Im back after many years. Been so busy with life. This chapter has been forgotten in my note. Im currently struggling with my life admist this pandemic. please enjoy the chapter. so sorry for my grammar mistakes.
Tezuka faced the other side of the car after Ryoma screamed at him, trying to calm his heart down. He is afraid he will say something that will further aggrated his young lover. He can hear Ryoma breathing quicken but made no other move other than listening. They will have to wait until they are back at home to solve everything.
He hates this. Really hate how powerless he is to fight against his ex-lovers. Now they are forcing him to go back to the hell where they neglected him. He shut his eyes and tried to calm his breathing down. He can do this. He will get away from them. Even if it cost his life.
………
The two of them arrives home 30 minutes later. From afar there seem to be Fuji and Sanada waiting at the front door with the maids and butler.
Ryoma really cant handle any talks so he refuses to go out until he sees none of his ex-lovers including Tezuka at the doors.
Both Sanada and Fuji exchange glance with Tezuka and they compile with Ryoma's wish.
After making sure he doesnt see the three of them, Ryoma went out from the limousine and took a deep breath before entering the mansion. Luckily Atobe and Seiichi knew not to show their faces before him. The butler and maid guide him to the guest room where everything has been prepared.
"Young master, Master Atobe-"
Ryoma quickly shut the door before the butler can finish his sentences. He is too lazy to hear the rest of the sentences. Who is in the right mind to face the one who hurt him? The only reason he come back here was because they forced him.
…….
Ryoma keep himself shut in the room. Refusing to meet any of his ex-lovers.
They are so persistant in talking with him. What done is done. What is there to be mend again? Everything has already broken into tiny pieces.
……
Kevin knocking his door a few days later is what surprises Ryoma the most. He really thought the blonde wont come see him after what he had done to him. After all, Ryoma is partly at fault for his early labour.
Ryoma thought that his other ex-lovers would accompanied the blonde but he sees no one behind Kevin and shut the door close and brought Kevin to the sofa.
Both of them are not talking and just sitting. Ryoma grab the book that he currently read and crossed his leg, seemingly unbothered about Kevin.
Kevin scanned the room and saw that a lot of book being scattered around the room. Its seem Ryoma really use his time to read the books. He heard from his lovers that Ryoma's mood is still unstable and to let him cool down a bit before meeting him.
"Are you okay now?" Ryoma begin to ask after he notice Kevin looking around his room. He scanned Kevin's face, noticing the blonde losing some weight. Who wouldnt? He lost his baby. His heart must be blaming Ryoma.
Kevin turn his face to look at Ryoma. "I'm okay." He replied.
"……" Ryoma stared at his book.
"I'm sorry…" Ryoma slowly said.
Kevin didnt answer. Just waiting for Ryoma to finish his sentences.
"If only i didnt push you that day, you wouldnt even have to go through this."
"Do you really mean it?" Kevin asked back.
Ryoma startled. How insincere he must sound for Kevin to depicted it like that ?
"I lost our baby. And when i need you all the most, you are making this whole mess. Cant you consider our baby when you made the decision to start all of these in the first place?"
Ryoma gripped his book. So he really blame him?
"Why do you have to go and make a mess? Everything has been so good so far isn't it?"
"You sound like i started this whole thing on purpose , Smith?"
Kevin quite startled after hearing Ryoma said his last name.
"Do you even know what i have been gone through during your pregnancy? The abuse i have to endure just because i want to be loved equally? "
"What are you talking about? All of us are okay-"
"No! We are f'king not okay!" Ryoma raised his voice. He closed his book.
Kevin anger burst out. His pent up from losing his baby finally took a toll on him. All of those sleepless night trying his best to forget about his baby girl. The one he waits for months. All because Ryoma acts out of jealousy he lost his baby. Their baby!
"You are the one who felt like we are not okay, Ryoma! We were just fine with each other until you push me out of your jealousy for our baby! Havent we wait a long time for her to be born?!"
"You are the ONLY one who felt we are okay! Because all you get is a good treatment whereas me? Do you even know how those bastards act toward me?! Huh, Smith?"
"You are the one who change, Ryoma?! What do you expect from them when you are the one who change first?!" Kevin screamed back.
"I changed because of them and YOU! You made me change, Smith! Everything is because of you!" Ryoma threw his book away. Tension heavy in the room. Both of them huffing out in anger.
"All those insult and abuse is all because of you. They are defending you. Showering you with all the love and me? They neglected me. Didnt even defend me against those snakes who keep badmouthing me. And of course when i change, all of those is my fault! My fault for not shutting my mouth and ignore for the mistreatment!"
"You are so sensitive! Our parents doesnt really mean what they said!"Kevin defended his in-laws.
Sensitive? He is so sensitive. Ryoma chuckled. He stared lifelessly at Kevin. "Get out. There is no point in this anymore. You can blame me all you want for killing your baby. But whatever action i does is all because of those bastard's treatment toward me. I dont know what they have been telling you, but all of these is not because of me. Its because of you and them."
Kevin huffed in anger but he also doesnt want to continue bickering like this. He stands up and left Ryoma's room.
Ryoma divert his attention toward the window. Staring at the sky outside. He took a deep breath, trying his hard not to cry. Kevin just lost his baby. And he just lost everything. Both of them are not in the right mind anymore.
Because of those bastards.