. Staring at the sleeping figure, she stripped away her clothes that reeked of alcohol leaving her in her lingerie before she proceeded to the bathroom.
The hot water and steam from the shower melted the day off her skin as she breathed a sigh of relief. She turned the knobs as she stepped out from the shower, reaching for the towel as she wrapped it around her exposed body, save for the few drops of water dripping that linger on her shoulders tracing along the curve of her body. She felt out of herself tonight, she felt so desperate. The long day at work was stressful, to make things worst was when she received another disturbing call claiming she should just leave Natsuki, that they were never meant to be together, in fury, she slammed the receiver, and it was the end of her last straw.
"Six months…" she whispered.
They were already six months into their marriage, and not once had Natsuki been intimate with her on bed. Not once did Natsuki touch her intimately, let alone spending a hot fiery night. Making her wonder, what was wrong with her? Why didn't Natsuki make a move?
Seeing that fragile body, looking so helpless and weak, the very idea made her want to defile that body and melt into it. That's how turned on she was. She couldn't take it.
She just couldn't take it anymore. All the pent up emotion, the love, the lust and that weak helpless body.. It was all triggering something inside her. Her devil screaming to be free, and free it will be tonight. The alcohol she consumed before was making it worst. Ma-ma, she can blame it on alcohol later on.
The towel fell from her body, forgotten as her naked body slipped under the bed sheet beside the sleeping figure. A grumble could be heard from another person.
"Urrggghh...Shizuru?"
Inhaling the scent from behind, she felt a lust bubbling inside her as she wrapped her arm around the body.
"Huh? Shiz..."
"Nat-chan. You're so cute..." she whispered.
"Shiz..honey..." another sleepy reply "Urgghh...you smell of alcohol. Are you drunk?"
A chuckle came from her lips. "I am...drunk, in your love" with that in one quick move, she flipped Natsuki's body around and pinned it below her trapping the left hand above her head.
"Waaahhhh..." Natsuki's eyes were now wide open in surprise. The view making her heart beat faster and her breaths became quicker.
A blush coloured her cheeks as her eyes stared through the darkness and into the jade eyes glowing from the light of the bathroom. "I want you tonight, love" with that, she lowered her head to capture the sweet lips and hungrily kissing them, muffling the protest from her wife.
"Urmmmffff... Shiz...what are you...urmmffff"
She didn't want to hear any more words from her, she didn't need to.
The weak body tried to push her away, but failed as her left hand was already trapped while her other hand still wrapped up.
"You are mine, you're my wife. I want what's mine" she grumbled as she kissed hungrily at her wife's nape and stripped her off her pajamas.
After what she declared, the body stopped pushing her and turn their head sideways making Shizuru stop.
"Natsuki..."
There was no reply. Her wife still averting her gaze, as if she was rejecting her silently. Making her feel guilty.
"Natsuki, I love you. I want you. For a very long time, we have never touched each other. I need this, I need you…" She desperately pleaded.
"I...I love you...I can't take this anymore..." she sobbed. Resting her head on Natsuki's chest, she could hear the steady beat from it.
"Natsuki...why are we even married... is it only for the company? Do you really love me?"
There was still no answer, but a freed hand now calmly patting her head.
"I love you, Shizuru. It's just...I can't do this." Natsuki answered with sadness in her tone.
"Why? Am I not enough for you?" she sobbed.
"No... It's not your fault. My..." she could hear a sniffle from Natsuki. "My body...it will disgust you. This body...is not good enough for you. It's full of scars. Scars of my life, scars of my past. My ugly scar will only make you feel disgusted."
another sniffle was telling her that Natsuki is somewhat crying silently.
"Natsuki...I love you. No matter what, you are beautiful to me. It doesn't matter how many scars you have, it doesn't matter how many ugly wounds are left behind...your heart is beautiful. You are beautiful. I want all of you… So please let me take your pain away from this scar."
There was a lingering silence before a patting hand stopped.
"Will you accept me after you have me? Will you take responsibility of it all after this? Will… you still be looking at me the same way after you saw how ugly I am?"
"Natsuki...I promise you. I will. I will never leave you; never would I avert my loving gaze upon you. I promise you, I am forever yours, and I will only look at you, you alone."
Another long silent moment before Natsuki rose to sit, and as they sat, gazing at each other, Natsuki's thumb wiped her tears that manage to slide down her cheek. Slowly, ever hesitantly, Natsuki closed their distance and feeling the soft lips, testing the taste from it. Opening her lips as to reciprocate the kiss, a slow moan escaped from Shizuru. She can't take it, but she has to be patience.
"Nat-su-ki...?" Came a husky moan from her throat.
Retreating shortly, Natsuki stared deeply into the red pool.
"Hello...stranger..." she smiled before dipping for another kiss.
The slow kiss became deep as Natsuki now fully captured her lips, trapping her in a french kiss. It started as a slow dance, now both tongues moved for dominance.
Pushing Natsuki unto bed, she could hear Natsuki moaning from under her as she coiled her legs around Natsuki's seductively, like a viper dancing to an enchanting song.
Deepening the kiss, Shizuru's hand discarded what was left on Natsuki, feeling the bare skin on her hand. Natsuki's skin felt rough as her finger tips traced the scars carved on her back. Leaving the needy pouty lips aside, Shizuru traced a kiss and suck on Natsuki's nape, descending down to Natsuki's chest. The feeling of Natsuki's bare skin was a strange sensation to her, her imagination and wild dreams weren't even close to the real thing.
Bringing her hand away from the scars, the tips glided a patch of smooth skin as it became softer at Natsuki's breast. Her fingers drew light circles around the orbs of soft flesh as it earned a small moan from the cobalt haired woman. Running the tips to the peak of Natsuki's breast, she gently cupped the breast as her fingers pinched the nipple. A moan escaped from Natsuki telling her she was enjoying the attention. Turning the fragile body around slowly, she traced a kiss unto the scars on her back, licking it with a luscious slow suction, hoping to erase the pain it caused to the owner.
These scars...I hope it will bring good memories to her after this, not a sadness from being ugly, but acceptance as I will make it into beautiful memories.
Shizuru kissed every scar as she repeated the words over and over in her head. She could feel the heat from the body below her, the quiet moans became more frequent and more needy.
"Shi...ah...ahn...hah..."
As her left hand was still giving much attention to the erect nipple, her right hand had been running up and down the bare skin of Natsuki's legs, her nails had been sending shivers up the blunette's body. The teasing was fitting for making her wait for so long but she knew that she wouldn't be able to hold back her desires. Her hand turned away from the thighs, moving around between Natsuki's legs as she was met with her prize. The area was wet as it stained her finger tips as she moved around the soft folds. The hip jerked for her to move, but she's not going to comply. Her finger found the sweet spot above Natuki's womanhood, rubbing the small nub with her finger.
"Shiz...zu...ru...ah...hah...uhn..."
"Natsuki..." Shizuru licked Natsuki's ear as she bite unto it softly, her finger penetrating the core causing Natsuki's hip to jerk violently.
"ahmmm...urghh..." came a pain groan from her.
"I love you... you are forever mine..." she declared as her finger delved deeper, feeling the warmness inside Natsuki. She could her the quickening breathes from her lover as she made gentle movements with her finger. Her middle finger penetrated as it brought a quick gasp from Natsuki which was music to her ears. They grinded and danced inside of Natsuki, the painful groans turned to pleasure as she could feel Natsuki's hips moving in rhythm to her hand.
"Natsuki...do you love me?"
"Ahnn...hah...Shi..."
"Natsuki..."
"I...hah...hah...I... ahm..." Natsuki couldn't think straight at the pleasure throwing her head around, her mouth going dry as she forgot how to breathe.
"Natsuki, my love"
"I...I love you.." surrendering with the declaration, Natsuki's hips jerked for release as a tear escaped from her eye. Her cry was muffled as she buried her head into the pillow, her body shaking violently as she came. Her muscles eased as her body relaxed as Shizuru's fingers left her body.
"Hope you have a beautiful dream tonight, my love" kissing Natsuki's sweaty forehead, Shizuru joined her in deep slumber as she embraced the fragile body safely and tightly.
-0-0-
The morning rays slipped through the curtains, awakening Shizuru for a new day. It was still early in the morning where the only sounds were of birds coming out of their nest to find food for the day. She could feel the body in her arms breathing steadily and still in deep slumber. Opening her eyes slowly, Shizuru was greeted with porcelain white skin glistening under the rays of the morning light. Kissing her shoulder, Natsuki was still not moving. Unaware, sleeping like a log. Unwillingly, slowly and carefully, she detached herself from her wife. She paused as her eyes caught up the scars on Natsuki's back. The recent scar from the accident was still new and red on her shoulder blade but what stood up the most is a long line of scar on her back. Carefully not to waking up her wife, she traced the scar from the side of the nape and it reach her waist. Such a long, old and big scar. What could it be? Along the line, few more scars either crossing it or close to it as if...as if...
...being lashed...
Shizuru's eyes widen. Youko-sensei words came into her mind.
Natsuki...
Shizuru's heart started to tear up.
What had happened to you in the past?I need to know.
Closing her eyes, she kissed the long scar and readied for the day. Natsuki will be waking up later and they will talk about it, Shizuru hoped.
As Shizuru was preparing a hot cup of coffee, she heard a footstep coming towards the kitchen. As if on cue, Natsuki walked towards the kitchen counter, silent and...with a hue of pink colouring her cheek.
Is she blushing? Why? Shizuru raise her brow in contemplating.
A...ara...?
Like a school girl, Natsuki stood near the stool fidgeting with her hair, still a little damp after shower. "O...ohayou...Shi..zuru.."
Ara...?
Shizuru felt something tickling inside her stomach looking at Natsuki who now looked like a school girl in love. Cheek slightly blushing, eyes wandering elsewhere except the person in front of her, an awkward smile while hand playing with hair, anxious face waiting for her reply. Looking at Natsuki, Shizuru had an urge to pounce on her.
Approaching the nervous girl, Shizuru kissed her cheek before smiling sweetly to her wife. "Ohayou, my love"
"Ummm...uhumm.." Natsuki cleared her throat, silently sitting opposite Shizuru.
"Are you going to work today?" Shizuru started the conversation trying to break the ice.
"Yeah.. I will...after hospital." Natsuki replied shortly, lifting her cup for a drink as she inhaled the coffees' scent before she slurp.
"Ah...so today, another check-up appointment with Youko-sensei?"
"Uhmm..." as Natsuki rested her cup, veridian green eyes met the red orbs.
"a..about that, may I know the scar..."
Shizuru stopped in the middle of putting her glass down as she was trapped in those beautiful green pools. As if bounded by spell, her mouth opened in awe.
"...So beautiful.." she was unaware that the words escape her lips.
Natsuki's eyes were blinking, a shy blush deepened to a much darker shade and small lips curve into a frown.
"B...baka..." then the green pool averted away.
Released from the spell, Shizuru chuckled at her own silliness. They were already married, Natsuki is her wife, yet, she still finds herself falling in love over and over again and helplessly in awe with everything of her wife. She sighed.
"Sighing early in the morning is not a good way to start your day." Natsuki snickered.
"I know...but what can I do? I am hopelessly falling for you over and over again no matter how long we've being together. I feel so stupid right now" another sigh from her lips.
"Nani? You're such a sweet talker in the morning, honey. I never knew you were such the person." Natsuki chuckled.
"Ikezu..."
"Say...urm...honey...do you think you can empty up your schedule this weekend?"
"I guess I can leave my work to Kanzaki-han. Why?" Shizuru raised her brow.
"Well, I was planning so we can spend some time together at my summer house this weekend. A short vacation before we both start getting busy again."
The plan sounded nice to Shizuru. Furthermore, they haven't had any honeymoon. Maybe this is the only time they can spend time together for a short honeymoon, even though its only 2 hours drives from town. Maybe, the same thought also crossed on Natsuki's mind.
"Okay. I will empty up my schedule for this weekend" Shizuru's hand reached up to touch Natsuki's hair and bring it to her lips, closing her eyes, kissing the soft, wet strands and inhaling the fresh shampoo.
I'm so hopelessly in love. I can't help it. I'm drowning and trapped in this spell that I never want to escape from. What happened to me?
As she opened her eyes again, she found Natsuki looking at her attentively. Gazing closely at the green pupils, Shizuru's lips parted as she knew that Natsuki was being herself right now, in front of her, without her mask, without pretending. At this moment, Natsuki opened her heart for Shizuru to peek through those windows. Just herself. Words were not needed, only silence could show what's on each other's mind and heart.
Natsuki..
This is Natsuki...
Without any words, her eyes show...adoration...awe...love...pain...hesitation
Just like last night, she showed herself bare to me.
I know, she didn't hide anything when she looked at me like that.
Unaware...
Tears sliding down Shizuru's cheek for she knew, this girl is more than what was on the outside, what she showed to the world and people around her.
This girl is hiding many episodes of past and now, right now, this girl is opening herself for her to understand, to take a peek what is inside her heart.
Yet, this girl was still unsure if she could ever accept her for who she was, who she is. This girl is waiting to be saved from herself. There no need for more words..everything is laid open in front of her.
Natsuki...
Still trapped in the cage of her past..
Natsuki, what can I do...to free you from your cage. I'll do anything for you. No matter what it is...