Dear Diary,
Today consisted of yet another fight between Stefan and me and of course another incident with Damon, if you can even call it that. These thoughts swimming around in my head now a days are just ridiculous, they have come to the point where I actually think of the possibility of being with Damon. It's just the ongoing problem involving the originals that has gotten to my head, that's got to be it. It's always going to be Stefan…..right? Ugh, sometimes I wish that I could go back in time to have my parents avoid Wickery Bridge all together, but then I never would have met Damon, I mean Stefan.
Earlier that night…..
"Come on Elena, I can see the way you look at him! When I left, you and I both knew that that had severed all possibilities of us ever being together. Admit it, your relationship with Damon isn't just one sided anymore, admit it Elena, you feel for him, you feel for Damon!" Stefan shouted, pacing around the study as Elena stood in the doorway staring at him, "I don't know what you're talking about." Stefan froze and looked over at her, "You're really going to play that game?" Elena sighed, "Stefan, just calm down." "Elena, do you honestly believe telling a ripper to calm down would do anything but make things worse? You may be pretty, but you're pretty damn stupid too."
Elena's patience were dwindling, "I am not stupid." "If you can't see that you're in love with my brother but everyone else can, that's just one of many things that prove that you're a stupid naïve little girl Elena! You had gotten yourself and everyone you ever loved involved with the supernatural world, Elena you were stupid enough to get involved with a vampire who's over a hundred years of age, and you're about to do it all over again with my brother of all people! Damon is nothing but a reckless and stubborn ass, but if those are the kinds of traits that make you all hot and bothered, be my guest. You don't think I knew that you couldn't get off whenever we were having sex? Is that all you ever saw it as, a fuck? I didn't, at least for the first year."
Elena couldn't believe her ears, Stefan sounded absolutely absurd. "Stefan that's not true." "But isn't it? Can't say I wasn't surprised, you may have looked like Katherine, but I didn't think you were just like her, a cold hearted, selfish, manipulative bitch who couldn't decide on which brother she wanted so why not both. Was that your plan all along too? To have both of us? Sorry, I don't share, not anymore. Once was enough for me." Elena gritted her teeth, rolling her eyes and said, "Fuck you." Stefan plopped down in one of the red velvet chairs, "I'd love to." She scoffed as she stomped off out of the room. "Hey Elena, so does that mean Damon finally gets the girl?" Then he chuckled, finding himself funny as he took a swig from his tumbler.
Elena was in tears as she ran from the study, out into the living room and slammed right into a wall of hard muscle. She looked up into the piercing cerulean eyes, "Damon." He gave no expression of emotion as he spoke, "Hello Elena." "I was just leaving." "As was I." Elena sighed, she didn't want to have another conversation with Damon that would just turn into shit just like the one she had moments before. She stepped around him, "Well, goodnight." He turned to face her, "Don't act as if everything Stefan just said isn't true." Elena sighed, "You think I'm just like Katherine too then?" "No." "Damon, now really isn't the time to talk about whatever this is." She motioned with her hand between them. Damon ground his teeth and rolled his eyes, "Stop acting so stupid Elena, it's not cute anymore." "Now you think I'm stupid too? Forget it, I'm going home."
She tried to walk around him again, as Damon's arm came down, blocking her from leaving, "Elena." Fresh tears were beginning to streak down her face, "No Damon, I'm done. Between you and Stefan, I'm just a stupid eighteen year old girl who doesn't know what she wants right? That's all you see me as, wanting to get back at your brother by sleeping with his girl? Well guest what, I'm no one's girl, I am my own person, and I'll be damned if I stay here any longer to be told otherwise." She pushed through Damon's barrier and walked out the door, running to her car in desperation to just get away before she let her mind tell her what she was doing was stupid.
Damon let her go, with an exasperated sigh; he knew she would come around, wouldn't she? He's said it too many times to count, this time; it'll have to be her saying it.
Elena sped home and ran up to her room, wiping away her mascara stained tears and crawled into bed, why did she ever get involved with the Salvatore brothers anyway? They just thought it was history repeating itself, but she loved them, well at least Stefan. Who the hell was she kidding? She cared for Damon too, and it was beginning to scare her.
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So what did you guys think? I've been having major writer's block lately and haven't been updating any of my stories. This will be probably a story consisting of maybe 15 chapters. I wanted to twist things a little to make Elena realize that she loved both of the brothers not just one and to make Damon sort of 'put his foot down' he would no longer make a pathetic fool of himself, that it would have to be her saying 'I love you' this time. Let me know what you think, and please, please, please press that little button and review. It honestly makes me write faster and actually have motivation to keep doing what I've been doing. Thank you, to everyone who takes the time out of their day to read my fics, it means a lot. Remember, I love each and every one of you, stay beautiful.
-Marissa