**I DO NOT OWN TWILIGHT OR ANY CHARACTERS RELATED THERE OF**

"Jasper, stop making this difficult for me and calm down!" My eyes widened in insulted disbelief as I felt the annoyance at my anger radiating around her and my upper lip curled up as the hiss escaped through my grinding teeth. My head snapped up to see Edward, followed by Emmet, and Bella. I habitually, naturally, gauged their emotions and felt concern radiating from Bella, confused excitement and anticipation from Emmet, and grim understanding from Edward.

"The one I love is YOU Alice." My eyes bored down on her small frame and I stared in disbelief as her annoyance melted into a deep resigned sadness, the deepness and finality of it made me pause in my anger.

"I'm not the one you will love wholly. The only reason we've been together so long is because I was the one who found you Jasper." Her words made me take an involuntary step back. I shook my head in defiance at her words.

"Not possible." She can't be right... but she's Alice, she's always right. My trust and love for Alice warred with the denial I felt at her words. She pinched the bridge of her nose in frustration though the action was completely unnecessary, just the habit of acting human.

"Jasper, THAT'S the reason I let it get this far. You NEEDED me then, but soon you're going to find the one who will change you completely." An involuntary growl rose out of my chest.

"NO." That couldn't be true...could it? Hadn't I felt her infinite love for me myself? Had I really just mistaken that for something else? I analyzed every moment I had ever spent with Alice, every flux and change of her emotion in relation to me, my actions. Only when my analysis caught a similarity in the affection emitted from Esme and affection from Alice towards me did I see how blind I had been, or had I chosen to be that blind? I stopped breathing, my shut eyes stung with an emotion I hadn't felt for a long time.

"Jasper..." My eyes snapped open at the remorse, the guilt, the affectionate sadness that rolled off of Alice.

"You LET me believe I was in love with you?! You only loved me as a brother yet you let me..." another growl whistled through my clenched teeth as I broke off a piece of the wall with my infuriated punch as I thought of all the intimate moments we'd shared. It was all lies, but what were the lies? I didn't even care to recognize that only Edward and Alice were left.

"No! Well yes-Look when I first saw you in my vision, I saw another one as well, one with you and a different girl, it was obvious that you were together... and deeply in love." Her voice became a whisper, but I couldn't have heard it any less clearly. I choked on the air I didn't need to breath in disbelief.

"You... knew before you even MET me?" Alice then held her tiny frame as if she were comforting herself from the compassion and anxiety that radiated around her.

"Yes and I thought that you two were together when I met up with you, but when I realized that she hadn't met you yet... and then you, no, WE started to grow feelings for each other... I had all but forgotten the vision thinking that the future had changed again when we became partners, but I was wrong..." Alice...Wrong. Those choices of words together only served to confuse me further. Edward finally stepped in and smoothly resolved the matter, but no matter how hard he tried the change was strange for all of us.

"Jasper, I've seen her visions myself. If I hadn't seen her visions and your analyses' then I would have thought of it as some twisted plot from Alice as well," He smiled ruefully when Alice sniffed and looked away with disdain, "but you should know from your own thoughts that she is speaking truth. You know Alice does these things for a reason and that she didn't mean to hurt you and you should know as well as I do that this is equally painful for both of you, but all you both need is time to adjust." My thoughts were rational once more as his words sunk in, but they held a bitter tone. At least only to become disarray once more when I find this one that I will love more than Alice. I internally flinched at her name, feeling as if I no longer held the right to do so. Or should I say until I find the one that I truly loved UNLIKE ... my sister. I felt Edward's calm as he monitored my thoughts and willed myself to at least appear calm. Thank you Edward, though even I find it odd how much you've turned into Carlisle after becoming a father as well. Edward chuckled at my thoughts and didn't bother to explain to Alice who was watching us curiously.

"Well I suppose having a half vampire child imprinted to a shape shifter COULD open your mind to acceptable conditions in most situations. I've simply learned to seek them out, that's all." I released my anger and bitterness towards this matter resignedly. Besides what could I do angry if Alice was right and even if she wasn't, I would never be able to take her back. When I reached this conclusion I felt an emptiness that was too close to the darkness that I lived in as a calculative murderer, but not quite there. I huffed out a long breath. Alice was right of course. I knew I wouldn't have been able to handle this soon after I joined our vegetarian family. Having her deny my growing affections for her would have been too much then, but now was different; I was used to this life and accustomed to change a little more though my negativity commented how it was cruel of her to wait for me to be at ease, my logic said that it made sense.

"I need...time." I ran my hand through my hair as I heard Alice's voice follow me out while I flew through the trees.

"You'll be back tonight and you'll find your new room the farthest from mine... Love you Jasper." I didn't bother to respond as I rushed between the weave of green growth. I stopped only when I reached near the borders of Canada, where I could no longer smell Alice or any of my...family. Are they my family? Do I still think of them that way? Now that my main reason for staying was gone, should I go? Alice said I would go back. I thought for the reason behind this and realized that for as little time as I had spent with the Cullens, I truly thought of them as family now. This revelation shocked me. I have grown to love this family. After spending the rest of daylight thinking this through I returned, resolved to stick to my decision. I had found a peace that I didn't expect to find in the darkness that Alice thrust me into. This is what she knew I would find, this attachment to her, Edward, Carlisle, Esme, Rosalie, Emmet, Bella, Reneesme, Jacob, even Charlie who has only been able to stay in touch through phone and email since we moved. Alice had waited until she was sure I had become attached to these immortals and their lifestyle and she got her way as she usually did. I felt everyone's pleasure and genuine happiness as I returned in a better or more normal mood. Edward's face was as equally outright delighted as his strong inward feelings. I couldn't help but give a smirk at the bemusement I felt towards their... compassion for me. I was home.