A/N: I'd appreciate feedback on this story. I have about nine chapters written so far and would love input to get me motivate to keep going with it!
Chapter 1
The pain she felt was almost unbearable. She struggled to get up from the bed. She was a mess and every move she made caused her to ache even more.
She somehow managed to get dressed and picked up her shoes. She slowly moved to the door and opened it. She was thankful no one was in the hallway as she made her way to the stairs. She wanted to get out of that house as quickly as possible.
She'd only moved a short way when she heard a door open behind her. She froze.
"Well well well," she heard Logan say, "have a little fun up here Ronnie?"
She heard Logan laugh and she choked back the tears that had started to fall. She couldn't face him, not after what had happened. She started to walk away.
"This is new," Logan said, "Veronica Mars not saying a word. Ashamed of what you did?"
Veronica couldn't take it. She broke down. The tears started falling and she collapsed to the ground.
"Geez Veronica, you don't need to be so melodramatic about being caught after having sex," Logan said moving closer to her.
She wanted to say something. To make him go away. She didn't want him to see her like this, especially after the way he'd been treating her lately.
He moved closer to her and put his hand on her shoulder.
"Don't touch me," she cried out, not turning to look at him.
"What the hell," Logan said moving around to be in front of her.
He looked down at her. She was curled into a ball with her head down and her hair falling all around her.
He wanted to leave her there. He shouldn't care that she was crying, but something inside him told him not to walk away. He squatted in front of her and moved to push her hair so he could see his face.
"Oh my god," he said when he finally saw her, "what the hell happened to you!"
Veronica finally looked up and steeled herself. "What do you think happened!" she yelled at him.
She moved to get up. She needed to get away from him. But the pain she felt made her move too slowly.
"What happened?" Logan asked again in a choked whisper. Seeing Veronica like that broke his heart, a heart that he thought shouldn't have any feeling for her but did.
"I was raped," she told him and broke down crying harder than before.
She was surprised when he pulled her into his arms. "I'm taking you to the hospital," he said.
She didn't have the strength to fight with him and quite frankly it was nice to have someone carry her, it hurt a hell of a lot less than walking did at that point.
The ride to the hospital was filled with relative silence. The only sounds were the moans and groans coming from Veronica.
Logan had tried to get her to talk to him about what had happened but she wouldn't say anything. He wondered who had done all that damage to her. Whoever it was, Logan was going to make damn sure he paid.
Logan pulled into a parking spot near the ER entrance and moved to get Veronica out of the car. When he walked through the doors the nurse working at the desk looked up. As soon as she saw Veronica in his arms she picked up the phone and paged a doctor to one of the exam rooms.
She ushered Logan into one of the rooms and instructed him to lay Veronica on the bed.
"I have some forms that are going to need to be filled out," the nurse told Logan, "but we'll just worry about getting her settled in first."
Logan was relieved. He had no clue what would be required to fill out the forms but he was pretty sure he wouldn't be able to do it.
"What's her name?" the nurse asked, wanting to get the basic information out of the way before the doctor got there.
"Veronica Mars," Logan told her.
"Do you know her date of birth?" she asked.
"September 7th 1988," he said.
"Is it safe to assume her dad is Keith Mars?" the nurse asked.
"Yeah," Logan responded.
"I'll go notify him that she's been brought in," she said, "I'm gonna go get her into the system and come back with a hospital bracelet for her."
"Do you mind if I call her dad instead?" Logan asked. "I just think he'd take it better if I was the one to tell him," Logan added.
"Not at all," she said.
She left to go get Veronica into the system and Logan pulled out his cell phone to call the Sheriff's Department. He wasn't sure how Veronica's dad would take the news, but he thought it would be better to hear it from him than the nurse.
Logan was vague when he talked to the receptionist at the sheriff's station. Keith Mars was out on a call, but she told Logan she'd let him know about Veronica. He had a feeling her dad was going to be fuming once he found out what happened at Shelly's party.
After he got off the phone with the sheriff's department he called Lilly. He knew Veronica had gone to the party with her and wondered if Lilly even realized she wasn't there any more. He had a feeling Lilly wouldn't be too happy to be getting a call from him, but he hoped she answered.
"What do you want Logan?" Lilly asked. He could hear the loud music playing in the background.
"You need to get to Neptune Memorial now," Logan told her.
"And why do I need to do that?" she asked, getting more annoyed with him.
"Because I just helped your best friend get admitted," he told her.
"Veronica..." Lilly whispered.
"Yeah," Logan said, "I suggest you haul ass to get here before her dad does."
"What happened?" Lilly asked. Logan could tell she was making her way through the party.
"I'll explain everything when you get here," he told her, "just hurry."
He told her where they were and then hung up. He moved over to the side of the bed. Veronica looked so fragile laying there.
"I'm so sorry this happened to you," he said reaching for her hand, tears starting to form in his eyes. He may have been upset with her for telling Lilly about his kiss with Yolanda, but he'd never wish this on anyone.
A few seconds later the nurse came back with Veronica's hospital ID bracelet and put it on her.
"Her dad wasn't at the station," Logan told the nurse, "but the receptionist promised to notify him that Veronica was here."
"Good," the nurse said, "we're going to need her insurance information for the records."
Just then a doctor entered the room.
"What happened?" she asked Logan.
"She was raped," he told her, trying to stop the tears, "I found her after it had happened."
"Go get a rape kit," the doctor instructed the nurse, "and notify the sheriff's department to send someone over."
The nurse left and the doctor started writing something on Veronica's chart.
"Do you know how long ago it happened?" she asked.
"I'm not sure," Logan told her, "I found her trying to make her way out of a party we were at about thirty minutes ago. She told me she'd been raped and I rushed her over here."
The doctor wrote something else on her chart and looked up at him. "You did the right thing bringing her here as soon as possible," she said.
The nurse came back with the kit and told the doctor they were sending a deputy over.
"Veronica," the doctor said, moving to stand next to the bed, "I'm Dr. Phillips. Your friend said that you were raped tonight."
Veronica opened her eyes and looked at the doctor. Logan didn't even know she was awake. He thought she'd fallen asleep.
"Is that what happened?" the doctor asked.
Veronica nodded her head yes and then broke down. She curled herself into a ball and cried out, "he raped me..."
Logan's heart dropped. He hated seeing her like this, so fragile and broken.
"Veronica," the doctor said, "I had a rape kit brought in. We're going to have to take your clothes and get you into a hospital gown so I can examine you."
Just then the door opened again. Logan looked up and saw Lilly standing there.
"Oh my God," she said moving into the room and closing the door behind her, "what happened to her?"
"Someone raped her at the party," Logan told her.
Logan moved out of the way as Lilly rushed over to Veronica's side, taking hold of the hand Logan had been holding.
"Veronica," Lilly said, "I'm so sorry this happened. I shouldn't have forced you to go to the party. This is my fault!"
Lilly was crying hysterically at that point.
"Would you two mind going to the waiting room so I can start the rape kit," the doctor said.
Logan moved toward the door. Lilly let go of Veronica's hand to follow Logan.
"Lilly," Veronica moaned out, "don't go!"
"You can stay," the doctor said, "but you need to stay out of the way."
"I'll go wait for her dad," Logan said and left the room.
It took a couple hours to get everything for the rape kit. Veronica had been severely injured during the incident. In addition to a cut on her lip, there was bruising on her neck and ribs, and she had some tearing inside her vagina.
Lilly felt horrible for her best friend. Being raped was not the way to lose your virginity.
The doctor was having the semen sample and blood samples she gathered sent to the lab to be analyzed. Lilly had seen the doctor put some pubic hair in a vial to be sent off for testing too. She had drawn blood to run tests for STDs and pregnancy.
Whoever had done this was stupid and was going to pay!
"I'm gonna go get the deputy," the doctor told them after she'd sent a nurse off with the rape kit.
"My dad," Veronica cried out.
"Do you want me to go get him?" Lilly asked.
"No!" Veronica practically yelled. "I don't want him to see me like this," she said, crying yet again.
She was embarrassed and didn't want her father to see her just then.
"I'll go wait with him and Logan while you talk to whichever deputy they sent over," Lilly said.
"Thank you Lilly," Veronica said through the tears.
"It's the least I can do," Lilly said and then left.
Veronica had been happy that Inga had sent Deputy Sacks. He was easier to talk to than Lamb.
After she told him everything she remembered about what happened he left to go get her dad. She was finally ready to see him.
A minute later the door opened and her dad rushed to her.
"Oh sweetie," he said pulling her into his arms.
Veronica moaned. It hurt to move because of the bruising on her ribs.
"I'm so sorry," her dad said letting go of her. She wasn't sure if he was sorry for making her hurt just then or for the rape happening.
"Logan told me he found you and brought you here," her dad said.
"Yeah," she said, not wanting to elaborate.
"I know you told Sacks who did this," her dad said, "and if I wanted I could check his notes to find out. But I'd rather hear it from you."
Veronica knew he'd find out one way or another. It would be best for her to just tell him and get it over with.
"It was Duncan," Veronica whispered out, "he wasn't himself..."
"Oh God Veronica," he said the astonishment evident in his voice. He collapsed on the stool next to her bed.
"He was being so sweet to me," Veronica told him, "I thought he wanted to get back together and then something changed. He started getting violent and I tried to leave the room..."
"Veronica you don't have to tell me everything," her dad said. He didn't need to know all the details of what had happened to his only daughter.
"Is Logan still here?" Veronica asked.
"Yeah, he's in the waiting room with Lilly," he told her.
"Can you send him in please?" Veronica asked.
"Sure sweetie," he said, "I'm gonna head back to the station and see what's going on with the case. You might want to tell Lilly about Duncan before she finds out about him being brought in from her parents."
"Can you go get both of them for me then," she said.
"Sure. I love you Veronica," her dad said leaning down to kiss her before leaving.
Lilly and Logan came back to her room a couple minutes later.
"Your dad asked us to stay with you since he had to go back to the station," Logan told her.
"I kind of figured he would," Veronica said.
Lilly moved to sit on the stool Keith had vacated and reached for Veronica's hand.
"Logan," Veronica said, still looking at him, "thank you, you know, for bringing me here."
"You're welcome," he said. "You know, as soon as I saw you I felt bad for what I'd said," he added, "and if I could take it all back I would."
"It's fine Logan," Veronica said, "you had no idea what had happened when you said it."
Logan just stayed standing at the foot of her bed.
"You could come sit," Veronica said to Logan, motioning to the chair on the side of the bed opposite Lilly.
"There's something you two should know," Veronica said as Logan moved to finally sit down.
"You don't have to talk about what happened," Lilly said.
"Yes I do," Veronica said, tears forming in her eyes once again. "I want you to hear it from me," Veronica said, "not your parents or the media."
"What are you talking about?" Lilly asked, completely confused at the moment.
"It was Duncan," Veronica managed to get out through her tears.
Lilly dropped Veronica's hand and brought it to her mouth. She couldn't believe Duncan had done this to Veronica.
"They sent a deputy to the party to bring him in," Veronica told them.
"Holy hell," Logan said.
"If you want to go down to the station to be with your family Lil I'll understand," Veronica said, calming herself down.
"I'll stay," Logan said.
"I can't believe Donut would do this," Lilly said, moving to get up.
"He wasn't himself Lil," Veronica said, "well he was at first, but something changed."
"Oh my God," Lilly said, realizing what had happened.
"What is it Lilly?" Veronica asked.
"I've gotta go," she said, getting up and rushing from the room.
"Any idea what that was about?" Veronica asked Logan.
"None," he said.
A nurse came in the room a few seconds later. "I've got some pain medicine for you," she said walking over to the IV that had been started for Veronica, "I also have a sedative for you. Dr. Phillips wants you to rest. Your body's been through a lot and you need time to let it recover."
Veronica was out a few minutes later and Logan just sat there looking at her. He couldn't believe his best friend had done what he had to Veronica, but he also didn't think Veronica was lying. She had obviously been completely aware during the rape and he was sure that made it much worse for her. He couldn't imagine having that done to you.
Logan had called his parents when he'd first gone to the waiting room. He'd told them where he was and why. He figured he should call them again and let them know he wouldn't be coming home. They'd understand.
He left Veronica's room and went in search of the cafeteria for coffee. He asked a nurse at the desk for directions and told her to page him if anything changed with Veronica.
He got a cup of coffee and sat at one of the tables in the cafeteria. He pulled out his cell phone and called his house.
His mom answered after a couple rings. He told her he was staying at the hospital that night and then broke down.
"Duncan was the one who raped her," he told his mom through tears, "I can't believe he did that to her."
"Oh sweetie," Lynn said. "Do you want me to come over there so we can talk?"
"No," Logan said, "I think I'm gonna go back to Veronica's room and try to get some sleep while she's knocked out."
"Call me tomorrow morning and let me know how Veronica's doing," she said before they hung up.
Logan went back to Veronica's room and just sat there staring at her for the longest time. He eventually fell asleep in the chair with his head on the bed right next to Veronica's hand, which he had in his.