"...No i can't go on

When the clouds are pushing me down, boy..."

Chapter 13

EPOV

"You know?" Alice gasped. I winced as all of her unguarded thoughts flew at me like daggers. 'She knows. Maybe now I will know who I am. I wonder what kind of life I had? I want to know if I have any family? How and who changed me? Oh, I really want to know.'

"Alice."I groaned and she sent me a mental apology before shushing her thoughts.

"Yes."

"How?"

"I crossed paths with someone bad who remembered you as a human." Bella said. Her tone sounded casual but the shiver of disgust that raced through her told us it was an unpleasant memory for her.

"How bad?" I asked want to at least get the gist of what made her shiver in fear.

"Put it this way: if he was on fire, and I had water, i'd drink it." She answered seriously.

"Will you tell me, please?" Alice pleaded and when Bella nodded Alice took her hand and dragged her to the sofa. There Bella and Alice sat cross legged facing each other like they were about to share secrets at a slumber party.

Me and the rest of the family lingered in the background waiting impatiently to hear the story that brought Alice to us.

"In a way" Bella began, "you were a lot like me, Alice. When you were human your vampiric ability showed through. However, you unfortunately lived in a time where, when people saw images in their heads that people saw as impossible, you were shunned for your ability and placed in a mental asylum."

For once Alice's mind was silent, however I could tell that she was extremely upset with the news that her parents had abandoned her.

"What do you mean Alice is like you?" Carlisle asked unable to contain his curiosity.

"My vampiric ability is a very powerful mental shield. That is why Edward can't read my mind- even now." Bella replied and then turned to Alice.

"You were born in 1901 and transformed by an old vampire who worked in the mental asylum to protect you from James, a nomad vampire who is a tracker. However James killed the vampire before you awoke. You had a sister, Cynthia, if I recall correctly and she had a daughter who still lives in your home town Biloxi."

Unshed tears filled Alice's eyes and she whispered, "thank you" to Bella before Jasper went over to comfort her. I went over to Bella and crouched beside her as I stroked her back.

"Who is James, Bella?" I asked. I knew there was an importance to that name. I saw she shiver and her eyes darken as she mentioned his name and i knew, instinctively, I knew that he had hurt her.

"You will meet him soon and when you do you will have to kill him and his mate otherwise I will become his new obsession." Bella answered grimly.

'Edward I think she is right.' Alice spoke in her mind, 'I have see some nomads in the area they have been killing humans needlessly.'

'We can't kill another vampire without cause. The future can be changed. All we have to do is keep Bella from meeting him.' Carlisle's thought reasoned. I was torn between the two conflicting opinions and I couldn't think of my own. Instead I wavered back and fourth between the two.

BPOV

That night I fell asleep in my own bed with Edward sat beside me and I dreamed once again of the beautiful woman.

"Bella." Her voice called in greeting.

"Who are you? What are you?" I asked.

The woman smiled, "My name is Amias and I am what is known as a Phoenix. We are time keepers, prophecy tellers. We have existed since the beginning of time and have watched the stars in hopes of getting insight from the future."

"Oh, okay."

"Bella, I see that your path is changing but I still see that the ending hasn't changed. However it can if too many of the wrong things change. You must be careful."Amias' warned.

However as I looked into her eyes saw guilt and I suddenly knew why. "It isn't me that will change the future for the worse. You and your kind have already done that.

You put me in a coma that I should never have been in and you... you made my scent less appealing to vampires."

"Yes, we did put you into an unnecessary coma but when we saw the wars that you presence created we began to fear you. But when it was done I instantly knew what we had done was wrong. That we should have left what would be, be. And yes I made your scent less appealing but not all all vampires, only the Cullen's." Amia answered.

"Why? Why would you do that?" I was confused. She had already messed with the future once and, now, she is doing it again.

"I do not know why. All I know is that I have this powerful urge to protect you and I knew that your scent would be a problem for them, so I just shielded it from them."

I had no idea what to say. I think, I am just as confused as Amias on this, but what do I do now, feel like i'm walking the world with a blindfold on. I opened my mouth to ask the question that was on my mind but before I could she vanished and I woke up.