Chapter 19

Bella POV

I get off Edward and try to get my breath back to normal, raging hormones.

"I'm sorry Edward I don't know what come over me" I blush, gosh what am I some kind of animal.

He lifts his head for a fraction of a second then lays back to the ground, I hear him chuckle.

"Bella its fine." He gets to a sitting position; his eyes aren't with lust but compassion and love.

Love? Do I love him, does he really love me?

We stay there for a while just watching the sky, I opened the basket, he made a few sandwiches, there were also some chips, and some sodas. He's so sweet.

"Can I ask you something, I don't want to push you or anything, but I just want to know. What…you…Michel…" I hear him sigh in frustration, he wants to ask me about me and Michel, and for the first time I feel comfortable enough to talk about him, what happen.

"I met Michel at a club. My friends thought that it would be cool if we went dancing. I hate dancing but I thought, I need to get out and hang out with some friends. My parents agreed. I stayed at home reading books, doing homework and music became my life.

Anyway, I was at our table lip syncing with the song, I can't remember what song it was.
He came up to my table with a few of his friends,"

~Flash Back~

"You want to dance?" Michel asks

"I don't dance" I bush a red, he is my height, dirty blond hair, and very muscular, he could be a weightlifter, and has to be in his early twenties, but so hot.

"Why you here then? This is a dance club." He says all cocky.

"I am here getting out of my house hanging with my friends, what are you doing here trying to bang someone?" I use the same tone; I don't know who this guy thinks he is.

He gets a puzzled expression and looks to his buddies who have smirks on their faces, then walk away from him. He sits down next to me,

"What's your name, I might have to scream it later" He smiles, and I laugh, what the hell is that flirting.

"I don't think you will need it because you won't be screaming it later, but I would like to know yours so I can warn my friends that there is a very corny guy here." I smile, this is fun; I love sarcasm if it's done right.

"I'm Michel,"

"Bella"

"You have a good sense of humor most girls who I would have said those things to would have walked away or smacked me" He leans closer to me,

"Yeah, but I liked it though, you got right to the point so refreshing." I smile, my friends walk up from the dance floor, scoping out Michel.

End of Flash back

"We went out for awhile I began to fall for him hard, he told me that he loved me about six months in. It was that night I figured out what he was. Every night he would run off before it even got dark, we wouldn't even go out past 9, once it got dark he wanted to head out and get me back home.

Well one night, I decided to follow him, I swore that he was cheating on me; I mean what else could have explained the behavior.

I followed him to the desert; he was out there with a bunch of other guys, huge guys not as big as him, exception of one other, Kevin.

I sat at the edge where they couldn't see me, or I don't think they could. I watched as the moon rose to the sky, when it hit its peak." I pause, thinking back to that time, watching in horror.

"Their bodies began to shake, and I could hear their skin rip. They turn into the giant wolf human things, I guess the best way to describe them is a combination of Van Helsing, and Underworld versions, you know the movies.

They took off in different directions, but two of them didn't; a dark black one and a white one, they came towards me, I stood frozen. I didn't know what to do.

They stared back, grunting, moving their nose, like to run to go back home, I did I ran to the road and looked for a bus stop and went back home. I couldn't sleep so I did some research on the computer about werewolves. There wasn't much, just myths and such.

The next day after school he picked me up and took me to that spot, I instantly knew that he knew about me knowing.

He asked me what I was doing, what the hell was wrong with me? I didn't answer him; I was scared I had no idea about anything he was. I just say there while he let everything out, he was so angry at me.

It had to be an hour before I actually was brave enough to ask what he was, he shook his head. But he told me everything, he told me about werewolves, how he was a full blood, meaning he was born to parents that were werewolves. He and his cousin Kevin were like that. He told me about their history, how they change when they change. He never told me anything about when he was younger, never told me what he went through. So I have no idea what the twins will have to endure, it scares me so much.

Michel pushed for sex after that, he said that we were so close to each other that we should make that leap that he loved me so much that I was his mate, which we were meant for each other. I loved him very much, I felt like we were going to be together forever but at the same time I felt like something was wrong so I didn't want to, and I wasn't ready. I guess that night he couldn't take it anymore." I am wrapped in Edward's arms now, everything is dark, he has the lanterns on, but it doesn't give that much light.

"I am sorry," He says in a whisper.

"I'm not; if he didn't do what he did I wouldn't have the two greatest children." I turn to where I think his face is at, I feel one of his arms leave my waist and then I feel his hand on my face pulling it to him, we kiss passionately.

I want to tell him that I love him that I want to be with him, but I am afraid. I don't want to complicate things, I don't want to ruin this wonderful thing we have now, but then I hear it escape his lips

"I love you Bella" It is a whisper I am not even sure that I heard him right.

Edward POV

She is finished with her story and I have my arms around her waist,

"I'm sorry" I say in a low whisper.

"I'm not; if he didn't do what he did I wouldn't have the two greatest children." She says with complete confidence, gosh she is the greatest and most purist of souls. How could that mutt do such a thing to her? I am glad that she has told me this now that I know this and from what she said earlier to Carlisle can really help us.
I take a hand from her waist and bring it to her face and pull her into a kiss, a passionate one.

I don't know what I was thinking but I let it escape,

"I love you Bella" I say so low that maybe she didn't hear me. But then I feel her pull away from me,

"Oh god, oh god I'm not ready for this I can't do this Edward, you are the greatest guy and you are so patient with me. I care for you so much and I love…" She stops herself in mid-sentence, what have I done I agreed that I would wait for her that she would be the one deciding everything, wait she said love. I look to her face that is clear as day to me in the dead of night.

"Bella I am so sorry I didn't mean… you don't have to say it back I understand completely if you don't. I don't want to push you I can't push; I want this to be what you want it to be." I say in a rush.

I feel her fingers press against my lips and hear her hush me."I am worried that you will expect more, but I think I am just being a paranoid person. Edward I…"

Jake POV
We are sitting here at the bloodsuckers place thanks to Bella. She wants us to be so familyish. They aren't that bad, but it sucks sitting her with Quil, Embry, and little Chris watching the couples have this romantic dinner. Seth is having a blast eating with Piper. I can tell that the others are feeling the same way, especially Chris, poor kid hears his sisters thoughts all the time, you know that is really going to suck for him when they are older and have the raging hormones kicking in.

Esme is defiantly going to be the mother of us all along with Bella, she already is. She cooks dinner for all of us. Her house is the base for our pack; we get home schooled there and everything. She even built onto her house so that we could stay there when needed.

I love Bella so much; I would give anything to be Edward. But she is right I can't truly be with her. I wouldn't bear to live if I hurt Bella.

Chris gets up and pats my hand,

"You'll meet your imprint in a few years, be patient." He smile and walks to the piano and plays that song he was playing earlier with Edward.

It so beautiful, it is a special kid, more shy and to himself. I can imagine Bella being like that before she had these two. I can see her being in her room; reading, listening to music, and keeping to herself.

I really hope that this is what she wants. I love her enough that I can accept these bloodsuckers, no matter the horrible smell. But only for Bella, my one love.

Chris POV

Piper is having a wonderful time, nice. I am happy for her don't get me wrong, but dam I hate seeing them. I feel bad for mom too. Seth is taking over her job, protecting Piper and all that.

Esme has created a lovely dinner for all of us, but it's kind of sickening seeing the lovey crap.

I go over to the piano that dad taught me how to play. I play mom's song that he created. I know that he loves mom so much, I can see that they are perfect for each other.

I decide that I should try making my own song up.

I run my fingers across the keys thinking of something inspirational when I see the way Rose and Emmet are looking at each other. So devotion and admiration in their eyes it's like they are in their own little world. Rose's golden eyes are so alive while looking at Emmet's, so memorized by each other presence.

I tap a key, it's a low soothing note, reminding me of the look they are giving each other, hmm, I hit another little higher. Slowly but surely I begin to go faster with the playing and a song began to form. It's about a passion, love and lust. They came to be, through near death experiences and the passion that runs through them.
I sit here playing it over and over till it is perfected. I stop, and sigh with happiness; I made a song all by myself. I look up to see everyone standing around the piano, they are in awe at my performance, wonderful, and I hate the spot light.

"That was so beautiful Chris" Esme says with sincerity.

I nod my head and blush I really didn't think about the others in the room.

"Who inspired you?" Piper asks me, she knows dam well, calling me out.

You know Piper why did you ask out loud?

Come on; you should tell Rose and Emmett I bet they would love it. The attention is never really on them I sigh knowing she is right.

"Rose and Emmett, I was kind of watching them and I saw the way they looked at each other and it just came to me." I say not looking at them. A pair of cold arms wrap around me,

"Oh that is so sweet Chris, thank you" Rose's voice sounds as if she is choked up on her words; I bet she would be crying if she could.

"You are welcome" I smile proud that I made her happy.

I get off the bench and walk over the couches and watch some TV while everyone else slowly disappears, to where, well let's just say I wish I couldn't see the future.