BPOV
*smack*
I swat at something tickling my arm. Probably a fly.
*smack*
I will not wake up. I will not wake up.
*smack*
Growling out loud, I wrench one eye open. There is my Edward laying next to me laughing.
"What's so funny?" I grumble.
"This." He says and lightly tickles my arm. He was the fly. "You need to wake up love."
"That wasn't very nice." I tell him pouting.
"I'm sorry love." He says and fake pouts. "How can I make it up to you?"
"Hmmm" I pretend to think about it while tapping my chin dramatically. "How about a kiss?
"Deal" he whispers before swooping in and claiming my lips. His lips are soft like silk over steel. When his hardness presses into my leg, my heart skips a beat and he pulls away chuckling at me.
"Come on, love. We have school today. Alice is going to pick you up this morning so she can talk to your dad about this weekend."
"Alright," I grumble, "I need to get in the shower." Pulling the blankets back and getting out of bed, I start walking to the dresser when Edward catches my wrist.
"Is this new?" he asks fingering the hem of my babydoll nightgown that I put on last night.
"Yeah I got it yesterday. Alice took me shopping for sleepwear…and other things." My cheeks are flaming as I spin around to show him my new purchase from all angles.
"Hmm I like it. Did you buy any more?" he asks pulling me into his arms.
"You'll have to wait until the weekend to find out." I say cheekily and duck out of his arms. His face is surprised as I run out of the room laughing.
I take my time in the shower making sure to shave everything and double wash everything on my body. Tonight could be my first time with Edward. A smile breaks out on my face at that thought. I love him so much. I can't wait to be alone with him for a whole weekend even if nothing happens, although I hope that it does. After getting out and wrapping a towel around me, I blow dry my hair so it lays nicely and head into my room. Edward's gone but theres a note on the dresser.
My Isabella-
You are a little minx and a temptress.
I intend to make good on your promises this weekend.
I love you. I will see you at school.
Thinking of you every moment
-Edward
He doesn't even have to be here to make me smile. I add a little bit of make up to accent my eyes and lips, and start getting dressed. Picking up a matching black lace bra and panties, I put them on. The bra pushes everything up and gives me nice cleavage. It's also completely see through because it's all lace. The panties are cheeky lace boy shorts. Even I can admit, I look hot. Putting on my outfit for the day, a burgundy long sleeve v neck t shirt, black skinny jeans, and black knee high boots, I'm ready for the day.
When I get downstairs, Alice is sitting in the kitchen talking to my dad over coffee. I didn't hear her knock. Did she just let herself in? Probably, that seems like something Alice would do.
"Hi guys" I say hesitantly.
"Hey Bella. You look great." Alice says standing to hug me.
"Morning B" my dad says and sips his coffee.
"I was just talking to Charlie about this weekend. Remember the slumber party we talked about yesterday when we went shopping? I got permission from my parents. The boys are going on some big camping trip anyway so it will just be us girls." Alice says winking at me.
"Yeah I remember. Can I go, dad?"
"I will have to talk to Carlisle or Esme to make sure that there will be supervision, but as long as they are going to be there it's okay. Will it be the whole weekend?"
"Of course Charlie!" Alice says, "We can't cover a whole girls weekend in one day." She puts on a mask of horror.
"Okay than I guess I'll see you Sunday evening Bells. Call me if you need anything. I have to get going or I'm going to be late." He says putting his coffee cup in the sink and kissing my forehead before leaving.
"Well it looks like you're on." Alice tells me. "Now we need to go before your boy toy loses his mind. We'll come back after school so you can pack your suitcase for this weekend." She says and pulls on my arm. I barely have time to grab my backpack before we're outside.
When we pull into the school parking lot, its obvious that Alice was right. Edward is pacing next to his Volvo, but stops in his tracks when we pull into the parking lot. His head snaps up and a gorgeous smile breaks out onto his face when our eyes meet.
"I swear, you two are so cheesy." Alice says as she pulls into the parking space next to Edward.
"I know. I love it." I tell her honestly.
The car isn't even stopped completely before Edward is at my door opening it for me. It's only been about an hour since we last saw each other, but I missed him and I know he missed me. When he pulls me into his arms, the discomfort fades from my body. It's amazing how he can heal me with just one touch.
"Hi sweetheart. How was your morning?" he asks me.
"Ehh it was okay, but there was this vampire who disappeared on me earlier."
"Oh I'm sorry about that. It will never happen again." He tells me before taking my lips into a sweet kiss.
"See that it doesn't." I tell him and giggle as he kisses me all over my face.
"Come on, love, let's get this over with." He tells me taking my hand and leading me towards the school.
"What do you think Alice, the blue or the purple?" I ask her while holding up two of my new teddy sets.
"They're both hot. I say take them both. I'm trying not to look to much at this weekend, but I think Edward is going to rip some of your new stuff."
"Alright" I tell her shrugging my shoulders and shoving both of them into my suitcase. I'm pretty sure that I've packed enough for two weeks instead of just three days.
"Okay I'm ready." I yell to Edward while trying to drag my suitcase down the stairs. He immediately shows up at my side and easily takes my suitcase in one hand and grabs my hand with the other.
"Let's go then love." He tells me and we head down the stairs. Alice is dancing down the stairs behind me. Everyone else took the Mercedes home from school while Alice, Edward, and I brought the Volvo to my house. As we leave, I make sure to double lock the door before heading out to the car. Alice climbs in the back so that I can ride next to Edward who is currently putting my massive suitcase into the trunk. He hasn't said a word about the size of my suitcase. I'm guessing that comes from spending years being Alice's brother, or maybe it's because he's excited about what I've packed. Alice says she has been keeping her thoughts from him about our shopping trip, but he isn't stupid. Edward grabs my hand as we pull out of the driveway, and we are on our way to our magical weekend.
As soon as we pull into the driveway, Alice jumps out of the car and runs to Jasper who is standing on the front steps.
"Hey Jasper" I call to him and wave after we step out of the garage. Edward is carrying my suitcase for me of course, and we head up to the house.
"Hello Bella. I think you've been spending too much time with Ali. That suitcase is huge." He teases me.
"I cant help it." I shrug, "I couldn't decide what to bring, so I just brought everything."
He laughs. "Well the others have already headed out. We're the only ones left."
"Well have a fun trip guys. I'll see you on Sunday."
"Yeah! And you can finally meet Em and Rose!" she tells me.
Rosalie and Emmett came home after their hunting trip with the family, but I haven't been over to Edward's since then so I haven't officially met them. My dad kept a short leash on me while I was injured.
I smile and nod at her.
"Well you two have a good weekend too. We'll see you in a few days." She tells us with a wink. In a second they are gone and Edward and I are alone.
"Come on, love, let's get inside before you catch a cold." Edward says from behind me. He maneuvers himself in front of me so he can hold the door open, and we head inside.
"Do you want a snack or anything?" he asks me. "I think Esme stocked the kitchen for you before she left."
"No I'm fine. We have a little bit of homework. Why don't we finish that so that we don't have to worry about it for the rest of the weekend." I suggest to him.
"Whatever you want love. Come on, we can work in my room." He tells me and leads the way up the stairs. I swear this house should get an elevator. Three flights of stairs every time I want to go in or out of Edward's room is going to get annoying really fast.
Once we're finally there, I settle myself on the bed with my backpack so I can start my homework. Edward, of course, gets his homework done in less than five minutes and spends the rest of the time that I'm working touching me or playing with my hair. We both find a lot of comfort in the physical touches of our mate. I can only imagine how its going to intensify this weekend.
Closing my math book, I fall back on the bed. Edward immediately follows me, laying his head on my belly and looking up at my face.
"All done, love?" he asks me.
"Yep, finally. I think senior year is kicking my butt." I tell him honestly.
"You'll be fine. If you need help, I can always tutor you." He grins at me.
"No thank you. After all you're in the same grade that I am."
"Yes love but not for the first time." He raises an eyebrow at me. I just grab a pillow from next to my head and hit him with it.
"Come on sweetheart, lets go make dinner for my favorite human." He tells me
"Oh is Mike Newton coming over?"
He growls at me. "Oh you'll pay for that." He picks me up and throws me over his shoulder like a sack of potatoes. My stomach is against his shoulder as he walks down the stairs at a human pace. He just laughs as I pound my fists on his behind.
"Edward put me down." I tell him through my laughter.
The wind blows through my hair and suddenly we're in the kitchen. He sets me down and looks at me with an innocent face.
"There you go, love."
"Thank you." I tell him haughtily and head to the fridge.
It looks like Esme made up burgers and put them in a dish for me, all I need to do is cook them. Grabbing them from the refrigerator and some fries from the freezer, I head over to the oven.
"Are you going to just stand there or are you going to help me?" I ask like I'm still angry with him, but he knows I'm just teasing. I'm a horrible liar especially since he can feel my emotions.
"Of course I'll help you, sweetheart. What do you need?" He asks innocently
"A frying pan and a cookie sheet." I tell him. Within less than a minute he has them sitting on the counter next to me. Stupid fast vampire.
Turning on the stove and oven, I put the burgers on to fry and the fries in the oven. As the grease in the pan bubbles and pops, Edward comes to stand next to me.
"Are you sure it should be doing that?" he asks frowning and his eyebrows furrow.
"Yeah it's fine. It's just frying the meat."
"But what if some grease pops up and hits you. It could burn you."
"It's not a big deal, Edward. I won't get hurt. It's okay."
He just grunts at me.
By the time I've finished cooking my meal, I'm pretty sure that Edward is going to have gray hairs. Every time I flipped a burger or checked on them, he was yanking on his hair. When I took the fries out of the oven, he was hovering over me watching my every move. I don't even want to talk about what he did when I took a knife out to chop some lettuce and tomatoes for my hamburger. He wanted me to chop them with a butter knife. He's crazy.
Edward sits with me while I eat at the giant dining room table. Why do they have a table this big? They don't eat.
"Please don't do that." I say after a minute.
"Do what?" he asks innocently.
"Watch me eat. It's weird. I feel like a zoo animal."
He laughs. "Okay, love, I'll try not to."
"Thank you."
"Are you finished?" he asks me.
"Yep." I start to take my dish to the sink, but he stops me.
"Leave it. I want to show you something." He tells me and grabs my hand.
Leading me through the house, he takes me into a room off of the living room that I have never been in before. In the center of the room on a raised platform is a grand piano. It's beautiful. I don't know anything about pianos but I can tell it's expensive. Against one wall are plush chairs, and another wall is made up entirely of glass. The view is amazing.
"This is beautiful. Do you play?" I ask him walking slowly into the room and running my fingertips along the sleek piano.
"Yeah I do. It was something that I learned when I was human. My mother forced me to take lessons as a kid. I hated it. Once Carlisle changed me, I was determined to hold onto something from my human life. It was also a good way to get my emotions out."
"That's amazing. Will you play for me?" I ask timidly.
"Of course. That's why I brought you in here. I want to play you a song that I wrote for you. I was waiting until it was finished to play it for you."
Quickly I run over to one of the overstuffed chairs and pull my knees up to my chin. Smiling at him I wave him towards the piano as a gesture for him to play. He just laughs and walks over to me. I yelp as he picks me up in his arms.
"I want you right here when I play." He tells me as he drops me gently onto one side of the piano bench.
"Even better." I mutter.
He smiles as he lays his long, perfect fingers on the keys. He really has beautiful hands. I've never noticed before.
He takes a deep breath, even though he doesn't need it, and begins to play.
It's amazing. Breathtaking.
The song starts out a little sad and I assume it represents before he met me and he was alone. Tears come to my eyes as I think about him lonely and feeling like an outsider. Suddenly it changes and becomes happy, just like our sudden connection when we met. As he plays it becomes more intense and even more joyful. Finally it ends on a sweet note. Slowly he pulls his hands away from the keys, but keeps his eyes down. Putting my hand under his chin, I pull his face up so I can look into his eyes just like he's done to me so many times.
"That was truly extraordinary, Edward. It was amazing." I whisper.
"It's the story of us." He says simply.
"That's why it was so beautiful. I love you so much."
Before he can answer me, I lean forward and take his lips with mine. Tears run down my cheeks as I kiss him so tenderly and he gives me sweet kisses in return. His hands come up to cup my jaw and he freezes.
"Bella are you okay? Are you hurt? Did I push or grab too hard?" he asks anxiously.
"Everything is fine, Edward. It's more than fine. Sometimes the amount of love that I have for you overwhelms me. It feels like I might burst."
"That's because those are vampire feelings, love. Your beautiful human body can't contain them." He says smiling at me and kissing me on the tip of my nose. Shoving my fingers into his hair, I bring his face back to mine. I might be addicted to him and I'm perfectly fine with that.
Pulling away from my lips, he rests his forehead against mine.
"Would you like a bath before we go to bed?" he asks me quietly.
"That would be nice."
"You go on up and get in the tub. There is plenty of bath supplies for you under the sink and towels in the cabinet. Of course you know all of that from your previous snooping." He winks at me.
Huffing and climbing off of the piano bench, I head upstairs with the sound of his laughter behind me.
Once I reach Edward's bedroom, I get undressed and leave my clothes on the bed except my bra which I hang on the bathroom door; I don't want the underwire to get bent or anything, those things are expensive. Grabbing my nightgown for tonight, I head into the bathroom and shut the door. In the bathroom, I choose a vanilla bubble bath and bath salts before going over to the tub. There's a touch screen on the wall which I'm assuming controls the bathtub. After a couple of tries, I get the water running at the temperature that I want. After pouring in the bubble bath and salts, I tie my hair ontop of my head and climb in. It takes me a couple minutes to find the button to turn the jets on, but once I do it's heaven.
The water automatically shuts off once it gets to the right level and I relax back into the seat laying my head on a cushion that is very conveniently placed. Only the best for the non-bathing vampire.
The tub has an automatic warmer in it that reheats the water as it cools, so I could stay in here all night.
It feels like I've been in here for hours when there is a timid knock on the door.
"Bella, are you okay?" Edward asks through the door.
"I'm fine. I'll be in out in a minute." I yell back when it occurs to me that I don't need to yell because he can hear me perfectly anyway. Oh well.
"Okay take your time. There's no ru…..Bella what is this hanging on the door?" he asks
"Umm I hung my bra on the door handle when I got undressed. Is that a problem? You can just put it in my suitcase if it bothers you."
"No it's fine. Um..you've had this on under your clothes all day?"
"Um yeah. It's one of my new ones that I got with Alice. Do you like it?" I ask bravely.
"I changed my mind. You can't take your time. There is a rush."
"What's wrong?"
"Your mate will spontaneously combust if you don't come out soon. This sinful scrap of fabric has tipped me over the edge."
I laugh. "Okay I'll be out in a minute."
Moaning, I sit up, I could've sworn that I heard Edward groan like he was in pain but I could be hearing things. Pulling the drain out of the tub, I grab a towel and start drying myself off. I grab my moisturizer off of the counter and rub it all over my skin so that it is soft. I shaved this morning so I don't need to do it again. I pull the tie out of my hair so that it tumbles down on my shoulders in curls. Unfolding my nightgown, I just stare at it for a minute. I'm fairly confident with my choice, but I'm still nervous. I chose one of my new nightgowns of course. It's black with spaghetti straps and it has a purple ribbon under the bust that ties in a bow under my left breast. The neckline is cut straight across, but its low enough that the tops of my breasts show and I even have a little side boob going on. The bust is tight on me so it accentuates my breasts a little bit but not too much. It comes to mid thigh and I have matching black satin panties to match.
Checking my appearance in the floor length mirror, I take a deep breath and close my eyes. I don't know if I can do this.
"Bella are you okay? I was just kidding earlier, you can take all of the time you need. Don't worry. Nothing has to happen that you don't want. We can just go to sleep…well you can go to sleep. Just please come out." Edward begs through the door. He must have been able to feel my anxiety.
"Okay." I whisper. I can do this. If it was anyone other than Edward, I probably would have crawled out the window by now, but it is Edward. He is my mate. He understands everything about me. I love him with all of my heart. He would never judge me or be disappointed in me. He loves me.
With a new spring in my step, I head to the door and open it. Edward is standing there staring at me with his mouth open. Twisting my fingers together, I look at the floor.
"Bella" Edward whispers. "You are exquisite. Simply stunning. I am the luckiest man in the world."
"Thank you. Alice helped me pick it out." I tell him, finally brave enough to raise my eyes to his. The love and desire that I see there hits me hard.
"I'll have to send her a thank you note, maybe buy her a present." He tells me. "Are you ready for bed?"
"Yeah."
Walking over to the bed I can feel the electricity bouncing between us, and suddenly I'm nervous again.
His bed is so high that I almost have to jump to get into it. Once I do I pull the blankets over me and lay stick straight on my back.
"Bella, would you like for me to let you sleep alone? I don't want to make you uncomfortable."
Shooting up panicked, "No! Stay please. I'm just nervous."
"I know, love but nothing has to happen that you don't want to happen. It's all up to you…and for the record I'm nervous too. Remember I've never done any of this either." He says as he climbs into bed with me.
"I know. I want to do this. I really do. I promise."
"Okay, love. Come here." He says opening his arms so that I can cuddle up against him. Laying on his chest like I've done so many times before, I feel at ease.
"I love you, Bella more than anyone has ever loved another." He tells me as he buries his nose in my hair.
"I know Edward. I feel the same about you."
"Good." He says and leans down to kiss me lightly.
His lips are soft and unyielding underneath mine. Sighing into his mouth, I bury my hands into his hair feeling the thick and silky tresses under my fingertips. His tongue pokes out and licks along the seam of my mouth and I gladly open for him. Tangling my tongue with his, his taste explodes in my mouth. Moaning he grabs my hips a little harder in his big hands.
"Edward touch me please." I practically beg into his mouth.
"Are you sure love?" I nod to him, "Anytime you're overwhelmed or want to stop just tell me and we will."
"Edward?"
"Yes?"
"Make love to me."
He just nods before diving back into my mouth with a new vigor. I let out a deep moan as his tongue explores my mouth and his hands run up and down my sides. When he reaches the bottom of my nightgown, he slowly pulls it up until it's at the top of my belly. Raising my arms, I give him permission to take it all of the way off. Once he does, he drops it onto the floor keeping his eyes locked with mine. Slowly his eyes start to move downward, taking in my mouth, my neck, my chest, and finally my breasts. He stops there and his breath hitches.
"You're so beautiful love. I never imagined anything could be this stunning." He whispers huskily.
My hand shakes as I reach out to grab his cold hand and bring it to my breast. We both moan when his hand closes around it. It's a perfect fit.
"You feel so good, love. So soft and perfect." He tells me before leaning down and kissing my neck. He brings his other hand up to my other breast and begins kneading them gently.
"More Edward. Please." I pant out.
He moans as he kisses down my neck to my chest. His tongue peeks out and traces the bottom roundness of my breast. I arch up into him and moan loudly. He's placing wet, open mouthed kisses all over my breasts except where I want him to.
"Edward please."
"Bella, love, I've waited over a hundred years for this. Please let me savor it. I want to take my time with your sweet body." He tells me and goes back to feasting on my breasts without waiting for an answer.
Finally his mouth closes over my hardened nipple and he sucks it into his mouth. It feels like theres an electric line running straight from my nipple to my core. It clenches and I feel more wetness leak out. Edward moves to my other nipple while bringing his hand up and squeezing the abandoned one lightly with his fingertips.
"Jesus," I moan out.
Bringing both hands to my breasts, he moves his kisses down to my stomach. He kisses all over my abs. I tear up a little bit when he lays sweet, delicate kisses on my scar from the accident that took my mother's life.
When he makes it to the tops of my panties he runs his finger along the top of them.
"I like these." He says huskily. I can't even find the breath to reply.
Hooking his fingers into the sides of them, he slowly pulls them down my legs before dropping them on the floor. His eyes are locked on my core, and reflexively I close my legs.
"Please don't hide from me love. Please" he begs placing his hands on the inside my knees and applying gentle pressure. He wants me to open them, but he's giving me the option to keep them closed. He doesn't force me at all. I love him a little more after that.
When I open them a little bit his face relaxes and his eyes go straight to my core. The more I open my legs, the darker his eyes get. Soon I'm laying with my knees all of the way apart, and Edward's hands are still on my knees rubbing little circles.
"You're so beautiful love. You're perfect." He says moving his hands up my legs. "Can I touch you Bella, please?"
"Yes please."
He moans and moves one hand up to my soaked folds. Running one finger through them, he groans.
"God you're so wet for me, Bella. So wet. Mine." He growls.
When his finger finds my clit, I jump and he smiles softly. He begins circling it slowly and I can't help but lift my hips and moan. God this feels a million times better than when I do it.
"Bella I have to taste you. Can I do that? Please. I need to. I need to feel you shatter on my tongue." He begs me. His eyes are vulnerable and I can tell the mating bond is taking him over. I just nod at him.
I thought I would be uncomfortable with his head between my legs but after the first tentative lick, I'm a goner and so is he. He groans and buries his face in my core.
"You taste so good love. I could live off of you forever." He mumbles into my core, not bothering to take his mouth off of me.
Suddenly his mouth starts vibrating and it takes me a minute to realize he's purring. He buries his tongue into my core while his nose nudges my clit. The vibration sends me over the top and I come all over his face. My body spasms and I call out his name as I grind my sex on his face. He stays down there licking my essence as I continue spasming and come down from my orgasm.
Once he's licked up everything I have for him, he kisses my clit one more time before coming up to lay on the length of my body.
"Wow," I whisper.
"You're amazing Bella. I will do that anytime you want. Just say the word. It's an amazing pleasure to give pleasure to my mate." He tells me. I don't have the strength to reply, but I need more so I reach up and pull on his shirt. He quickly gets my meaning and rips his shirt off, his pants quickly follow and he's left in his black boxer briefs. I can see the outline of his member and unconsciously lick my lips.
"Edward, you're still over dressed. I want to see all of you. Please." I ask him and without hesitation he whips his boxers off.
Finally we are both naked. His body is glorious. Even his legs are beautiful. I purposely ignore his member as I take in the rest of his body. Once I settle my eyes on him, I never want to take them off. He's beautiful, long and thick with moisture all over him. He must have come when I did, yet another perk of being mates.
"Edward, you're beautiful." Usually you're not supposed to call a man beautiful, but there's no other word for him.
"My beauty pales in comparison to yours, my Bella." He tells me as he lays on top of me again. I can feel his member on my inner thigh. One small move and he would be inside of me.
"Are you sure this is what you want, love? We can still stop." He tells me. I know it would cause him physical pain to stop right now, but he would if I asked him to.
"I want this Edward. I want you. I want to be one with you. I want to love you with my body. Please let me." I tell him sincerely and he nods.
When he places his member at my core, he stops and looks at me.
"This may hurt a little sweetheart. If you feel any discomfort, you must tell me. I need to know if it hurts. Please."
"I promise, Edward." Nodding he slips inside of me a little bit.
I can feel myself stretching to accommodate him but it doesn't hurt. His eyes are closed and he has a look of great frustration on his face as he pushes inside of me slowly. When he gets to my barrier he pushes through it slowly. It stings a little bit but not much. It helps that I'm so wet and that I'm able to relax with him.
"Are you okay love?" He grinds out between his teeth.
"I'm fine, Edward. Move. Please."
He pushes all of the way in and I feel my body stretch around him. It's a tad uncomfortable, but doesn't hurt. When he pulls out and pushes in again, I start to tingle all over.
"Oh" I moan out.
"God Bella. I never knew. I never even imagined." He whispers as he pumps in and out of me.
The knot in my belly is tightening and I feel like I'm going to explode.
"Are you close love?" he asks me.
"Yes" I rely breathless.
With one hard and deep thrust, I come apart around him, my core clenching and squeezing him as he releases. He roars out my name as he comes in spurts inside of me.
My heart is suddenly so full. I can't contain my love for him. I'm overwhelmed. I never knew it could be like this. I never knew that it was possible to love one person as much as I love him. It feels like our souls are tying themselves together. I can literally feel him in my heart. Tears leak out of my eyes as I try to catch my breath.
"Do you feel that?" Edward whispers to me from where his face is buried in my neck.
"Yeah" I whisper as tears stream down my face.
After a few minutes the feeling subsides and Edward lifts his head to look at my face.
"Are you okay?" he asks.
"Yeah, it was just a little overwhelming for a minute."
"That was the final part of our mating bond. It started the day I first laid eyes on you and just solidified the moment we became one."
"That was amazing." I whisper to him.
"Yeah it really was."
"I wasn't just talking about that Edward. Everything was amazing. Our first time was beautiful."
"I completely agree love." He tells me before he sits up and slides out of me. I let out a little whimper once he's gone. I feel empty.
He quickly comes back with a warm washcloth to clean me between my legs. It's intimate and special as I let him take care of me. Once he's done, he throws the washcloth into the bathroom and climbs into bed with me. He pulls me onto his chest in the same way that we always snuggle, only now it feels different. Like we are different people. More in love and more connected than we ever have been before. My eyes drift closed as he runs his fingertips up and down my naked arm lulling me to sleep.