WHERE DO YOU GO?
DISCLAIMER :: I DO NOT OWN THESE CHARACTERS I HAVE MERELY WRITTEN A FEW DRABBLES ABOUT MY FAVOURITE TV SHOW AND FAVOURITE COUPLE OLICITY.
Felicity looked outside of her window looking down at Lian Yu, like she said before the island looked much more beautiful than the first time round. Oliver was flying the plane with Dig next to him; she knew that once they went back to Starling that everything would be different. The city had changed dramatically, she was now officially out of a job and needed income, team arrow was different, the foundry had been compromised and there was the possibility of new members joining. Not to forget that the stitch up designed by Oliver to take down Slade, in that moment where he told her he loved her she completely believed it; it had been so long since someone had told her they loved her. Since she came into the team and her growing closeness to Oliver she couldn't help but feel butterflies but she always pushed those feelings out, but in that moment if it hadn't been for him putting the cure in her hand when she realised what he meant, she too was so close to saying I love you too. She now looked out of the window relieved that he had placed the cure in her hands just before she said it back, it would have been harder to say she playing along as well. The sky was blue without a cloud in sight Oliver flew the plane low as they had stop in Hong Kong and catch a flight back to Starling. Felicity stared at Oliver and Diggle she realised that they seemed calm, hardly spoke and just looked straight ahead; this was expected they were all exhausted and couldn't wait to go home and catch up on much needed sleep.
Once the team got back to Starling they were greeted by Laurel, Laurel had come to pick them up with her car, she stood outside her car her brunette hair glistened in the sun and her eyes beamed, Felicity thought 'wow gorgeous Laurel, looked even more gorgeous, was that even possible?'. Oliver walked up to her and smiled. "Ollie", Laurel squeaked extending her arms to embrace Oliver she held on to him for a while, Oliver knew that Laurel held on to him a bit longer than necessary and even though his back was turned from Felicity and Diggle, Oliver could feel them glaring at him. "My Dad is finally feeling better, it was nothing serious thank God." She was only addressing Oliver turning her back away from Diggle and Felicity, "He should be back on his feet in time".
At this point Oliver grabbed her for another hug showing his relief that Lance was ok, he then turned to face his team "Guys once we get back, go home get some rest, Dig Lyla needs you, setting up the new foundry can wait until tomorrow, we all deserve some much needed sleep". They both nodded. Laurel drove them back to Starling, they stopped near Verdant and Diggle got out going to his car, he said his goodbyes and offered Felicity a ride home, before she could reply Oliver said that Laurel could drive her home he wanted to make sure himself that she got home. A part of Felicity wanted to get out of that car and head for Diggle she couldn't stand Laurel ignoring her and Diggle the entire journey and she only spoke to Oliver, discussing what recently went on and how she was so terrified when they took her but since she found out that Oliver was Arrow, she told him, she knew that he would be there to save her so she wasn't worried. Laurel began to drive Felicity home, her blue mini cooper was so cramped they didn't know how they managed to get in, Felicity's blue eyes lit up when she saw her house, her tiny house sat there calling her name, it missed her, Felicity looked at her porch and noticed her flowers had been destroyed, she thought hooligans, who would want to destroy flowers, when she first moved in she had taken the time out to make her porch presentable and all that hard work and waking up every day to water them had gone down the drain. The car stopped, Oliver took off his seat belt, "Felicity I'll walk you in" he said his blue eyes looking at her, she couldn't help but still notice his bruises, some looked pretty bad and all she thought about was she hoped they wouldn't scare his beautiful face. She just nodded, however before either even got out Laurel spoke "Oliver, I just realised where are you going to live?" Her face was serious, she looked at Oliver, and she could see it just hit him that he had nowhere to go his eyes looked down as he tried to think of what he was going to do. Before Felicity could open her mouth to invite Oliver to hers knowing that all though she did own a house it was tiny, she called her house Betty, she was addicted to Ugly Betty, she recognised Betty as being someone who didn't attempt or look so pretty on the outside but was beautiful on the inside, at the time it made sense to her but she wouldn't tell anybody that her house was called Betty. "Ollie, you're going to stay with me, and do not argue, it's not like you haven't practically lived there before, I will not have you stay in your lair, ok? No arguments". It was as if Laurel knew what she was doing and she was playing some game, Felicity just tried pushing it and the back of her head she didn't want to sound so paranoid.
Oliver looked at Felicity he noticed her staring at Laurel, her eyes told him that she felt a little hurt but she turned around and looked at him and smiled, even when this girl was hurting she always gave the most genuine smiles to him and this frustrated the hell out of him, part of him wanted her to say my place is also free, or that he should stay with Dig, instead she opened the door took her bag and told Oliver she can manage walking to door on her own and she said goodbye to the pair of them, smiling and telling them to have a nice night.
Felicity stood there as she watched Laurel drive away, she couldn't help but feel like she was losing something, something that she doesn't have to begin with, she stared straight down the street, like a deer in headlights, it was mid-afternoon and the sun beamed down on her. Although the sun hit Felicity's body she felt cold, Goosebumps started to show on her arms, she wrapped her arms around herself and headed towards her door. She kept looking at her poor dead flowers, lily flowers on the floor with tread marks all over, as she walked up the stone steps to her door, she noticed it was open. She froze she didn't know what to do, should she enter or should she call someone? She let go of her gym bag and grabbed a gnome that was sitting on her porch, the gnomes looked so appealing at the garden store, she couldn't resist, they reminded her of Lepricorns, she remembered when she brought the gnome she stood in the store having an argument with a teenager who tried selling her the gnome and tell her it was spelt with just an n, she argued telling him that even though it doesn't make sense why gnome would have a g in it but it did. She walked in looked around her house it was completely trashed, things had been smashed up, cutlery, her TV, her windows, "Whoever you are I've called the police they are on their way" she called out clutching the gnome for dear life. Norbit the gnome couldn't do anything even if there was somebody in the house but he gave Felicity some confidence when walking around her house, she clutched to it so tight that her blue nail vanish began to chip. Once she realised she was alone and nobody was in the house she let go of Norbit, "Whoa that was scary Norbit, glad nobody was in here might have had to hit them with you and you probably would've suffered a crumbling death" she began to laugh at herself, Felicity often said things that amused herself. She noticed that nothing had been missing, but everything was trashed, she came to the conclusion that Slade's men must have been at her house and they did this.
She went to the cupboards and pulled out some bin bags and began to tidy, until there was a knock on her door. Felicity ran and grabbed Norbit she walked to the door "who is it?" scared to walk any closer to the door, "it's Roy", Roy said, he stood outside her door looking at the door so hard as if he had some magic power willing it open. Felicity ran and opened the door, and Roy just walked in, sure she thought to himself come in by all means. Roy's face was stone cold he turned around and stared at the blonde, "Felicity, Thea left, she found out about me helping the Arrow, and took off, and apparently when I was a super soldier I attacked the landlord so he kicked me out, and Sin's home has been destroyed she's staying … well I don't know where she's staying I just… I don't have anywhere, it's still crazy out there id sleep on the street, I mean I've done it before …" Roy was shaking, looking at the floor, looking at her. "Roy, you can stay here on my couch for as long as you need, ok" Felicity took hold of his hand and gave it a squeeze, to think this was the Roy she was so scared of, he was just a lost kid, much like herself trying to find a place in this world, she guessed that he probably had it more rough than she did, but she understood. "Thank you Felicity, just until it quietens down, then the streets will be safer to sleep" his face was serious, his face features tightened. "Roy don't be stupid, you can stay for as long as you like, until you find a place, if you don't find a place then you are staying here not out on the street, hell we can even buy one of those air mattresses, you can pump it at night and release the air in the morning". She smiled at him and placed her hand on his back guiding him to the living room, Roy couldn't help but notice that the place was trashed and he realised it could only be one thing, Slade. He saw that she had begun clearing up with the black bin bags and he took one and began to help.
The rest of the night they were silent, both cleared as fast as they could as neither could wait to get into bed, Roy couldn't help but notice that everything had been smashed her cutlery, her star wars figurines, she didn't throw the figurines out though, and she just picked up all the pieces and put them in a box. She made up the couch which was in fact a pull up bed, she placed a sheet over it, a few pillows and a couple of blankets and to Roy it looked like heaven, he couldn't wait to jump in. It was 3.45am when they said good night and went to bed Roy was thinking about Thea, why hadn't she just stayed and let him explain? His body ached and his eyes were dreary he shut them for a minute and he feel asleep instantly not moving once.
Felicity woke up, she stared at the ceiling for a little while, she was still a little sore and tired, her body couldn't move, she turned her head and looked at the clock it was 10, she began to panic and looked for her phone expecting thousands of calls and messages from Oliver. She found it, only one message addressing both her and Diggle. Guys have a lie in, you deserve it; let's meet at the new lair at 1 for lunch. She relaxed, she got up, had a shower, got dressed, and tiptoed passed Roy and went to get them a coffee and a bagel for breakfast. She got back and Roy was still asleep, she walked to the kitchen and pulled out her tablet, reading the latest news. Roy woke up and Felicity gestured him to the shower giving him a towel, he came back and they had breakfast and then headed to the foundry.
When they got to the foundry Oliver, Diggle, and Laurel were there setting up a few things and arranging some furniture. They all looked when they came, "Hey" said Diggle looking at them with a smile, glad to see them looking fresh and ready, "hey" they both said at the same time. Oliver looked at Roy, he looked confused, he hadn't sent Roy a text and he was pretty sure Roy didn't know the location of the new lair; did Felicity call him and ask him to come? Roy could see Oliver looking at him, wondering why and how he was there before he could open his mouth Felicity spoke. "Hope you guys slept, was anybody else's place trashed, seriously did Slade's men have the break everything, even my cutlery and glasses and mugs, what did they think I was hiding in the cupboards, behind the plates? Seriously … I'm small … I'm not that small" she said as she switched on the computers, she had managed to salvage some of the old computers that had been destroyed in the old lair. "It took us pretty much all night to clean it up".
Oliver looked at her when she mentioned 'we', "what do you mean we?" he asked looking at her with a stern look on his face, then turned and faced Roy. Before Felicity could explain, "Yeah, I apparently got angry at the landlord, kicked me out, Felicity offered me her couch" Roy could see that Oliver wasn't impressed, what was with this guy, he should be happy he isn't living on the street, "Until I find something more suitable". He quickly added so that Oliver could relax. Felicity glanced at Oliver, and then back at Roy, "Don't be silly Roy, I told you, you can stay as long as you like, and when we get home, I have a spare room, which has a bunch of stuff, like old computers and … well just stuff, we can empty put in the garage and you can get yourself a bed, the couch isn't comfortable, I should know I fall asleep on it watching Star Trek". She stopped and everyone looked at her as she was deep in thought, "I love Star Trek, but I do fall asleep watching it, I wonder if I really like it or that I get extremely tired and can't make it through an episode". Diggle started laughing, and walked over to her, Laurel began to say something to Oliver but Felicity was still in thought, she was actually deliberating with herself with or not she was a fan of the show or if her double life was beginning to take a toll on her.
Roy went to help Laurel and Diggle with some of the mats Oliver brought from the old lair to train. Oliver came up to Felicity; he looked at her and placed his hand on her back "Do you think it's a good idea to have Roy stay with you , I know the Mirarkuru is out of his system, but we don't know if he is still angry, it might not of just disappeared like that …" Oliver had pleading eyes, he knew that Roy was fine, but he just didn't want him staying with Felicity and it confused him as to why, nothing of that sort would ever happen but he just didn't want him with her in anyway. "Oliver, Roy is fine seriously, he won't hurt me so you have nothing to worry about … besides I have been on my own for so long it will be nice to have some to go home too … I mean not that Roy is like that … boyfriend or lover or whatever you want to call it" she looked at him smiling, "What I'm trying to say is that it will be nice to not be lonely for once, even if it is Roy and he probably will not say much" she touched his arm and then sat down to face her computers.
The next few weeks had gone by so quickly the city was beginning to get back to normal, people were rebuilding their lives, Team Arrow had gotten back into their stride, the foundry, catching criminals all of it. In the weeks that had gone past since Slade unleashed his attack, things were different; Felicity was thinking at her computers, it was a slow day nothing was really happening. She paused and thought of how different things were now, Diggle was in and out, not always there, her best friend someone she knew always had her back and her side through anything, of course she was so happy to hear that Lyla was pregnant. When Diggle told her and Oliver they were both so excited and thrilled for him, he deserved to be happy and he deserved to be a father, Felicity had even began to cry because she was so overjoyed for him. They had gone out that night the three of them to celebrate. Laurel had started training with Oliver, he was reluctant to allow her but she spilled some nonsense about making her feel closer to Sara, Felicity thought she used that as an excuse so Oliver wouldn't feel guilty. Laurel spent so much time in the lair but she never made an effort to talk to Felicity, it was merely a Hi, how are you, where is Oliver, small talk. Laurel had been working on trying to find a loop hole in getting Oliver's company back, she kept saying she was close but she never got anywhere. Oliver would make an effort to talk to her but it was always cut short, either by the latest criminal or Laurel who would insist on talking or diverting his attention away from her. It was because of all of this she was glad she had Roy, he had become such a good friend to her, he watched movies with her, had made her dinner one night and he was always there to talk, they shared stories of their past and found out their lives weren't that different.
Felicity knew Oliver's birthday was coming up, she wanted to throw him a party in the lair, just the five of them, and make it a surprise. Everyone would be in the lair anyways and she would get Laurel to come in with him later, it was so last minute she didn't tell Roy or Diggle, she figured there was much too do, cake, drinks, food and that Roy and Dig would be there anyways for their usually routine. Felicity had text Laurel telling her what she had arranged and that she should bring Oliver around 8. She sat in her usually chair and waited she looked so pleased with herself and she grinned so hard, she was happy and she couldn't wait to see his face.
When Oliver walked in to his surprise party he was completely shocked, he had forgotten it was his birthday, so much was going on, how could he remember. But he did think to himself of course Laurel would remember. He was surprised at how many people had turned up, some old friends from college and high school, he was surprised at his college friends he was only there a year and here they were. He looked and found Diggle and Roy and he was pleased that they were there the only people that matter; they wished him a happy birthday. Oliver couldn't help but look around and try and find Felicity, where was she, she wouldn't miss this for anything he knew that for a fact. Laurel came and stood right by him, "Having fun?" she asked her eyes beaming at him, she looked beautiful she wore a red dress, just above her knee, it was tight and her hair was slicked back in a ponytail. "Yeah I am, thanks for this, I'm glad Dig and Roy made it" he smiled back at her, wanting to ask they only question that mattered. "Where's Felicity is she hiding, going to come out with some cake or something" he made it sound like he wasn't asking if she was there or not, as he waited desperately to hear where she was. "Oh … Ollie I'm sorry I didn't invite her", she pulled Oliver into her bedroom so they could speak privately, Oliver looked disgusted, how could she not invite her, his eyebrows hung and he looked at her very sternly. "Ollie, we said now more than ever you need to keep your identities hidden, you're no longer Oliver Queen CEO, and so it wouldn't make sense for your secretary to be here, I wasn't going to invite Diggle, but you needed to have at least one real friend here, nobody would think twice about your bodyguard, driver coming, you did spend a lot of time with him and Roy well, Roy was your sister's boyfriend so that would make sense". "Ollie I wanted you to have a birthday party, you deserve to be surrounded by people who love you, I want you to never forget this birthday." She smiled at him and kissed him on the cheek. Yeah Oliver thought, he would remember it as the birthday were Felicity wasn't invited, surrounded by people who love you, she is the only person he wants to be surrounded by.
After the party they all headed to the lair, when they walked in Oliver noticed, Felicity was asleep, with a cone hat on saying happy birthday Oliver; she had gotten the cone hat made. She was clocked out, her body in the computer chair, her arms on the table supporting her head. Oliver looked around; there was a banner, a cake, drinks, some food, Chinese his favourite. Oliver looked at Diggle and Roy, they both looked surprised as well, and they didn't plan this, Oliver felt so guilty, his heart beating he swallowed a couple of times, she did this for him and he hadn't shown up, he went somewhere else to celebrate and she lay here alone. He knelt to her level and brushed a strand of hair of her face, she had dressed herself in a dark green dress and Oliver couldn't help but notice that the bottom left of the dress had an arrow imprinted on it in white, he smiled, she had obviously worn the dress for him. "Felicity" he whispered, he whispered her name a couple of more times, it was really low, so he understood why she didn't hear him, he whispered because he knew if he spoke properly that he would let out some sort of croak or something knowing that she was here all alone, he felt so guilty. She woke up and looked at him in the eyes "Oh my God, wait, wait move back, SURPRISE, HAPPY BIRTHDAY, I feel asleep I'm so sorry," she looked happy and Oliver knew that she had yet to realise what had happened. "Well it's not really a surprise when you woke me up" she chuckled and shot a glance at Diggle "Dig why wouldn't you wake me, Laurel I sent you the text saying come later, did you guys all come in together?" She asked everyone, especially Oliver felt guilty, she picked up her phone and looked at it, it was 1.40am. "Whoa, its morning, but … I …. What happened are you guys ok? … was there an attack … Omg I was asleep and the comms were off .. Are you guys hurt.. I'm so so sorry I have no idea what came over me I …". "Felicity" it was Roy who spoke, "No … we were at Laurel's she threw Oliver a surprise party" he looked at her, Roy wished he could take some of the things she was feeling at that moment, humiliation, hurt.
"Ohhh .. right .. I see, you were all celebrating" she couldn't keep her eyes off the ground holding back the tears. "Oliver I hope you had a nice night and enjoyed your birthday, I guess it's over now, I can't really wish you a happy birthday if the day is gone right" she stood there playing with her hands. "So maybe next year ill wish you one" she took off her hat and placed it on the table "I need the ladies room, I drank a whole load of water didn't want to start on the drinks, hah … glad I didn't wow a whole what 5 hours later I would of probably died from alcohol posing" she laughed and made her way to the bathroom. Once inside she clasped a hand over her mouth and began to cry, she tried so hard to ensure that nobody could hear her, she turned on the tap and lay on the floor, they had all celebrated his birthday without her. Why did they not want her there, did Oliver not want some ditzy blonde babbling to all his friends, embarrassing. She cleaned herself up, looked in the mirror, good looks like nothing happened. When she came out it was just Oliver, "Felicity …" "It's fine Oliver, you don't have to explain anything to me, I get it, I just hope you had a good time that's all that matters" she smiled at him, "I'm going to clear these things away, your probably going to get here early and train so you need this place clean, don't want to trip and land with your head in the cake, actually id pay money to see that" she laughed and began to clear away things. "Felicity, I didn't know about the party I didn't know that you weren't invited …". He was cut off, "Oliver like I said its fine, my fault really left it last minute didn't tell Dig, or Roy I thought they would be here usually time so I would tell them then, I feel asleep, should've stayed awake, could've called to see where you guys were" she didn't look at him but she grabbed the cake which she had gotten shaped in an arrow and trashed in the garbage can, Oliver looked at her, he did like the cake but it was reckless for her to get something like that. "Oo right the cake … yeah fat Ernie at the bakery had made several of these, said that kids were buying them because they wanted to be like the Arrow so I thought I'd buy one as well, I don't know why they call fat Ernie, fat Ernie his not even that fat, a little stomach, beer belly, we were sharing tips, how I could get fat and how he could shed some pounds and …".
"Felicity …".
"Did you notice that I wasn't there?" She asked the question had been looming in her mind for some time, wanted to know if he cared, if he realised and then wanted to invite her. "Yes … I did and I wanted to invite you ….".
"Then why didn't you?" she asked looking directly at him this time.
"Because Laurel … because Laurel said that now more than ever we needed to keep our secret identities, yes Dig was there but it would have looked more suspicious if my former EA was there and …"
"Right I see, Laurel said that, I can see where she's coming from" She cut him off again. She finished cleaning and grabbed her coat and bag and headed towards Oliver with a box "It's for you, I really do hope you enjoyed yourself last night Oliver, you deserve some down time, good night, well good morning but you know what I mean". She squeezed Oliver's shoulder, something he has done to her on multiple occasions, and he watched her walk away. He opened the box and found an arrow, it was small and had a Chinese symbol on it, Oliver recognized it immediately it was the symbol for believe. He pulled out his phone and texted her, thanking her for the most beautiful and thoughtful present someone had ever got him, he was lost for words, he had hurt her in the worst imaginable way, why didn't he just invite her who cares, he felt guilty and angry he took his shirt off and started hitting the dummies, letting his frustration out, you idiot Oliver Queen.
As Felicity tried to hold back the tears when she got to her car, she saw Laurel standing there next to her car looking up at her, she scanned Laurel and thought she looked beautiful, her dress was faultless, she walked up to her "Hey" she looked as her and held her key up making it visible so that she would get the hint and move away so she could get in and head home before she starts to drown in her own tears. "Felicity, I just wanted to say I'm sorry that I didn't invite you tonight, I got your text later and felt really bad" Laurel looked at her, tilted her head and smiled. All Felicity could think was, you sure don't sound sorry. "It's fine, I'm glad Oliver got to spend his birthday with his friends, let loose a bit, he deserves some down time and …"
"He does, doesn't he, he had a great time and he looked so at ease and happy, happy than he has been in a while, look I wanted us to talk" she looked at Felicity as she just managed to unlock her car. "Erm sure .. what do you want to talk about?" Felicity asked confused. "Felicity before you interrupt me, please just let me say everything that I want to say, it will be easier if you don't cut in and then go off about something …".
"OK, what do you …", Felicity looked confused as ever had she done something to her? "Felicity, please just let me say my piece, girl to girl, it was hard when Oliver got back because he wasn't been honest with me about him being the Arrow, but now that I know, it is easier, there are no more secrets, it was secrets that kept us from being together, I love Oliver and I know he loves me too, I mean he always has, yes he loves Sara, but not in the way he loves me, me and Ollie we have that special spark its always been me and him." She looked at Felicity before she started again "Slade took me because he wanted to kill the woman Oliver loves and that night proved to me just how much he loves me because he was willing to do anything to stop Slade and get me back, that's where you came in he used you as bait to save me" she smiled looking up at the sky then turned back to face her. "I have no idea how you are not pissed, because if somebody used me and disregarded me to save the real person they care about then I would be so pissed, but that's the difference between me and you, you see good in everyone and choose to ignore the bad and that is why people walk all over you. You need to stand up for yourself you know, listen all I'm saying is that I'm sure me and Oliver and going to get back together it's a matter of time and I would appreciate if you kept your distance so he can be there and see me clearly". She looked at Felicity, whose eyes were red from trying to hold back her tears, "Felicity I'm sorry, I know it must hurt that Oliver used you …" she leaned in an gave her a hug which Felicity did not return. "It must hurt to know that he was willing to sacrifice you for me but I guess that's what love does to a person huh … I was shocked when he did that angry at him of course, I mean Slade could have used the sword on you at any time, then told his goons to kill me and Oliver would have been distraught. All I'm trying to say is give him space, distance yourself from him, I know you care and have feelings but they will never be returned, so stop trying to be desperate for his attention and degrade yourself for a man who will never care about you, move on, of course still help with Arrow and QC but Ollie he will never want anything more than your help". She gave Felicity a good night hug and walked back to the lair, Felicity jumped into her car and began to ball her eyes out, Laurel was right, he would never care about her, he would never love her, he used her to save Laurel, she loves him so much that if he had filled her in on the plan, or asked her to save Laurel then she would for him. But she realised he didn't tell her because if things to go right then he would be ok if she died helping him instead of actually agreeing to help him for Laurel, that would probably hurt him more knowing that she agreed to sacrifice herself for Laurel.
The next day at the foundry Felicity was quiet she said her hellos to everyone and went to her computers, she was hurt, she couldn't believe that she missed his birthday that they all had celebrated expect her; he knew she wasn't there and he didn't even call to invite her. Not to mention her conversation with Laurel, or more of Laurel telling her to stop being a desperate whore and keep away from her man. The night was slow and quiet Felicity turned her head and looked at Oliver and Laurel, he was smiling at her, he had such a big smile on his face, he leaned in and touched Laurel's shoulder. Felicity's heart started pounding she couldn't help but feel that the shoulder touch was on for her, was she being selfish by saying this. She then notice Laurel lean in and kiss Oliver, literally right in front her, all Felicity could do was turn quickly and face the computer, she could feel tears trying to burst through her eyes but she fought hard to keep them back. What Felicity didn't see was Oliver pull away and look shocked he didn't want this, he never intended on leading Laurel on, or for her to kiss him, he turned his head and see a blonde head moving and fingers typing frantically, he knew that she saw and his heart sank. Before Oliver could say anything to Laurel, she walked away telling him she will see him tonight. Oliver walked over to Felicity not knowing what to say he said the only thing that seemed appropriate "Hey, what you doing?" what a stupid question he thought, why didn't he just ask if he had seen what had happened and explain the she kissed him and that he pulled away, he only had eyes for one woman. "Heyy, nothing I'm just installing this new program, is Roy here yet he is giving me a lift home … well he borrowed my car so technically he is driving me home in my car" she looked at him and smiled and turned back to the computers. Oliver knew that the smile was genuine, she always genuinely smiled at him, it was never fake, he would know, but he did know that she was hurt; he could see it in her eyes, sadness, disappointment even anger, and she had every right to be he thought, Oliver knew that he was practically stringing her along but he cared about so much. A few minutes later Roy turned up and he and Felicity left, Oliver watched her walk away, why didn't he explain himself to her, tell her that what happened was out of his control and meant nothing. Why didn't he straighten it out with her, in his own twisted way, he knew why, he had to keep her at arm's length he couldn't allow himself to go there with her, she deserved so much more than him and better, he shut his eyes and let out a sigh, the best thing to ever happen to him just walked away again.
Roy and Felicity were in the car, Felicity was beginning to fall asleep, Roy turned to look at her for a second and didn't notice the dog that ran right in front of him, he swirled his car away from it, the car began to go down a hill or should you say roll down a hill, all Roy could remember was Felicity's scream. Roy opened his eyes he was pinned to his chair the car was upside down, his face hurt and his arm felt like it had been broken in several places, it hurt like hell, he turned to face Felicity, he placed a hand on her neck looking for a pulse, he sighed when he found it. He managed to unbuckle himself and crawl out of the car, he stopped for a breather, but could smell petrol, he turned his head and the back wheel had a small fire burning, he knew there wasn't much time, he had to get Felicity out of there. He broke Felicity's window, unbuckled her, his arm shooting with pain, he lifted her, but her body seemed lifeless, Roy had gripped her legs and her back, but her arms were hanging loose and her head laid back, Roy couldn't lift her, he walked slowly, his arm giving out, he tried to pick up the pace just as the car exploded. The explosion was loud and it looked like fireworks, when it exploded it pushed Roy out, as it did Roy dropped Felicity, all he could do was grab hold of her hand.
At the hospital Oliver pleaded with the hospital to let him in to see Felicity, they said that doctors were working on her, he didn't listen and barged straight in, her body laid on there, still, they had cut her t-shirt she laid there bare in a green bra. She looked cold, Oliver just wanted to go over there and throw himself on top of her to keep her warm, the doctor faced Oliver telling him he shouldn't be there but added that she was going to be alright but she did crash and they had to resuscitate her. Oliver fist tightened, he could of lost her, she could've died, could've died thinking he doesn't care, could've died remembering Laurel and him. He looked at her body and couldn't help but realise this was the first time he saw her without a shirt, her skin so clear and perfect, not a single mark, nothing he looked at her again and noticed something some ink. He moved a little closer even though the doctor told him not to, he was curious, she never mentioned she had a tattoo. He noticed the tattoo it was sitting right on top of her ribcage just underneath her bra; the words said Nobody's Home.
A few hours later Felicity woke, she noticed three men in her room, Oliver, Diggle and Roy "Hey … o my poor car, it still had so many more years to live" they all began laughing. Oliver grabbed her hand "Hey … how you feeling?" He looked at her face serious his eyes moving back and forth looking at her eyes her mouth, scanning everything to ensure she was fine. "Yeah Flick how you feeling, I'm so sorry I … the dog came out of nowhere" Roy looked bad, in shock, he looked sad, Felicity reached out her other arm "Hey I'm fine ok, it wasn't your fault and I'm fine, your fine, that's all that matters" she smiled at him and squeezed his hand.
When Felicity got home after the accident, something had sparked inside of her, she didn't know why but she felt like she had to change, of course she had worse near death experiences, but somehow the crash but things into perspective. Oliver had gotten his company back, Laurel had managed to say something along the lines of Isabel was behind Thea's kidnap and blackmailed Oliver into handing over the Company and a whole load of other lawyer jibish that she did not understand but felt like she had just said it to confuse her. Felicity looked in the mirror; she thought to herself why am I bothering with Oliver Queen, he will never be interested in me. Slade and Laurel were right he went for strong women, Shado, Laurel, Sara, McKenna, Helena even Isabel. She wasn't a strong woman, she was poor little helpless Felicity, it must be frustrating having to save her constantly she thought. She needed to change this, she realised that Oliver doesn't love her or care about her; if he did then he wouldn't be shoving his relationships with all these women in her face. She knew that she would have to go back at work as his EA, but she blocked out all feelings for Oliver, from now on she would be his employee at work, do the paperwork, schedule meetings, get the board room ready and fetch him coffee. Yes she thought even coffee, that's what secretaries do, and when they got to the lair, they were colleagues, people who work together to reach a common goal, she would help with all the tech stuff but she wouldn't offer herself for any field work, field work was over for Felicity Smoak. And she told herself that she would have to stop all those comments about the ladder and him shirtless and other things that made her babble and that she would have to find a way of reducing the amount of contact between them, not allow him to touch her as that always melted her heart, and to stay out of talking him out of things or into things, he was a grown ass man he could make his own decisions.
Felicity had gotten ready for work, she had also decided in the morning she was going to aim to dress more casually smart, people already thought she was sleeping with the boss, she didn't want to wear short dresses, or skirts to fuel that idea any further. She slipped on some tight black trousers, they were borderline jeans, but still very smart, she had put on a loose black vest and put a blazer on top, she liked her blazer, it was new and long, the ones that cover your ass. She put her hair in her usual ponytail and wore some flat beige shoes. When she got to work she walked over to her area and dropped the piles of paper down, she was up for hours going through it, and Oliver needed to sign so many documents to finalize getting the company back. Oliver was sitting at his desk already signing a few things, she knocked on the door, Oliver looked up, he was somehow taken by what he saw, she looked different, not her dressy dressy self but she looked beautiful he thought. "Morning Felicity" he smiled at her, she walked up to him handing him more documents to sign "Morning" she smiled back, "Can I get you a coffee?" she looked at him, she stood straight and waited for an answer. "You're not really offering me coffee right?" he looked confused, she was so adamant and stubborn about never fetching him coffee. "Yes I am … Mr Queen … would you like a coffee?" she still stood there, Olive nodded and she turned and walked out. Oliver didn't know if she called him Mr Queen as her way of getting an answer out of him or if she said because she wanted to seem professional at work, but he didn't understand there was nobody around.
The next few weeks were hard Felicity had to constantly open and close her mouths and stop things from coming out. Oliver had noticed that she was different, she called him Mr Queen and did paper work, and all the EA stuff, and in the lair, she never seemed to suggest anything like she used to she just told him where the bad guys were and always told him to be safe. He knew something was fishy when there was guy who was attacking blondes couldn't be found, he was sure that once news of this psychopath was heard she would suggest going undercover to lure him in but she didn't, she tried to track him down and had no luck. It had been Laurel who wore a blonde wig and lured the guy out of hiding. There were also other things he noticed how she always spoke and made jokes and laugh with Roy and Diggle, she had attempted to make him join in a few times but he could tell she was trying to be nice. He noticed that she flinched and moved away from his touches, he noticed that she spoke to him, but never looked him in the eye, she never argued with him, she never said No if he asked her to do something business related and she practically never called his name only if he wasn't aware of her or on the comms when she had to in order to tell him where to go. He missed her, he missed touching her, he missed her arguing with him, he missed the way she would say his name and stare at him and practically win very battle she started with him, he even missed her suggesting to go into the field because she would put up such a strong fight that Oliver could never win, But most of all he missed her, laugh, her smile, it wasn't the same when she heard or saw her from afar, or smiling at Digg or Roy, those smiles and laughs were not for him, he missed her giving him advice and strength and speeches about how much of a hero he was. He missed her attending to his wounds and the look her face when he was hurt, he wanted her back, and he wanted his Felicity back.
Felicity was at home, the streets were quiet and everyone went home early, Roy had settled in well at hers, the spare room became his, he would hang out with her, talk to her and at times even held her when she cried. He became her little brother who she loved ever so much because he was exactly when she needed and missed all these years. He would listen to her and would advise her, he would always get mad about something that Oliver had done to her but he loved and respected her to never tell him, but he always wanted to shake sense into that guy. Any man would be lucky to have a girl like her and he was being stupid he needed to wake up, open his eyes and realise what's important. In the weeks that went by, crime had been at a low, Laurel went out to help, and all four of them cleaned the streets with Felicity guiding them. Laurel and Oliver were not together although she acted like they were holding him, kissing his cheek, he had made it clear they weren't together but she was persistent. Team Arrow were still close, even though everyone knew Felicity and Oliver were not the same they still went for meals together outside of Arrow. Oliver's heart broke every time she would laugh or make joked with Digg and Roy and even though he was included, that wasn't the problem the problem was it was different she would laugh or smile and him anymore, she would talk to him but it seemed as if she was talking to him through Digg and Roy and not every was it a chat directly between them, face to face, eye to eye.