"...I can't stop the rain from fallin'..."

Chapter 9

BPOV

"Bella." A voice echoed. "Bella. Bella, can you hear me?"

I shifted and groaned as the voice got louder and louder. Then the dull throbbing in my head reminded me why that voice was calling me. I opened my eyes to reveal a very worried Carlisle Cullen.

"Hi." I said, lamely, smiling a weak, faltering smile.

"Hello Bella, how are you feeling?" He asked giving me a smile that would have made any other girl swoon.

"Like someone hit me in the head with a hammer. Fortunately, I was only thrown against a wall so, I should live." I gave my best small but it felt like more of a grimace.

"Well Bella you're lucky. You only have a minor concussion. However you have also over used your leg muscles, they will be very swore for a while." He told me and I winced as I found out just how painful.

As I nodded my acceptance of my injuries, I saw Edward walk into my hospital room. I couldn't help it, whenever he was near my eyes would follow him and my heart would beat rapidly in my chest.

"Bella, can you tell us what happened?" He continued.

"I forgot." I muttered sadly to myself.

"Excuse me." Carlisle questioned as Edward rose his eyebrows at me looking worried.

"I was stupid. I changed things and I forgot things. None of this was suppose to happen... Well, it was but the outcome was suppose to be different." I said. It was more like I was talking to myself than to Edward and Carlisle. The world suddenly felt like it was moving forward while I was still stuck in the past. In a dream.

"I don't understand." Edward said, breaking my chain of thought. "Are you saying you were suppose to be attack?"

"Yes. No. In a way." I stuttered as I watched Edward's eyes darken with each answer I gave. "It's... Ever since I got to Forks it feels like I am trying to stop the rain from falling, but I can't. Some of the events change but others stay the same no matter what."

"Then why are you trying to stop it? Why don't you let it fall?" Carlisle asked.

I felt tears burning my eyes and my bottom lip trembled slightly, "Because I don't like some of the places that rain is falling. There are places I don't want to go, things I don't want to do, people I certainly never want to meet."

Edward shook his head. "So you are putting an umbrella up over these places and not expecting the area around it get wetter. You are not trying to stop the rain from falling you are keeping the unwanted places in a drought, but the problem is a drought cannot last forever and when the rain comes it will be heavier than ever."

It was true, I was hoping that my knowledge will change the fact that I would not be the victim of those men. "You're right." And to James, Victoria and the Volturi, but what if I can't. What if these event are written in stone somewhere? What if these event will happen no matter what?

"So, what were you trying to change?"

The question was light hearted, something to break the tension that had built up in the air, but Edward had no clue of the pain I suddenly felt.

"You. I was trying to change the fact that you would leave." I said more calmly than I felt.

Edward's POV

"What? Why would I leave? Why would you care if I left?" I cried in confusion. This girl was frustratingly annoying but he could help that when he looked at her it felt like his dead heart would beat again. He couldn't help but notice her; her pink, kissable lips; her curves that were all in the right places; her warm, brown eyes and her soft sweet voice.

"I can't tell you." She whispered.

"And why not? I deserve to know why I am leaving my family."

'Edward I think you should calm down. You don't want to scare her, do you?' Carlisle thought and I instantly stopped my shouting. I didn't was to scare he away. However I still needed, no, demanded to know why?

"Why, Bella?"

Bella looked up sorrowfully and painfully into my eyes, "You don't leave your family. You make them go with you. You leave me."

The silence was almost deafening. I still didn't understand why she would care so much. I am a monster- we were all monsters. Soulless, dangerous monsters. She should be happy that we leave. Yet when I looked into her eyes I could only see her pain and despair. Why does she think so highly of us?

"Why do you care?" I whispered softly.

"Because I loved you. I still do, but you still leave." The scent of her tears filled the air and Carlisle, who was a silent witness to our conversation, got up and handed Bella a tissue. I was surprised by my adoptive fathers silence, usually he was the one trying to drive answers out of people.

I felt a rush of emotions. Happiness, confusion, surprise, fear, wariness and... love? I wanted to reassure her. I wanted to touch her and promise that I would never leave her. Then I felt enlightenment. I suddenly knew what the electricity between us was and it took away the wariness and the fear I had felt moments before. I had seen this feeling, felt this feeling before. It was the way Carlisle felt about Esme. It was the connection that Alice had with Jasper and the electricity Rosalie felt when she first saw Emmett on the night he was mauled by a bear.

Sitting down beside her, I place my hand on the small of her back a said, "I promise I will never leave. I swear to you."

A humorless laugh escaped her and it sent chills up my spine. "You've said that before. A dozen times before. Yet you broke your promises anyway. You broke every single one..." She sounded so lost and so sad that it broke my heart. How could I have left her?

"Do you...? Did I come back?" I wanted to know, I needed to know and in spite of this I feared the answer.

"No." That one word broke my heart, why would I leave her. My mate. Why would I leave her? "Instead I had to go to Italy to get you."

Italy? "Why would I...?"

"Because you are an idiot with suicidal tendencies. After I jumped off a cliff, Alice had a vision, Alice told Rosalie and Rosalie told you I killed myself." Her voice grew angrier. "You decided that you didn't want to turn me and was determined to die after me. What kind of idiot thinks that way? Your a hypocrit. You want me to live a normal human life, yet, when I die, you wish to die with me... Of course the Volturi refused to kill you, so you chose to reveal yourself to the humans."

"Bella, I...?" I tried to reason but Bella didn't want to hear. It was as if now that we got her talking she couldn't stop. Like he had broken a dam and the water has come rushing out.

"You thought you could protect me by leaving me. But you couldn't. In fact, I was in even more danger than before. For a while I was comatose, catatonic the doctors said. Then I crashed a motorcycle, got on the back of another guys motorcycle, got attacked by a nomad, befriended a werewolf and jumped of a cliff." Bella finished her rant, panting.

The only thing I could do was sit there and watch her as she screamed and shouted. Minutes went by with no one, not even Carlisle saying a word, the only noise that was breaking the silence was Bella's deep breaths.

"I'm sorry." She whispered so quietly even my vampire ears almost missed it. "That wasn't meant for you."

"In a way it sort of it." I chuckled in her ear.

Bella smiled and the tense atmosphere lifted and my world became all the more brighter.

"Bella, how do you know this?" Carlisle's curious voice asked, 'No one could make up that much detail. She even knew about the Volturi.'

"I dreamed it. I experienced all of this in my dream that lasted 3 years."