A/N: So I hate what happened it the last chapter so I made you, the readers, an apology episode. Also sorry if it seems repetitive or a whiplash of emotions.
A faint ringing was running through Kyoko's ears as she was waking up. Her head was throbbing as if she had a hangover. She shifted from the discomfort in her head only to be met with a shot of pain up her arms. Her eyes shot open from the sudden surge of discomfort. She was intaking air at a rapid pace as her eyes darted around the unfamiliar room. Fear coursed through her. W-what happened!? Where am I!? W-what's going on!? She thought and her mind started running away with what could have happened. No! NO! I-I didn't go back to Sho did I!? Oh god! Please tell me I didn't go back to him!?
Tears started to pool at the corner of her eyes. Then she felt something behind her move. Terror shot through her. No no no no no! No, oh god! Please, no! Please tell me that I didn't sleep with someone! Please tell me I didn't go back to Sho and let him use me as his selling feature. And before Kyoko could finish her thoughts the tears started falling and her face scrunched together in horror and disbelief. The person shifted again. Kyoko tried to stop the tears and stifled her silent screams only to be met with the full force of pain from her arms which made her body jerk that forced her on her back.
She turned her head the opposite direction of the body next to her. She was too afraid to see her assaulter or as Sho would say her 'master' for the evening. The tears started up again at the thought. Then the body moved again this time she felt the bed dip beside her leaning towards her. Please no! I don't want to go through this! Her thoughts screamed as she clenched her eyes shut willing any and all bad things away. But what she wasn't expecting was a soft caress to her face. Her eyes perked open surprised by the gentle gesture. Steeling herself she peeked to her side where the looming shadow was waiting. Shock ran through her. "T-Tsuruga-san?" She asked quietly.
Ren was leaning over her unmoving body looking down at her with bloodshot eyes that had also accumulated circles and bags under them making him look tremendously older than he usually looked. "Yes." He said with a hoarse voice.
Kyoko stared at her current boss wide eyed and in disbelief. She hadn't run off to Sho's. Relief filled her as a new set of tears started up and spilled out over her overly emotional body.
A cold rush ran through Ren's body as he stared at the crying body. Thinking that she was crying from that afternoon's event he started sputtering out apology after apology. "I'm sorry Mogami-san. I didn't mean for it to go that far! I didn't have control of myself! My body fell back into old habits! I'm sorry! I'm so so sorry! Please forgive me!" He begged as a new set of tears formed in his eyes.
He hadn't been able to sleep since Kuon had did what he did. Regret and guilt filled his every being while he cried and had quietly apologized to the sleeping body next to him. That is until he felt her move just a few minutes ago.
Kyoko confused at Ren's apology asked with a shaky voice "What are you talking about Tsuruga-san? Did something happen that I'm not aware of?"
Ren's eyes opened wide in surprise and confusion. "You… you don't remember what happened a few hours ago?" He asked.
Kyoko blinked through her tear-stained eyes even more confused. "Yes. I do… I think. We were at LME, Sho came and threat… talked to me, you told me to go to your office where I fell asleep and now, I'm here. That's all I remember." Kyoko stared at Ren's stunned face.
"You really don't remember what happened." He asked again. This time with more concern.
Kyoko looked down to the bed averting her eyes from Ren. She stared at the bed trying to recall the events that occurred earlier that day. Her face marred with discomfort as her mind sprinted in a different direction. Before she knew it, words were pouring out of her mouth and not in her head. "W-what happened!? Did I run back to Sho and you came and got me!? Did I do something shameful while at work!? Was I used then thrown out when they were done with me!? Did you find me on the side of the road and bring me back here out of pity!?"
She continued to ramble until Ren registered what she was mumbling about. He quickly straightened up and took Kyoko's face between his hands to steady her as well as force her to look at him. He saw the fear residing in her eyes as she fell silent. "Mogami-san." He started. "Nothing like that happened. Fuwa Sho didn't take you anywhere. I brought you back to my apartment because I wanted to ask you some questions and…" He trailed off as his face fell into despair at the memory.
Kyoko tilted her head to the side with a sigh of relief escaping her lips. She tried to bring her hands up to meet his but winced in pain. She grimaced at the shock it sent through her. This brought back Ren's attention. "I'm sorry." He said with a devastated look. "I'm so sorry." He repeated as tears started falling out of his eyes. Ashamed of his appearance he laid his head against her shoulder constantly saying. "I'm sorry. I'm so so sorry."
Kyoko more confused than when they started their conversation decided to interrupt his mumbling apologies. "Tsuruga-san. I don't know what you're apologizing for. If you could tell me. Then maybe I can forgive you for whatever happened." She forced her hands onto Ren's face to bring his head up so she could look at him.
A surge of sadness ran through Kyoko's body as she stared into Ren's eyes. They were blank. Void of any emotion or so lost in emotion that it didn't show. She couldn't help her reaction as she forced herself on her knees so she could wrap her arms around his head and hold him tightly against her. What she saw was something she had felt many times before and her instinct told her to keep him close. She nuzzled her head against his hair and tightened her hold on him. The pain in her arms almost forgotten.
This reaction shocked Ren. Shouldn't she despise me!? Why are you hugging me!? I'm not the one who needs the support! He thought and realization hit him. How typical of her. Always caring about others before herself. He laughed at the irony he was in.
Kyoko felt the body she had wrapped in her arms start to shake. Thinking he was having a mental break down she held him tighter. That is until she heard a light chuckle emerging from the body she was incasing. Ren started sitting up which forced Kyoko to lean back to sit on her legs while her arms gently fell from his shoulders.
Ren's eyes and face were staring at Kyoko's legs as his face wore a dejected smile. "You know it's funny, well not really. But it's funny how even though you realize something is wrong with your arms…" He said while running his hands from her wrist up to her forearms and stopped right above her elbow and gave a light squeeze, which Kyoko grimaced at. "and yet you don't ask me what happened. But instead, you comfort me, the person who inflicted the pain on you, I find it very comical." He finished as he let his hands fall off her arms and down to his sides with the same self-deprecating look marring his face.
Kyoko sat there staring at Ren trying to decipher what he had said. He hurt me? How? She took a calming breath in then asked "Could you clarify what exactly happened? Obviously, my mind is drawing a blank and I don't remember. So please tell me."
Ren peeked at Kyoko from behind his bangs. She looked calm, surprisingly. The epitome of patience. He took a shaky breath in before replying "I wanted to ask you some questions about you and Fuwa but before I asked about that he had mentioned a name to me and told me to ask you about her… That's when everything went south."
Before he could continue Kyoko rose her hand to stop him. "You asked about Natsu didn't you?" she asked softly. Ren bobbed his head yes. She placed her hand back in her lap and took another calming breath in. "I see." She stated shortly.
Then to his disbelief Kyoko smoothly went into a dogeza. But before he could utter a word Kyoko stated. "I am sorry about her behavior Tsuruga-san. As you probably noticed she is a despicable person with absolutely nothing likeable about her. You were probably trying to fight her off and in doing so hurt my body in the process. I don't hold you responsible for any of that. I just hope you can accept my humble apology for her disgraceful actions." She finished still bowing in the uncomfortable looking position.
Ren was taken aback by her automatic self-blame. He felt slightly angry not at her but at her views of herself. "Stop it." He said sternly. "Stop self-deprecating when I'm just as much to blame as she was! Yes, she egged me on but I should have stayed composed. I shouldn't have given into her actions, but… I did and it led me to do things that I did in the past. Things I'm not proud of and trying to forget."
Kyoko sat up from her dogeza and letting her arms rest softly in her lap. She finally saw all his expression of fear, disgust, rage, and despair. She wanted to comfort him. To reach out and tell him everything would be alright but her voice died in her throat because she knew from experience, everything was not going to be alright. If anything, it's going to be an uphill battle with many mountains in the way.
Several moments passed by as they sat in uncomfortable silence. Neither one knowing what to say. Until Ren finally, in all his glory, did a dogeza. "I know it's stupid to say but I'm sorry for what I did to you. I don't expect you to forgive me and I wouldn't be surprised if you didn't want to talk to me again but please know, that I am truly and deeply sorry for my actions and you should hold me responsible for everything that was done to you." He finished still nested in his position.
Kyoko was baffled but could only think of one thing to say. "Tsuruga-san please sit up." She said softly. Ren didn't move. Kyoko's face wore a worried look. She lifted her slowly healing arms to place her hand on Ren's shoulder. When it made contact, she felt his body flinch. "Tsuruga-san. Please sit up so we can talk."
"No." He hoarsely replied. "I don't deserve your kindness for the wrongs I've done to you."
Kyoko sighed her frustrations, raised her hand above Ren's head and let gravity take control until it made contact with his head. Which prompted Ren to sit up more in shock than her demand. "Tsuruga-san, you need to tell me what happened. It's not fare that you know and I don't especially so I can properly make my judgement." She said calmly.
Ren looked away while rubbing the back of his head. "What if I don't want you to forgive me?"
Kyoko smacked Ren's legs, which made him glance at her. "That is my choice to make on whether or not I will forgive you. Now please tell me." She finished with pleading eyes.
Ren's body tensed and turned to face her. "Alright." He agreed. He told her of the events that took place a few hours ago and how he reacted to Natsu. How he had almost fell under her spell until his 'true self' came out and foiled her plans. As Ren finished the recap, he looked at Kyoko's eyes. To his surprise he didn't see fear but interest, excitement and a small ounce of apprehension. And before he could ask anything. He felt her hug him.
Why is she hugging me again!? He thought. Then there was a soft whisper that tickled his ear.
"Thank you, Tsuruga-san. I know you may feel like you didn't keep me safe but you did. What you did is minuscule compared to what Sho was going to do to me. So please stop apologizing and berating yourself. I forgive you for everything that happened. So please forgive yourself."
Ren's eyes widened with her words. 'Please forgive yourself.' That's something he couldn't do. No, he would never forgive himself. Not now. Not ever. And yet his chest tightened at her words and he hugged her back with all the strength he could muster and before he realized it he pulled back and gave her a strong kiss on the lips.
Now it was Kyoko's turn to be surprised. Here she was in her boss' arms being kissed by such a powerful man that was so weak and fragile right now. Her brain was working a million miles per second. On one hand she was conflicted with the earlier tale and was thankful but now she felt warm and slightly excited by the hard press of his soft yet dry lips on hers.
Her eyes fluttered closed as their lips played with each other's. Her body molding nicely against his embrace. Letting his legs slip between hers until she was sitting on his lap. He then gracefully changed their position to where he was laying on top of her. Gently he laid her on her back and removed her from his embrace. His arms now resting on either side of her body he kissed away from her lips down to her chin. Where he stayed and said "Although I can't forgive myself. Will you let me give you, my apology?"
Kyoko was lost in the haze of his sweet peppery kisses that she sighed "Yes."
Ren smiled at her responsive answer. "I'm glad. Now let me profusely apologize to you." He continued the delirious soft kisses to her throat where he could feel her pulse beating. He hummed his approval over the vein that was circulating that glorious red liquid to her face making her look like an otherworldly being. But this wasn't for him. This time it was for her.
He continued down her throat till he hit fabric. Without a skip of a beat, he unbuttoned her shirt in one swift movement. Kyoko didn't have time to feel the cool air hit her because his hot mouth was right back on her skin warming it back up. Kyoko didn't know what to do with the sensations that were running through her. Her brain was telling her body it wanted more, so it reacted.
Her body arched her breasts upward offering themselves to the man above her. Ren happily obliged. He slowly twirled his tongue around her left nipple sending shivers down her spine. Her body ached for more. "Please." Softly came out of her lips. She didn't know why she was pleading to him but whatever she pleaded for he knew and instantly latched onto her nipple. He sucked and rolled the bud between his tongue and teeth. This sent her head flying back and her chest to arch more towards him while her arms wrapped around his head to keep him in place.
This was a new feeling that she had never experienced and wanted more of. That familiar metallic taste was forming in her mouth as she panted her enjoyment. Ren feeling her body react to him took his left hand and let it play with her right nipple. This made her body jolt and shudder. He hummed his approval. The tight grip she had on his hair was painful but worth it. After what he did to her, he deserved the punishment or what he thought was punishment.
After a delirious minute of working his mouth around her very perky nipple he moved his mouth between her breasts and sucked hard to leave a light hickey. Ren then continued his soft kisses down her torso till he again hit fabric. He curled his fingers around Kyoko's waistband and started pulling the skirt down.
Kyoko's motors seemed to kick in again at the sudden realization of her predicament. "Wait! Tsuruga-san! Stop!" She shouted while shoving at his shoulder as she sat up.
Ren stopped what he was doing and looked up at her. "Do you not like my apology?" he asked in a quiet matter.
Kyoko had to force the air in and out of her lungs to try and gain some composure. "…I-It's not that I wasn't enjoying it. I-I… I-It's just…" She stuttered while her face was inflamed with embarrassment. "I-I can't feel anything down there." She said so quietly that he barely heard her.
"What do you mean?" Ren asked.
Kyoko closed her eyes tightly to gain the courage that she was currently lacking. She took a depth breath then answered. "You remember what Natsu said correct? About me not being able to feel anything because I was drugged when I was younger." Ren looked to the side thinking back on the conversation then turned his eyes back to Kyoko and nodded his head. Kyoko nodded her head in conformation then continued. "Well, that's what she's talking about. My va… my lower area doesn't feel anything. The drug destroyed the nerves down there and somehow, I guess you could say, 'killed' my uterus so I can't get pregnant. All so I could become something that could make a profit." Kyoko finished then looked down at her hands sadly.
A tear started to escape her eye but before it could fall Ren caught it with his thumb and wiped it away. He gave her cheek a soft peck then pulled her into a warm embrace. "I'm sorry that happened to you Mosami-san. I wish I could take all that pain away from you." He spoke. Kyoko in return nuzzled into the unfamiliar warmth. "If there is anything I can do please don't hesitate to ask." Ren finished.
Kyoko gave a light giggle to his words. "It's okay Tsuruga-san. You don't have to worry about anything. I'm already seeing a doctor who knows about my 'issues' and is trying to find a solution. We've tried multiple tests but all of them failed."
Ren moved his head to rest on the top of Kyoko's head. As he rubbed her back, he thought of something. "When is your next appointment?" He asked.
"Tomorrow after work. Why?" she replied while moving her head to look at his face.
Ren smiled at her. "I hope I'm not being to forward with this but would you mind if I come with you to see your doctor? I might have something that could help but I want to make sure that it's safe."
Kyoko squinted her eyes then slightly pulled her head back. "What is it?" she asked.
Ren smirked playfully "You'll have to wait till tomorrow to find out."
Kyoko didn't like the answer but knew that no matter how much she asked he wasn't going to tell her. So, settling with his answer she than asked "So… what exactly is going to happen between us. I mean this is super unprofessional and what not but, I mean- are we- you know. Dat… Oh never mind." She looked away embarrassed for even thinking he might want to be in a relationship with her.
Then she felt a pressure on her chin that brought her attention back to Ren. "Mosami-san, 'this thing' we did can be whatever you want it to be. It can be something or it can be nothing. All in all, it's your choice. Because in the end I don't want to force you into anything you don't want to do. Just know that I am here for you whenever and for whatever you need." He finished with a sweet kiss to her lips.
Kyoko's body felt light as though a burden had just been lifted off her body. Her eyes filled with tears of joy. She couldn't remember the last time she felt this happy. As she let her happy tears fall, she leaned into his kiss and let the joy overcome her.
After their kiss they looked at each other and laughed lightly. Kyoko looked at the time on the clock and realized it was way past supper time and jumped out of bed leaving the man stunned. She motioned to the clock to show him the time. Ren turned and looked then simply laughed. He reached out for her wrist and gently pulled her back into bed. "But Ren it's past supper! We need to eat!" Ren ignored her and acted as though he had fallen asleep immediately after cuddling back into the sheets with her.
Kyoko huffed but smiled at the childish gesture and decided to cuddle into his embrace. They both fell asleep unknowing of what the next days would bring.
A/N: Alrighty there it is! My sincere apology! But not complete yet.
I'm having a hard time continuing this store mainly because it's turning out to be much darker than I had originally planned. And to be honest I almost stopped at this chapter. Basically saying "Here's my apology! Here's some citrus! and now we can forget this story even happened!" but no. I shall continue this story and see it through. It just may take me longer than it should.
So with that out of the way I hope you enjoyed. Of course Comments and CRITICS are always welcomed. And until next time you lovely people. Have a beautiful day.