Summary: Hope took over sanity as Damon Salvatore found himself venturing into darkness believing that at the end he'd find light but instead he was met with only more darkness. For ten years darkness has corrupted him causing him to lose the man he was once and become the monster people fear him to be. This Malach has possessed him from the inside out but every year on the anniversary of when Damon had it all and lost it all he returns back to that barn. Everyone has deemed Damon to be a lost cause except for the Sleeping Beauty who has awoken and rather than give up on him she'll fight for him because she believes they'll survive this.
Authors Note: Fret not readers this is simply an intro that will be leading you into the story not to mention it'll prepare you for the pain you are about to endure. Happy reading ;)
Ten Years Ago Before Darkness:
My Dearest Elena,
By the time you read this I'll have lost not only the battle but myself. My reasoning for taking this darkness is because I had the foolish belief that I could fight it, control it but even I'm not strong enough. I can feel myself slipping away and wanting to embrace the darkness and I know once I do I'll be the monster I once hated. Emotions that I carry will be gone and merely nothing and along with those emotions lost love will be one of them. I need you to know how much I love you. I need you to know how grateful I am to you because you gave me the chance to experience true love and that's something rare. When I first met you I wore a mask but bit by bit it peeled away until I revealed the real me to you and that I was worthy of not just loving you but being loved by you. You've given me so much Elena you revived me. You not only made me feel human but you made me want to be human again and that's everything because I never believed it would be in my reach again and I wanted that with you more than anything. As a human, all I had wanted in life was to be loved and build from that love and we would have had that. I would have had the honor of calling myself your husband and over time, I would have watched with pride as you held our baby. I wanted to grow old with you Elena but now as the goodness in me slips away I know that it's nothing but a pipe dream because when you come back I won't be here. You won't recognize me. The monster will have taken over and I want you to stand clear, stay away because with you now human I don't want your life at risk. Will you do something for me? Allow yourself to love again. You're coming back; think of it as getting a second chance at life away from the supernatural doom and gloom. You can still have that life. You can still go to medical school, marry, have kids and grow old it just won't be with me and it kills me but all I want is for you to be happy and if there's the smallest chance of you finding that happiness? Take it.
You're stubborn and you don't do as you're told because you've got that martyr complex. Stefan and everyone else will tell you to listen to me but in the end, you won't because you'll follow that annoying Gilbert Optimism of yours and if that's the case? Then maybe just maybe you can save me. Darkness has surrounded me but maybe a little bit of light will scare it away. You're my light Elena and if anyone can bring me back home it's you.
Until then my heart still lies with you
Forever,
Your Damon