Now Rhyme was going to be a loser too. Just like him. It hurt that sometimes he thought about how, without any dreams, Rhyme wasn't going to go off and become famous and never talk to her loser brother ever again.
They weren't going anywhere at all.
Everywhere he went, Beat always met people who wanted to do things. Beat could only smile and nod as he listened to the excited jabber. He'd never found anything that could make his eyes bright or his cheeks red all over just by thinking about it.
Rhyme had always been one of those people. She could imagine herself doing just about everything, but she hadn't quite decided what it was she wanted yet. She seemed to just disappear sometimes, right in front of him.
Beat had never really found any appeal in what was inside his head. Just a bunch of tangled feelings that forever seemed to contradict each other. And it made him angry. Angry at the people who still expected him to get into a good high school and, through that, land himself into some comfortable company job.
Was it wrong that he wanted less and more than that all at once?
He had lost the game and more importantly he had lost Rhyme. They both had lost. If he could bring her back, she wouldn't remember who he really was and she wouldn't have her dreams. She'd be alive, but she'd never go anywhere.
"Never go anywhere" was a phrase Beat had heard associated with himself for most of his life. Sure, he failed exams and he fought with other kids, but he was starting to feel like he wasn't the miserable waste of space those words were supposed to make him into.
Because he could do this, damn it! He had something he wanted and he wanted it more than anything. He wanted his sister back and he wanted them both to be able to just live.
They might not be going anywhere, but Beat thought they deserved a chance too.
Writer's woes: Have some conflicted Beat woooo fun times, right? So this is going to be a drabble, oneshot, etc collection for my ideas about little things mostly having to do with partners. I've been having a lot of really short scattered ideas lately and I feel weird about posting them all as separate fics, so this is here to ease my guilt. I'll post group centric stuff (and anything that doesn't really fit in) somewhere else. I'm thinking that all of these will be in-Game stuff.
so yeah
Stay fabulous,
Hillary