Loneliness is a bitter thing
It can make someone suffer to the brink of insanity.
It can also be considered as death once the said person has no more vigor to live the life he once had.
Forever wandering to nowhere
But even if you made only one true friend, it can be made to disappear loneliness
For someone you can trust to good and bad
Be the light from the dark
That is what I, Sawada Tsunayoshi, the Vongola Decimo is struggling through
Though what's different is I was left alone by the ones I had once called 'true' friends
It left a hole in my heart but for loyalty and honor.
I will struggle through the pain and suffering
For even if I was left alone, I still love my family
This fatal flaw in my part will bring oblivion to my life and only my life
Peaceful
That's what best describes what I'm feeling right now. Just lying down watching the sky. There's no clouds to gaze on nor the sun to feel the warmth of day. Just watching the sky. I heard cheers from below. I walked to the fence and looked down. I saw Akira being thrown up at the sky as everyone cheers on him. It stabbed my heart to see my guardians with him. I gaze upon the sky again and all I see is a vast emptiness ever since that fateful day.
Flashback
"Checkerface!" I managed to shout. He was transferring something to me when a boy that looked like me but with raven hair and black eyes like Hibari, punched him. Interfering the process, the boy started a stance. He made the stance of the Zero Point Breakthrough and froze him. He then punched the ice with an enormous amount of flame. Even greater than I am when I'm in my Ultimate Dying Will Form. The ice immediately broke with him that disappeared from thin air.
I just stood there, shocked. I was still trying to get what just happened. Who is this boy? Why is he this powerful? I was just buying sweets for Lambo when someone pulled me through an alley. He did something that paralyzed me in place. Then that happened. The boy then turned towards me.
"Nice to meet you, my long lost little brother" He then smiled. Brother?! Since when did I have a brother? I was really confused. I was about to ask something when he put a finger on my mouth.
"Shh, I know you have a lot of questions. Save that for later. I'd rather explain everything in one go then repeatedly." We then walked to my house. Surprisingly, everyone were there for Lambo's birthday even Hibari. He explained everything after the party that he was my twin big brother. Just a few minutes ahead of me. He said that the nurse took him when Mama gave birth to us. His name was Akira Sawada.
What happened next surprised me though. He explained what happened to Checkerface and they were like
"Wow! How did you do that?"
"How powerful are you?"
"That's my son!"
"You're cool for Tsuna's twin!"
"Baka! Jyuudaime is still cooler!"
Tsuna was a bit overwhelmed by their continuous praises to him even Reborn is proud of Akira. Well, he did defeat Checkerface. Who can blame him? They didn't notice that his arm was broken and also his leg from trying to overcome the paralysis with sheer willpower. He just hid them and tried his best to not let anyone be suspicious. Surprisingly, it worked even Reborn didn't notice a thing.
That night almost everyone was invited to the Vongola Mansion. Tsuna decided to stay behind. He just said that he have to do something. Reborn got suspicious but just shrugged it off. Everyone went when they're were about to leave. Akira smirked at me but no one noticed. Gokudera decided to stay and also Mama when they knew that I stayed behind.
I immediately went to my room and whimpered quietly from the pain. My arm and leg seemed to be worse than earlier. I should have mended this before I went home. Someone knocked at my door.
"Jyuudaime? Can I come in?"
"Tsu-kun, can we come in?"
It was Mama and Gokudera. I wonder what they need. I stood up only to wince at the pain. I can't stand up properly now. I tried to grab something but what I grabbed was the vase as a result it fell. Afterwards, Mama and Gokudera flew in flustered.
"Jyuudaime!"
"Tsu-kun!"
"Are you okay, Jyuudaime?!"
"I'll go get a first-aid kit" Mama then ran out of the door.
I got a wound from the shards. Gokudera noticed this and moved me to my bed. How he knew that my arm and leg were broken? I don't know
"Gokudera-kun, how?" I asked him. I was really curious and confused. How did he know? Even Reborn didn't notice this. He was checking my arm and leg.
"You were limping slightly but only slightly. If it weren't for me keeping a close eye on you, I would have never noticed. I'm not surprised Reborn didn't notice. He was too busy checking out Akira. I told your Mom about this and looks like she also knew. Well looks like you have a few broken bones which I assume is from when Checkerface paralyzed you" He then sat beside my bed. When Mama walked in and started spreading ointments on some of the wounds.
"H-how did you know?"
"The bones placement were a bit forced. You won't break your bones on purpose except if you can't move. If he tied you then the broken bones serve no reason why they would be broken. So that leaves you paralyzed. With Checkerface's abilities, that's not surprising. This is going to hurt so be careful" He started nudging my bones to the right place then bandaged it afterwards. I winced at the pain but I felt at ease after.
"Thank you, Mama, Gokudera" I started sitting when Mama put a hand on my chest, stopping me.
"Tsu-kun, stay there and rest. Go-kun already explained all about the mafia to me, so don't worry" Wait, what?! Gokudera told him?! I glanced at Gokudera who gave a "I was forced" look to me. I just sighed
"Hai, I will. Gokudera-kun, are you going home now?" I asked him. Mama was already walking out.
"No" Eh? Why? I gave him a confused glance.
"No one will guard you for any assassins if I leave" Gokudera-kun's loyalty is really so great. I still wonder if I'm deserving to such loyalty.
"Gokudera-kun, Thank you for being my friend and my right hand" He looked proud and puffed his chest.
"Of course! I am your right hand! Something like this is nothing!" He grinned. I smiled at him then let myself be whisked away to darkness.
Flashback End
I still can't believe that everyone is letting themselves be in Akira's grasp. They don't have much time for me right now. Well except Gokudera-kun and Mama though. They check on me every day, every hour and every second ever since the others left me. Even if all the other elements has left the sky. It can still continue to watch over others as the storm protects the sky from harm.
But this won't last long. I know this myself. The others went to have their 'normal lives'. They won't want me around me anymore. Even Gokudera and Mama will. Who knows when they'll leave me and have their peaceful lives without the mafia. If they do leave me, I only wish them a happy and safe life away from harm. As I wished for this, I started reminiscing for the memories of the old days.
Flashback
"Yakyuu-baka! Gahahahahaha!" Lambo starts laughing when Gokudera catches him.
"Finally, caught you now, stupid cow!" Lambo starts to scramble around Gokudera
"Ahahaha! This is fun!" Yamamoto laughs while watching the both of them
"Gupyaaa! Let me go, Yakyuu-baka!" He starts to punch Gokudera.
"Argh! This is not funny, you baseball-freak! Damn! Stop scrambling around!" Gokudera glares at Yamamoto and Lambo.
"Fufufu, look Chrome, this is how idiots interact" Mukuro laughs.
"Yes, Mukuro-sama." Chrome continues to watch the quarreling.
"Herbivores" Hibari says while he naps at the tree.
"A-ah, everyone calm down." I tried to calm them down when no one heard me. Lambo starts to cry.
"To…le….rate…" Lambo sniffles when Gokudera accidentally elbowed him. "WAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!" He sobs loudly then throws the 10-year bazooka to nowhere and heads to me.
Flashback End
For some reason, my memory of that day seemed blurry and vivid. I can't remember anything after that. I just lied down again and watched the sky. I hope the others are happy with Akira. This is alright as long as my family is safe and away from harm. I'll go through anything. I felt my vision blur as all I saw was darkness.