30 Days of Making It Up To Him

Hey everybody!

So just a little Disclaimer to start off with: I do not own The Vampire Diaries. Trust me, if I did then there would be no need to write this story.

On another note, I am getting really frustrated with Delena on the show, so here is my take on what should happen now that she at least knows she feels something for him.

Happy Reading!

Chapter One: A Little Note

The entire trip back to Mystic Falls was held in complete silence, save for the idle chit chat between Elena and Jeremy on the two and a half hour long flight. Despite the fact that they hadn't seen each other for awhile, the conversation never got too personal. Elena loved her brother dearly, but she just couldn't bring herself to talk about what had happened between her and Damon. Jeremy had been right, of course, there was something going on between her and the blue eyed vampire sitting across the aisle from them, appearing to be sound asleep.

Elena and her brother fell into silence once again, and she was left to her own thoughts for awhile. She didn't blame Damon for lashing out at her—not really, anyway. Even though it hurt, she realized she kind of deserved it. The problem was that they never really talked about their feelings. No, that wasn't really the problem—she was the one who couldn't talk about her feelings for him, let alone admit it to anyone. He had made it clear time and time again how he felt about her. Yet, not even when Stefan asked her could Elena bring herself to admit that she did love Damon. Part of her had always loved him, but her fear of being like Katharine kept her from admitting it at all costs.

It was stupid really, it would have been better for her to just admit it instead of kissing him like she had done. She realized she was toying with his feelings by not telling him what was on her mind, but now she felt it was too late as she thought back to their conversation earlier.

He wasn't going to make it easy for her this time, and she wasn't entirely sure what that meant. Did it mean that they were going to resume this silent treatment that had been going on since the ball at the Mikaelsons? What did she have to do to prove that she really was trying? She knew she couldn't come right out and say it yet, not now anyways. He wouldn't believe her even if she did tell him she loved him. So what were her options? Just sit back and forget about it until the ordeal with Klaus was over? Or should she put her feelings out on the line in the hopes that eventually he would believe her motives with him were pure. That would mean not turning to Stefan when things were frustrating with Damon. It would mean no longer relying on Stefan to remind her that she didn't need Damon. It would truly change everything if she completely chose him over the man she had originally fallen in love with.

If she was being completely honest with herself, that thought terrified her. Stefan was safe—she didn't have to worry about him lashing out at her when things got tough. Sure he was unstable, but their love for each other was not—that was, until she started having feelings for Damon. He was unpredictable, impulsive, but his love for her was intense—more intense than even Stefan's, but it excited her as much as it also terrified her. She had no idea what a future with him would be like.

She let out a sigh, and rubbed her eyes as she realized she was utterly exhausted. She turned to face the man across the aisle, openly staring at him in admiration. In his slumber, she could see the pain in his features—a pain that he wouldn't let show when he was awake. She felt a tear well up and slip down her cheek as she realized it was her fault he was so troubled.

She turned back to face the front and wiped the tear from her face. Jeremy noticed, and whispered, "Are you alright?"

She thought about saying 'yes, I'm fine,' but shook her head instead. She was far from fine.

Her brother rested his hand on her arm and looked from her to Damon in silence. He knew that she was conflicted over her feelings for him, and although he didn't completely understand it, Rose had made him feel better about whatever it was that was going on. Remaining silent, he took out a piece of paper from his backpack and scribbled a small note for Elena.

She took it from him and scanned the words on the scrap of paper. I know you have feelings for him. You don't have to worry about me, I'll always be here for you.

She smiled at him and scribbled back. Thanks Jer…and you're right, I do. I just don't know what to do about it. I don't think he believes that I actually feel something for him. I guess I don't blame him though.

He thought for a moment before writing a response. Then you need to prove it to him. How you do it though, is up to you…

She read it, and thanked him for the advice. She still wasn't entirely sure how she was going to prove it to him, but she figured she could start by writing a small letter to him which she later snuck into his coat pocket.

. . .

After Damon had dropped Elena and her brother off at their house, he made his way back to the boarding house, not quite ready to face Stefan and the questions he would likely encounter regarding Elena. Actually, he really didn't want to talk about, think about, or even see Elena. He couldn't allow himself to get his hopes up after that kiss they shared. Not when she was still so obviously conflicted over her feelings for him.

He reached in his coat pocket to take out his phone when he felt a small piece of paper that most definitely hadn't been there earlier that night. He pulled it out and saw his name written in Elena's smooth handwriting. He contemplated throwing it away without reading it, but decided to see what she could possibly have to say after the event of the last two nights.

He unfolded the small piece of paper and allowed a small smile to creep up onto his lips.

Damon,

I know you're angry with me… I would be angry with me too. I want you to know that I don't blame you for lashing out at me tonight. I know that I have given you hope, and then destroyed it with a single word. I know that I have caused you a lot of pain…but I should have said this sooner, I do feel something for you. Just please, give me a chance to show you. I know it will take some time… I have hurt you too much for you to let me off the hook that easily. I just hope you'll forgive me for everything that I've done to hurt you. Hopefully see you soon.

Elena

Damon neatly folded the note back up and placed it with his secret stash of all things concerning Elena. He knew he shouldn't allow this one letter to give him so much hope, but he couldn't help but feel just a little bit happier because of it.

Nonetheless, he was going to put her offer to the test. Sure, he would give her the chance to prove whatever it was she was feeling for him, but just as he had said earlier, he was not going to make it easy for her. Not this time. He would see just how much she wanted to make things right with him.

There…I hope you like it! If you do, please click the little button below and submit a review. I would really really love it if you did :)

Also, If you have any suggestions to what Elena could do to make it up to our favorite blue eyed vamp please feel free to PM me with your ideas :)