Quote of the day: "It has been said that time heals all wounds but i disagree. The wounds remain, in time the mind protecting insanity covers them with scar tissue and lessens the pain. But it is never gone."
Chapter 16
EPOV
When Alice came back from hunting with a new vision fresh in her mind I felt and over welling guilt and heart shattering worry. James had found Bella, even when she hadn't came to watch the game, James had still found her. My mind kept reating 'I should have listened, I should have listened.'
'Edward I don't think we will make it to her' Alice's mind cried. 'What do we do? What if he kills her?'
"No." I gritted through my teeth, "No, we will make it. We have too."
As Alice called the family, I had stood restlessly by the door and paced. However the back and forth motion did little to sooth me. It was only when we left the house and quickly made our way to Bella's that made some of my emotions calm slightly.
Me and my family were running as fast as we could towards Bella's house and I could only think of Bella: was she safe? Has James gotten to her yet? Has he hurt her? Has he killed her? Each question sent my stomach rolling and- if I was human- I would have been physically sick at the thought of losing her. She was my only reason to exist.
I felt venom tears sting my eyes and i pushed myself to run faster. She had to be alright and if... if she wasn't then it would be my fault. I had not followed hers or Alice's advice. I had let James slip through my grip because I refused to hold him hard enough to make him stay.
If Bella died, then I would die to. Not just physically but my heart, my mind, me, I will cease to exist. It was my fault- I guess it is true you cannot stop the inevitable. You cannot stop the rain from falling.
I finally made it to Bella's house and I could hear to heart beats. I allowed myself to breath a sigh of relief, but then one of the heart beats suddenly vanished. Panic seized me and I rushed into the house, my brothers following just behind me.
I didn't notice Victoria running to the door. I didn't notice the dead body of the police chief on the floor. All i saw was Bella as she lay on the floor prop up with one elbow. She was staring blankly into space and salt tears streaked her face. Where she stared, there were black scorch marks clinging to the wall and floor.
"Bella." I said with urgency, "Bella, are you okay?" She didn't respond, she didn't even blink. "Bella, please... Please be okay." Still nothing.
"Carlisle!" I shouted, even though I knew he could hear me. I could hear my voice break and falter with the grief that washed through me. "Bella, I am so sorry. Please, talk to me. Please Bella." But she didn't even register my appearance. The only indicator of life was her chest as it rose and fell rapidly.
I heard Carlisle run up behind me and I reached out for Bella, but before I could get to her, her eyes rolled to the back of her head and she fell limply against the floor.
After a quick examination, Carlisle thought to me, 'She's in shock, son. She probably saw as they killed Charlie.' He shook his head and then said out loud, "We will have to report the to the police and Bella will have to go to next of kin, maybe her mother if they found her, or child services... Or Charlie might have left a will and allocated a guardian for her."
"What?" My head snapped up to meet Carlisle's eyes, "No, they can't take her from me Carlisle. Please! Can't you do something?" The pain in my voice was evident.
"I will see if she can stay with us... Edward, son, this wasn't your fault. It was no one's fault..."
"It was. It is my fault. She told me I had to kill them. She told me. And I didn't listen and now Charlie's dead. It's my fault Carlisle, I am a monster and I always will be."
"Edward, you are not a monster and if you are that means we all are. Me, Esme, Alice and Jasper were all there when Bella told you to kill James and Victoria. Either one of us could have done it but we chose not to."
I didn't answer. I just looked down and pulled Bella into my arms. Here she was safe, here i could watch her and keep her from harm, I thought as i brushed stray hairs away from her face. Here I will never let her die.
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