Loki was sitting on his chair, in his room, in New asgard.

He was so skinny to the point his cheek bone was showing, dark circles under his eyes, eyes looked empty like no soul lived in it.

He rested his head back on the chair and closed his eyes, he didn't want to sleep, but his body needs it, whenever he fell asleep the same nightmares came, Thanos attacking and Thor…Thor vanishing to dust.

He couldn't resist the tiredness anymore and fell asleep.

"Loki" Banner called him "Loki…. ", no response, "Loki you've been here for a whole day and a half, you need to get up"... Still no response, banner sighed "we're leaving tomorrow morning, to search for Thanos, i talked to the others about you, and your welcome to join" and of course loki didn't respond, "we'll appreciate your help, since you can track the stones, i hope you join us" Banner left with these final words, leaving Loki in his grieve.

The time passed, it's morning, Banner and the other survivors were ready to set off, loki still hasn't appeared

, "i don't think he will come" Natasha said,

banner sighed again "it will be a great help if he did, he helped us a lot in the war, we could use that again",

"well, maybe he's wondering why we want his help after all he's done",

"i know…. I know" he took a long breath "let's go" he turned to leave,

"wait" Natasha stopped him "he's here",

Loki was heading to them, Stormbreaker in his hand, he approached them and said "i know that i have done a lot to you, and i won't ask for forgiveness, but allow me to join you, i can reverse what Thanos did",

Banner and Natasha nodded and they set on their way.

The avengers, if they didn't go through what Thanos did they surely would be attacking Loki now for what he did in new york.

Loki had explained his plan on reversing the snap, and when he reached the part where he said that he will wear the gauntlet they all gave him a glare of suspicion, at that moment Loki wished Thor was here, they would have believed him, because who would believe a liar?, a killer?, the one who brought distraction to their world?,he explained hoping that they would believe him "you mortals can not handle the snapp, it will take your lifes, I'm a god, i can handle it", no one did respond, a silence drifted in the air, "i love…" that is not the correct pronunciation, he realized that… It hurted him "i loved Thor dearly, more than anyone,... i just want to bring my brother back" he's eyes stinged badly "pardon me" he left the room with watery eyes.

It took some time to find Thanos, but they did, and that's what matters, they put a plan to attack, to prevent Thanos from doing anything.

The attack succeeded, but where are the stones? The gauntlet…. Nothing on it.

They forced the titan to speak, to tell them where he hid the stones, but things don't go easily like that.

The stones were destroyed, there is no hope left to cure this massacrate, the rage start raising in Loki's heart, Thanos turned his head to loki after he finished speaking with nebula "how did you like my gift little king", Loki's eyes widened in anger and lift Stormbreaker and decapitate his head, "what have you done?" Rocket said, no answer came from loki,

"do you think this is some kind of a joke!" Banner speaked in a harsh tone "he could have had a solution!, we could have had gotten it out of him!" he pushed loki to the wall, pinning him, his arm on Loki's throat, almost choking him, loki hissed in pain,

"there is no replacement for the stones" Loki finally speaked, "so i did what should have been done", not that it made a difference, he thought that he would feel good after killing him, but he felt nothing, nothing but emptiness.

"you selfish bastard!" Banner almost turned into the hulk, funny, the hulk didn't appear all this years and decided to do now,

"thats enough!" Steve stopped Banner and grabbed his arm "he's right, the stones vanished…...we can't do anything… We lost" he didn't want to accept the defeat, but what else is there, "we have to accept it, we've done what we could", banner backed off, he realized now that that exactly what he didn't want to believe, that they've got…..defeated.

The silent roamed the air and they started to leave, one after another, Loki was left alone, where should he go? His home is gone, his parents are dead, his broth…, asgard they yet don't know, he should inform the people of the great loss that happened, give a proper funeral to… God he can't bring himself to say his name, he feels ashamed, how could he call himself his brother while he couldn't do anything….. "it should have been me…..should've been me, I'm only capable of destroying, you're capable of saving, so WHY DID YOU LEAVE?! YOU ARROGANT FOOL" he shouted in rage and then fell to silence, "what did you expect of me with that stupid smile of yours" he whispered, he couldn't hold it anymore, tears started falling on his cheeks, he set down with legs close to his chest and head buried in them "I'm such a failure".

To be continued*