Why hello there! It is me, Roos (Pronounced like you do 'Rose'), the author of This Might Be Crazy. Make yourself at home, take a cup of tea, find a chair and relax.

Because it really is kind of crazy. In September 2020, the final instalment of the trials of Apollo-series came out. In this volume there was a little quip about Nico getting councelling from Dionysus. Fast forward to October and no-one had written a fic about Nico getting therapy yet. So, I decided to damn well do it myself. I had planned up to chapter three, but then I got so many comments with ideas for more that I had to continue. And I didn't stop. I got 71 chapters and 6 bonus stories far, written over the course of nine and a half months.

As you read in the last paragraph, this monster literally wouldn't have existed without the comments. Because of that, I feel like some thank-yous are way overdue:

Blueraven123 on AO3, for commenting on literally every single chapter. You're a legend and thanks for sitting through the Solangelo stuff :).

Nikol_Nikiforova For commenting almost as often with an entire thesis!

Weaving_Stories for being there often in the beginning.

Aquaeclipse for being the first comment ever!

MacarenaH for writing the first comment that really touched me. I remember reading your comment during breakfast and having a slightly better day because of it. Yet, read: the first comment that really touched me. There were many more that did.

WeezlBot for being a legend who also thinks there should be more Ariadne fanfiction. You're so, so right.

ChildOfApollo*-*: No, I didn't stop. I still thought about your comment sometimes, when I forgot the chapter title again :).

Catharina2003 for being Dutch which is the Only Nationality Ever

Nico for making me do a double take every time I see your name in the comments.

And Something_Someday, warmestbloggerever, Fangirlx4, cutiewithahat, Spacey_cats, Himekitsune, Mickeyd, Wierdkid20, TheStarsAndSky, Sireniral, RisaKitten, DrimysAusterus, Miyanoai, Atos, Something_1987, badbonch420, Luna Tris Katniss Di Angelo, Gayboiohio, gummy bears, CreatorOrInsanity, jschoenh, Mochamochi7, reynaramen, 1az0rcat, Fanvergent_P, Mad_Shady_People, Julia, Bisexualmistake123 and Regal_Bloom476 for leaving their thoughts on AO3 a few times. Thank you very much :). (And I hope I haven't missed anyone... If I did, feel free to scold me).

Despry2nd, for being the OG

Rickandrowling28, for leaving long, longg comments that I loved to see.

Evan Emrys because she said I was her favorite :)

MKDemiGodzilla-Warrior for sticking through from the beginning until the end.

NaoSa, AyaTheDoggo, addalittlesmoke and McShizzleSupreme778 for commenting on ever so often.

bfire92 for reading and helping with the whole thing one time :). Keep up the good work yourself!

And especially, everyone who came to Tumblr to read my work. I've got a few hunches as to who read it often ( daenerys1234 , punk-drummer-chic wndrngwldflwrs neritess ?) but I am sure there were readers who I didn't see. Once again, feel free to scold me :).

And then there is everyone else who read the work on or AO3 or in the Tumblr tags. Who liked and reblogged my stuff. Who send me ideas and random anon messages. Who left kudos. Who read it without making themselves known. Thank you so much.

I know there are things that could have been done better. Sometimes I feel like Nico healed to quickly, or that I was too slopy with my words, or that my English wasn't good enough. Don't get me started on Dionysus' characterisation, and oh, I keep thinking I should have written an ending where Nico has another husband and Will is only a good friend... But as Dionysus said a few times: There is no use in worrying about what happened. It is what it is, and it is pretty okay.

My biggest failure is that I never thought of a good title. This Might Be Crazy was a stand-in that never changed. I got used to it at some point.

I am going to miss the characters. Dionysus, Nico, Will, Hades, Mary, everyone I have written about in this story. When you write something for a long time, it becomes a part of you, and it might hurt to let go.

Why did I stop, then? Because I felt like I couldn't write with as much passion as I wanted to. It would be a shame to write a work without the love it deserves. When I began, I promised myself I would end it neatly. I hope you think I delivered on my promise.

If you need something to fill the void in your life, you should read This is Home by BlackPebbleToad (AO3 and ). It's about Nico getting therapy, but it is about Leo, too. They live at the Waystation, where they learn to heal. I love it and I'd say that, in a way, it's similair to my own work.

And of course, I am not quiting writing as a whole! There will be lots of other shorts, for a multitude of fandoms. Feel free to hop by and look at one of those sometimes.

Have you finished your tea? Then I won't keep you here for any longer. Go on, find fanfics to enjoy, go outside, find a job and the love of your life. I just hope a little bit of This Might Be Crazy stays with you through all that. Please think of it sometimes, Okay?

- Roos (LifeOfRose)