My Mate

by Snuff21

I lay beside her staring blankly at the ceiling. The deed was done, we were mated. It didn't matter that I had no love for her or she for me. Pack alliances are more important than actual feelings. Bella/Alice. This is a Futa story. M.

1. My Future

This a Bellice story. It is also FUTA. So if you don't like that, don't read it.

Most of the characters will be werewolves, they have a few differences from the norm of that species, but you'll find out more as you read.

Alice is the daughter of her packs Alpha and is forced to mate with the Alpha(Bella) of another pack for the sake of an alliance between the two packs. I'm writing it from Alice's point of view.

This chapter is rated M for sex. The whole story is actually M, so if you are underage skip the story or the part after Alice gets into the shower.

I own nothing.

Chapter 1 My future

I lay beside her staring blankly at the ceiling. The deed was done, we were mated. It didn't matter that I had no love for her or she for me. Pack alliances are more important than actual feelings, or so I've been told. Still it was small comfort right now, as I felt so heartbroken.

I'm sure that if I dared look at my side, I'd find the most mesmerizing green eyes staring at me, full of pity and regret. I didn't need or want any compassion from her. She was as forced into it as I was. I at least I think she is. I've been going back and forth with it the whole night. One moment I looked at her and knew she was following through out of obligation and the next I couldn't comprehend why someone so powerful would follow any one else's orders. She is an Alpha after all! She should have said no.

All in all I paid little to no mind to the woman, who now I have to call mate. I spend the whole evening putting up an emotionless mask to appease everyone around me, but now that it has all come to an end, I felt the mask slip leaving the hurt little girl under it exposed, alone and hurt.

No. I wouldn't let myself cry. Not in front of her. I am a werewolf, a big strong wolf, not a scared little puppy, who cries in front of their mate. That's it big breaths. In and out. In and out. In and out.

Despite my best efforts a stupid tear still managed to escape from them and roll down my cheek. It didn't escape from her watchful eye thought, she was quick to catch it with the tip of her finger. She kept her hand on my cheek, caressing me softly, gently like she held a delicate porcelain doll between her fingers.

"I'm so sorry Alice." She whispered ever so softly, I pretend I didn't hear her or the sadness in her voice. Instead I kept staring at the ceiling, as if counting the wooden boards would somehow stop me from breaking down.

What the hell is apologizing for anyway? Mating with me? The inevitable pain of the first time? Or for the fact that I am now bound to her for the rest of my life, despite my love for another? Perhaps she was sorry for all of those. Maybe she was sorry because she too loved someone else, maybe this was as tragic for her as it was for me. Or maybe she just didn't like me and felt sorry she'd have to spend the rest of her life bound to me.

"I wish there was a way to make this better." She spoke softly again, as if to not disturb me, but she did. This time I couldn't ignore her.

"You can't! It is what it is and no one can ever fix it." I felt a spike of anger deep inside me and clenched my teeth and fists. No good would come out of picking a fight with her, she is stronger.

As I tried to suppress the anger along with everything else I felt, tears started trailing down my cheeks and this time I couldn't stop them. They were silent, angry tears not tears of sadness and weakness. At least that's what I told myself.

I felt her arm slip around my waist drawing me closer to her and I let her, my cheek rested on her soft breasts and the tears falling from my eyes made a trail down her body. My vision was blurred and I was too tired and choked up to protest. She hummed and tried shushing me, her hand moving up and down my back in an attempt to provide comfort.

To be honest being in her arms helped, the warmth emitting from her body and the sound of her heartbeat underneath my ear lulled me into a place of semi consciousness. I closed my eyes, tears still falling from them and let flashes of this peculiar day float into my mind. It was so difficult for me to grasp how much my life changed into a spam of a few hours.

It was a beautiful autumn day, the sun was shining bright, no clouds in sight, and the ground was soft, the evidence of last night's heavy rainfall still obvious. Most of the young wolves spend it in the forest, taking advantage of the nice weather. One of those wolves was me and my best friend Jasper. We didn't even have to make plans, I knew that I'd go running from the moment I woke up and I knew he'd be at the edge of the woods waiting for me. It was like we were mentally coordinated; I guess that happens when you spend that much time with someone.

We spend the whole morning in our wolf skins in absolute bliss. Running, tackling each other, me nuzzling his neck, him licking my face. Life couldn't get better. Or actually it could. Jasper and I have been best friends ever since we were pups, recently thought we became something more. He was already hinting of his desire to ask my father for permission, so that we could become mates and I couldn't hold back my excitement. I was almost nineteen and by now most of my friends were already mated. I was eager, no restless, to experience bonding with another. Wolves are by nature social creatures. We live to be part of a pack and we live for companionship. I've been told that having a mate is one of the most fulfilling feelings I'll ever get and I'm ready for it. I've already gone through four heat circles, my body was ready, my mind was ready. I was ready!

Unfortunately my father didn't think so, because he hasn't chosen a mate for me yet. I naively thought he was waiting for me to find someone I liked, or fall in love first, but clearly that wasn't the case. While I'm sure my father loved me, he was first and foremost our Alpha and had to put the well-being of our pack before all else. Even before of his children. My older brother and sister had mated with packs to the north and south and with the sea at our back it was only east that an alliance was needed. So when Bella became the new Alpha of that territory, the Elders thought that a mating between the two packs was needed to ensure the continued peace and stability.

It was after my morning with Jasper that I found out what was really going on. I was about to stop by my house grab a quick bite and head to the center park of our small community, where I could lounge with my girlfriends, talk about boys, make plans for a shopping spree and soak up as much sun as I could. The day was still young after all.

It all came to an abrupt end thought, I could already tell that something was going on by the look on Peter's face, he was my father's second in command, and was outside of our house waiting for me, looking grim. "Alice your father needs to see you at the meeting hall."

"Can't it wait? I have other plans." he shook his head for no.

"It's urgent." There was a hint of something in his eyes that I couldn't decipher.

With a slight sigh I gave up, threw a wave to Jasper and followed Peter, wondering why on earth my father would need to see me in that room. The meeting hall was a room in the Alpha house, our house, where all the pack meetings took place. Usually pack meetings were only attended by the Alpha and the Elders, everyone else didn't bother unless they had a good reason to. It wasn't as if their voice would be heard, our pack was a really traditional one, my father was an avid follower of the old ways. I think I've only been twice in there my whole life and I've been born and raised in this house.

When we reached the room Peter opened the door for me, signaling me to go inside and closed it behind me after I did. I walked hesitantly into the room, wondering why he wouldn't come with too.

Fortunately the room was full of people, meaning I wouldn't have to have a one on one with my father. It's not that I don't like talking to him, it's more that ever since I hit puberty our relationship was getting more awkward by the year.

Looking around the room I was hit with a different range of emotions and voices. Excitement, worry, curiosity. Asserting the moods of others was a werewolf thing. My eyes scanned the small crowd. The Elders seemed excited and pleased as they chatted with a bunch of other older people, werewolves, who I've never seen before. My father was nodding enthusiastically and talking to a beautiful woman in her early twenties. Since this was the first time I ever saw her it took me a minute to study her, because I was taken aback by her good looks and I'm not a person to focus on someone's good looks! Honestly! Wow!

She was as tall as my father or an inch shorter, at least six feet and powerfully built. Actually her whole being emanated power. I was instantly jealous of her height, but I was instantly jealous of almost anyone who was a lot taller than me. The woman had the body of an athlete; I think I could see her muscles ripping beneath her shirt as she nodded agreeing to whatever it was they were talking about. My eyes fell to her breasts for a few seconds, even those were bigger that mine. Damn you new girl!

Long, dark, slightly messy hair fell onto her back and haloed a very pleasing heart-shaped face, with full lips and high cheekbones. Possibly sensing my eyes on her, she glanced my way and the greenest eyes I ever saw locked on mine. As I marveled at her out of the world eyes, she studied me from head to toe, just like I did with her, I noticed that her eyes lingered a moment too long on my breasts before they were back on my face. A strange feeling of excitement filled me immediately. It was a real ego boost to be checked out from someone like her. Seriously she was the kind of beautiful that made your self esteem take a hit just by being in the same room with you. Plus she had the whole dark hair, fair skin and green eyes going on for her.

Once I stopped fanning over her good looks, I realized that we have been staring into each other's eyes for a few minutes now and my cheeks flushed immediately at her intense gaze. She flashed me a small smile, and for the first time I saw a hint of softness in her eyes, but it was quickly gone, as the girl turned her attention back to my father.

I stayed in my corner of the room for a good ten minutes being ignored from everyone in the room and watching her lips move, wondering what they discussed that had her so immersed in the conversation that she couldn't glance my way again. I was being weird, but I really hoped to have another chance to study her eyes. There was just something about them.

It was about that time that my father finally noticed me, he sighed and ended the conversation. He walked my way with a scowl on his face. "You've been out running. Again." He shook his head negatively as his eyes looked me over quickly.

Curious I glanced at my reflection at a nearby mirror. My jaw lengthened spiky hair was messier than usually and still had a few leafs in it. My cheeks were slightly flushed and a faint sheen of sweat gave my dimly tan skin a dewy look. The best thing was that there was a very noticeable smudge on my petite nose, which I immediately scrubbed off. Great, I looked like a slob, there goes my small ego boost, my messy state must have been the reason the other girl even looked at me. I felt blood rush to my cheeks, embarrassed that someone like her saw me in this state. Damn you Peter! If you knew there were people in here, why didn't you tell me to freshen up a little bit.

As I came out of my head, I saw that my father still eyed me disapprovingly and I threw him a sheepish smile trying to coax him out of his mood. "It was too good of a day to waste it indoors."

"What am I going to do with you?" He sighed and pinched the brim of his nose, wrinkles appeared at the corner of his eyes. "How many times have I told you it's not safe to go out alone in wolf form? It's hunting season and even though our property is private, the humans don't always..."

"I was out with Jasper." I quickly cut him off; I heard the speech so many times I could recite it by memory. "And we didn't go near the edge of the property. We know better than that." My father had a tendency to think of me as a puppy. I of course blame my damn height! If I was taller I'd look more grown up and he'd start thinking of me as a mature wolf who knows what she is doing instead.

"Ah… Jasper." My father frowned, the wrinkles on his face became even more evident and then he sighed again. "I have something to tell you. As you might already know, the pack to the east has a new Alpha." I tried not to act surprised, even thought I didn't follow politics I should have known about it. Alpha changes in the immediate area are very important. "Her name is Bella." He nodded towards the girl across the room and I glanced at her once more. He didn't even have to point her out, I could tell that she was the Alpha, from the way she held herself; it was obvious that she was powerful.

"She came to meet you?" I asked feigning polite interest and wondered what any of it had to do with me. The politics between the packs never concerned me and my father never bothered to involve me in any of the council meetings. The other unknown older people must be the Elders from Bella's pack.

"Yes. Bella is here to meet me and you."

"Me?" I asked surprised.

"Yes, you. It has been decided by the Elders that with a new Alpha in charge, a fresh alliance should be created. Bella has already agreed to it. You two will be mated and our packs will continue to live in peace." He said all matter of fact, like he was a explaining a business union, which I guess that's what this, is.

"Mated? To me?" I asked again, my mouth was probably hanging open, because my father looked at me like I was retarded. My eyes quickly darted around the room, Bella gave me a weird look. Nice, now she thinks I'm a slob and mentally challenged. On the bright side maybe she will back out from the arrangement. "But she is a girl?" I stated the obvious. I had nothing against homosexuality, in fact I had friends that were gay inside the pack, even thought the more traditional members of the pack looked down on them, because they forfeited our sacred duty to expand the werewolf line. It's just that Alpha's had to produce puppies at one point or another, it was customary. It was tradition!

"Doesn't she have to have pups?" I wondered dumbly again. The fact that Alphas had to have pups was also why there are very few female Alphas. Female wolves choose not to burden themselves; it would be a real bitch running a pack while pregnant, in the old days there were even some cowardly individuals that challenged them in fights for the Alpha title during their late pregnancies, to force them to give up without a fight.

"She does and she will, with you." It was obvious by the small frown on his face, that he was irritated to have to explain anything to me. So he expected me to just shut up and be happy about it? My father wasn't the most affectionate of werewolves, but I still thought he cared for me in his own way. I felt hurt, as I realized that mustn't be the case.

"How?" I asked incredulously. "We are both females."

"She has both female and male reproductive parts." Ooohhh.. I felt my eyebrows shoot to my hairline. I didn't think of that. It wasn't that uncommon for werewolves to be born intersex, but it was still weird. I guess if it was me, I'd rather have a female mate too, to avoid the hassle of becoming pregnant.

"But… but.." I strangled to find other reasons to avoid this union. "What about Jasper?" I whined.

"I know that you've had your eye on him, but he is still a puppy. This union is for the good of the pack. We need strong alliances so that we can have a strong front against the human threat. Also allied packs allow access between territories, do you have any idea how much this will increase the area in which we can roam?" For the first time since the start of this conversation, my father eyed me with concern. He placed both arms on my shoulders and stared deeply into my eye. "I know this is a surprise Alice, but don't worry. Bella is a good Alpha, she'll make a fine mate. I wouldn't have agreed to this if I thought that she wasn't a good match for you." I wanted to believe him, but I couldn't. It wasn't fair, that he gets to sprang something like that to me out of the blue and now he pretends he has my good in mind, above all else. Above the pack! As if!

I felt my fists clench at my sides. Was this how my sister felt when she found out she'd have to be bonded to a male from the north? At that time I was twelve, too young and stupid to be concerned with her feelings. Mostly I've been excited about the festivities that took place during the ceremony. Now that the shoe was on the other foot I found the fit to be decidedly uncomfortable.

"But that's the old way of thinking! Alliances aren't needed anymore. We've gone beyond pack wars and as for the humans, most don't even know we exist!" I tossed out facts, desperate to find a way to change his mind.

"Packs co-exist peacefully because of the long standing tradition of alliances. Family ties join us to ensure respect of territories." Even thought his tone was even, I knew that he was really annoyed with me now. Every time the word tradition or any of its derivatives left his lips, he was beyond furious.

My father, and many of our pack, believed in the old ways and expected unquestioning obedience from everyone. Up until now and since I was the younger of three, I dare say I was treated with more leniency than others and I knew some of the pack members called me spoiled. But I don't see how I'm at fault here! I never had anything expected of me. Maybe this is why it felt so foreign for me to have to follow thought with this arrangement. I should have paid more attention to pack politics, if I had taken an interest in what was going on, I would have know what was going on. And maybe I could have stopped it. I felt like stomping my foot on the ground and walking away, but I noticed that my father was still going at it.

"It has nothing to do with their ignorance of our existence. They continually try to encroach our territories. We need to be united and stand firm against selling our lands to land developers."

I opened my mouth to protest once more, but his stern look had me shut up. It was useless anyway, the decision must have been made a long time ago. The Elders had decided and the Alpha concurred with them. To go against the edicts of the pack, would result in me being cast out of it. I've lived my whole life in a pack and the concept of being alone was unthinkable. Yet the idea of being mated to a total stranger was also abhorrent. I was stuck between a cliff and a river. I sighed. "When?"

"Tonight. There is no use in waiting. Bella and her council are already here. The preparations are already being made and the rest of the pack is being notified. We'll conduct the ceremony as the moon rises."

Four hours? Four hours and then I'll be bonded to a woman I've never met! She'd be my mate and.. I can't even think of the rest. I know what mating involves. Sex isn't that much of a secretive topic within a pack, yet I always thought it would be with someone I knew and cared about.

Suddenly I realized that someone was talking to me. Looking up I saw it was her, she was standing next to my father. "I'm pleased to meet you Alice." Her voice was low and deep, I felt like a nervous wreck and her green eyes trained on mine didn't help.

"Hello." It was the only thing that I managed to croak out under her intense gaze. Bella looked taller up close and I wished I was a few inches taller. At five three, I was average, but next to her I felt petite. Maybe it was of the Alpha power that's oozing out of her, that makes me feel so small.

A sudden nudge by father, alerted me that Bella had extended her hand towards me. I threw a quick glare his way, it wasn't him that had to stare into Bella's green eyes.

I hesitantly reached out and took it. It was very soft and warm and as soon as we touched I felt her warmth envelope me and shot up my arm. Surprised I looked at her, careful to avoid being caught up in a staring match once again. I noticed a faint smile pass over her face.

"I think we will match each other just fine." She nodded to my father, then she gave my hand a squeeze. "I'll see you later at the ceremony." As she stepped back and went to join the councils, I noticed that she checked me out once again and I flushed red again.

"Alice, I must go too. There's other business I have to attend to, before the ceremony. Go and find Charlotte, she'll help you get ready." He kissed my forehead and gently pushed me out if the door dismissing me.

Charlotte was Peter's wife and in many ways she was like a surrogate mother to me, since my own mother had been killed by hunters many years ago and my father never took another mate. She was the only other female that lived here too and even thought she was cold most of the times, I still looked up to her for guidance.

I briefly thought of running away and going into hiding, but that wasn't possible. There was no nowhere to hide that they wouldn't find me, even if I took a car and drove off. How was I supposed to live? I had no money of my own, and despite being a werewolf I don't think I'd be able to survive for long without a pack. What would I eat? Raw animals? I shuddered at the idea. Damn it, maybe I am a little spoiled after all.

The rest few hours passed in a blur. I tried to talk to Charlotte about my reservations but she shushed me, it was all for the good of the pack and being mated to an Alpha would give me status and power. Bella would take good care of me and yada yada yada. I felt disappointed with what I got from her and a little angry too. She too was putting the well being of the pack above my happiness! I know she meant well, but I still wanted someone to agree with me and be as upset with the situation as I am and I knew who that someone was.

Jasper.

I wanted to go find him, he would understand! I could cry on his shoulder and feel his arms around me one last time, but it wouldn't be proper and there was no time. And it wouldn't be fair to him would it? Nor to me. Why should I give myself the pleasure of being in his arms one last time when in a matter of a few hours I will crash his heart by agreeing to be bonded to another. Maybe those are just excuses, because I don't want to face him. I really didn't want to see the betrayed look on his face.

In the end I found myself seated in a table next to a woman I didn't know. Waiting for all the festivities to end. I idly noted that the whole place has been decorated with the best flowers and best china. All the tables were covered in fine linen clothes and had various dishes of food on them. Everyone seemed to have a good time, everyone besides me of course. I didn't touch the food, even thought it looked delicious, my stomach was full with nerves. With the corner of my eye I noticed that Bella barely touched her food too. I wanted to snort, what does she has to be nervous about.

Many pack members passed by our table, wishing us well, others, the Elders mostly, gave speeches. When all was done the bonding ceremony began. It was supposed to be beautiful and romantic. Flowers hanging from the roof and everyone stood up while Bella escorted me to front of the room where many ceremonial words were spoken, but I paid no attention to them, nor comprehend. I just wanted the whole thing to be over. Worst of all was the agonized look on Jasper's face as the last words were spoken and my wrist was bound with Bella's by a ceremonial leather rope. I did my best to not search the room during the whole thing, but at the end I couldn't resist it was as if his eyes were boring holes into my skull.

After this farce came to an end Bella led me out of the ceremonial hall and towards one of the guest cabins that were located not far from the Alpha house. I threw sideways glances at her as we walked down the path, she hasn't spoken to me at all after our initial introduction. Maybe I was being too obvious with my detest for the situation and I hurt her feelings, or worse maybe she mad at me for it or she just doesn't like me.

Should I say something? Break the silence? I searched my brain to find something, anything really, to commend on, but I came up empty. Nothing seemed appropriate and I wasn't about to idly chit chat about the weather.

Anyway it wasn't in the nature of an Alpha to be unkind to a member of the pack unless they flaunted his authority. Now I was part of her pack and I didn't do anything to challenge her. Still I was afraid, I didn't know her at all, I had no idea what type of person she was and I know that the drive to mate is a strong one, I just hope Bella would be considerate, this is my first time after all. First times hurt. If it had been Jasper who was to mate with me, it would be different. He had feelings for me, he would be careful not to hurt me and all would have been perfect. The thought of being with him spread warmth thought me, while the idea of being with Bella, no matter how beautiful she was, made my muscles clench.

The cabin loomed in front of us, it was at the edge of the forest with trees all around, it gave the impression of seclusion. It was made of logs and had a weathered look from the years and the exposure to the elements, despite that it was still well maintained, with a solid stone chimney and shuttered windows and a small porch. Bella opened the door and gesture for me to enter, following close behind me since our wrists were still tied. She shut the door behind us and flickered the lights on, illuminating the room that featured a small kitchen, eating area and a living room with a fireplace. There was a door to the right that led to the bedroom and a bath.

"Well.." Bella spoke causing me to jump. "Do you mind if I take this off?" she held up our joined wrists and I nodded in agreement. She pulled a jackknife from her pocket and cut the rope letting it fall to the ground. Immediately I pulled my arm away and rubbed my wrist. It wasn't really sore, the tie hadn't been so tight, but the leather had still chafed me and enforced a proximity that had been… uncomfortable the least.

With the corner of my eye I saw that Bella was also rubbing her wrist. "We have a similar reaction to being imprisoned, I see." She gave me a small smile.

"Yes." I wasn't sure what else to say and the silence stretched between us again.

Bella rubbed her neck, studying the room around us. Did she found this situation as unnerving as I did? Did she really want to be my mate, or was she too turning her back on someone she loved for the sake of her pack? Should I even ask? Do I want to know? If that's the case, then that person will be part of my new pack, meaning Bella would be around them all the time. What if she cheated on me? Or if she never loves me? Even thought I had no feelings for her, I still wanted her to have feelings for me and I definitely didn't like the idea of her having feelings for anyone else. She was my mate after all.

"It's getting late. Would you like to use the bathroom first?" she asked me, pulling me out of my thoughts.

"Sure." I quickly retreated to the bath. As I passed thought the bedroom I noted that someone made the bed and my nightgown was lying near the foot. I swiftly snatched it and entered the bathroom, closing the door behind me. For a few minutes at least I'd have some privacy and be free from Bella's presence. It wasn't that Bella was displeasing to look upon, in fact it was the opposite the girl was the epitome of beauty, it was hard not to look at her with amazement. And up until now her manner had been polite, if a bit distant, but I haven't been the friendliest companion either, so there was nothing I could complain about. The problem is that Bella wasn't Jasper. She was an unknown werewolf, an unknown werewolf I would soon be intimately involved with.

My stomach clenched again and the thought of running away crossed my mind again. But go where? Wolves are very social animals, I would never survive without a pack. To be an outcast was unthinkable fate. Besides I didn't have anywhere to live, no way to support myself and there is always the fear of being detected. It didn't happen in year, but that didn't mean it couldn't happen if a werewolf got careless. From the day we were born caution was drilled into our heads and we all had the fear of being hunted down. No, I couldn't leave.

I threw a glance at my reflection. Deep blue eyes stood out in my pale face and my midnight black hair was like a spiky halo, but it did nothing to hide the tense muscles of my jaw. My whole body was tense. Maybe a hot shower would help me, at the very least it will buy me more alone time. I stripped and stepped into the stall. The pounding water beat down on my body, and the steam created a small temporary cocoon around me. Finally! I felt myself relax and closed my eyes enjoying the hot water. I drifted back to the afternoon when I and Jasper had been running together.

A small smile formed on my lips. It was so much fun running like the wind, jumping over obstacles, feeling my muscles stretch to their limits as I tried to out-distance my companion. Jasper had tackled me to the ground we rolled around like puppies nipping at each other before bouncing away, only to jump and tumble again. I'd nuzzled his neck and he'd licked my face, then we came back to the Alpha house, transforming into human form at the edge of the forest. My hair still had grass in it and he picked it out, after that he rested one hand on my shoulder and hinted his desire to talk to my father, I had acknowledged his request with a small nod, fighting to stop a stupid grin from spreading over my lips.

I imagined I could still feel Jasper touching me even now and I sighed contently, before I realized that it wasn't my imagination. Hands were touching me! With a small squeal I pulled away, only to have strong fingers tighten their grip around me and pull me back.

"It's just me." Bella whispered in my ear. "I decided to join you." Her hands massaged my shoulders expertly and then ran up and down my arms. "You are a slight little thing aren't you?" Blood rushed to my cheeks again, luckily she couldn't see me.

"I.. yes." And there goes my relaxing shower! My muscles tensed again.

"Alice I know this awkward. Try to relax, I promise I'll make this as easy on you as possible."

I nodded obediently. But I silently wondered if she was joking. Relax? How can I relax? She is about to invade my body with hers and take my virginity.

As I stood frozen under the pounding water, I felt her lips trail kisses on my neck, while her arms encircled my waist, warmth spread everywhere she touched me. Her hands ever so slowly slid up and cupped both of my breasts. I gasped at the electric like feeling that shot through my whole body. She tweaked my nipples and nipped at my earlobe and I had to bite my lower lip to stop myself from relishing a very embarrassing moan.

"Mmm your skin is so soft…" She purred her approval before spinning me around and capturing my lips with hers. Bella's lips moved expertly against mine, teasing me and before I even realized it I had opened my mouth, welcoming her tongue, that slipped inside my mouth and gently stroke mine.

I had to give it to her, she was an amazing kisser. As her lips moved skillfully against mine, she awakened a fire in me, and our kisses turned from gentle to passionate in no time. I found myself wanting more, involuntarily my hands locked around her neck pulling her closer to me, as she moved her hands up and down my back. Soon we were pressed tightly against one another and I could feel her member pressing against my stomach. A strange quiver of excitement shot through me and this time I couldn't help but moan in her mouth. This must be what my friends talked about. Before I even finished the thought I felt two strong arms pick me up and carry me bridal style to the bedroom. Bella didn't seem to care that we were both wet and set me to the bed, dropping down beside me.

Soon her lips were back to mine, nipping and teasing, while her hands caressed and stroke my breasts, stimulating every nerve in my body. For the first time in my eighteen years I felt alive. Bella had waked a fire in me and I squirmed restlessly wanting more of her.

Her lips left my mouth and my lips felt lonely, as she trailed open mouth kisses down my neck, nipping and sucking at my sensitive skin until she reached my collarbone. With one quick move she licked down until she reached my belly button and sucked on it, while I squirmed and let out a giggle, I was ticklish there. Her hands moved to my hips massaging me, slowly making their way to the inside of my thighs.

Then in a shocking move she pulled my legs apart, burying her face in my dark curls and inhaling deeply. We locked eyes and the muscles in my lower abdomen clenched tightly. Then without breaking eye contact she gave my nether lips a good strong lick. "Oh God.." I tried to pull away, if she did that again I thought I'd die, from being so turned on. Bella had other plans thought.

"Your arousal calls to me. I can smell it. Taste it." Her pupils had dilated and her breathing was coming in short uneven pants. She crawled up my body, holding my eyes with her wild hungry gaze. "You are my mate Alice." She muttered just a few inches away from my lips. My hands tangled themselves into her wet dark locks and pulled her to me for another frenzied kiss. And what a kiss it was! Hot and hard, I felt like I was melting from the inside out.

Just then she pushed one finger inside me, I stiffened and broke our kiss short. Gasping for air, while my heart pounded so hard in my chest I could hear it. "Relax, this will make it easier." She whispered against my lips.

It felt so strange. So different.. The finger that probed my body left me with an interesting sensation, tingling me down low. Of their own volition my hips jerked against her hand and after a few more strokes Bella added a second finger. Again I stiffened as I got used to the foreign feeling. It was uncomfortable and tight but the things she did with those digits created more strange feelings inside me and I felt myself getting wetter and relaxed.

Soon Bella's fingers slid in and out of me with ease, my hips matched every little move her hand made and I couldn't contain small moans from leaving my lips. After a while I couldn't help closing my eyes, concentrating on the amazing feelings growing inside me. Sure I was tense, but it was good tension, exciting… My breaths became shallower and shallower as I felt myself striving forward trying to reach some unknown place.

Suddenly she stopped and her fingers were gone. I whimpered loudly to make my displeasure known. I opened my eyes just in time to see her settle on top of me and position her member on my entrance. I swallowed hard, I knew this part was coming. The painful part. She paused looking deeply into my eyes, like she was searching for something. Permission maybe? I guess whatever it was she found it, because in the next instant she pushed inside me.

I gasped. It hurt! She is too big. "No!" I struggled trying to get away, but I was pinned between her arms. She pulled out and pushed inside me again, this time until she was fully sheathed inside me.

I felt a couple of tears trickle from my eyes and she immediately bent to kiss them away. "It will be fine, the first time is difficult." she whispered softly and kept spreading butterfly kisses all over my face. "You are so slight compared to me, but in a moment it will be better. Tell me when the pain stops."

Some part of my brain noted that despite her comforting words Bella was trembling, as she held herself still inside me, but I was too consumed with myself to wonder why. After a couple of deep breaths the burning was gone and I gave a small nod. "I'm okay now." She gave me one sweet kiss on the lips before she started to move again.

Slowly she began moving inside me and the pleasurable sensations returned, hitting me like a wave. With every thrust of Bella's hips another wave washed over me, in fact with every little move she made the pleasure grew inside me like a bubble expanding. I felt my walls clench around her shaft as if they were trying to trap it and keep it inside me forever.

My breathing became shallow again. I needed more… more of something, what exactly I didn't know. All I good do was dig my fingers into Bella's back. Somehow she understood what I was asking, she thrust into me, faster, harder and deeper. I tried to match keep up and match her speed, my muscles straining to keep up with her. In the back of my mind I noted that I was moaning like a bitch in heat, but I couldn't stop. Her fingers dug into my hips assisting me into smashing them to hers with more force, while I spread my legs as far as they'd go to give her even better access. She drove into me harder if possible and every time she filled me to the brim it was inexplicable pleasure times a thousand. It was with that last thrust that the bubble, that has been building inside me all this time, burst. I lost control, my body quivered, my toes curled and I found my way to paradise.

Vaguely I was aware that Bella was done grunting in pleasure and had collapsed on top of me, struggling to control her breathing. After a moment she pulled out of me and rolled over to her side of the bed.

As the pleasure began to fade, my rational mind seemed to take over again. I can't believe I just did that! It was so mind-boggling how much I've enjoyed it too. Then it dawned to me, it wasn't Jasper the one who brought me to my first orgasm. It was Bella, a virtual stranger. I felt shame wash over me. How could I enjoyed being with Bella, when only a few hours ago I was agonized over the fact that Jasper and I would never be together.

It all seemed so wrong, but there was no going back now. I was mated to her for the rest of my life.

Like that my thoughts brought me full circle and now I was pressed against her chest, her arm around my waist. I felt trapped both by her limb and by the fact that my life was now bound to hers. A million thoughts crossed my mind at once.

What would it be like to spend the rest of my life with her? Share her bed? Have children? Grow old together? Did she like running in the woods? If she did, would she spend any time with me? Or would she be too busy with her Alpha duties, like my father. What would my new pack be like? My position as mate of the Alpha would guarantee me respect. But would anyone like me? Or was I cursed to spend the rest of my life in loneliness? It was hard enough that I had to move and leave my friends and family behind.

Fears and doubts tumbled thought my mind and I fell into a restless sleep.

This is it. Should I continue?

To all of you who have patiently waited an update on my other story, its coming! Unexpected is my first baby. This one will be more of a side project if you guys like it.

Thanks for reading!