Chapter 22

The first few days was hard to get everyone to be on the same page when it came to following Kevin's fighting instructions because didn't have another werewolf to help him explain how they fight. But then Chris said that he could help, and well of course I throw a fit because I didn't want my son to get hurt, but in the end I saw Kevin get thrown into a tree by my son so it wasn't much of an issue.

So I just sit here and watch my family practice and prepare to fight. I suggest things to Kevin that he should teach or work on with someone. Oh yeah and I cook for my children the pack and Kevin. What important job I have.

Edward tells me that I am perfect where I am, but I feel so useless, so human. Which is what I am, for the first time in my life, I want to be something more. I should be protecting my children I am their mother. Instead they are learning how to defend themselves and teaching it to the pack, well Piper works with the pack while Chris helps Kevin with the Cullens.

And they are doing a wonderful job with it, I don't know whether to be proud or concerned with how they can fight. Though they will not actually be in the upcoming battle, which is one thing that I will not allow, Chris and Piper tried to argue with me on that but I won, when I want my point across trust me my point will get across.

But Edward did say they need to learn this stuff so they can defend themselves if they get kidnapped. This hit that spot I have. They have to learn to defend themselves, I feel like it was as stab at me. Like I can't protect my own children or something, and then I remember I can't I am just a fragile human.

And this battle is two days away, Chris and Alice had the vision of them attacking then. Kevin thinks and so do I that Michel will attack before the moon is up in the sky so they can try to wound us. Because once they change only Michel will have control of himself the rest of his pack will be working off of memories mostly, they will be there but can't control themselves too much. So at night when Kevin changes they practice that way, last night Chris and Piper got out of my grasp and went and practice with them, and as always Edward backed them up, making me fell less and less, though no one can tell I keep it well hidden, I know that he means well and he loves me and wants me and my children to be safe.

I sit down on a stool in the kitchen, everyone is out. Edward took the twins to get some ice cream to occupy their minds, Kevin and Leah went out, needing time together. I think half the pack is practicing while the other half is checking the perimeter. And I think the Cullens are out hunting.

I put my head in my hands, how could this happen, why did I have to go and get myself mixed up with mythical creatures. Tears are slowly trickling down my cheek; I should end this, I should just go and find Michel and end this.

"Don't you even think about that" I whip around to see Alice standing in the door way of the kitchen with her hands on her hips and staring at me with a deathly glare.

"What?" I ask trying to act innocent, but I know what she is talking about I just hope that Chris didn't see the same thing.

"Don't even try to pull that. You have your children, they need their mother. How could you even think about leaving them?" She walks closer to me.

"They would be safer if I was to go to him. That is the only reason for this stupid fight is because he wants me dead. Edward could protect them better; I am sure that he would just forget about the twins and just move on." The tears are coming down faster, the thought of leaving my children hurt me so much, my stomach aches, but if it would keep Michel away just a little bit longer then I will do, please don't let Chris see this.

"How could you even think that let alone believe it?" Alice takes my hands, I don't answer her. I just look into her golden eyes, pleading for her to understand.

"They wouldn't be better off, they would be lost. They would think it was because of them"

"We're home" I hear Piper call from the living room.

"Keep this from them Alice" I demand

"From the kids yes, from Edward no" Alice uses the same tone.

Please don't let the kids know, please, please.

"Hey mommy" Chris enters the kitchen, followed by Piper and Edward.

"Hey hun" I reply back taking him in a hug. It seems that they have no clue on what has happen between Alice and me. "How was the ice cream?"

"It was good; you should have come with us." Piper says.

"Yeah but I am sure that you had fun with daddy" I reply giving her a hug.

I look up to Edward who is looking at Alice; I can tell by his facial expression that Alice is telling him what has conspired against us. Please don't let Piper hear don't let my kids know.

I look to my twins that are in their own world having no clue.

"Hey you guys want to go out and join the pack, they are practicing." Alice suggests to the twins.

"Yeah" they say together. They run out with Alice behind them leaving Edward and I alone in the kitchen.

I know what he is about to say, I really don't want to fight about this; I don't want my kids to find out.

"Bella, I can't lose you" His voice is part upset and part pleading with me.

"Edward I haven't decided anything, I was just thinking about it. I just want my children to be safe, for you to be safe. Our entire family to be safe, I will not be able to live with myself if anyone of you gets hurt because of me." I jab my finger into my chest.

"I would be able to live with myself if you or the twins get hurt." Edward takes me in his arms.

"I love you Isabella. I will not lose you."

"I just can't sit on the sideline Edward. I love you so much, more than my own life; I love my children just the same."

"Just don't go and commit suicide"

"I'm not promising anything." I look up into his eyes.

"Then I guess you'll never leave this house." Edward looks hurt, and pissed.

"I'm going to go outside; we are working on some more strategies"

"Fine" He walks out of the kitchen.

I am back to being alone, and I cry. I cry for the life I will never have, for the family that I can't have. For my children that I won't be with anymore, I can't let my family get hurt. I will not.

I pick myself of and plan, something tells me if I concentrate hard enough, that no one will be able to see me leave or plan.

Chris POV

Something is wrong Piper thinks to me.

What do you mean?

I mean I can only hear selected thing from Aunt Alice and daddy's mind.

You know what I can't really see what the future is going to be either.

"Dad, something is wrong" Piper says aloud. Everyone stops and looks at us, Aunt Alice glazes her eyes over and her face gets frustrated, she can't see either.

"What?" dad asks us, I show him the blackness that I see, and Piper shows him how she can only get bits and pieces of what Aunt Alice and he are thinking about.

"Oh god" Dad looks to Aunt Alice.

"You don't think" Aunt Alice doesn't complete the sentence.

"What is going on?" Jake asks impatiently.

"I think Bella has a gift of her own. Alice and I have been fighting with her about a decision she has decided on and the twins can't see or hear Alice and I thinking about it, but everything else that is not related to the matter they can see and hear. It's like she doesn't want them to know so they don't get to." Daddy explains.

"What decision would that be?" Jake gets in dads face.

"To sacrifice herself for us, for Chris and Piper"

Everyone is on the same page now, including Piper and I. Mom is going to Michel so that he won't come here and hurt us. I concentrate really hard on the future, hoping that something will come to me.

Blackness turns white, then I see mom.

"You won't get to them Michel. So just kill me and forget about them, you and your mate here can have more kids, which would be your own. I mean, the kids will hate Kendra and your life will be hell trying to raise them, to the point that you won't be able to have anymore." Mom is very confident, she is not afraid to die, to sacrifice herself.

"She's right babe, just kill her and let us live our lives, I can give you perfect children, better than what she could gave you" Kendra says to Michel.

"Ok" Michel agrees and is telling the truth, he has forgot about me and Piper,

It fades to white then to black again and daddy is standing over me,

"Chris, Chris are you ok?" dad asks me in panic.

"Mom is gone; we won't be able to find her." Something tells me that we won't be able to track her; we will have to find Michel to find her.

Dad read my mind, and he ran to the house, everyone did. They began to yell moms name, searching everywhere for her, they can't even smell her scent.

Mom left the moment dad came outside she slip out the front door and put the car in neutral and pushed it all the way to the road and then turned it on, all the while she concentrated hard on us not finding out, like praying, repeating over and over.

I came back from the vision, oh mom.

why would mom just leave us

To protect us Piper

How do you know all that about mom how did you see that?

I used your gift, and combined it with my tracking gift thing, I thought about mom, and I saw her and then I used you past reading thing and I saw how she was able to get away, though as you say it was very fuzzy seeing her

Piper just nods her head not really understand, neither do I, I just know that I did it.

Edward POV

The moment I read Chris's mind I ran to the house looking for her, I couldn't smell her anymore.

"Bella" I yell, and then I begin to hear everyone yell her name, searching for her.

Then from Chris's mind I see, I hear what she did. I collapse to my knees, if I could cry I would.

"We have to get to Michel" I look up to see Kevin.

"Yes, yes we do" I say with determination, I will not let Bella die.

I run downstairs at vampire speed and the family is gathered and waiting on what we should do next.

"How are we going to get to Bella, before she gets to Michel?" Carlisle muses.

"We won't be able to" Chris says.

"You can't see that" Piper argues.

"You are right I can't, but I do know that w can't get her scent, thus we can't track her, what we will have to do is find Michel and hope that mom hasn't got to him yet." He replies.

"I agree, we will have to get to Michel, I am sure that he has to be close, maybe a few miles" Kevin says.

"Ok then, we will head towards Seattle, that is where he started, so he has to be that way somewhere ,Bella has at least two hours on us so we have to move fast" I order.

"What about Chris and Piper?" Seth asks.

Chris and Pier are going to have to stay here with Esme and…"

"Me" Seth says, I can't deny him this.

"Ok let's move" I begin to jog, and everyone but Esme and Seth follow.

Oh please don't let Bella, my love, the only reason for my existence. If for some reason that she does die, that I lose her, I will take care of Chris and Piper, I will. But when they are grown up and are ready to live for themselves I will not exist anymore.

I push myself harder, I know that my family is getting further and further behind me but I have to get to Bella I have to save her.

Bella POV

I don't know where I am going, I just know that I need to go towards Seattle, I am pretty sure that he will be close. I am sure that he will spot me first.

I see a sign that says Seattle 116 miles, wow that far. I continue to drive; I notice that the trees are getting thicker and its getting darker. Well I think this was a set up, Michel has spotted me, then I feel the car get hit from the passenger side making it flip over and over then another smack, and then all I see is darkness.