A/N: Hi there. So... This story has been floating in my brain for months. And I couldn't write anything for my other stories until I at least posted this. So please let me know what you think about it. Be nice, please?

Disclaimer: I do not own any of the characters that are in this story, except Ariya. She is my own little creation.

Jake POV

She left.

That's all I could think about.

She left.

Was there something wrong with me?

She left.

How could she do this? To me? To Charlie?

She left.

And there was nothing I could do or say to change it.

She left.

Without even a goodbye.

She just picked up and left. With him and his family.

I guess she really wanted to be one of them that badly.

I just don't understand.

What did they offer her that I couldn't? Love? A family? I could've even given her kids.

Why?

My heart hurt painfully and I felt like I would never get better.

I'll always love her.

Always.

I wish I could've proven to her that I am the one that she should be with. I'm the one she should be kissing. Touching. Holding. Loving.

She said she couldn't love me that way. I didn't want to believe it. So, I tried my hardest to make her fall in love with me. It almost worked too, if that damn leech didn't call.

*Flashback*

I wanted to make her see. Now that the damn leech is gone, it's my chance. I walked over to her. I started to lean in, and whispered: "Que Quowle," hoping to the heavens that she actually would.

Knowing for sure that she wouldn't push me away this time, I leaned in closer. I could even feel her breath fanning my face. My eyes closed and I was so close and then the phone rang, leaving the moment ruined.

I never did get that chance again what with Bella going to Italy with one leech and bringing home the entire coven.

How she forgave him for leaving her is completely beyond me.

*End Flashback*

She would've fallen in love with me. She just needed more time. Time… that's something she'll never have to worry about again.

'How could she!?'

Things were being tossed and thrown and smashed in my anger.

'She said she would try!'

'I never got that chance!'

I began to shake, furious with the entire situation.

'HOW COULD SHE DO THIS TO ME?!'

I ran outside, feeling my impending phase. My clothes shredded into little pieces as let my fury take over, transforming into a giant wolf.

Trees were knocked over in my rage. I could hear everyone else's thoughts in my head, trying to calm me, but I was beyond any help.

So, I ran.

Much like when I got the invitation to that fucking wedding, I ran. No destination was set in. I just kept running until I burned off all of the anger inside of me.

When I knew that I was in Canada, I stopped. My legs burned, but the anger was still there. I didn't go back right away.

I just needed to be away.

To think.

To just get away from the memories that were haunting me.

No matter what happened, I couldn't escape them.

Every time I closed my eyes, all I saw was her face.

I could smell her scent all around me.

My dreams were invaded with flashbacks of every moment with her. Her long brown hair blowing in the salty air of La Push. Her chocolate eyes shining with happiness. Her smile lighting up her entire beautiful face. Her pale skin, so soft and smooth it was like I could feel it.

But ever dream ended as a nightmare. Replaying the fact that she would leave me to be with him.

I stayed there for a week, not ever bothering to call anyone to check in. It obviously wasn't the first time I had left, and I came back before, so there was no reason for anyone to worry.

I was running back and, as soon as I got within range of the pack mind, I was assaulted.

(Jake, Sam, Seth, Leah, Embry, Quil) (Thoughts)

JAKE!

Where the HELL have you been Black?

Dude! Jake, man! What the fuck? You can't keep just leaving like that!

You okay, man?

Yeah, I just needed to get away. You can't really blame me.

Jacob. Just because she left with them, doesn't mean you get to go and skip out on your responsibilities. I know how hurt you are-

Fuck that shit. Look Jake. I understand. I actually do. And I'm here to say, Get your mind in the fucking game Black! She left. Get mad. Get upset. Get reckless. But ALWAYS tell us what is going on. We can't keep doing this, wondering where the hell you are and when you're getting back. You have got to tell us where you're going. You know that we still have leeches coming around here. I get it, she hurt you. But, at least you don't have to watch them be happy together every day.

Images of Sam and Emily flashed through the pack mind and I flinched at Leah's pain. It felt familiar. But she now had Embry, as they imprinted on each other, so she really only knew how I feel.

Jake, she's right. You have us here to help. We're here for you, man.

Yeah dude. Always.

Jake?

Yeah Seth?

Me too.

I knew how close Seth was with the bloodsuckers and he actually liked them. The rest of the pack didn't. And I felt how guilty the poor kid felt at condoning the relationship that Bella had with him.

Thanks you guys. I know, and I'm sorry but, I just couldn't take it anymore.

We know Jacob. Just come home. Your dad's upset.

Fuck. Alright. I'm almost there.

I ran straight to the house, going around back to phase. Seeing a pair of shorts laying outside, I knew that Sam had called Billy to tell him I was coming home.

To say that Billy was upset was an understatement. He was pissed. He was never this mad at me. Ever. I didn't know what to do. He just sat there and stared at me.

"Jacob Ephraim Black. What the hell were you thinking? I understand that you're upset, but you can't just leave here without telling me what's going on! What am I supposed to think when Charlie's kid goes off without so much as a goodbye, and then you were gone for a whole week! You have responsibilities here."

I flinch as I notice that he doesn't even say her name. He must be just as upset as me.

"You know that she was like a daughter to me. But she chose, Jacob. And she chose them. Even if she ever decides to come back. It's the whole pack's choice to figure out whether the treaty is still intact. But I doubt we'll ever see any of them again. There's nothing we can do but try to help Charlie. He's been a complete mess. His only daughter telling him that she's leaving and she wont be coming back. If you think you and I are upset, Charlie looks like he aged like 10 years just in this past week. He's got grays now. The man is not even 40 and he's got gray hairs. Sue's trying to help him as much as she can, but he's depressed as all hell!"

I didn't even think of that. Charlie must be going through hell now. To lose his only kid to that bloodsucker.

The treaty.

Now what are we supposed to do?

I groaned as I thought of what Sam was going to do. He never really cared for Bella, always thought she was a nuisance, making trouble for herself. And to be honest, she was. None of this shit would've happened if she just listened to us and stayed away from them.

But no.

Bella's stubborn as all hell.

She really believed that those… things… were good for her. She really thought that she belonged with them.

What was it?

Money? Nah. Bella was never vain.

So what?

Immortality? But she would never be Bella. Never again.

I don't understand.

All I do know is that I'll never see her again. She's never going to be the same again. She'll never be allowed here ever again.

If she does come back, we'll have to kill her.

Could I do that?

Am I capable of killing the only girl that I've ever loved? Will I ever love anyone else?

No one could even compare, or come close to it.

I wouldn't let them.

How could she?

Bella.

My Bells.

She'll never be that again.

Never again.

Two years later…

My 18th birthday. Not exactly how I wanted to celebrate it, but whatever. I happily accept whoever wants to help me forget my pains.

After a bonfire party from the pack and council, the guys headed over to a club to help me loosen up a bit.

One good thing about being a shifter, I look like I'm in my 20s.

After a couple drinks, I had a good buzz going. A couple girls approached our table and grabbed my arms, leading me to the floor. They grinded against my body to the house music playing.

I drowned myself in the scent of the sweat, alcohol, cigarettes, cheap perfume and cologne, and lots of arousal. I knew that the specific scent I wanted to smell wasn't going to be there, but I had to try to find it.

These girls seemed to be perfectly willing, so I took them to a hotel room, no way are they going back to my house. And we had a little fun.

Over the past two years, I changed.

I wasn't that sweet kid that everyone remembers. I became Alpha. Not everyone followed after me right away, but their wolves realized that I was the true Alpha that they needed to follow. I grew even more. I was now 6'8 and even bulkier than Sam. My wolf was the biggest out of the entire pack.

We all thought that Sam would want to stop phasing and start a family with Emily, but they learned that she was unable to have kids. That was a hard one for the whole pack to get over. Kim didn't even want kids yet. She just wanted to have some time with Jared, being free to do whatever they wanted. And besides, she was going to college.

I was still working for Sam at his construction company. But I wanted to open up my own garage. I love cars. After building the Rabbit, I had to start on a bigger one, maybe one that could fit me inside it.

I kept the Rabbit, I don't know why.

Paul and Quil really helped me out with the heartache. I'm not sorry to say that they were right. Relationships aren't what I want. I want someone to just make that pain to go away for a little while. We hit the bars or really anywhere that had a woman, or women, that wanted somewhere to go that night.

I lost my virginity when I was still 16. Bella wasn't coming back. Those girls helped. I always made sure to have enough condoms with me so that I was temporarily sated, I didn't want a kid yet. Sometimes, if the girl wasn't on birth control, and I was worried, I made sure she took that emergency pill. I never gave my name, and I never got their names. It was simple. I always stayed away from the girls on the rez. I didn't really feel like my dad hearing about all of the girls that I would sleep with. Only Paul is that stupid.

Now, I had girls flocking to me. I know that I reeked with cockiness with even just the way I walked. No one messed with me.

I never stopped thinking about her.

She's always in the back of my mind, but I never talk about her.

No one does. Not even Charlie.

Sue managed to help him through everything and they got married. I stood with him as his best man and Seth walked Sue down the aisle. Leah was her maid of honor and Emily was the only bride's maid.

I wonder where she would've stood. Probably with Charlie. He couldn't even send her the invitation. He had no clue where she was. So, he just left it on his desk. He still had it there, staring at it every once in a while. He left her room the way she left it. No one went in there, though. He had the door shut and every once in a while, on patrol, one of the pack would hear his cries inside of that room.

The pack made a decision on what to do about if she or any of them came back. It would be war. They knew that it would be like that if they ever bit a human. And I'm pretty sure that by now, she's one of them. It was more personal then ever now that Sue and Charlie were married. Leah can't wait until, if she comes back, to sink her teeth into her neck and make her head watch as the rest of the body burns.

Seth's thoughts surprised us all. He wants to be the one to get the first bite in. And as Alpha, I'm supposed to allow that.

But it's… her.

How am I supposed to forget everything that happened between us and kill her?

I don't know. But I hope that I never have to make that decision. So, wherever you are, don't come back. Just stay away.

Forever.

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~Ariya-angels